Title: I Wish
Author: Jennifer Kelley Threads
Summary: Post Threads. Ok, first of all, Jack doesn't know that Sam broke it off with Pete. The week before Sam's wedding, Jack gets some things off his chest in a letter.
Disclaimer: Um, you know the drill, their not mine, and if they were, I'd have a lot more fun with them than the powers that be.
Category: Jack/Sam. If that scares you, run away, far, far away. Based on Jo Dee Messina's wonderful song "I Wish"
I Wish
Jack made his way into his office, his thoughts where they usually were, on a certain blonde scientist who happened to be his 2IC. Kerry had told him that regulations shouldn't stand in his way and that he needed to retire. He sat down at his desk and sighed, his thoughts wouldn't settle. There were too many things to worry about: he didn't know if he wanted to retire in the first place, and then there was the whole Pete thing. She had moved on, and it was really time that he did the same. 'She's getting married in less than a week,' he scolded himself, 'get over it.'
His mind drifted to the talk he had with Jacob before he died, "Don't let her go through with this without knowing how you feel," Jacob had said, but Jack didn't understand how he was supposed to do that. He didn't want to cause problems between her and Pete. Wait a minute, sure he did, he didn't want her to marry him, but he did want her to be happy, and if Pete made her happy than he would hold his tongue. She deserved to be happy. She deserved far more than him, but his mind wouldn't leave it alone. Maybe Jacob was right, maybe she did deserve to know how he felt.
Opening a drawer, Jack pulled out some paper and a pen. He would write her a letter, tell her the truth. He thought for a moment on how to begin, then began to write.
'Dear Carter,' he wrote, then crossed that out, and began again.
'Dear Samantha,
I know that the last think you expected me to do was to give you this letter. It's not easy saying this toyou, Sam. In fact, it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I had a chat with Dad before he died, and he made me promise him something, so here goes. Before you get married next week, Sam, there are a few things that I would like you to know.
I wish that things were different, God, do I wish that things were different. But I think that you already know that, don't you? I am still happy for all of the times that we had. You are a truly unique and wonderful person, and so heart-stoppingly beautiful. I will always treasure every mission we had to go on, the many times we saved the world. The past eight years have been the best I've had since Charlie died, and you are the biggest part of that. You mean the world to me, Sam, you must believe that. If I could go back and change things, you know I would, but I can't, and I'm sorry, so very sorry.
The thought of losing you is tearing me apart, Sam, but I understand. I really hope that he makes you happy, because if he doesn't, he'll have me to answer to. You'll understand why I'm not at the wedding, won't you, Sam? If you really want me to be there, I will, but I'd rather not. Just remember Sam that I meant what I said, I will always be with you, always, and no matter where you are, I will be here for anything that you need. Anything. Don't even hesitate to call.
There are so many things that I wish for you Sam, I don't even know where to start. I wish you strength when times are hard, and take it from me, marriage is not easy. I wish with all of my heart that you find just what you're looking for. Don't close your eyes to what you want. You deserve everything you want. I wish you joy. I know that one's hard to believe, but I really do. I want you to be happy more than anything. I wish you peace. I hope that he can give you the tranquility that the SGC cannot. I wish that every star you see is within your reach. Never stop reaching for the stars, Sam, you're living proof that they can be reached.
But, above all else, more than anything else, do you know what I wish for, Sam? I wish every day and with all my soul that you were in love with me.
All my love,
Jack
Jack reread the letter, put it in an envelope and sealed it. Walking down to her lab, he was glad to see that she wasn't there. He put the letter on her desk before he could talk himself out of it, and left the base. He didn't know what to expect when she read the letter, and was a little bit afraid to find out. He didn't want to find out at the base, no matter what, so he went home.
What will Sam's reaction be? There will be one more chapter, telling her reaction. Then I will post the lyrics to the song "I wish" as the third chapter. Please review! They are my lifeline!