Dear Little One

by cloudyunicorn698

As Jane and Maura embark on their newest journey: pregnancy and motherhood, Maura reflects on her life, her relationship with Jane, and what she wants for their children. Maura writes a letter to their unborn child each week of Jane's pregnancy. 43 chapters.

4. Week 3: Still an Idea

Dear Little One,

Today, when I went shopping, I took a detour to walk through the children's section. On the end of an aisle, I noticed a colorful book titled, I Love You to the Moon and Back. I picked it up with the intention of flipping through a few pages, but I found myself reading every word. I'm not sure when exactly I started crying, but by the time I finished reading the last page, my cheeks were wet.

So, of course, I purchased the book. How could I not? It's the first item I've bought for you. I suppose it's fitting that the first thing I got you was a book…it definitely won't be the last book I buy you.

I'm still having a hard time wrapping my mind around the idea that you are (hopefully) already growing in mama's uterus. I've wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember, but for a long time, I wasn't sure if it was going to happen. I didn't think I'd meet someone to share my life with. I didn't think I'd find your mama, and I wasn't confident enough in myself as a parent to do it alone. But mama gave me the confidence I needed…she gives me that confidence every single day. Even if, god forbid, something happens to her, she's made me strong enough to be a mother in every situation. Still, I hope that I never have to use that strength because even if I could do it alone, I don't want to do it alone. More than anything though, I want you to have her, to get to know her, to be raised by her, to be raised by both of us.

Right now, you're still an idea in my mind, but soon, you'll be in my arms. I'll be able to see you, feel you, smell you, and hear you. I cannot wait for that day to come, but in the meantime, I love the idea of you. I love you. I love you to the moon and back.

I can't wait to meet you. I can't wait to hold you. I can't wait to read to you. I can't wait for you.

Love,

Mommy

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A/N: The letters will get longer once the pregnancy test is positive, and especially once they start being able to "see" the baby. I figure, at this point, it's still a bit abstract for Maura, and she wouldn't have as much to say.