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"So I guess that means all three of us are okay with… continuing our current prioritized activity of the day?" I suggested carefully.

Both of them looked at me in shock.

"You mean—" Sam began.

"Did she just—" Jared interrupted.

"One of you just shut up and take me already!" I burst out, shocking even myself. I wanted them both so bad that it nearly physically hurt.

Jared didn't hesitate like Sam did. Instead, he pulled me down to him, literally ripping my shirt off (the only piece of clothing I was currently wearing) and proceeded to fulfill my request.

Once Sam's shock wore off, he joined in too.

The entire rest of the day (and the following one) absolutely nothing (except pack duties) got accomplished outside of our bed. Once Jared was finally able to walk again, he used that to his full advantage.

We still hadn't had a full discussion about what the repercussions of our decision would mean for us but to be honest, all of our minds had been too clouded by the primal urges to even be able to think about anything else.

Both Paul and Embry had apparently been asking questions about what was going on because Sam and Jared chose to only run alone for their patrols and locked the house door in between, which was completely unheard of. We never locked the door.

After two complete days of going at it nearly nonstop, things finally went back to normal. The overwhelming urge was gone, and I found myself groaning at the soreness my entire body exuded from every appendage.

Without even requiring words, Sam picked me up from the bed and carried me to the bathroom, sitting me down on the counter while he ran a bath. I was still completely nude – we all were – so I just climbed in and sank down into the bath with a sigh.

"Were we too rough with you?" Sam asked me worriedly.

"Not at all. I'm just sore from the excess amount of exercise. I probably burned more calories in the past two days than I have in the past two years." I laughed, trying to relieve some of his tension. I knew he was thinking about something though. "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing." He replied blankly. His emotions ran through me, filling me with anxiety and fear.

"Tell me what's on your mind?" I asked him, but he wouldn't even look me in the eyes.

"I'd rather wait to say anything until Jared gets home so that we can all talk about it together." He replied in an unreadable tone. Even his expression was serious and he looked deep in thought and a bit resigned.

It instantly made me worried. Did he regret it? Had he made the decision in the heat of the moment and now wished he hadn't? Was he rethinking everything?

I stayed silent the rest of my bath, not knowing what else to say.

After I dried and got dressed, I walked downstairs to wait for Jared, bypassing Sam completely. How was I supposed to react to that type of answer when we literally had the biggest life-altering decision at the core? It was much too late to go back and change things now. The rest was in nature's hands. If it was going to happen then it would.

I found myself becoming almost panicky. Was he questioning things? What if children weren't what he wanted? Did he think we were too young? That it was too soon?

I was pacing in front of the door when Jared came in.

"Bella? Babe, what's wrong?" Jared asked me, pulling me into his arms. My eyes flicked over to Sam for a split second as he stood still by the stairs with no discernable expression.

"Can we take a walk for a minute, Jare?" I asked him quietly.

He didn't question me, although he glanced at Sam on our way out the door. Once we were far enough away from the house, I felt tears streaming from my eyes and Jared stopped, turning me toward him and pulling my chin up so that I could look at him.

"What's wrong, Bella? Talk to me?" He begged, wiping away my tears with his thumbs.

"It's Sam…" I began.

"What did he do?" He asked almost angrily, but I didn't want him to be mad.

"He was being strange this morning so I asked him what he was thinking about, and he told me that he would rather wait until you got home to talk about it together. He wouldn't tell me anything and he didn't talk anymore after that. Jared, what if he's regretting what we decided? Wait, are you regretting it?" I questioned him quickly.

"What? No, Bella, I'd never regret that decision for even a second. You know how much I want kids with you." Jared reassured me, relieving me instantly.

"What if Sam is, though? What if he was just speaking in the heat of the moment the other day and now he doesn't think we should have? I mean, I get that the timing really sucks, it's dangerous, but it's too late now and all I keep thinking about is what if he thinks it's all a mistake?" I cried into his chest.

"Bella, baby, look at me." He told me, pulling me back so that I could look at him with watery eyes. "You need to calm down. Sam loves you. He wanted this just as badly as us. I don't know why he wants to talk to both of us, but I know that if you are pregnant, he'd never regret it. He'd never think any of it was a mistake."

"Did you look at him? I can't even get a read on his emotions, Jare. Something is eating at him and whatever it is, he wouldn't talk to me about it alone. I don't know what else it could be…" I said to him.

"The only thing we can do is go back home and see what he wants to talk to us about." He replied, wrapping his arm around me as we started back to the house.

When we got back inside, Sam was still standing in the exact same place that he'd been in when we left.

"Alright, all of us are here. Talk." Jared told him as he held onto me, pulling me down to sit on the couch.

Sam walked over to us with a stony look and sat in the chair across from us. He took a deep breath and ran his hand down his face before hanging his head down.

"I think that if Bella miraculously isn't pregnant when it comes time to find out, that she should go back on birth control."

I felt like my heart stopped. I forgot how to breathe.

I was right. He regretted it.

"So you're going back on what you said before?" Jared came back with.

"It was a bit hard to think about anything else at the time." Sam replied flatly as he looked away.

"What the fuck, Sam?!" Jared yelled at him, immediately getting defensive as I sat there, contemplating what was occurring.

"It's dangerous right now, Jared. There is a sadistic vampire gunning for her and if she's pregnant then we – I – won't be able to focus enough on keeping Bella and the baby safe, keeping the pack safe, and killing the leech." I didn't have words. Nothing but tears. "I promise it's nothing about not wanting children. I want children with you, Bella. Lots of them. I want nothing more than to see you pregnant and happy with us. I just think that if it hasn't already happened, then maybe right now isn't the right time."

I couldn't even look him in the eye. I stood up and grasped onto Jared like he was my lifeline.

"We're going to have a long fucking discussion later, but right now I think you should go for a little while. If you don't want to leave your own house then that's fine, Bella and I will go up to Charlie's." Jared told him as calmly as he could, but I knew he was fuming.

"Bella—" Sam tried, reaching out for me but I flinched away.

"Leave, now." Jared told him in a commanding voice I'd never heard him use toward Sam before.

Sam didn't try to fight back, he just left.

I looked up at Jared with tears in my eyes. "Can we go to your old room? I don't think I can be in—"

"Of course." He led me up to his old bedroom and let me inside. It hadn't been used since they'd imprinted on me, but right now I didn't want to be anywhere else.

I sat down on the bed and just stared at nothing, thinking of the words he'd said. If I was pregnant than he wouldn't be able to focus enough on everything else. For me that translated into it being a 'complication'.

"You know I don't share his thoughts, right?" Jared asked me but I didn't respond.

"I was right," I muttered quietly after a few minutes.

"Sam's just scared and he's letting it get to him. If you are pregnant, then—"

"Then it'll just be a complication for him. He won't be able to 'focus'. It's a bit too fucking late for him to decide that now, don't you think?!" I cried out, not being able to control my emotions.

"Listen to me, Bella. If you're pregnant – and I know I really fucking hope you are – then that child will be nothing but a blessing from the spirits. It would never be a 'complication'. You being pregnant wouldn't ever impair my ability to kill a leech to keep you safe. Hell, if anything it would fuel the damn fire." He told me, holding me into his side and rubbing my back.

"Maybe he thinks the imprint is a complication, too. He's the alpha, he told me the other day when you broke your leg that he felt he had the responsibility to keep the pack safe. He's in charge of three other wolves now, of keeping the tribe safe. He doesn't need the added pressure of 'babysitting' me on top of that. I'm not even part of the tribe." Jared had tried to stop me multiple times as I spoke but I continued, nonetheless.

"You know that's the furthest thing ever from the truth. He loves you more than life itself, he would do anything for you—"

"Maybe that's the problem, Jared. For the past four months we have been safe with no threats. He hasn't actually had to be the alpha. Now there's a threat. The pack is growing. Maybe I'm just holding him back." My tears had ceased as I came to that horrifying conclusion. "Maybe he feels like he was forced into the imprint too. Maybe you both do."

I could feel Jared's anguish over my statement.

"I would never think that, and you know it. Me imprinting on you was and will always be the best thing that's ever happened to me. I love you with everything I am and it kills me to think that I might've never had that if the imprint hadn't guided me in the right direction."

"I'm not always sure that Sam feels the same way. Sometimes I feel like he pushes me away, that he would've rather I'd chosen to only be with one of you instead of both." I'd never voiced that insecurity to either of them and if I hadn't been in the state I was, I probably wouldn't have ever.

"Do you think you should've chosen only one of us?" He asked me quietly, now looking away from me.

"Never. I love you both more than anything else in the world and I wouldn't be whole without either of you. Do you feel that way?" I looked over at him and waited for an answer that I didn't know if I wanted to hear.

"You belong with both of us. You are the most important thing in my life, Bella. My imprint on you will never hold me back, it pushes me forward. It will never be 'babysitting'. Keeping you safe makes me more in tune with my wolf, which in turn helps me keep the tribe safer. You are part of the tribe! You are pack! You are my – our – wife in everything but a damn piece of paper that means absolutely nothing in comparison! You have been the best thing that's ever happened to me, and I'll be damned if you dare to think otherwise. I want you. I want this. I want you to be pregnant with our child. I want you to stop thinking that either of us thinks anything less. I've been in Sam's head, Bella. He feels the exact same way as me, I promise." He professed.

I leaned into him, praying that the words he'd told me were true.

I didn't say any more. I didn't know what to say. I knew I'd overreacted. It wasn't really Sam's statement that had done it. Logically, that would have been the right choice, for me to go back on birth control until the danger was taken care of. But when would the danger pass? Would it ever? His statement had only set off a storm of my insecurities that had been building in the back of my mind for a while.

Jared left a short while later to go speak with Sam in wolf form while I rested. When he returned, he brought me a sandwich and drink but didn't say anything about his conversation with Sam, he only seemed agitated and more concerned about me than anything.

A/N- Uh oh... trouble in paradise. Opinions?