TODOROKI

A MONTH LATER

Takami is cuddling into my side. I have so much built up sexual frustration and I gladly took it out on his ass. I have been seeing him more often. I have been trying to connection to him but it doesn't feel the same. Even the sex doesn't feel fulfilling anymore. To make matters worse I feel like I am cheating on Midoriya. He is falling in love with me and I think I'm already in love with him. It's very frustrating to say the least. It's not like we can really be together. Midoriya hasn't spoken to me since that day. He doesn't even look my way. I need to end things with Takami.

"Shouto….what's wrong?" he asks. I guess I am thinking about things too hard that he noticed. I am usually not that readable.

"You know how I feel about you using my name," I reply. He rolls his eyes.

"You're no fun lately," he pouts. He begins to run his pointer finger lightly over my chest as if he is drawing a picture. "God I can't wait until you tell your dad about us."

"About that," I reply. I clear my throat. "I want to end our relationship." Takami pulls away from me quickly. He glares me intensely.

"You can't be serious?" he questions.

"You know I don't joke like that," I reply. "Takami, you're a good man but I need some time." I can see the fury enter his eyes.

"Time for what!" he exclaims. "I barely even fucking see you anymore!" That is a lie. I have been seeing him 3-4 days a week.

"Whatever," I reply running my hand through my hair. "I'm changing Takami. I need space to grow." I can't tell him the truth. I know it would only hurt him, make him angrier. He stands up putting his hands on his hips.

"What the fuck does that mean!" he exclaims. I slide out of the bed walking over to my clothes.

"I'm not trying to argue with you," I reply. We have been doing that more and more lately. Ever since he saw Midoriya making googoo eyes at me as he says, he has been trying to suffocate me. I had mid terms, that shit with Midoriya, my father is getting married, I'm in my 3rd final year of high school. I can't deal with him right now.

"I'm not arguing," he replies walking over to me. "I'm trying to understand why out of nowhere my boyfriend is ending our relationship when we were suppose to be coming out in 2 more months. I just….I just don't understand." I sigh because he isn't wrong. What I am doing makes no sense. Takami doesn't deserve this.

"I need space," I reply.

"I was already giving you space," says Takami. "I mean I know you are taking your dad's divorce badly but that doesn't have anything to do with our relationship." That comment pisses me off. I may have not spoken to my mother, but my father literally strung her along. Then officially cut ties with her when he found some new woman to be his wife. He divorced my mom a few days ago. No offense to Midoriya mom. She probably doesn't even know the truth about my mom. I barely know the truth myself. Only what my father told me which is very little.

"Don't speak on what you don't know," I reply as I start to get dressed.

"You must think I am stupid," says Takami. "What is the real issue?" I'm buttoning my pants not saying anything. It would have come to this regardless. Our relationship changed. There is no denying that. Even he knows this. I reach for my shirt.

"The problem," I state pulling my shirt over my head before continuing. "You're clingy as fuck to start. You weren't in the beginning but in the past couple of months you have been demanding more of my time. Did you forget I am a high school student? You do shit when I tell you not to. Like using my first name or fucking me without a condom. I can't deal with this shit anymore." Takami face turns red. "Oh, you thought I wasn't going to figure that out. Yeah I know you fucked me raw on my birthday." I walk out of his room listening to him run behind me.

"I love you Todoroki," he says. I stop walking because he actually sounds really emotional and not like the strong front I am use to him having. I feel like I can't face him. He loves me but I don't love him. I get myself together manning up when I feel his hands rub my shoulders. I turn around to face him.

"Takami, I don't love you," I reply.

"Not everyone falls in love at the same time," he replies with so much hope in his eyes. "You care about me, I know you do."

"I do," I reply. "However, I still want to end our relationship. I can't hold you back. You need to live your life. I'm going to be living mine." It would be selfish for me to hold on to him. I would only want a physical relationship not emotional. He needs to be with someone who wants the same things as him.

"You're not holding me back Todoroki," he replies grabbing my face into his hands. "I feel like you make me better in so many ways. If you want space to grow I can do that. There is no need for our relationship to end." Takami leans up kissing me. I return the kiss for a moment. Kissing him doesn't even feel the same. Not even close to what I feel with Midoriya.

"I'm sorry…" I apologize against his lips before pulling away. "I can't…..we can still be friends." Takami nods his head folding his arms.

"You got everything?" he asks looking off into his living room.

"Yeah," I reply. I pull out my key ring pulling his key off handing it to him. I only used the key a few times to let myself into the condo but he was always here. Takami takes the key. "I'll….um leave you to it." I don't know what else to say. I leave his condo. Soon as I shut the door, I can hear him begin to cry. I feel like shit. I know what I am doing is for the best.

I think about Midoriya as I'm on the way to the dorms. I still don't understand how I could fall in love with the one person I can't have. I wasn't even trying. It's hard for me to relax because every time I do I can hear his cries all over again. It's not just the fact he won't even look at me at school. He has managed to come up with good excuses and hasn't been to the house either. I would complain but I can't be around him. I don't know how to act. The things I do think about are inappropriate.

I pull in the school parking lot when my phone goes off. I see it is my dad calling. I would ignore it, but it could be important.

"Hello," I state.

"Hi Shouto," he greets. "How is your day going?"

"It's school, not much to say," I reply getting out the car.

"You ready for finals?" he asks.

"Always," I reply walking towards my dorm. I listen to my father chuckle.

"That's what I wanted to hear," he replies. "I was calling you to let you know we are going to the beach for spring break." I look at the phone making sure I am indeed talking to my father. "You still there?"

"Yes," I reply keeping the shock out of my voice.

"Inko wanted to go to the beach," he explains. "Midoriya seems to be depressed or something. She thinks a change of scenery will help." Oh no, don't say it dad. Don't you say it. "I think you two could use a little brotherly bonding. I rented a nice house on the beach. I want you two to share rooms." Oh god, that is even worse than I thought.

"I don't want to do that," I reply immediately on the defense. "We are grown. We can still bond without having to share rooms."

"Why do you think they have the men share quarters in the army?" he asks. "You're sharing rooms and that's final."

"Whatever," I reply using my badge heading into the building. Something tells me I am really going to need my booze for this trip.

"Is that attitude I hear?" he asks almost snarling.

"No sir," I reply.

"Good," he replies. "Do good on the finals and I will see you in 2 weeks." I end the call with my father more than glad to be off the phone with him. God so not only do I have to be around the guy I shouldn't be in love with, we have to share rooms. Fuck my life.