Misery loves company

Chapter 2: Time waits for no one

We are back with another one. I want you all to know that I love Shamy so much and even though it might not seem that way for a while I swear I am planning on a happy ending. You just have to wait and see how it is done :) Thank you so much to all of you for all the reviews and reading my story . It means more to me than you will know . Hope you love this chapter.

Also please note this chapter can be a little sensitive for some people.

"Time is everything we have and don't."

Sheldon's pov:

I always hated hearing the ambulance sirens since I was young. Every time I would freeze for a short second like the one little thing triggered so many unwanted feelings and memories. There was too many thoughts that came after such a simple yet loud siren. It brought me a whole new meaning to life.

I remembered my father being whisked away in an ambulance. Time was not my friend that day. It went to quick and before I knew it I was too late. So much was happening my head was spinning trying to absorb it all. My father was there then he wasn't. My father was talking and breathing until he wasn't. All I wanted to do was turn back time to hug my father one last time or to take his pain away while he was suffering or most importantly I wanted to say goodbye.

I never got to say goodbye. Granted he wasn't the best father but in the end of the day he was still my father. I still loved him and now he was no longer there.

The ambulance siren made me think to the person who could be fighting for their lives in that very van while I did what I did everyday like the common man. I immediately felt empathy for a made up scenario in my mind which was silly. I didn't have all the facts to state that the person in there was battling between life and death but I could never shake the feeling.

I couldn't help but think about their family who probably had no clue what was happening until it was too late. To their loved ones who were probably smiling and enjoying their day but not for long. It was amazing to see how it could take just a minute to ruin your day. To ruin your whole life . So much could happen in just one minute. That was all it took but it wasn't just all the bad it was also how so much happiness can be fulfilled in a minute too if you appreciated it enough.

I hated that people had to say goodbye to people they weren't ready to say goodbye to. It reminded me of some of the most important people I had to say goodbye to. I didn't know that not only did I have to say goodbye but also learn how to live in a world without them which was the hardest part. I never ever got to say goodbye to them in person yet I still had to say it even if it was never to them.

I had to say goodbye to my Pop pop,father and meemaw. I didn't think I could have gotten through the last one without my mom,Missy,Georgie, my friends and especially Amy and Leo.I then worried about the possiblity of one of them that could be in the that very ambulance and I would have no clue. It sounded absurd but my thoughts were jumping from one crazy what if to the next.

I would stop whatever I was doing once more to frantically search for my phone,then once it was found I would dial every single one of them . Sometimes it would be easier because they were together but not always.

I would feel my heart stop waiting for the ringing to cut off so I could hear their voice. Once I knew for certain that this was just that,a dream or more like a nightmare,I would exhale the breath I didn't realize I was holding. I felt a little raw and vunerable but I didn't care because I heard their voices again which I placed in my mind so I wouldn't forget.

I never told them why I would call them because they would just think I was dramatic and I was but I would constantly feel sick with worry wondering what could possibly happen to them.

Now my nightmare was most certainly real but this time I didn't play the clueless loved one. It was my family and friends that were the clueless ones now. It was the people closet to me that had no idea someone they cared about was battling between life and death but this time no one knew if it was too late or not.

All I could feel was pain. It took over my whole body. I could hear muffled voices and frantic footsteps back and forth. I could hear the sirens but it was more a background noise now.

I could vaguely see the red flashing lights that went along with the continuous siren. It was still there though silently screaming for help from anyone that would listen but there wasn't much people could do. They could make way for the van and hope that the person inside is okay but that was it. Everyone sees the cry for help but there is nothing the people around could do about it.

Everyone would continue with their everyday life completely unaware of what is happening around them. Some would be curious once the flashing light caught their eyes,some would be scared of the possibility their loved ones or even themselves would face the same fate one day or some would be not bothered from it at all and not letting it affect their day.

My eyes kept slowly opening and closing again fighting to see light like I was that little boy again that had an irrational fear of the dark. I couldn't understand how a part of me has completely given up ,not even bothering to try but the other part was fighting with every breath, through the pain. Terrified of everything,not knowing what is going to happen next if I stop. Scared I won't see my loved ones again.

I didn't understand how one person could want two very different things especially when it came to life or death. I knew I didn't have a choice but to fight,I couldn't leave Leonard growing up without a father. I couldn't fathom of being apart from Amy. What about my mom ? She couldn't lose someone else in her life. I needed to fight for everyone's sake and my own but then why did a part of me want to give up even when knowing the facts.

I could see the people standing above me when my eyes opened slightly. I didn't know any of them or recognize them but there they all were,rushing around tirelessly saving someone they hardly knew. They used as much care as one would do for a loved one but they didn't even know my name. They fought for me to live as much as I did except they put more effort in.

I was finally engulfed in my new fear, darkness. My body was in tremendous pain and I could feel everything. I grew tired and weak until the part of me that was fighting seemed to start giving up slowly to.

"I'm Amy Farrah Fowler and you're Sheldon Cooper."

"I love you exactly the way you are. "

"I love you too."

"you're even better than dark matter"

"we can find out together"

"kissing is romantic "

"will you marry me ?"

"you're my heartworm"

"we have our whole life to do science together"

"you're the only reason I deserve one "

"we won "

"and I love you "

"She said yes!"

It was all flooding back to me ,giving me a reason to fight again. Giving me the strength to breathe through the pain before giving up again.

I grabbed onto one of the people that was trying to save me , on his arm and with all my effort I croaked, "A...aamyy" .

I laid my head back down, tired from all the effort that alone took. The guy looked at me in confusion until he saw the golden band on my ring finger on my left hand.

He mumbled something to the rest of the people that I couldn't hear because the darkness was going to swallow me whole again soon.

"I Have Been Encouraged, Sustained, Inspired And Tolerated Not Only By My Wife, But By The Greatest Group Of Friends Anyone Ever Had."

"When I Lost My Own Father, I Didn't Have Any Friends To Help Me Through It. You Do."

"You And I Have Always Had Our Ups And Downs But I've Always Considered You My Family"

"I Used To Hate These Hugs. Now They're Just Extremely Irritating"

"I am very proud of you. I am always bragging to my friends about my brother the rocket scientist."

"It would mean alot to me to have my big brother there at my wedding"

"Thank you,I mean for everything,my whole life."

"I want you all to know that in my way I love you all."

Going through all the things I have ever said to the people who meant so much to me, it reminded me why I was doing this,why I was fighting through this agonizing pain that was winning. I wished I told them how much I really appreciated them. I never got to tell them how much they meant to me. I never got to tell them how much I needed them.

I was finding a worth for fighting, something to convince me to just fight a little harder for just a little longer. It got me through the pain a little bit until I just blacked out and all that was with me now was the darkness.

Amy's pov:

"Hello. Are you Mrs Fowler?" a woman on the other line said.

I immediately felt a chill go down my spine. I couldn't place exactly what it was but the way the woman spoke made my heart stop a little. Like my conscious knew something I didn't which scared me even more.

" Yes this is she. May I ask who is speaking ?" I replied a little more worried now.

"I'm so sorry to inform you Mrs Fowler that your husband got into an accident." the woman on the other line said but you can hear the sadness in her voice because this clearly wasn't her favourite part of her job.

I couldn't seem to let the words that were uttered sink in. My eyes went wide and everything went silent. Everything was muffled now and it felt like time had stopped.I could see everyone moving on around me but it felt like I was trapped in time and I couldn't move.

I didn't say anything. I couldn't say anything. I left the phone by my ear but whatever the woman was saying on the other side was clearly not registering anymore.

I felt like my body went immediately cold and empty like something was ripped out of me and I couldn't function anymore. I tried to move,scream or cry but I was glued to the ground but I was no longer myself anymore. It felt like I was watching my lifeless body silently calling for help but no one was listening. I could see myself frozen in fear not knowing what to do.

"Ames? Sweetie? You okay ? " Penny asked realizing I was unresponsive for a while now.

Penny called Bernadette for some help to see if maybe she could help.

"Hello?Hello?Mrs Fowler? You still there ?" the woman on the other line said.

Bernadette tried snapping me out of whatever state I was in but it was like I was zoned out. I wasn't responding and they both started getting worried. Penny then looked at the phone and remembered I was last on the phone. She could slightly hear very quiet voices coming from it so she decided to take it and put it against her ear to see if she could find out .

The woman on the other line was relieved to hear someone respond and continued to fill her in on what happened and added the details Penny needed to know. Penny now had the same expression I once had then ended the phone call. She put her hand on her mouth with her eyes full of fear. She could feel the tears burning her eyes now.

"What's going on Penny ?" Bernadette asked worried.

"Where is it ? Where is it ? " Penny said opening up all cupboards in the kitchen clearly looking for something.

"What are you looking for ? " Bernadette asked clearly realizing that she wasn't going to answer her first question.

"Damn it of course Amy is pregnant so they wouldn't have alcohol." Penny said annoyed now and sighed in disappointment.

As quickly as she became sad the next was quicker,anger.

"Damn it Sheldon, Damn it, Damn it. "she said hitting the kitchen counter in the same pattern but she sounded angry now.

She was angry at the universe and a small amount at Sheldon. Sheldon would probably say she was crazy for being angry at him for something he couldn't control. She didn't want to be angry at him but she couldn't help it.

She sank to the ground now trying to numb out this feeling she had but she couldn't. She was jealous of me for being zoned out. She wanted that right now. She didn't want to be here. She didn't want to go through this. She didn't think she could. All she wanted right now was alcohol.

"You both are scarring me now. Can you please tell me what is going on ? " Bernadette said now.

Penny sighed once more to only get herself up and dry her tears. She took a deep breath in and out not knowing if she could utter the words out of her mouth. She wanted to tell Bernadette that she didn't want to know,that it was better not to know. She wanted Bernadette to keep her perfect little bubble so she didn't have to pop it but she needed to right ? She deserved to know. The question was,would she really want to know?

"Umm the woman told me that... that Sheldon got into a... a car accident and umm they don't know how... how bad it is but umm they suggested we go see him as soon as possible incase." Penny could barely say before sobbing uncontrollably now.

It was Bernadette's turn to look shocked. She grabbed the chair next to her to keep her upright as she felt like she was going to collapse soon. I filled the silence by laughing.

Everyone was more shocked now not understanding how I could laugh at a time like this. I looked at their shocked expression and continued to laugh like a joke was said.

"I'm sorry. I... I just find this incredibly funny." I said in between the giggles to only laugh harder.

"What exactly is funny to you Amy ? Please tell me because I would really love to know how you find this funny." Penny said almost bitterly and more angry.

Penny was frustrated that Sheldon's own wife was laughing while he was in a hospital bed fighting for his life because clearly this was just some big joke to me right ?

"Sheldon got into a car accident. My husband got into a CAR ACCIDENT ! The guy that im pretty sure a snail could beat when it comes to driving crashed a car. My Sheldon..my sheldon got into a car accident." I said repeating the same thing but in different ways and I couldn't help but laugh hysterically again.

Bernadette told Penny something about how everyone goes through trauma in different ways. It isn't always crying sometimes people laugh to as a defense mechanism. Penny wasn't really listening. She was pacing back and forth wondering what she should do. Help me first,rush to the hospital or call Leonard. Call Leonard.That was a great idea he would know what to do. He must know what to do so she got out her phone to dial his number to only be stopped by the tears in her eyes because everything was blurry.

"What are you doing Penny? " Bernadette asked hoping she had some sort of plan.

"Calling Leonard. He will know what to do." Penny said before clicking call.

"So let me get this straight,you want to tell your husband that his best friend is in hospital at the moment fighting for his life as he got into a car accident and expect him to think clearly enough to have a plan ? Have you seen what this did to Amy ? Or you ? You want to tell him the same way you guys found out or do you want to tell him to his face. "Bernadette now said getting just as frustrated as everyone else.

" That's just it Bernie. He isn't just Leonard's best friend,he is our best friend,our family,he is one of us. He has been there for every single one of us in his own goofy way. He has proved how much he cares for us and now we are showing how much we love him by focusing on ourselves instead of him. We need to help him some how. I just need to help Bernie but I don't know what to do . The only one who would know what to do is lying on a freaking hospital bed hooked up to tubes probably or worse. "Penny said blubbering on and crying even more as she threw herself on the couch wishing it would swallow her up.

"You're right Penny. I'm sorry it is just this is tough for all of us and telling the guys is going to make it more real which I don't want it to be. This is just like some sick dream I'm waiting to wake up from. Sheldon is always going to be one of us and as selfish as he can be I know he would want us to focus on Amy first. He would want us to help Amy then we can be there for him. We will get through this and Sheldon will fight even if I got to pull him out myself. So let's just take it one step at a time. We will go to the hospital as soon as we can get Amy to stop laughing."Bernadette said calmly like nothing happened the only trace of the horrible events that just occurred you can see from her is her shaking hands and tears in her eyes.

Bernadette was always able to calm everyone down and think rational. She was able to help everyone even if she was suffering. It was an amazing gift she had which Sheldon always admired. The fact that she could be the calm in the storm was amazing. To be still surrounded in so much chaos. To think straight no matter how much is flying around.

Bernadette and Penny hugged each other for comfort. Penny broke the hug to see if there was any change in me but I was in and out. I would laugh continuously for a while then I would zone out and start the cycle again.

"Ugh I can't do this. I need alcohol to get through this. "Penny said in desperation for a comforting friend.

Eventually I sat on the floor against the cold wall to have my knees near my chest like curling up in a ball and my arms hugged my knees tight for support. I rested my face on my knees and kept repeating the same things,"Sheldon got into an accident.".

The girls went to sit on both sides of me and Bernadette just reassured me ,"I know honey but it will all be okay." .

Both girls rested their heads on my shoulders holding one hand each just waiting out my wave of emotions. They clearly couldn't snap me out of it so they had to just sit there and remind me they were there. The girls couldn't stop crying as they watched me not sure what to do and as the realization that their friend was in hospital right now. The not knowing the future hurt more now because it terrified us.

Everything was fine a couple of minutes ago and now everything changed. Just a couple of minutes. It didn't take long for your life to go all downhill. We didn't even absorb the happiness just a little longer. We wanted to hold onto their earlier laughs and smiles but it was slipping away and filling with new feelings. Sadness,Anger or the worst completely nothing.

We just prayed everything would be okay and tried to see if maybe we could wake up from this messed up nightmare we were in once more but it just proved it wasn't a nightmare. What was going to happen next ?

to be continued...

I originally wrote in third person which is why it is the way it is but I changed it because the later chapters were better in first person. I hope you enjoyed it and I can't wait to see you for the next chapter :)Thank you so much for all the reviews