MIDORIYA

I walk into Shinsou room plopping down on his bed. I still feel off from my drinking last night. It was a serious struggle to even get over here. I felt like blocks of cement was tied to my ankles. I grumble wishing I could feel like normal and not…..this.

"Let me get you some water," says Shinsou walking out of his room. I lay on my side on his bed. I like being close to his window. I'm still trying to figure out what happened last night. Todoroki kissed me. He lips felt so cool, wet and soft. He said he has a boyfriend but we kissed. I don't know how to feel about this. I got out of there as soon as I could walk. I sent my mom a text letting her know where I would be. My tummy feels upset and my head is slowly starting to hurt.

"Uugghh…" I groan as Shinsou walks into the room handing me some water. I sit up so I can drink it.

"Here," says Shinsou tossing a bottle on the bed. "You're probably going to need that too. It's not like you to get drunk."

"I didn't get drunk….." I mutter. "I just think the alcohol hit my system all at once." I sit the water down to take the pills. "God, I don't think my head has ever throbbed this badly."

"That can happen as a result of being drunk," says Shinsou folding his arms. "I know you would usually go home so what is the real issue."

"I kissed Todoroki," I reply.

"What!" he exclaims. "I swear it always something with you."

"I don't know what happened," I mutter rubbing my temple. "Like seriously we were talking and the next thing I know he is kissing me. Didn't last or anything because he pulled away saying something about his boyfriend."

"Boyfriend?" questions Shinsou. "Seriously, he's gay?"

"I don't really know," I reply. "We didn't really talk about it. He ran from the room after that." I wanted to chase after him but I was in shock.

"Wow…." says Shinsou leaning forward in this chair. "So he is not only gay but a cheater at that."

"He's not a cheater!" I exclaim. I know Todoroki would never cheat on his boyfriend. At least I would like to think so. "This was seriously an accident on both parts."

"I don't believe that," Shinsou replies shaking his head making his purple hair sway back and forth. "I mean maybe if it was just you I could but Todoroki…..he doesn't make mistakes." I drink some more water knowing deep down he is right. Todoroki doesn't usually make mistakes.

"It's hard to explain," I reply after much thought. "I'm still trying to figure out what happened."

"I know you like him," says Shinsou says with a shrug of his shoulders.

"No, I don't," I reply.

"You do," says Shinsou. "It's not a big deal really, unless your mom marries his dad." I don't even want to think about that. I want my mom to be happy though…..

"I don't like him like that," I replied looking down not even sure if I believe myself.

"Seriously Midoriya," says Shinsou. "He is all you can talk about."

"I was worried about him," I defend. "He wasn't talking to me….."

"So?' says Shinsou. "Who cares? You don't owe him anything. I'm not trying to sound mean, but I mean you sound like you have feelings for him."

"I can't…." I sigh. "It wouldn't be proper."

"So are you admitting you like him?" asked Shinsou. I begin to blush because I do like talking to him, being around him. I feel relaxed like I can be myself. The only other person I feel close to like that is Shinsou. Shinsou chuckles. "Midoriya you could have anyone, why him?" I sit there thinking about what Shinsou is asking. I honestly don't know…..why Todoroki….

"You had your first kiss and it clearly wasn't planned," states Shinsou. I blush further. My first kiss is dare I say perfect. The kiss wasn't planned but it still felt meaningful in some kind of way. "How was it? Must have been good if you're flushing like that."

"It felt good," I admit. "I can tell Todoroki knows how to kiss very well. He wasn't going all fast like I have seen some people do. It was slow and nice…"

"He doesn't seem like the romantic type," says Shinsou. "You never know though." I nod. "Besides all that excitement how was the party?"

"Everyone from class A was there," I reply. "They are all really nice. I got to meet a few of them. Kacchan, well he is still the same."

"God, I wish I had the chance to fight him my second year," states Shinsou. "It was so hard when everyone figured out how my quirk operates."

"I know," I say sadly. Shinsou got far my first year at U.A. Todoroki was actually the person who took him out as he doesn't talk much during battle. His 3rd year they know what he could do so it was much harder. "Todoroki got some good gifts though."

"Did he like what you got him?" he asked.

"He smiled," I replied with my cheeks still burning. Shinsou raising an eyebrow.

"I'm not trying to start anything, but I think he likes you," says Shinsou.

"He doesn't," I reply. "We barely talk…"

"You talk enough," says Shinsou. "You must have gotten through to the guy somehow." Did I really? I wasn't trying to. I just wanted him to be nice to me. Now he is. "I'm surprised you two even drink together."

"He doesn't drink a lot," I replied. "I think. He said before he only does it when he has to deal with his dad in stressful situations. Shinsou huffs.

"Isn't that like every day?" he asks.

"Not so much since he is dating my mom," I reply. "Todoroki isn't complaining."

"I bet he isn't," says Shinsou. I can tell he is growing tired of the Todoroki talk. I move on to asking Shinsou about the hero course on a college level. He was able to show me some fighting moves he has learned. Makes me want to learn to defend myself because I really don't know how. I guess I could use that dojo certificate Enji got me. As I lay down in Shinsou bed waiting for the alcohol to wear off I can't stop thinking about Todoroki. Does he really like me? I just don't know…

A MONTH LATER

Valentine's day. It's always nice seeing all the girls at school get flowers and candy. I have yet to date anyone, so I don't know anything about that. Maybe one day… I'm heading to my dorm building when I see Todoroki. He doesn't even glance my way as he seems to be engaged in a conversation on his cell phone. I look away not missing the fact he hasn't gone out of his way to speak to me. I have done the same but that doesn't mean I'm okay with it. I sigh thinking about how I bet the restaurants are crowded. I stop walking hearing something that sounds like a small argument. I can't help but glance his way. Todoroki appears beyond agitated.

"I'm still at school," he states. "No, I can't go home tonight. My dad will be there." I begin to listen closely. I never heard Todoroki talking to well his boyfriend before. "I will make it up to you. I can't talk about this right now. Stop it you're pissing me off." Todoroki glares at that phone. "Did he hang up on me!" I watch as his phone bursts into flames. Oh my god! I run over to Todoroki as he puts his phone out which his ice. "Just great."

"Hey….." I say softly. "You okay?"

"Do I look okay!" he snaps. He shifts his eyes down taking a deep breath. "I'm sorry Midoriya….I just don't want to talk out in the open."

"I get it," I replied. I don't want to leave him leave like this. He looks so crushed. "Did you want to come to my dorm to talk?"

"Yeah," he replies. "God forbid I give my classmates something to talk about." As we get closer to the building, I become completely nervous. I haven't spoken to him in a month. Todoroki follows me into the dorm for general studies. I'm lucky I don't run into any of my classmates. I pull out my key unlocking my dorm. Todoroki walks inside looking around. My dorm use to be decked out in All Might gear but I toned it down my 3rd year wanting to be seen as mature. I'm glad at this moment because I would be so embarrassed to see that side of me.

"Sorry, I don't have any of the fun stuff you have," I reply with a slight chuckle. I am referring to the liquor I know for a fact he would be having right now if he was at home.

"It's okay," he replies. "I don't have any of that here on school grounds anyway. Is okay if I sit on your bed."

"Of course," I reply. Todoroki stares at me his face unreadable.

"Why did you invite me here?" he asked.

"W-what do you mean?" I stammer.

"I haven't spoken to you in a month," he states. I wasn't expecting him to acknowledge it. "Why are you being so nice to me?"

"You seem like you needed a friend," I explain in a quiet tone. "I didn't think me asking you here would be such a big deal." He sighs again.

"I'm sorry," he apologies. "I have been having some issues with my boyfriend."

"I'm sure you guys just need to talk it out," I say wanting to be positive. Part of me wants to know about his boyfriend. What makes him so special to be the one to claim Todoroki. Other people may not know about their relationship, but he obviously cares about this guy.

"I was trying but he hung up on me," says Todoroki. He runs his hands through his hair frustrated.

"Sounds like this may be a deeper issue," I state. Todoroki looks at me.

"You're really smart," he replies. "I feel that way as well. I haven't spoken to him about this. It's just a feeling I get. Like something has shifted." I shift my eyes away from him.

"I don't know your boyfriend, but I know you would probably date someone who is sound as yourself," I reply. "I can't see them just hanging up on you. Why aren't you taking them out tonight?"

"I have my reasons," he almost growls. I guess I shouldn't have mentioned them going out on a date then.

"It might be why you guys are having issues," I reply. He gives me a look that reflects how mad he was before his phone burst into flames. "I'm just saying."

"That and other things I'm sure," he replies. "He told me he loved me."

"He did!" I exclaim. I'm happy for Todoroki. Why doesn't he look happy…..

"Well he really said he was falling for me," explains Todoroki. "I know what that means." He sighs deeply. "I like him, I really do. If I didn't, I wouldn't be with him, but I don't love him."

I stare at Todoroki trying to decide what to say. He doesn't love his boyfriend, but he likes him. Todoroki only hangs out with people he likes. From what I have seen that number is small.

"You're admitting you don't love him," I reply. "Is there a reason why?" Todoroki actually blushes.

"It's like something is missing," he admits. "I know love is not something you can force it just happens." I nod in agreement.

"Well, just see what happens then," I reply.

"It's been over a year," he replies. "I don't know….."

"Hey sometimes it can take longer to connect the dots," I reply. "This isn't something you exactly want to rush."

"I guess you're right," he replies. "Um so I wanted to talk to you about what h-happened after my party." I'm not use to Todoroki stumbling over his words. We are both blushing as I begin to fidget playing with my fingers.

"I'm sorry," I apologize. "I don't know what happened." I think I do now but I'm not ready to admit it.

"I don't either," says Todoroki softly. "I have a boyfriend. My dad is dating your mom. I don't know what the hell that was." I glance at him. He looks like he felt confused, but he also looks scared slightly. I'm not going to say anything about that though. "It won't happen again."

"Totally," I agree feeling slightly disappointed. He said that so sternly. It doesn't matter. Nothing should happen between us. I need to take my mind off things. I come up with an idea. Call me crazy or call me stupid but it is worth a shot. I stand up. "You know what. Instead of being cooped up here. Why don't we go out? Take our mind off everything." Todoroki gives me a small smile.

"Okay," he replies. Holy shit, I didn't think he would agree. "Let me get out of these school clothes."

"Great," I replied doing my best to contain my smile.

"Meet me at the gate in 15 minutes," he replies. "At least we get to take my car."

"So true!" I exclaim. I wish I had a car. I allow Todoroki out of my door before turning to run to my closet.