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Monday
BPOV
I couldn't help the groan I let out when my alarm went off. I stretched before rolling out of bed in search of food. I wonder if he had a chance to stock the kitchen.
"Good morning." Edward greeted me from the recliner. He was holding the newspaper and a cup of coffee. I chuckled to myself, he reminded me of my father who reads the paper every morning.
"Good morning." I stretched again on my way to the coffee pot.
"I know that you didn't want to go on a honeymoon but we can go at a later date if you change your mind."
"What?" I looked up from my coffee with wide eyes.
"Your mother told me that you weren't interested in a honeymoon." He looked at me, over his newspaper. "That's why I said we would have it in two months. But if you're wanting an even later date, then we can do that instead." I had completely forgotten about the honeymoon.
"I didn't say that. The idea was actually never brought up to me. But if it were, I still wouldn't have been given enough notice to take off work." I mumbled the last part into my coffee. "July is a blackout month for my job. Maybe we can do three months and go in August." I was trying to give him an alternative option.
"I guess you would need advance notice to take off work." He gave me a crooked grin that made my heart flutter slightly.
I took my coffee and headed towards the couch. "When do you start work, did you take time off for your move?"
"I start work next Monday and will probably be gone by the time you get up."
"Oh." I don't know why this made me sad. I know nothing about this man but I'm still disappointed that I won't be seeing him every morning.
After finishing my coffee, I changed quickly for work in hopes that I could find Alice before my shift.
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I found Alice in the lobby and I ran to catch up with her before she entered the elevator.
"Alic wait!" I called after her.
"What do you want?" My heart hurt at her words.
"I want to talk to you. Let me explain." I pleaded with her.
"You should have talked to me last week. It's a little late now."
"Don't be mad." I frowned at her.
"Really Bella?" She scoffed at me. "I should be more than mad. I should be furious and you should be grateful that I'm even talking to you right now." She got off when the elevator dinged but I was left standing there like an idiot.
I didn't see Rosalie or Alice until lunch. I was slightly hopeful when I approached the table but Alice left as soon as I sat down with my tray.
"She's upset with me."
"I can see that." Rosalie laughed. Her expression softened when she saw my face. "Bella, you can't blame her for being hurt."
"I know. I know. I just wish that she would talk with me. Hell, I'd even take arguing at this point. I just want her to show any emotion other than anger. I want to work through this."
"Be happy that she's angry. It means she cares. Don't get me wrong, I'm upset with the situation but I know that my anger doesn't help anything." I knew that she was right. "Give her time."
"I know." I let out a defeated sigh.
"Let me feel in the gaps." She took a deep breath before continuing "Oh my God, you're married! How was it? The first night I mean. How was the sex? I feel like married sex must be hotter. Was he big? Did you do it gently or rough?" I rolled my eyes at her.
She knew the answer to almost all of the questions. "Yes Rosalie, I'm so known for hooking up with strangers."
Her voice returned to normal. "He's not a stranger, babe. He's your husband." She whispered the last part.
"Shhh." I made sure to hush her quickly. "Don't say that too loudly." She let out a cackle at my cautiousness.
…MMHW…
Wednesday
I took a long stretch when my alarm went off. Yesterday Edward and I didn't do much. I mostly spent the day in my room, still trying to digest the move and room change. To be honest, Edward and I haven't really talked much either. We are closer to being roommates/ co-inhabitants than a couple.
However, I did learn that Edwards favorite color was brown, he went to school at Harvard, and he prefers summer over winter. Edward likes both cats and dogs but doesn't like reptiles and also dislikes sushi.
It's not a bad start but I still feel like I'm walking on eggshells. He ignores me the majority of the time which is normally fine but lately makes the air feel tense. Does he regret the decision to get married or is it just me. Does he dislike me? I try to be very conscious of his feelings. I make sure that I always clean up after myself and keep to my room.
I headed down the stairs into the master bathroom. After pulling a pair of scrubs from my closet, I had a quick shower. I really need to move some clothes upstairs so that I can just shower up there.
Although Edward told me that he would be gone this morning, I was still disappointed that he wasn't home. He had to go into work to fill out some paperwork before he could start on Monday. I shook off the sadness and grabbed a travel mug out of the cupboard before making my coffee to go. Edward left a small note in front of the pot and I couldn't help the smile that appeared on my face as I read it.
What is your favorite flower?
Mine is a tulip
-Edward.
I rummaged through the drawers until I found a pen to write 'dahlia'. I had mixed emotions over a simple note. I thought that it was cute but also wondered why he couldn't just ask me in person.
I finished getting ready and was out the door in a reasonable amount of time. My commute was longer than it used to be since we now lived on the edge of Seattle, but it still wasn't too bad.
Alice spent her day ignoring me. Again. So I spent my day working in silence. Or as silent as delivering babies could be. The buzz about a new doctor was traveling all over the hospital but I seemed to be the only one unimpressed. Maybe because we function like a well oiled machine, just how we are.
Saturday
This entire week has been mentally exhausting. I was ignored at home by my husband and I was ignored at work by Alice. Rosalie was the only one acting like a friend. I knew that she was also upset, but at least she didn't completely cut me out.
Edward had offered to get us pizza which led us to now. We were sitting on the couch, in silence, watching random episodes of the office. I wanted to beg for it to not be so tense. I don't know what I've done but I must have upset him.
It was my saving grace for the doorbell to ring.
"I got it." I all but shouted before jumping off the couch.
My eyes widened with shock and excitement when I opened the door to Jacob.
"Jacob." I cried out and instantly hugged him.
"A little birdie told me that you needed a friend." He instantly accepted my hug. I nodded my head before leading him to the bench on the porch.
"Rosalie told you." I felt tears fall from my eyes.
"Yeah. Don't cry." He wiped my cheeks for me. "Do you want to tell me about it?"
"There's only so much to tell. My parents set up an arranged marriage and I was given a week's notice. Well my grandfather, not my parents, but that's a whole other story. Turns out it's Alice and Emmett's cousin that I married. Alice is pissed, absolutely pissed at me. She won't even look at me." I broke out into stronger sobs.
"Take your time." He started rubbing soothing circles onto my back.
"She thinks I lied to her. Which means she's not talking to me, but Edward's not saying much either. I don't know if he hates me or the marriage. I go to work where Alice is mad and I come home where it's no better. I'm so tired." Gasped. "You're not mad, are you?" I was scared of his answer. I haven't told him about the wedding either.
"No." He chuckled. "I actually talked to your parents before coming here, so I already knew most of the story. For the record, I would have made a great bridesmaid." I chuckled before laying my head on his shoulder.
"I missed you." I murmured.
"I missed you too. You know I'm always a call or text away."
I don't know how long we sat on the porch talking but I was thankful that Jacob stopped by. He made me feel a lot better and helped me process a lot of my stress. I was sad when he had to leave but knew he was only in town for the day.
Edward was staring at me when I walked in the front door. "What the hell was that?" He raged at me.
My brows furrowed in confusion. "What?"
"What the hell was that?" He seethed between his teeth. "You're flinging yourself into the arms of another man and cuddling up to him while you're married."
"You can't be serious. What gives you the right to be mad right now?" My own anger began to boil inside me.
"The right? I thought we were having a nice day while relaxing. A strange man shows up to our house and you instantly fling yourself into his arms. You spent hours out there!" His hand gestured to the door. "I was going to ask if you wanted to grab dinner tonight but then I looked out the window to see that you're all over him."
"I was not!" My voice raised a few octaves.
"His arms were around you and your head was on his shoulder. I'm not sure if you're aware but this is a closed relationship." he gestured between us. "It doesn't look very well if you're running around with someone else." He gritted his teeth.
"I'm going to stop you right there. You have no fucking right to talk to me that way. I don't even know you."
"That's the problem." I held my hand up and stopped him.
"I don't know you and you don't know me. You are making biased assumptions against me, when you could have asked me who Jacob is rather than assuming the worst. If you ever want to make this marriage work, then I suggest you start communicating with me rather than acting like an ass." My words were cold and bitter. "For your information, Jacob and I's relationship is nothing but a friendship. He has a girlfriend and he's only here because Rosalie called him. She wanted to let him know that I got married and was having a hard time with my new life."
His eyes narrowed at me. "A hard time."
"Yes Edward. A hard time where my best friend is pissed and ignores me then I come home where YOU ignore me." I sighed out of frustration before heading to the stairs. "I don't know why I bother." I mumbled before leaving him standing in the living room.
EPOV
This entire week has been weird. I don't have any common ground with Bella and have been avoiding her. I didn't want to say anything wrong while our relationship was so new. Every time I looked at her, I couldn't help but be amazed. She was stunning.
Any and all conversations we had were awkward, but they didn't detour my feelings towards wanting to kiss her. I knew it would probably freak her out….. so avoiding is the best option at the moment.
Bella seemed to become increasingly sad as this week went on. I wonder if Alice is still upset with her about her wedding. I didn't like seeing Bella frown or for the worry lines to appear across her forehead. But I wasn't sure how to comfort her, I desired nothing more than to be able to comfort her while pulling her into a hug.
Ever since I caught her from falling down the stairs, I couldn't stop thinking about how good she smelled. Or how well she fit into my arms. I can't deny my attraction to her even despite our tense relationship.
I thought about getting her flowers and asking her on a date but I wasn't sure if she had a flower preference. My note seemed helpful so that I could get Dehlilias even if I haven't worked up the courage to ask her out.
We had ordered pizza and were currently watching the office. I enjoyed the show but was willing to turn it off if she asked. I opened my mouth to say something when the doorbell rang.
She practically ran from the couch to answer it. She greeted whoever was there before closing the door behind her. I only got a small glimpse to see her shoving herself into the arms of a man. I tried to shake the thought that this was her boyfriend. She would have mentioned a boyfriend… wouldn't she?
I let her stay out there for two hours before getting up the courage to ask her to dinner. As I approached the door, I realized that I could see her from the window. She was cuddled into his side and was resting her head on his chest.
I refrained from barging outside. But only barley. Instead, I stayed stewing on the couch. I couldn't help the anger that erupted from me when she walked inside.
"What the hell was that?" I demanded
"What?" She pulled her eyebrows together and feigned innocence. Which only furthered my anger.
"What the hell was that?" I gritted my teeth to keep from yelling at her. "You're flinging yourself into the arms of another man and cuddling up to him while you're married."
"You can't be serious. What gives you the right to be mad right now?" She began yelling at me. The right to be mad comes from being your husband.
"The right? I thought we were having a nice day while relaxing. A strange man shows up to our house and you instantly fling yourself into his arms. You spent hours out there!" I gestured to the door, angerly "I was going to ask if you wanted to grab dinner tonight but then I looked out the window to see that you're all over him." I started pulling on my hair.
"I was not!" Lies. Lies. Lies.
"His arms were around you and your head was on his shoulder. I'm not sure if you're aware but this is a closed relationship. It doesn't look very good on me if you're running around with someone else." I didn't care about my image but I wasn't willing to share her.
"I'm going to stop you right there. You have no fucking right to talk to me that way. I don't even know you."
"That's the problem." I wanted to know her. I wanted to know everything about her.
"I don't know you and you don't know me. You are making biased assumptions against me, you could have asked me who Jacob is rather than assuming the worst. If you ever want to make this marriage work, then I suggest you start communicating with me then acting like an ass." Her eyes glossed over but her words were dead with emotion. "For your information, Jacob and I's relationship is nothing but a friendship. He has a girlfriend and he's only here because Rosalie called him. She wanted to let him know that I got married and was having a hard time with my new life."
Guilt pained my heart. "A hard time."
"Yes Edward. A hard time where my best friend is pissed and ignores me then I come home where YOU ignore me." I didn't know that I had been hurting her. I felt bad that I had made her feel this terrible. She left me standing like an idiot in the living room. "I don't know why I bother."
Monday
BPOV
I walked into the hospital while still in a sully spirit. I had cowardly hid in my room for the rest of the weekend. I didn't want to see Edward. It still hurts my heart that he yelled at me and thought I was cheating. Even if we didn't know each other, I was still expecting more of him. I noticed that he left me another note, but I crumpled it without reading it.
"Bella what's wrong?" Rosalie gasped when she saw my face.
"Nothing." I mumbled.
"This isn't nothing, what's wrong." Her face was filled with concern.
"I appreciate you sending Jacob but Edward doesn't share that appreciation. He yelled at me and we fought because he instantly thought I was cheating."
"That bastard."
"There are just too many people mad at me. The only thing I want to do right now is work." She nodded her head at me before giving me a quick hug.
"Well I can help you work. There are two laboring mothers upstairs." I nodded at her before heading upstairs.
I heard Tanya, Jessica, and Lauren talking while huddled around the first floor nurse's station. They were giggling over something. Lauren suddenly looked over her shoulder and down the hall before their heads came back together in another fit of laughter.
"What are they going on about?" I asked Rosalie.
"I think someone said that the new doctor started today." She shrugged her shoulders before heading to the bathroom.
I bypassed the chatter party and headed upstairs towards the labor and delivery floor. I'm hoping we have a busy day that ends with a lot of new, squishy babies.
I was four hours into my shift when Rosalie approached me.
"Bella." Rosalie sounded nervous. "I know you're having a bad day but I'm needing to send you to the ER. They are short staffed and are requesting assistance.
"So, why am I needed in the ER? I thought that was Leah's job." Leah wasn't specialized so she moved from department to department as needed.
"It is but the poor girl is out with the flu.'
"Flu season already?" She nodded her head before walking away.
I felt that I was being pulled in every direction. The staff seemed to be dropping like flies, everyone was coming down with the flu.
"Why me though." My voice came out as a whine as I called after her.
"Because you're a well trained and certified nurse. I doubt that you will reflect poorly on the department. Also, this is coming from your charge nurse, Candice, I'm just passing on the message since she couldn't find you." She gave me one of her bright smiles.
I rolled my eyes but headed to the cafeteria to grab a to-go sandwich. It was a simple peanut butter and jelly but It was good enough to tide me over until dinner. I scarfed down my sandwich as I headed straight to the E.R.
The second I swung the E.R doors open, I felt the room's energy level. It was as if my blood pressure was already starting to rise. I walked up to the nursing desk so that I could ask where I was needed.
"I've been sent from the labor floor. I was told you needed extra hands."
"Yes, can you go ahead and start an IV in room 5 then take some blood from bed number three." The poor nurse looked frantic as she was shuffling papers before she finally handed me the needed charts.
I grabbed my needed supplies before heading to the room. Our emergency room had 6 private rooms and 20 beds that had closable curtains.
Before walking into the room, I stopped and glanced through the patient's chart. I wanted to make sure my job is not only done efficiently but also makes the patient feel great about their level of care.
"Good afternoon Mr. Smithins, I will be starting your IV today. Do you have any questions?"
"Do you know when the doctor might be in?"
"I'm sorry, sir. I'm not sure. It seems that we are a little backed up and under staffed at the moment. I'm sure they will be in soon." I prepped his arm before arranging my supplies.
I heard the door open behind me but didn't look up. "Why hasn't his IV already been started?" A voice barked at me.
"I'll be done in just a moment." I placed the needle in his arm.
"Well HURRY up." My eyes snapped up at his tone. I'm unsure if my surprise was shown on my face as I realized it was Edward yelling at me. I swore that I heard him mutter 'stupid nurses' under his breath.
"I'm already done, Mr. impatient." I couldn't hide my furry as I snapped the band from Mr. Smithins' arm. "You're all done." I smiled at him.
I didn't make eye contact as I shoved past Edward. My head felt fuzzy with emotions as I moved on to bed 3. My body was on autopilot as my brain was trying to process everything.
Edward and I didn't talk about where we worked but I felt lied to. He should have told me he was a doctor, especially since he is a doctor where I work. What caused the most grief trying to figure out why he was acting like an ass.
I finished collecting the needed blood samples before returning the charts to the nursing station. "Do I need to take this to the lab?" I asked.
"No, we will send the interns." I nodded my head before logging the sample with her.
Edward walked up to the desk to ask for a chart.
"What the hell is wrong with you!" I couldn't hold my anger any longer.
"Excuse me!" He looked shocked.
"What gives you the right to walk into the room and act like an impatient asshole." I was almost seething.
"Bella!" Jessica gasped behind me before grabbing my elbow. "You can't talk to an attending like that." She hissed in my ear.
"To hell if he's an attending. That doesn't allow him to be a dick and start yelling for no reason. He has NO right to get pissy over a slight inconvenience." My eyes narrowed at him.
"What gives you the right to talk to me like that? Maybe if you had done your job, I wouldn't have asked why things weren't getting done."
"My job? My JOB? Damn, that's rich. It's not my job to run around in the E.R and listen to doctors who bark orders the second they walk into a room."
"Maybe if you were quicker."
"To hell with being quicker. But in your own I.V next time. Oh wait, you're a doctor so you don't know how." I stormed past him. I sent Rosalie a quick message, letting her know that I was clocking out and going home.
EPOV
Today has been rough. I've felt terrible all weekend after I learned how unhappy Isabella has been. I tried to be nice and leave a little question for Isabella when I left for work but it all went downhill once I left the house. I first spilled coffee on myself when getting out of the car at the hospital. I was very appreciative that the hospital had a pair to loan me.
I was still trying to learn the layout of this hospital but was thrown in the deep end since multiple doctors were out with the flu. I was ushered down to the E.R without a proper tour and had been on my feet non-stop since I got here.
I was shocked when I stepped onto the elevator with Alice. "You work here?" Her scrubs answered my question before she could.
"Didn't Bella tell you?" She looked a little perplexed by my asking.
"No… um… she's not really talking to me right now." I wasn't sure how to explain the situation without sounding like a complete ass. "Why would she?"
"She works here too. Why isn't she talking to you?"
"Why don't you ask her that since you're not talking to her either." I gave her a pointed look despite it making me a hypocrite. I understand why Isabella is mad at me but I couldn't help how nervous I get around her.
"Touché. You won't see her since she works in labor and delivery." She exited the elevator and led me to the E.R.
I couldn't help but stew all day. I was upset with how my relationship turned out and how I'd hurt her feelings. My guilt morphed into anger as I proceeded to stub my toe on every freaking cart. They all seemed to be in my way. The icing on the cape was when I broke a pen which splattered all over me. I was forced to ask for a second pair of loner scrubs.
I will admit that my anger was unreasonably directed towards others when I yelled at a nurse for not having an I.V started before I was ready to see the patient. Much to my surprise it was Isabella who was standing in front of me. Her eyes looked hurt and angry. I knew I was in the doghouse now. Before I could process the situation, I was arguing with her while standing next to the nurse's station.
She kept calling me impatient and an ass. She wasn't wrong but she definitely shouldn't be making a scene like this. One of the other nurses tried to stop her but Isabella didn't seem phased. Isabella stormed off as soon as she finished declaring my lack of competence
I was not looking forward to going home.
BPOV
I had to walk away from the room, all eyes seemed to be on me. I felt the need to calm down and take deep breaths before I headed home. I was done with the day and Rosalie already knew that. But I'd never make the practice of driving angry.
I headed towards the supply closet, under the disguise of needing more bandages. The door didn't have a chance to fully shut behind me before Edward shoved it open.
"Do you want to tell me what that was about? It was highly inappropriate for you to yell at me." He clicked the door shut behind him.
"You're following me now?" I crossed my arms in front of me.
"What is your issue?" He took a step towards me.
"You had no reason to yell at me in the patient's room. It was incredibly rude and unprofessional of you." I paused for a brief second. "But you seem to be making a habit out of unjustifiably yelling."
"You want to talk about being unprofessional? You yelling in the middle of the ER is unprofessional." His voice continued to raise at me.
"Just stop yelling!"
"I'm not yelling, I'm trying to figure out why you're acting so insubordinate. There was no reason for you to overreact."
"There was no reason for YOU to yell at me. I was simply doing my job, then you want to walk in and start barking orders."
"Is that what this is about?" His eyes narrowed at me. "Isabella, is your problem with me? It would be okay if I was any other doctor, wouldn't it?" He took another step closer but I could back further away since my back was already up against the shelf.
"Bella. For fucks sake, my name is BELLA. And no one yells at me, I don't put up with that shit." He took another step that made him close enough that I could smell peppermint on his breath. Bella, now is not the time to get all woozy. "You aren't the exception. If anything, you are my husband and should never be yelling at me." I couldn't help the sneer that was produced when I said husband. I poked my finger into his chest.
"Yes I'm your husband." He matched my tone. "Is that what you're really upset about, Bella." His words were extremely condensing
"No."
"No?" His eyebrow raised and he grabbed my finger.
"I'd yell at you if you were any other doctor because I don't take shit from anyone. It makes it worse that it's you. I feel lied to." I felt exposed laying my feelings out.
"Lied to? I've never lied to you." He circled my fingers back into my hand and clasped both of his hands around my fist."
"I know you haven't lied to me. But it's not like you said 'hey I'm gonna work at the same hospital as you.' Imagine my surprise when the asshat doctor who walks in all angry, turns out to be my husband. A husband who I barely know." My head dropped and my eyes trained on the floor. I tried to pull my hand away but he held it firmly in place.
"I understand." He finally dropped my hand but used his index finger to tilt my chin up. "Maybe we should have had the 'hey, guess where I work' conversation. Maybe we should have had the 'hey, these are my friends' conversation and maybe we should have also said 'hey, we need better communication'. I don't think it's very beneficial to scream at each other from inside the supply closet. We will get through this. Okay?" I knew he was referring to all of the arguments we've had up to this point.
My eyes searched his face and found nothing but sincerity.
"Okay." I nodded. I could do this. We can do this. "No more yelling at ANY nurses….. and maybe we do need to talk and set expectations of our relationship."
"No more yelling. Period." He kissed the top of my head before turning for the door.
I took a few more calming breaths before leaving the supply closet. My head was still reeling as I thought about the events. He was right, I wouldn't have been so angry about being yelled at if it wasn't Edward. Every time I look at him, I get slight butterflies in the pit of my stomach but also a wave of sadness when he wouldn't talk to me. I was attracted to him and liked to talk to him so it hurt every time he didn't want to talk to me.
I'm flustered at the sight of him and flustered when he yells. I rubbed my hand across my forehead in an effort to rub my worry away. Get over yourself Bella, he doesn't want you like that. You shouldn't want him either. He's a stranger. I keep having to remind myself of that small fact.
During my drive home, my mind kept venturing back to the gentle way he held my hand. The way his finger felt when he lifted my chin. How soft his lips were when he gently pressed them against my forehead.
…MMHW…
The hot spray of the shower felt amazing against my tired muscles. I've always felt that showers were a beneficial way to wash away the stress of the day. I grabbed a large fluffy towel to dry off with before grabbing some pajamas.
I only had to work eight hours tomorrow which is nice compared to the twelve hours I worked today and was scheduled for on Wednesday. I was working three days on and two days off. I wonder if Edward's days off would align with mine.
I headed to the kitchen in search of food but was stopped when I heard the doorbell ring. My eyes widened with shock when I opened the door to Alice.
"I'm ready to talk."
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