TODOROKI
I smile to myself peaking down at Midoriya. He laying on my chest recently falling asleep. He tried to stay awake but couldn't. I'm so glad he went out with me tonight. It made things more bearable and dare I say it felt like a date. I lean down rubbing my nose into his hair.
"I love you," I whisper into his green curly strands. Midoriya hand on resting on my waist tightens a little before relaxing. Did he hear me? I don't care if he does. My mind wonders back to the day he found out about Takami and I. So much was going on at that time. This was the last thing I was expecting to happen.
I had to beg my dad to not have a graduation party for me. High school is officially done. I am fucking glad. I'm getting ready to leave my father's office. I have my schedule for the first week. I wanted a little breather and will be starting in 2 weeks. Midoriya and I just got moved into our apartment. We still have a lot of unpacking to do. We spent most of the first day building our furniture and getting everything in place. I chuckle to myself because we fixed up his room, but he always sleeps in my room. I have a king bed while Midoriya has a queen. I can sleep on it but not super comfortable. Although it does make cuddling much easier.
"Todoroki," I turn around seeing Takami in his hero uniform. He is walking across the entrance of the building.
"Hawks," I reply.
"How are you?" he asks.
"Doing good," I reply keeping it short.
"You busy?" he asks. "I would love to catch up." I stare at Takami deciding what I should do. I need to keep him in my corner in case I do need that job at the agency. We are suppose to be friends after all. Friends do these kind of things, hanging out I guess.
"No, I'm not busy," I reply. "We can chat, coffee?"
"You know it," he replies. "Still got that fancy car?"
"Yes," I reply. "I need it to get to work. Not all of us have the luxury of flying." We walk out of the building.
"Doesn't do jack shit when it is raining or snowing," he replies with a sneer. I chuckle making him giggle.
"Is it okay if I ride with you?" asks Takami.
"Of course," I reply. I turn off the alarm unlocking the doors. Takami adjusts his wings before sitting down. He can sit inside vehicles but to my understanding it can be extremely uncomfortable for him. I get behind the wheel taking off to his favorite coffee shop.
"I saw your graduation by the way," he states.
"You did?" I question glancing at him. He nods. I didn't invite him for obvious reasons. This is a total surprise to me. I wonder how. Takami is easy to spot out in a crowd.
"How could I not," he replies. "You worked hard to get to this point."
"I did," I admit. There is this awkward silence. It's weird because I don't know what to say to him. Before this wasn't a problem.
"What was you doing at your dad's agency?" he asks breaking the silence.
"Getting some things settled before my start date," I replied. Takami is glaring at me. He clearly has many questions. "What were you doing there? I know it wasn't to see me." He chuckles.
"Running into you was a pleasant surprise," he replies. Sure it was. "I'm working on case with your father believe it or not."
"Had no idea," I reply. "It's not like he talks to me about his work."
"Um hm," hums Takami. "Did you want to go to your room? I'm in no mood to be dealing with fans."
"Since when?" I ask glancing at him. Takami loves interacting with fans. He considers that more important than actual hero work.
"Do I need to have a reason?" he asks.
"No," I reply trying to think of what to say. He sounded offended that I asked. "I don't live at my father's home anymore."
"What?" he questions. "You were able to move out? How is that possible?" I pull into the parking lot not sure if I want to tell Takami the truth. I mean we are suppose to be friends but I don't trust him with everything. I don't say anything getting parked. I get out of the car.
"I will explain that once we get to the apartment," I reply. "I would appreciate it if you didn't tell anyone where I live." Takami laughs.
"Acting like a celebrity already," he states as I open the door for him. We both order coffees and I get a hot chocolate for Midoriya. He will be glad to see this when he comes home. Doesn't matter the weather he loves his hot coco. We get settled back into the car as heading towards the apartment. Takami notices it is a nice apartment downtown. "This is not too far from me, nice."
"Nice?" I ask. "I will be working a lot so it's not like I'm going to have free time."
"There is not enough work in the world for a rookie to afford living down here," states Takami. "Hmmm….."
"I'll explain once inside," I reply parking in the garage. My dad is suppose to be taking Midoriya to get a car this upcoming week. He is super nervous as my dad told him he can have anything he wants. He doesn't know a lot about cars so I will have to show him some options. I click on the alarm leading Takami inside our building. I lead him up the steps inside our unit.
"This is like a small house," he replies peering around before sipping his coffee.
"It's more space than needed," I replied. "Feel free, have a seat."
"Not going to give me a tour?" he asks.
"No," I reply. "As you can see, I'm still unpacking and setting things up. Maybe once everything is done I will." I don't mean it. He doesn't need a tour in my opinion. I sit Midoriya hot coco on the coffee table. I make sure to use a coaster. The side tables we got were pricey.
"Your father purchase all this?" asked Takami sitting across from me. He crosses his legs sipping his coffee.
"Yes," I reply. "I am working for my dad and in return he is paying for my finances." Takami rolls his eyes.
"I didn't expect you to sell out," he replies.
"I didn't," I state coldly.
"You sold your soul to the devil for a lifestyle," he replies. "You could have moved in with me and got the same treatment."
"I didn't sell my soul," I reply trying not to snap at him. "I have a good plan in place." I sip my coffee holding back what I really want to say to him. Takami is trying to figure out what happened. I can see it on his face.
"This is why you turned down the deal," he replies. "To work at the agency. I knew there had to be more to you wanting experience at your father's agency." Takami is not stupid.
"It is," I admit. "I hope you understand. Sounds like you don't."
"I can't lie, if I could be 18 and have my parents pay for everything, I wouldn't turn it down," he replies. "How is the wedding coming along?"
"Fine I guess," I reply. "I'm not really involved in that process. I think we will be getting fitted 3 weeks out. Midoriya is better at keeping up with the dates."
"Ah, how is the kid?" he asks. I don't like when he refers to Midoriya as a kid. It feels like he is trying to insult him.
"He's fine," I reply. "How are things with you? That case must be pretty big for you to have to work with my father." I am purposely changing the subject.
"Yeah," he sighs. "It was recommended by the government that I work with him on it. Otherwise, I would be going about my business."
"I see," I reply sipping some of my coffee.
"Todoroki can I level with you?" he asks.
"Depends on what you want to say," I reply. "I don't want to talk about us."
"Shouto…."
"Todoroki," I correct him. Takami grunts.
"Todoroki, I love you, a lot," he replies. "Can you please give our relationship another chance? We can start over….get to know each other. Maybe then you can see how well we gel together." I sigh because in this case it is because I love Midoriya that I can't. It has nothing to do with Takami as a person.
"Takami I can't," I reply. "I'm sorry that I don't return your feelings anymore. You are a wonderful guy, but I need for you to move on. If you can't, we aren't going to be able to be friends." Takami sits his cup down. He flaps his wings causing me to bring up my left arm in flames. Takami drops down in front of me.
"Fire?" he questions. "Since when have you used your flames?"
"Since I decided I want to be the best hero I can be, "I reply. I allow my flames to simmer out. "Please don't rush me like that." I stand up. "Anything else you want to talk about that does not include our past relationship." Takami slowly walks up to me with his eyes watering.
"You can be so cold," he chuckles before sniffling a little. "I love you so much. It is clear you don't love me. Never have…" I close my eyes because it's true. I never loved him. I honestly don't think I would have. I didn't feel the chemistry, the bond as I do with Midoriya.
"I'm sorry," I apologize. "I'm sorry for everything." Takami chuckles nodding his head.
"You met someone," he replies. I don't say anything as I stare at him. "Wow…." He shakes his head. I am beginning to feel uncomfortable.
"I think it is time for you to go," I state walking over to my front door. Takami grabs my hand stopping me.
"Why them?" he asks. "Why them over me?"
"Knowing will change nothing," I reply with my back still to him. "Besides I don't think I can even explain it." I don't say anything further. I don't need Takami figuring out it is Midoriya.
"That tells me everything I need to know," he replies. "I guess this is goodbye." I turn to face him.
"For now," I reply. Takami lunges forward kissing me. I turn out of the kiss. "Don't do that. You know I'm with someone."
"You never said that," he replies lowly. "Just that there is someone else." I realize my mistake. I go to speak when Takami kisses me again. He wraps his arms around my neck as I try to gentle pull him off me.
"Stop this!" I exclaim.
"One last time," he whispers before kissing me. He can't mean what I possibly think he does. His wings press into my back down the length of my body. I'm struggling when Takami opens his wings pushing me hard. I fall onto my sofa hard thinking I was going to hit the floor. Takami flaps his wings jumping into my lap. He sharpens his feathers pointed at me as I see the lust enter his eyes. "You're a wonderful person Todoroki."
"Thank you for acknowledging that," I reply. "The old me would have broken a limb for you doing this. Get off me." Takami reaches for my pants. I swiftly grab his wrist. "No." Takami rolls his hips. I can't even move unless I want to be sliced by one of his feather blades.
"It's not like you won't enjoy it," he states. He undoes my pants looking at me. I grit my teeth growling at him. Takami stares at me shaking his head. "Todoroki…." He hiccups. "I'm so sorry…." His feathers relax enough to where I can move. Before I can, I hear Midoriya squeak followed by our lamp on the side table being knocked over. Hearing glass breaking cause me to towards the front door.
"I-I'm so sorry….." stammers Midoriya shivering in the corner by the door. We have a nightstand to the left when you enter the apartment with a beautiful glass lamp. Not so much anymore. I barely notice the glass pieces on the floor. Oh my god. Midoriya is shaking. I can only assume what he is thinking. Takami jumps off me flapping his wings fiercely.
"What the fuck are you doing here!" barks Takami landing on his feet close to Midoriya. Takami is mad. He rarely raises his voice. I scramble to my feet. "Bitch you don't know how to knock."
"Takami!" I shout standing up not caring I used his name instead of his hero name. Him calling Midoriya a bitch is uncalled for. "He lives here."
"The fuck you mean he lives here?" he questions glaring at me.
"It's none of your damn business," I reply. "No need for you to be acting in this manner. He is my roommate." Takami slides his hand into his hair. He looks guilty as he should. He jumped all over my Izuku.
"Sorry about that," he replies glancing at Midoriya who is shaking still. "I didn't mean to…um yell at you."
"Glad you apologized," I reply. "Leave." Takami looks over his shoulder as if what he did was okay.
"Can I grab my coffee?" he asks.
"No," I snap. "We can't be friends anymore. What just happened is inexcusable. Not only did you disrespect me but Midoriya."
"You're overacting," he replies rolling his eyes.
"No, I'm not!" I yell losing my patience. "Get the fuck out!" Takami looks back at Midoriya who is now crying silently. Fuck.
"What the hell are you crying for!" sneers Takami making a fist with both hands. "I said I was sorry." He doesn't sound sorry at all. I walk over opening the door. Takami walks out of the apartment without another word. I slam the door close before focusing on Midoriya.
"Izuku," I say reaching for him.
"Don't touch me," he whimpers while shuddering. "Oh god….your pants are still open." I look down buttoning my pants as Midoriya runs to the hall bathroom across from his room. I run after him trying to think of what to say. I get to the bathroom to see him vomiting into the toilet.
"Izuku, are you okay?" I ask. I'm very concerned as I listen to him continuing to throw up.
"A-Am I not good enough for you?" he sobs. I drop to my knees beside him.
"No!" I exclaim. "I love you."
"What was that?" he asks finally staring at me. "I know what I saw…"
"Izuku no…." I reply. "He touched me on his own. I was trying not to hurt him." Midoriya stands up and wobbles. I stand up quickly touching his arm.
"I said don't touch me!" he snaps snatching away from me with tears in his eyes. He blinks slowly with his eyes fluttering. "S-shouto…." Oh my god. I catch Midoriya into my arms. I'm so glad he is not heavy.
"Izuku, are you okay?" I ask.
"I need to lay down," he whimpers. I scope him up into my arms taking him into my room. I sniffle because I did this. I should have cut Takami off from the beginning. It is clear he is not over me. Our friendship is over. Takami can't handle us being friends. He will always remember what we had. I should have never brought him here. I lay Midoriya in my bed feeling more stressed than I have ever felt in my life. I cool my hand putting it to Midoriya temple.
"I'm so sorry….." I apologize lowly. I stare at Midoriya afraid to take my eyes off him. I keep thinking what am I going to say to him? I hope he doesn't hate me. I could never forgive myself if he does.
"Shouto…." he says lowly. His voice sounds so pained.
"I'm so sorry," I apologize. "How are you feeling?"
"Broken hearted," he says shifting his eyes. I grab his hand squeezing it lightly unable to hold myself back any longer. It is time he knows the truth.
"Izuku, I have to tell you something," I reply. "I never wanted to tell you this because it was too much to carry. Takami um Hawks was my boyfriend." Midoriya eyes stare back at me in confusion. He stares at me. I can tell when it hits him.
"W-what….." he stammers.
"It's a long story," I reply. "I can explain it to you when you're ready to listen. As I stated previously, we broke up. He wanted me to take him back and I said no. Just when I thought he was coming around he kissed me. Asked for sex one last time." Midoriya blinks and I notice tears streaming down his face. "You don't forgive me?"
"I'm so stupid," he cries covering his eyes. "Hawks cornered me one day."
"What!" I exclaim. "What did he do to you!" Midoriya sniffles.
"He wanted to know what teens now days like," he explains. "He said he needed birthday ideas for a teen. He was talking about you….oh my god." I almost thought Takami had threatened him. Before I would never think this but after this afternoon….I have my doubts. I'm completely stunned because I would have never guessed that Takami would have gone up to Midoriya for advice. I remember he gave me his apartment key. Not exactly something you give a teen. Midoriya begins to cry harder. Hearing him like this actually makes me cry to know I hurt him. I look down not wanting to see Midoriya to see me cry. I feel him shift with the bed moving. Soon I feel his arms wrapping around me. He is hugging me so tightly. "Shouto….." I'm not sure if I should but I slowly wrap my arms around his waist. Midoriya cuddles his face into my shoulder.
"Izuku…" I say softly in between sniffles. I would feel like a total cry baby. I love him that much I don't care. Midoriya and I just hug each other for a moment. I'm scared to move after a while. What if he says he doesn't want me anymore? How can I even think that when we really aren't together? Midoriya pulls out of the hug observing me. He almost looks like himself but not at the same time. The sadness behind his eyes are still there.
"You did nothing wrong," he says softly. He touches the side of my face gazing into my eyes. "I love you but….I got scared seeing him, see you both like that. I thought maybe I'm not enough." I place my hand on top of his.
"You are more than enough," I reply. "You're the love of my life." Midoriya smiles before I kiss him. I love him with everything in me. Moving forward I will make sure to protect him, protect us from anything and everything I can. His happiness is everything.