I lay awake starring at the roof. By the time I had woken up Ladybugs parents were gone. I haven't gotten the courage to call for a nurse. I just need to figure out my next move. I need to find out my age. Asking a nurse won't be weird since I have amnesia, right?
I let out a sigh, I'm starting to get the feeling the universe is seeing this entire thing as a joke. There is nothing special about me. I don't have any skills that could qualify me as a candidate for the Ladybug Miraculous. I never even seeing the origin story. There might be a test I have to do or a riddle I must solve.
I glance over at the notebook and pencil that was left behind by Ladybugs parents. I had already look through it to see is her diary, well my diary now. I felt too ashamed to look through the pages. I would hate it if anyone read mine. Yet, I know eventually I would have to. I flip it through to a blank page.
Ignoring the sting to my conscious I sit up pulling the small table towards me. Okay, I remember Ladybug will become the Guardian of the Miraculous. She chose the Miraculous holders for the fox, turtle, snake, and bee. I can't recall the name of the characters she gave them too. Bright side I remember their looks. Finding the holders shouldn't be too hard. Next on the agenda, Ladybug's partner.
The pencil slip from my fingers at the realization I had forgotten something very important. I had forgotten Cat Noir. My secretly hardcore crush on Cat Noir. My body tremble in excitement at the thought of meeting him in person. My beautiful and romantic Cat Noir. I hug my pillow and muffle my giggles. I'll get to see him close and personal in that tight outfit. I might be able to touch his cat ears.
I felt my entire face go up in flames at the thought of hugging him, possibly smell him. Not, only did I forget about Cat Noir, I had completely forgotten his totally in love with Ladybug. Which means, I might be able to return his feelings!
"Oh, Cat Noir." I giggle.
Wait a minute, if in reality Ladybug hasn't become Ladybug. How exactly did Cat Noir fall for her? Not seeing the origin story is going to screw me royally. I place my cheek on the cool surface of the small table. I won't be able to be Ladybug without Cat Noir. He might hate me and leave me to deal with all the Akumas. Paris will be doom at this rate.
Worse, he might go out with Barbie, (I don't know her name.) Ladybugs archenemy at school. They might get marry and have three kids along with the hamster, whose name is never said in the show. This sucks, I've never even spoken to a boy before. Wait, Cat Noir might be confine in his own home correctly. He was a practically a prisoner in his own home. Should I see that as a good thing?
It might be easier to get close to him due to the lack of communication with the outside world. His dad had a tight leash on him. He only went out for his photoshoots. I wonder if it be possible to research his schedule. Except he might see me more as a stalker then a friend. I stretch my arms over my head, I need to get ready for the future.
I push the call button for a nurse. I know I watch the latest episodes of the show. I might has seeing other episodes from other seasons. I know I've never seeing the origin stories at all. I can only go based off from my neighbor's kid stories. I can still picture her rambling on and on about Ladybug, her favorite hero.
"Knock, knock," The nurse pops her head in. "How are you feeling?"
"I'm a little better, could I get my phone?" I ask with a force a smile.
"You got it boss. "She walks over to the cabinets next to the bed. She opens it revealing Ladybugs usual outfit for the day. The nurse hands me the pink purse. "Here, you go."
"Thank you." I barely say.
She tells me something then leaves the room. I unclasp the purse open, it's cool to my touch. How long has it been hanging there? I turn it upside down spilling out the contents. A bag of macarons falls out, sewing kit, house keys and a phone. I grab it with a trembling hand. I am holding Ladybug's phone. I turn the screen on to see it needs a code to open. A code I have to guess to open.
I let out a groan in frustration. There is nothing in her purse to give me a guess. If Ladybug was in my shoes, how would she handle this? My eyes widen as I remember she had been in my position. The amnesia episode, she had to learn to be Ladybug from scratch. She had to unlock her phone by fogging it up.
I fog up the phone screen to reveal a clear pattern. I just hope I do it the right way. I follow the pattern; nervous the phone might lock up permanently. Thankfully Ladybugs technique had saved me. The phone unlocks revealing pink flowers as her background. This a good sign so far. I went straight to her gallery to see pictures of her family and Paris. There isn't a single photo of Cat Noir. She hasn't met him, according to what I know of the origin story. Ladybug had met Cat Noir in his civilian first. She also fell for him in that episode. I just wish I knew what exactly did he do to make her fall?
Okay the first episode I saw of Ladybug is the little girl using wax figurines to attack Cat Noir and Ladybug. I think she also kiss Cat Noir in the episode. Then, the owl hero episode he tried to be part of hero group with Cat Noir and Ladybug He was also the principal of Ladybugs school. The two next episodes I remember are the most important ones. Ladybug realize Cat Noir civilian self has feelings for the serious sword girl. She also gave away the Guardians secret hiding place away. Then she became the new guardian of the Miraculous box.
Hopefully, I'll remember more episodes later on. Let's see I need to focus on getting myself ready to fight evil and be a hero. I guess the closest thing I can do is just train. I grab my mirror to check my reflection. I should keep my hair down from now on. Once, I become Ladybug I need to make sure I look different from my hero self. Another thing I need to do is keep to myself. Being a loner will help with things in the future. Plus, I've always been a loner I'm not in a hurry to change that.
I used my phone to research symptoms for Amnesia patients. If I'm playing the part, I need to it perfectly. It kills me to have hurt her parents in such a terrible way. My little knowledge might help to soothe the wound I've given them. I would hate to have an awkward relationship with them.
I chew on my bottom lip worry I might have forgotten something. I let out a big sigh, lying back down on my bed. Above all I need to check on the timeline. I can only prepare for so many things. I took deep breaths calming myself down. I'm so scare of taking a single step forward without knowing if I'm even doing right by Ladybug. I curl myself into a ball holding myself together.
I must have fallen asleep after making my lists. I woke up to the sound of an argument going outside of my room. From the sounds of it is Ladybugs parents and the doctor. I push the button for the nurse. I can't avoid them any longer.
The nurse enters my room follow closely by Ladybugs parents. I did my hardest to keep a blank face. I look between the nurse and my visitors.
"Hello little miss, you have some guests here today." The nurse gesture towards Ladybug's parents with a smile.
I grab fistfuls of my blanket it took me a minute to get my voice to work.
"Hello." I spoke softly.
"How are you feeling?" Ladybug's mom asks.
She sits down on my bed wrapping an arm around my shoulder. She smells like fresh bread and cinnamon.
"I'm okay, I actually have been working on my memory." I admit sheepishly. "I apologize for questioning you yesterday. I just had woken up; I had no idea what was going on. It was too much to take in all at once."
"Don't worry about it just focus on getting better." She gives me a gentle squeeze.
"Here, we brought you a snack." Ladybugs father hands me a white paper bag.
I smile at him. He must have made it before coming to the hospital. I can feel the warmth from the bag. I took out the croissant, amaze I can eat one warm. I always have eaten them cool dipping them in warm coffee. I bit into it the soft croissant melting into my mouth.
A bright vision plays before my eyes. A small Ladybug is standing on a chair next to her dad. She wipes the sweat from her forehead. Her hands seem too tiny compare to the roll of dough she's holding. Her father hums a tune as he works on his own dough.
It quickly disappears in a blink of an eye. It wasn't very long but I could feel the love she has for her dad. Tears prick my eyes I'm overwhelm by the sweet memory. I turn to her dad doing my hardest to talk pass the ball in my throat.
"You were humming, when you were teaching to make them." I smile.
The look in her dad's face made the tears fall. He pulls me into a tight bear hug. I can't remember the last time I have been hug like this. I can feel the love he has for Ladybug. I hug him back just as tight. I feel another pair of arms pull me into a hug.
In that moment I realize something. If I'm able to see Ladybug's memories, had she pass on. Did she truly die? I shove the thought to the back of my head refusing to believe Ladybug had died. Because it will also mean considering another thought, did Ladybug truly have another one of her clumsy moments? I have seen her fall flat on her face on the show but nothing too extreme for her. In the ends I didn't have the heart to think any further.
After that day Ladybugs parents visited whenever they had free time. They always brought me a snack form their bakery. I got the feeling they were doing it in hopes I would remember more. Unfortunately, I haven't been able to recall any other memories. Finally, the time came for the doctor to release me. I had spent in total two months in the hospital. I was about to go crazy with boredom. I made as many plans as I could for the future.
I look around the room feeling insecure about leaving. Things haven't been clear up whatsoever. I still have no idea what the timeline is. So, far no one had mentioned the earrings to me. I search the closet thoroughly but nothing. I gave the room one more look then close the door behind me. I couldn't help but feel like I wasn't just closing the door of the room but of something far more precious.
I look around amaze at the sounds filing the hallway. Nobody gave me a single glance. Doctors and nurses were all focus on one room. Screams could be heard coming from the room. A nurse came out with blood on her gloves. I turn my head away unable to bear to see any more. I walk towards the lobby area. Ladybugs parents will be here soon. Since it didn't take long to get discharge than previously thought.
I make my decision to wait by the main entrance. I turn to my left and freeze on the spot. I've never thought I would meet him like this. There in the corner of the lobby sit a broken Cat Noir. He sobs into his hands. His body is trembling with each sob. He resembles a lost child more than the confident Cat Noir I know.
I glance over to the door on the opposite side of the room leading to the elevators. My body moves before I think it through. I chew on my bottom lip trying to come up with a line. I open my mouth to say the dumbest line.
"Are you okay?" I crouch down in front of him.
He flinches at my question.
I quickly smack my forehead. Stupid! Of course, his not okay!
"I'm so sorry for bothering you but you seem like you need a shoulder. Perhaps talk to someone, I can get you a nurse, if you want."
He slowly looks up from his hands. His pretty green eyes are blood shot. He pierces me with a look of such grieve and agony. I move once more unable to think. I pull him into my arms. I thought he would push me away instead he holds me tightly to the point it hurts. He sobs into my shoulder. I rub his back feeling lost on what to say. I bet Ladybug would though. She would keep telling him it will be okay. Except. I think she would be wrong. The sight of Cat Noir brings me to a conclusion I wish with all my might, I'm wrong about. Please, don't tell me, I'm early in the timeline to the point I'm witnessing the day Cat Noir lost his mom.
Someone yanks me by the collar of my shirt pulling me from Cat Noir. I turn my head to see Hawkmoth in his civilian form glaring daggers at me. Wordlessly he roughly grabs Cat Noir taking him to the patient rooms.
I rub my hand on my neck, I flinch at my own touch. He actually went as far as scratching my back. Yet, I'm not mad about it, the look in his eyes. He looks too broken at this point. It's this the turning the point? It's this when begins he becomes the villain of the story?
I stare at the doors thinking of dumb excuses to go in, to somehow stop this from happening. But whatever I say to him won't change anything. He'll still search for any from to save his wife. He will go as far as to used people for his goal. I walk away feeling another weight on my shoulders.