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I've continued with my weekly posting schedule since I was unsure if you wanted me to post as soon as a chapter was ready.
I have already completed chapter 9 and I'm working on chapter 10. Chapter 10 will cover Friday -Sunday and have the entire chapter in one. I'm sure that it's going to be long. I hope that's okay.
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Sunday
BPOV
My alarm not only pulled me from a deep sleep but also made me aware of reality. I had to untangle my legs from around Edward's waist so that I could reach for my phone. I had been laying on my side while snuggled into Edward. The drool spot on his shirt was enough evidence that I had practically been laying on top of him. Our barrier pillow had found its way to the floor and Edward's arm had been holding me firmly into his side.
I quickly shut my alarm off to avoid waking Edward, who still appeared to be asleep. I picked the pillow up from the floor and placed it inside Edward's grasp where my body once was.
Pausing for a moment, I took a good look at his sleeping form. He seemed so peaceful in this state. It almost seemed creepy for me to be staring at him but after all, we did share the same bed last night. I dressed as quietly as I could to prevent him from waking up. I would hate for him to be up so early while on his day off. After dressing, I wrote him a small note and left it on his nightstand.
I've left for work. Text me when you wake up -Bella
I made myself some coffee before washing the pot and readying another batch to brew. I set the coffee timer for another 3 hours, hoping that he'd be awake by then. It made me sad to know that he'd get to spend the whole day at home, alone. I wanted a repeat of yesterday where we got to spend plenty of time together.
I could only hope that he'd see my note and we could spend the day texting.
….
"Morning, Bella." Rosalie yawned as I passed her in the hall.
"I'm guessing that you're going home and going to bed?"
"You are 100% correct in your assessment. I hate working overnights. I'll see you tomorrow."
"See you tomorrow. Drive safe."
Some people loved to work overnight, typically those who are night owls. I'm not one of them and apparently neither was Rose. Alice was ok with overnight shifts as long as they weren't too close together. She seemed to thrive at night, claiming it was the best time for her to think.
"Morning Bella!" Alice seemed awfully chipper. She had a lot of energy for seven in the morning.
"Morning, Alice. How much caffeine have you had?"
"Not sure. Jasper made me coffee this morning but I also stopped by Starbucks on my way in. Then I saw that the coffee cart had this new hazelnut blend that I wanted to try."
"So at least 3 cups. You will be peeing all day." I laughed. Alice was naturally full of energy and the extra caffeine makes her act like the energizer bunny.
"You're probably right." She took another sip of her coffee and cringed. "I definitely don't recommend the hazelnut blend." She walked to the closest trash can and tossed it in. "How was your weekend?" She thought about her words for a moment before correcting herself "I guess it's Saturday, so how were your days off?"
"They were good. I met with Esme on Thursday then hung out with Edward on Friday."
"I meant to ask you about that, how was your lunch."
"It was good, she gave us another wedding present. It was nice to see her and to be able to chat with someone outside this hospital. Don't get me wrong, I love talking to you and Rose." I was worried that what I said was going to offend her.
"Don't worry, I'm not offended. We talk about so much work outside of work that I understand wanting to talk to someone who isn't from this hospital." It was like she read my mind.
"What did you and Edward do yesterday?"
"I started by making muffins for breakfast, the blueberry ones you like, then we discussed next weekend and if we wanted to have a massive sleepover. We talked for a long time. We discussed a few different things like future kids and dating history. We went to dinner last night then watched a movie. The day was laid back."
"That sounds like a great way to spend the day." She commented.
"I enjoyed it."
"Where did y'all eat?"
"That Italian restaurant that's ten minutes up the road, La Bella."
"Oh my gosh, I love La Bella." She closed her eyes as if she was picturing their food.
"Me too. Edward also seemed to enjoy the food which made me happy. The movie was the perfect way to end the night before we went to bed together. Or it would have been if the movie wasn't so damn boring."
"Wait, back up." She stopped me. "Go to bed together? Did you and Edward sleep together, like…"
I quickly cut her off. "We shared a bed. Platonically. No feeling and no sex, just sleep."
"Oh." She looked a little confused.
"I'm not ready to completely jump to the sex step. First I need a kiss or two and other things like that. I don't even know if he wants sex with me." I rolled my eyes.
"I'm glad that you're not jumping straight in bed together, but y'all haven't kissed yet?" She seemed shocked.
"We kissed after saying 'I do" but haven't since then. We've mostly been sitting next to each other and talking. Don't get me wrong, I want him to kiss me. Desperately."
"If you're wanting to kiss him so badly, why don't you initiate it?"
"Because I don't want to kiss him and be wrong. I can't handle the rejection if he's not wanting me. Imagine my mortification if he were to stop me and say 'Bella you're nice but we should just be friends'. It doesn't matter that I find him so attractive." I started spilling my guts to Alice. I was saying things that I didn't even know I was worried about."
"Bella, I think this is all in your head. I've seen the way he looks at you."
"He's just out of my league." I sighed.
"Yes, Edward is attractive. Even as his cousin, I know this. But so are you! If you want him then you can have him. Also, I doubt that he's going to want to be just friends since you're married." She leaned in closer to whisper the last part.
I knew that she was probably right but I still feared the risk of rejection.
….
Good morning- E
Glad that you're finally up. The coffee pot is ready -B
I saw that, thank you. -E
What do you want for dinner? -E
I can make dinner. How do you feel about tacos? -B
Sure. Send me a list of ingredients, I'll go to the store before you get home. -E
…MMHW…
I sought out Angela during my lunch break. She was sitting alone while reading a book, so I took the opportunity to sit beside her. She looked up at me and smiled before closing her book.
"Hey Bella, I feel like I haven't seen you in forever. How are you?" She reached out and hugged my shoulders.
I happily returned her hug. "I'm good, how are you? Still have your anniversary trip coming up?"
"I'm good as well. Yes, Ben and I are leaving tomorrow for Jamaica. We will spend the entire week in the sun and sipping margaritas." She closed her eyes and placed her hands behind her head as if she was already laying in the sun.
"I'm guessing you're excited then." I laughed.
"You could say that. This vacation is long overdue."
I let our conversation settle before broaching the sensitive topic."I have something to tell you and I don't want you to freak out like everyone else has."
"Now I'm intrigued." She leaned forward in her seat so that she was closer to me.
"I want to start by saying that this will sound crazy. I know it will, but I got married a few weeks ago. It was a crazy spur of the moment thing that was kinda out of my control. I married Dr. Cullen."
"No way!" She gasped. "If you know he's married and are the one married to him, you're heartless for letting the wolves go after him." She laughed.
"Shh." I fell into my own fit of giggles with her. "So you've noticed their interest in him?"
"Of course I have. It's quite pathetic watching them go after him, constantly." She rolled her eyes. "But it makes it entertaining that he's unavailable. Please let me see their faces when y'all announce."
"You're not mad at me?" I questioned. I was shocked that she wasn't angry or yelling.
"Is he treating you right? Being a gentleman and taking care of you?"
"Yes." What point was she making?
"Then I'm happy for you. I'm shocked but not upset. Like you said, it was a spur of the moment and out of your control. I don't need the details but I believe you. If you're happy then I'm happy." She smiled at me.
"That means a lot to me. When you come back from vacation then we should go on a double date. You should take the chance and meet Edward outside of his doctor's coat."
"I'd love that." She smiled sweetly at me.
It warmed my heart to know that she was so accepting of my relationship. It sounded like she only cared about my well being and it was nice to not argue or defend myself. Especially knowing that she trusted me without asking for details.
…..
Where do you think the best place to buy a swimsuit is? -E
What? -B
I realized that I don't own a swimsuit. Where do you think will be the best place to get one? -E
Try Walmart or the mall. I normally buy mine online and keep trying them on until I find one that fits. Or Alice gets them for me. -B
I would probably check with Alice. -B
Ok, thank you. -E
You're most welcome. -B
How do you not own a swimsuit?-B
I don't know. -E
I don't swim much-E
…MMHW…
Work went by more easily after talking with Angela. I was exhausted by the time I got home but the idea of spending time with Edward gave me more energy. I smiled to myself when I walked into the house and saw that Edward had laid out the ingredients on the counter for me.
"Welcome home." He walked into the kitchen and handed me an apron.
"Thank you." I couldn't help the small giggle that escaped me when I saw Edward wearing one of my aprons. It appears to be three sizes too small on him.
"I'm wanting to help if that's ok."
"I'd love your help."
I washed my hands before preparing to start cooking. I measured out all ingredients and made sure to tell Edward what I was doing each step of the way. I couldn't help the smile that stayed on my face when I noticed him taking notes.
"What did you spend your day doing?" I asked as I began plating our food.
"A little bit of this and that. Nothing too exciting. I bought a swimsuit, called and talked with my aunt, and went grocery shopping."
"You found a swimsuit?"
"Yeah, I took your advice and called Alice. She directed me straight to what I was needing. I actually bought a few different ones. My favorite one changes colors when I enter the water…. or at least it's supposed to."
"That's cool. I can't wait to see it."
"How did your day go?" Edward set the table while I grabbed our plates.
"It was good. I saw both Alice and Rose today and they're both excited for next weekend. I also had a chance to talk to Angela before she left on vacation."
"How did that go?" He leaned in to take a bite of his taco and moaned around it. "This is so good." He was talking with his mouth full.
"It went well. I told her that we got married a few weeks ago as a spur of the moment decision, which is partially true. She's happy for me and had no foul feelings. I offered to go on a double date with her and Ben. I hope that's ok."
"Sure. Your friends are my friends." He paused for a moment before laughing. "Literally. You're friends with my entire family."
"I guess that's true. I want to be honest with you about something else. I told Mike that I was seeing someone. I didn't give him your name or any information but I was trying to get him to leave me alone."
"When was this?"
"Wednesday. He invited me out on Tuesday and I declined. Then he happened to be at the club on Wednesday and tried to dance with me. I turned him down but he kept persisting. I don't want him talking to me, let alone touching or dancing with me. So, I told him that I was seeing someone. Then I left."
"Why didn't you tell me about it sooner?"
"Honestly, I forgot about it until I passed him in the hall today. I was drunk on Wednesday and I haven't really thought about it since then. I just felt that you should know."
"Despite wishing that I'd have known sooner, I'm glad that you told me. Did he hurt you?" He looked concerned.
"No, I didn't let him get that far. I made it clear that I wasn't interested. If anything, it made me wish that you were with me. My plan was to tell you when I got home but it slipped my mind."
"I'm glad that he didn't hurt you. Did he say anything to you today?"
"No. I don't think he saw me."
My phone started ringing so I excused myself to answer it.
"Mom?!" I was worried that she was calling me so late.
""Hey baby. What are you into?"
"We were just eating dinner. Are you and dad okay?"
"We are just fine. I was just calling to chat. See how things were going with you and Edward." I glanced at the clock.
"At eight pm, you thought it would be a good time to talk?"
"Am I interrupting something?"
"No mom. Just dinner, like I said. I was just curious as to why you wanted to chit chat when you haven't talked to me since my wedding."
"Oh baby, I would have called sooner but I wanted to give you and Edward a chance to connect."
"Ok?"
"So tell me about him. Is he nice and treating you right? Are you happy baby?"
"Mom, I'll call you tomorrow when I'm not in the middle of dinner."
"Don't be like that. Tell me something!"
"Yes, mom." I sighed. "Edward is taking care of me. I love you and I will talk to you later this week."
"Promise?"
"I promise. I will call you later this week. I love you."
"I love you too baby."
I returned to the table as soon as I was off the phone with my mother.
"Everything alright?"
"Yeah, it was just my mother who wanted to chit chat. She wants to make sure that you're taking care of me. I just don't know why she waited so long to call."
"She called. That's all that mattered."
"I know. I told her that I'd call her later this week so that we could chat."
Our conversation stayed light until it was time to head to bed.
"I'm going to sleep upstairs tonight." Edward's face visibly fell.
"Is it something that I said or did? Did you not sleep well last night?"
"You haven't said or done anything and I slept amazingly last night. I promise."
"Then why don't you want to share a bed with me?" He stuck his bottom lip out in a pout.
"I just thought that we might need to spend time in separate beds. Especially if we were going to be in such close proximity over the weekend."
"Please."
"What?" I turned to look at him.
"Please, will you sleep with me…. That sounds wrong. Bella, will you please share a bed with me? I've slept better with you in my arms than I have in years."
"Fine." My voice was barely above a whisper.
"Thank you."
It was sweet that Edward wanted to share a bed again. If he knew that I slept in his arms, did he know that I had drooled on him?
Does he find comfort in your arms in the same way that you find comfort in his?
Monday
I woke up to find the bed cold and empty. I stretched out and found myself disappointed that Edward was no longer lying next to me. My muscles ached when I finally convinced myself to roll out of bed.
In curiosity, I walked to the back door and opened the blinds. Edward was right. The backyard is huge and has a decent size pool. I opened the door and stepped outside so that I could get a better look. The grass was perfectly green and well trimmed. Does Edward pay someone to maintain the lawn? I've never seen him mow.
I closed my eyes and inhaled the morning air. It was so peaceful out here. The birds were chirping and the trees were rustling. There were no sounds from traffic or the city.
"Good morning." Edward's voice startled me.
"Shit." I cursed as I jumped and my eyes shot open.
"Sorry." He apologized a little sheepishly.
"It's ok, I didn't realize that you were still home."
"I'm leaving for work in about twenty if you want to ride with me."
"What time do you get off?"
"Um, eight."
"I get off at six. I work the night shift tomorrow, seven to seven."
"I'm also working the night shift tomorrow. We can ride together then." He looked hopeful.
"Deal. I'm going to get ready for work." I pointed towards the door.
My foot caught the doorframe when I tried to step into the house. I placed my hands in front of me and prepared for impact. Instead of falling, I felt Edward's arm wrap around my waist and stabilize me. Once I stood upright, I could feel how close our bodies were.
His words were hot on my neck. "You're really clumsy, aren't you." He took a step away from me and I took the opportunity to walk inside.
"I guess you could say that." I chuckled. "I normally have so many bruises."
…MMHW….
This morning has been incredibly busy for the labor unit. The morning consisted of ten laboring mothers. All had progressed rapidly. Within a two hour window, we welcomed thirteen new babies. Five boys and eight girls. After the morning rush, patients started to trickle in at a slower rate.
The phone rang the moment I sat down at the nurses station. I grumbled to myself before picking up the line.
"Labor and Delivery, Bella speaking. How may I help you?"
"Hey Bella. This is the E.R. We need a nurse or a tech to come do an ultrasound on a lady who's twenty eight weeks along."
"Is there no one ine E.R who knows how to read an ultrasound?" We need more staff.
"Not at the moment. They are currently busy."
"I'll be down there in a moment." I sighed. All of our ultrasound technicians were busy on this floor and I was lucky enough to be cross trained.
"Thank you."
I knew that it was my job to help but I still grumbled the entire way to the E.R. I did a quick exam on the patient whose baby's heart beat was strong. Both the mother and baby were fine. The mother was just having a panic attack since she hadn't felt her baby move for a while.
I was heading back upstairs but my head turned when I recognized voices. I saw Edward across the room, suturing a patient's head. I was surprised that I was able to distinguish his voice when the entire emergency room seemed to be packed.
"No, Ms. Stanley. I don't need any help." I couldn't hear what she was saying but Edward looked like he was getting agitated. "Yes, I'm sure." I saw Alice show Edward some X-rays that made him frown.
"Hey Bella." Alice greeted me as I approached.
"Did an accident happen? It seems busier than normal." I asked while following her back towards the nurses station.
"Yeah, there was a crash on the highway. Four car pileup." Alice looked back at the X-rays. "Mr. Driver over there was texting while driving and has won a free trip to the O.R for a femur repair."
"That explains Dr. Cullen's frown."
"Yeah. It was a nasty break." She held the X-ray up for me to look at. I winced at the image of a shattered femur.
"Will you take Edward this suture kit while I call upstairs."
"Sure."
"Thanks Bella." She handed me the spare suture kit and headed for the phone.
I walked back toward Edward and Jessica. They had moved one bed over and onto the next patient. Edward seemed to be slightly distressed by Jessica's presence.
"I was told that you needed another kit." I held it to Edward who was changing his gloves.
"Thank you." He smiled at me.
"I'm very capable of getting him another kit if he needed one. I'm the assisting nurse." Jessica hissed at me. "Maybe you should go back to the vagina squad."
"Yet, I needed one and you didn't provide one. Did you think that I'd use the same needle from Mr. Taylor for Mrs. Walker?" Edward's expression seemed exhausted. "It was rather rude of you to speak to her that way."
"I-I- I was working on getting you one, Edward." She stumbled over her words, obviously surprised that he called her out for being rude. Edward ignored her stuttering and began closing the wounds on Mrs. Walker's shoulder blade.
"Go away." Jesica mouthed to me while also staring daggers through me.
"Mrs. Stanley, I would prefer to be referred to as Dr. Cullen."
"Is anything else needed before I head back upstairs?" I asked.
"I'm sure that I can take care of Edward's needs." Jessica's voice was sickle sweet.
"Dr. Cullen." He reminded her.
"Oh. Dear." Mrs. Walker murmured while looking between the three of us.
Edward's phone started ringing from his pocket. "Would you please grab my phone for me." He looked directly at me, indicating that he was talking to me.
Jessica automatically reached her hand into the pocket of his lab coat and started shuffling around.
"Mrs. Stanley, please remove your hand from my pocket and refrain from touching me. I was asking Bella to please grab my phone since she hasn't felt the need to molest me today." Jessica gasped at Edward's words but I couldn't help but snort.
"Which pocket?" I asked.
"Front, right pocket of my jeans." He continued to stitch Mrs. Walker's wounds.
I stepped closer to Edward and menovered my right hand down the pocket of his jeans. I tried to make my movements as quick as possible since I was ungodly close to Edward. It was a unique feeling to not only have my hand down someone else's pocket, but to feel his leg underneath my fingertips as I grabbed the phone.
I monovered my arm against his stomach to be able to slide the phone out of his pocket.
"It's Esme." I read the caller ID to Edward.
"Would you mind answering and telling her that I'll call her back once I get off work." Edward didn't look up at me.
"Answer your phone?" I wanted to be sure that I was understanding him correctly.
"Please." He made slight eye contact with me before looking back at his work.
"I could have done this for you. There was no need for her to stay." Jessica rolled her eyes at me.
"Ms. Stanley, can you go grab me more bandages?" Edward sent her away.
I answered the phone and told Esme that Dr. Cullen was currently unavailable but he will call her back once he gets off work. Esme was extremely sweet and apologized for calling in the middle of his work day. She assumed that he was off work since it was Sunday. She also told me that it was lovely to hear my voice.
"Are you wanting it back in your pocket?"
"If you wouldn't mind."
"This is highly inappropriate." Jessica had returned with the bandages as I was gently placing the phone back into Edward's pocket. I was being careful to not slide my hand down his leg.
"You were the one who was trying to forcefully shove your hand into his pockets. That was inappropriate." I gasped at Mrs. Walker's words. Jessica's face scrunched together with a sour expression.
I chuckled to myself as I decided to walk away. I regrouped at the nurse's station to ask if they needed anything before I headed to lunch. Once released, I made a quick getaway to the elevator. I wasn't fast enough since Alice hopped in the elevator with me, right before the doors closed.
"What was that about?" She wiggled her eyebrows at me.
"What do you mean?"
"Well…. Jessica was obviously upset and you stuck your hand in Edward's pocket. In front of people!"
"It was professional." My voice grew a little louder and my cheeks flushed. "His phone was ringing and he asked me to answer it. I was being helpful since he didn't want to stop giving Mrs. Walker stitches. Jessica was just upset that Edward rejected her after she shoved her hand in his pocket."
"Sure." Alice looked at me with a smug expression.
"What? It's the truth."
"Edward could have let his phone ring. I think that he just wanted your hand down his pants." She was laughing at her own insinuation.
"Alice!" I almost shrieked. "He did not." I nudged her shoulder slightly.
"Maybe that wasn't his intention but I doubt he minded how close you were." I chewed my lip at her words. Does he want you to be close?
"I was just being helpful." I pitifully defended myself one last time. I knew that Alice was messing with me but I wasn't sure if she was right.
Everytime Edward touched me, my skin felt like it was on fire. I feel butterflies in my stomach when his body gets close to mine. His scent makes me dizzy and my desire for him increases. Does he feel the same? Could he feel the same?
I loved sleeping next to him. The sound of his breathing lures me to sleep but the longer I'm closer to him, the more I want to kiss him. I could only concentrate on how soft his lips were after he kissed my forehead. I desired to reach across the bed and offer a proper goodnight kiss but I didn't want to spook him. I was terrified of scaring him away from me.
I need to sleep in my own bed tonight.
EPOV
Somehow I must have angered the doctor gods because I had been assigned Ms. Stanley as my nurse. Or she took it upon herself to follow me around. She spent the entire morning using terrible flirtation tactics. The batting of her spider leg lashes and the pouty look of her clown smeared lips made me want to vomit.
"Edward, would you be interested in going to dinner this weekend?" She had trailed her hand down my arm. I made a point to step away from her.
"It's Dr. Cullen." I seemed to continuously remind her of this. "I have plans this weekend."
I tried to focus on the work ahead of me but she was everywhere I turned. How can she be in every single case? Is she just following me?
"Oh, well we can go another day." Yet again, she was in my personal space.
"Ms. Stanley, our relationship will be nothing but professional. I am not interested in going out with you this weekend or any weekend for that matter. I don't suggest you pursue this subject."
I was thankful when Alice started running interference by bringing me X-ray scans. Something that Jessica should be doing if she wanted to be helpful. I could almost cry with relief when I saw Bella. She had brought me a suture kit which was something I was actually needing. Jessica seemed to be too self absorbed to notice the needs of our patients.
I was shocked when the patient, Mrs. Walker, made a comment about Jessica invading my personal space. It thrilled me to watch her face scrunch in displeasure. Especially after she spoke to Bella so rudely, which was something I made sure to correct her on.
Normally I would ignore my phone while with a patient but something made me think it might be important. I had to stop myself from yelling when Jessica tried to forcefully shove her hand in my pocket. Jessica and Bella had different touches and motives. I was aware of how gentle Bella was because I was extremely aware of her hands movements while inside my pocket. Although I wouldn't describe the feeling as awful it still made me concerned with any discomfort the situation may have brought her.
…MMHW….
BPOV
I kicked my shoes off the moment I walked through the door. I was tired and extremely ready for a hot shower. It was only six thirty which meant I had an hour and a half before Edward would be off. This gave me plenty of time to relax before starting dinner.
I walked into the bedroom but didn't bother closing the door behind me. This really was a nice room and quite spacious for two people, let alone one. I was jealous of how large and comfortable the bed is. It's your decision to sleep upstairs. Edward is willing to share. I turned the shower on to let it warm. I couldn't help but stare at my pajama options for a while. Contemplating between more leggings or a short sleeve pajama set. I decided to go with short sleeves since I'd be sleeping alone. I made a mental note to start a load of laundry when I got out of the shower. Bella, you haven't washed clothes in over two weeks. You're lucky that you even have clothes to wear.
The first time that I had showered in here, I was not only amazed with the water pressure but also with the cleanliness of the shower. Edward kept everything tidy around the house, especially compared to Alice and I's apartment. I had also noticed that he kept a Bluetooth speaker stuck to the shower wall.
Taking the opportunity of loneliness and privacy, I connected my phone to the speaker and began playing my trashy music. I'm open to all music ideas… or most of them. But I was respecting Edward's fondness of the classics and feared that I might offend him with my playlist. I kept a wide variety of music but didn't have them sorted by style. I don't believe he's someone who would appreciate jumping from pop to rap then rock.
The scalding water soothed my muscles as my music began wafting through the room. I smiled to myself before grabbing Edward's shampoo. I wanted to smell like him. He wouldn't notice…..would he?
After a long day at work, I couldn't help but start dancing while lathering my hair.
When I start drinking
My dick does all my thinking
Hoes want to be scene with me
And I like their big thick titties
D-Cups with extra filling
Take it out let me lick it quickly
Calm down it's just a hickie
I knew my music could be seen as crude but it was one of my guilty pleasures. I couldn't resist the urge to take my hands from my hair and run them down my breasts. I laughed off my small dancing session and opened my eyes. I needed to reality and finish rinsing the shampoo from my hair.
A gasp left my body as I saw Edward standing wide eyed in the doorway. My eyes grew with panic. He wasn't supposed to be home yet. I noticed that his eyes were on my boobs but he looked away quickly. A blush covered my entire body at the same time that Edward's entire face turned red.
"Sorry, sorry." He left the room as quickly as he could, fumbling slightly on the way.
My head fell into my hands. I was in shock, not only was I embarrassed but I was also confused. I was supposed to have over an hour until Edward came home. Damnit Bella, you should have locked the fucking door.
I paused the music and continued my shower in silence. Edward was nowhere to be found when I was done so I made myself a sandwich and went upstairs to hide out in my room. I realized where Edward was when I got upstairs. Despite the door being closed, the light shining from underneath let me know that he was in his study.
EPOV
I left the hospital at 6:30 which was an hour and a half early. They decided that I could use the early release after a patient puked all over me. The icing on the cake was slipping on a puddle of blood while on the way to grab my stuff. I was thankful that I had dirty gym clothes in my bag. I reeked at this moment but it was ok. I was headed home to Bella….. and a nice shower. But it's mostly Bella that excited me.
To be honest, I'm tired and hungry. Getting in my car made me realize how ready I was to go home to a shower and bed. I've slept well these last two nights where Bella ended up in my arms. Hopefully tonight will be like the others, if not better. I would love to start the night off with her already snuggled into my arms, not waiting for her to get cold. One thing I've noticed was that she's prone to talking and moving in her sleep.
I shoved headphones into my ears so that I could block out the sound of traffic. Normally, I would just use the radio but tonight felt different. I need the music to go straight to my soul. Maybe Bella feels like me and would want takeout for dinner, I don't feel like cooking and I doubt she does either.
When I entered the house it seemed empty. Maybe she has already gone upstairs. I don't know why that thought made me sad but I figured that I would talk to her after my shower. I didn't think approaching her while I stu would be the best idea.
It wasn't until I was in the bedroom that I pulled one of the earbuds from my ear. I was standing in my closet when I realized that music was playing…. loudly. I followed the sound out of my closet and into the bathroom. Is this the kind of music she likes? It definitely isn't my taste, but I'm not going to judge her.
I was stopped dead in my tracks when I realized that Bella was in the shower. Not only was she singing to the music but her hands were trailing down her breasts. The water was washing over her creamy skin and dripped from her round breast. I was pulled from my trance when her eyes opened. My eyes snapped away from her as her eyes went large.
"Sorry. Sorry." My entire face flushed with embarrassment and guilt for staring. I mumbled before turning on my heels. I needed to get out of here. FAST.
Embarrassment continued to rise in my face as I made the realization. I had invaded Bella's personal space and felt awful about it. My brain started running as if I had a miniature angel and devil on my shoulders.
I needed to apologize profusely to Bella. I needed her to know that I didn't mean to walk in on her and that I wouldn't do it again. But the image was also ingrained into my brain. The look of her breasts, the movement of her hands, and the parting of the water. It was every man's dream and my body automatically reacted to her. I felt dirty for my reaction but I couldn't will away the boner that had formed.
The movement of her hands reminded me of the feeling of her hand in my pocket. The way that her hand slid down my leg and how her fingertips gently brushed me while grabbing my phone. I know that her movements were harmless and that she was only following my request. I hadn't even thought about how close her hand would have been to me. How closer her body would be to me. I noticed that Alice had joined her in the elevator. No doubt to tease her for the situation.
Tuesday
BPOV
I was staring at the ceiling by eight am. I tried to keep my eyes closed, knowing that I would feel awful later if I didn't get more sleep. What else was I supposed to do today while waiting around for my shift?
I internally groaned before rolling out of bed. I wasn't ready to go down stairs or face Edward. We needed to talk but I wasn't quite ready for that either. He had avoided me when I got out of the shower last night. Bella, you're actively avoiding him. I stood and stretched before looking around my room. It's a decent size but isn't as nice as Edward's. Which was to be expected since he was staying in the master.
Walking over to the window, I opened the curtains to peer out. How did I spend an entire two weeks living here and become so dense that I never noticed a huge pool in the backyard. It's scary that I could become so oblivious to my surroundings. I couldn't see the pool from my window. I knew this before ever opening the curtains since I had spent the majority of the first week staring out this window. I know that I have also looked out the windows at the front of the house. Did I really never open the back windows?
From what I could see, the backyard was large but I wasn't sure how much of the land Edward owned. I sighed when I looked at the time. If I wasn't going to sleep then I needed to find a way to kill time. I made the effort to call my mother as promised. She answered on the third ring it sounded slightly out of breath.
"Mom? Are you okay?"
"Yes, dear I'm fine. Just had to run to grab my phone. What are you calling about."
"You called me the other day and I'm returning the call. Do you remember what you wanted to discuss?"
"Oh yes! I did call you, didn't I. I wanted to discuss the upcoming holidays. Have you and Edward decided where you're going for Thanksgiving and Christmas."
"No? Thanksgiving is six months away. It's not even June yet."
"Bella, June is next week. You need to talk to Edward about the holiday's and get -back to me."
"We have plenty of time." I rolled my eyes. "I'll talk to Edward about it later."
The rest of our conversation became mindless chatter. My mother was talking so much without truly saying anything. I was slightly glad when she decided to get off the phone, claiming that Dad was needing her. I glanced back at the clock and noticed that it was only nine. I mumbled to myself as I headed down stairs for food. Maybe I can go back to bed after eating.
Once I had eaten, I was back in bed by ten and was desperate to go back to sleep. Which was no small feat. I don't know if I was over rested or just too anxious about seeing Edward.
…MMHW….
I managed to keep myself in bed until four pm. I stood up with an exasperated sigh. I felt no more relieved or relaxed than I did when I first got up this morning. I pulled my phone off the charger to go through my messages. The first thing that caught my attention was a text from Edward.
Are we still riding together? -E
I was shocked that he still wanted to spend time with me after last night. How did you want him to react? Stand there and stare? He was obviously embarrassed. You should just talk to him, you could be just fine.
Are you? - B
I know that it's terrible to answer a question with a question. I was doing my best to not shut him out and let the feeling of rejection take over me. My feelings were irrational but present.
Yes. -E
Then we can ride together. -B
The worst thing that could happen is we have a terrible conversation and avoid each other for the rest of the evening and tomorrow. The oh so wonderful thing about working a night shift was having the next day off. It felt like I worked a ton during some weeks and then barely worked during others. It all depended on what shifts they were needing me. I put my foot down early in my career because I wasn't willing to work more than three night shifts in a row.
….
I ran into Edward while in the kitchen grabbing dinner.
"Do you want to drive?"
"No, you can." I answered quietly. We stayed in silence as I moved around the kitchen to make myself a sandwich.
Our drive was quiet. We were back to the awkward stage in our relationship.
"Bella… I'm sorry. I never meant to intrude on your privacy. I didn't mean to stare." His words sounded desperate.
"Edward, it was my fault. I should have locked the door or should have showered upstairs. It was your bathroom that I was showering in. I thought that you'd be at work for a while longer."
"I'm still in the wrong, no matter how you phrase it. I'm sorry." He started tugging on the ends of his hair while keeping his eyes on the road.
"Please stop saying you're sorry." I chewed my bottom lip. "I'm just afraid that you're going to start being awkward around me again. I don't think darting from the room like it's on fire is counted as staring. But I am upset that you hid in your office. I stayed in my room because I felt like you were avoiding me. I'm sorry that I put us in this situation."
Edward made quick glances in my direction but I could read his face enough to think that I was crazy. "You have absolutely nothing to be sorry about. No matter how you look at the situation, I invade your privacy so I'm sorry. I also didn't mean to make you feel like I was avoiding you. I wasn't sure how to broach the subject with you." He has no reason to be sorry.
"Let's both quit apologizing. We are both partially to blame. I should have locked the door and you shouldn't walk around the house with your ears plugged. I don't want us to be awkward." I looked at him with a begging expression. "I thought that we were finally getting to a good place and I don't want it to be ruined."
"You're not upset with me?"
"NO, Edward, I'm not. Is the entire situation embarrassing? Yes. But I'm not mad or upset. Was I shocked? Yes. Did I have mixed feelings about you running off? Yes. Did it hurt that you hid from me? Yes. Do I understand the irony since I hid from you? Also yes. I understand the irony in the situation but I'd rather swallow my pride and hurt over you running out of the room than lose you."
He reached over the console and grabbed my hand. "Bella. I left because I felt so guilty for intruding on your privacy. I had been staring then your eyes opened in surprise. I was scared that you would think I was a peeping tom. I promise that I never meant to hurt you, I just felt terrible about the entire situation."
I looked at our intertwined fingers then back at Edward. "So we will forgive the situation and move on like nothing happened."
"If that's what you want."
"It is. Next time, don't hide. Let's talk through the shock and embarrassment."
"Next time?" He teased me. "Do you plan on showering in front of me again?"
"I don't know. Do you plan on waking in again?" I raised an eyebrow at him.
"Don't worry. Next time that I see you in the shower, it will be consensual for all parties." My eyes widened in shock.
"Edward!" I exclaimed.
"Sorry." He chuckled before lifting our hands to his lips. He placed a soft kiss against my knuckles. "You know what I mean."
" I know." I rolled my eyes at him. "Why were you home so early anyways?"
"The last few hours before my shift ended were rough. I had a patient spit up all over me. I borrowed and changed into a new pair of scrubs but proceeded to slip in a puddle of blood while on my way back to the E.R.. There was a gunshot victim who was bleeding everywhere. They cut me loose and hour and half early. I was actually excited to come home and shower. Imagine my surprise when I see you dancing in the shower. I was mesmerized but then you opened your eyes and I realized it wasn't a dream and I was afraid that you'd be mad."
"Again, not mad. But I did feel exposed at that moment."
"I bet." He sighed after a moment. "Are we ok?"
I clasped my right hand on top of our intertwined ones. "We are." I smiled
"Good because I slept terribly without you."
"You did?" I was shocked by his words.
"Yes, I much prefer sharing a bed with you. If you're not uncomfortable with me, I'd love to have you sleep with me tonight."
"I'm not sure."
"Oh. I understand." His face fell.
"It's not that I don't want to share your bed. Trust me, it's extremely comfortable. I just need to do laundry."
"Laundry?" He questioned. "What does that have to do with sharing a bed?"
"Well… I need to do laundry in order to have pajama pants. I probably only have one pair of bottoms left and they are probably shorts…. I don't have many leggings or pants that are comfortable enough to sleep in."
"Bella, you can wear your normal sleeping attire. You don't have to wear pants because of me."
"Do you not remember our conversation were I said that I don't wear any shorts or pants…. And the shorts I have are kinda short shorts." I felt my checks heat slightly. My short length didn't matter when it was just Alice and I.
I could hear Edward swallow loudly. "That's ok." His voice was a little strained. "You should be comfortable. I'm also inclined to sleep in different conditions."
Our conversation dialed down as we pulled into the hospital parking lot. This could be a good step to proceed with our relationship. I hope that I still have another pair of shorts in my drawers. I don't think I'm quite ready to be fully pantless while next to Edward. Even if he has seen me naked.
…MMHW…
It was currently two in the morning and I was bored. Overall the evening had been uneventful with only two mothers who came in and delivered but that was before we reached midnight. The only patients that I was rounding on were recovering mothers. The entire hospital tends to be calmer at night but this was especially true for the Labor Unit. I've learned that most expecting mothers like to wait until morning or the last possible moment to come in.
This happens for a number of reasons. They don't want to wake family or friends to watch their sleeping children, they try to sleep off the pain, or they don't realize that they are having true contractions. It's almost as if they think that the hospital will only allow you in after a certain time. I've spent most of my night checking in on the sleeping mothers and babies and helping those who struggle with feedings.
It also makes it easier to go on break. A break which only seems slightly more boring. I'm not necessarily sure how I got to this point. SItting In an empty nurses lounge while scrolling through reviews for a vibrator. My brain started to travel as I was left alone with my thoughts. Those thoughts ended up with me ordering a top rated multi speed vibrator in order to relieve stress and tension.
Maybe you'll be less on edge around Edward if you can get yourself to relax.
The great thing about amazon was the overnight shipping…which means that I could be alone in bed by this time tomorrow. I can't don't that with Edward home. Can I?
This was definitely not what I was supposed to be doing while at work, even if I was on break. Normally I wouldn't even be considering buying one but I couldn't seem to find my B.O.B..
I knew where he was until someone moved and rearranged my belongings. It's more embarrassing to know that someone touched it than to have to buy a new one. My only hope is that Edward wasn't around when they were unpacking my stuff. I definitely wasn't going to ask him about it.
If anything, this is all Edward's fault. I wouldn't be so tense if he wasn't around me so much. Everytime he touched my skin or whispered in my ear, it set my body on fire. In more than one way. I wanted him, desperately. But I knew that I needed to cool my feelings before rushing into a physical relationship before I was ready.
For Christ's sake, we haven't even had a proper kiss. He did kiss me at the altar and it was mind blowing, but that was not a true kiss. If anything, it was just for show. I wanted a kiss with passion. A kiss that had need and desperation behind it. One with love? I wanted Edward to kiss me because he wanted to. Not because he was obligated to.
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