Chapter 51: I Love You

"The lake is beautiful in the morning with the sun on it." Meredith smiled at Derek as they walked down to the barn.

"Yes, it is. Dad and I used to get up very early in the morning and fish sometimes." Derek remembered times they would get up at 5am and go.

"Have you been lately?" Meredith asked.

Derek thought for a second, "No, not since... I have been back." He wondered why they hadn't been fishing. With the heart attack, he knew why they hadn't but, now, he should be ok to go.

"I think you need a boy outing." Meredith giggled and leaned into the arm that his hand had her hand

"A boy outing, I am quite sure my father and I... are men." Derek leaned into her as well and kissed the top of her head, loving that she was latched on to him.

"You are definitely a man. I have seen the parts that prove that you... are definitely a man." She loved flirting with him any chance she got.

Derek took a sharp breath in, her talking about his man parts, made those parts want her, "Mer, unless you want to... risk my parents seeing me take you right here... the man parts conversation has to stop, but later... we can pick it up later."

"Later? What about... now." She stopped and looked up at him, raising an eyebrow.

"Oh... um... oh god." He breathed when he felt her hand go underneath his shirt onto bare skin, already feeling the effects she had on him.

"But, I mean... we can pick this conversation up later." She evilly but playfully smirked and moved her hand down to where his jeans met his hips, continuing to look in his eyes, knowing exactly what she wanted.

"Let's just... get to the barn." He leaned down and kissed her hard before picking her up never letting his lips leave hers. He didn't care if his parents were watching this display of affection because in this moment, he couldn't love her anymore.

They got to the barn and Derek practically threw her in some hay bales that were stacked up and quickly took his shirt off, even though it was 40 degrees outside. Right now... he was hot for the woman who was laying in the hay, seductively looking up at him. He wasn't wasting any time, and neither was she. She had already taken off her jeans, but he wanted it all off her. He quickly went to working on getting her sweater off while she worked on his pants.

"Mer... god, you are amazing." He didn't know how he had gotten so lucky. Before the sex and the intimacy thing happened, he was completely in love with her, but now... that their relationship was at the next level, he just couldn't get enough of her. He had never felt this good in his life.

Meredith looked up at the man that she had fallen completely in love with. She never thought she would fall in love again after Chris. There were times when she really felt bad because she knew... she wasn't ever this happy with Chris, not even close. But, she had really let that go and was completely with Derek.

"I need you, all of you... inside of me." Meredith breathed out.

This was one time Derek was thankful he couldn't leave the house without his wallet because he had a condom at all times in it. He quickly pulled it out and ripped it open, being very careful not to tear the condom.

"Hurry; cold... I need you to wrap me up." Meredith said keeping her hands on his body. She really wanted to just get on the pill... so they wouldn't have to worry about condoms. But, with this, comes a discussion that she was pretty sure she wasn't ready to have.

Derek quickly rolled on the condom and looked down at her, her hair splayed all over the hay. There was no way to describe this moment. "You are beautiful."

"Derek." She said wanting to tell him... that she loved him. She had realized that... a few weeks ago, but now, she knew she did.

He knew her eyes told the story. There was so much love in both pairs of eyes and everything with her has been magical, he felt things he didn't know that were possible. He looked longingly in her eyes, falling on top of her, kissing her lips passionately while his hands went down to make sure she was ready for what he had to offer her.

"You are dripping." He said the second his fingers hit the wet mound.

"You... do that to... me." She barely got out as he was attacking her neck with his lips and her hands were in his hair, down his body, roaming and touching every inch of him.

Without another word, he guided his cock carefully inside of her, never taking his eyes off of her beautiful eyes. They both wanted to see... the love they possessed for each other.

"Oh... god." Meredith yelled out.

"Shh... we have to be quiet." Derek didn't want George coming down to the barn because he heard noises.

"You are... amazing." She said trying to stifle the sounds she wanted to scream out because that is what he did to her.

"So good... you feel so good." He loved this and couldn't wait for the day he could feel her... skin on skin.

"Oh god... right there." She cried out knowing he was hitting the right spot in the position he had her at on the hay.

He continued to thrusts in and out of her, never taking his eyes off of hers. He knew she was getting close; they had not been together long, but she had a look and when she started it, he couldn't hold it together much longer himself.

"Come with me Mer." He breathed leaning down into her ear.

"Now." She panted out knowing her walls were starting to tighten around him.

"Oh... " Derek groaned out, pushing all of himself into her as he hit his peak.

They came down off of the high and laid on the hay for a second, watching each other. Derek took his hand and rubbed the hair out of her face and tucked some behind her ear that had come out of her ponytail. He also noticed a blanket over one of the stalls that he could grab to put over them for a few minutes while they laid together. Even though it was the barn, and they were on hay, this was perfect.

Meredith smiled up at him; she never imagined this could feel this good.

"Meredith, you are an amazing woman. I don't know how I got so lucky. Since the second I heard your voice . . ." He said to her in a hushed tone.

"My voice?" Meredith asked.

"Yes, that day... I met you at the retirement party. I was down at the lake, walking with Addison and Ella and I heard... the sweetest thing I had ever heard. I knew then…" Derek stopped not wanting to freak Meredith out, but he did know, she was it for him from just hearing her voice.

She knew it was cold outside, but right now, she was so warm... from the feelings she had boiling up inside of her. She had no idea what to say, "What did you know, Derek?" She wanted to know... what he knew that day, pretty sure she had an idea what he might say.

Derek took a deep breath and stroked her hair, "I knew, you were the woman I was going to fall in love with. I know it is crazy, but... you... Meredith Grey... I love you and I have from the first second... I heard your voice."

She could feel the lump forming in her throat and tears welling up in her eyes, "Derek, when I met you, I didn't think I would ever find love again. I wasn't even looking for it. I came to Laramie; to be the town doctor for Darby... I never thought I would find this... find you." She took a deep breath, her voice getting a little shaky, knowing the tears are threatening, "There are times when, I feel guilty... not for being with you, but... for feeling glad that... I am here with you and... have found something I never knew existed before. I love you too Derek."

Derek just stared into her tear-filled eyes, his quickly forming tears. He took her in his arms and wrapped her up. He couldn't be happier they were together... He knew it was getting cold and they were going to ride this morning, but for a few more minutes, he just laid there with her, letting them both feel the love they had for each other.