I posted this update on another story and it just occurred to me I should definitely do it here too.
So... It's been months since I last updated this story. Not really good at these things so I guess I'll just get into why this story has been dead so long.
My last update was back in February and I was thinking up ideas for the next chapter. Around the same time my grandfather, who I unashamedly referred to as "Granddaddy" was sick. He had been in in out of the hospital a lot until he was eventually stuck there. It was tough, because at that point, deep down, I knew I was just waiting for the end. He was starting to have lapses in memories and it seemed to be just a struggle to stay conscious.
In mid-March, he passed away. I remember my last conversation with him, or at least my attempt. I didn't really get to have a meaningful last conversation and now I never will. I held on strong through the days up to the funeral, but afterwards I retreated into myself. I couldn't write, I couldn't draw; all I could think about was how empty the room next to me was. I wanted him to be there for my wedding, to see my children...
He lived a good life though and passed away peacefully.
He was kind, empathetic, looked out for friends and family and neighbors; he was the kind of man most should inspire to be like. Even in his old age, he never stopped being helpful towards others. He was born during the Great Depression, served in the air force and among other things, it's very clear that he faced many struggles, but the fact that he never showed any signs of it getting to him, for him to still be the great man that he was is awe-inspiring.
It's funny, I intended to just quickly explain where I was for the last couple of months and ended up writing more than I expected. I know there was one other story that I was consistently updating but it wasn't as simple as picking what story to return to. Though I was greatly saddened, I knew I had to continue to writing because it would drive me crazy not to and there was only one story I found myself able to get back into.
I'm not saying that I'm giving up on this one, far from it. I still have a bunch of ideas running around in my head. The desire to continue writing this story is still there but... I just can't. My ideas are too small and I can't expand on them to make full-fledged chapters.
I don't when I'm ever going to be able to again. I try, but I get nothing. And it isn't just this story either; every other story idea I've had, I can't get past the conception stage and that's where I am today.
Sorry for the lengthy explanation, but I figured it was long overdue regarding my whereabouts. I have no desire to give up on this story but... I guess I need more time. I understand if no one wants to wait, (Crash said to the readers who actually read this story and waited months for anything), but I just hope you understand the massive delay. Fortunately, there's a lot of other better written stuff around so I'm sure it wasn't too much of a loss.
Anyway, I hope to return to this soon as could really go for writing something more lighthearted after months of nothing but dark themes.
...Now that I think about it... Maybe that's why I was able to get back into the only story I'm updating right now. I need to finish that arc soon.