(I'm Quitting Writing Fanfiction)

Hello readers. It has been well over three years hasn't it? It really has been quite a while. I...well, I don't exactly know how to start this page. There's so many things I wish to address, and...so many things I want to speak out from my mind. But every time I type it out on this page, I feel like each one is not enough to exactly justify my silent disappearance or not exactly what I want to say.

I'll start out by saying that this may be long, and I hope that you will please read all of what I have to say. And for the record, this does not reflect my status in real life, I am physically and mentally fine. This is only to address my status on this site and my decision on what to do next.

First off...I probably must've disappointed all of you, haven't I? Even though I only had two short stories, they each had potential to become more and you were probably expecting for more to come from my stories. Even excited. And you all waited patiently waiting for me to update them and bring out newer stories; waiting for days, to weeks, to months, and now years. After so long, you've all must've got sick of waiting and decided to just move on to different stories far better than mine. I honestly cannot blame you. I failed all of you.

Believe me, I too wanted to do more with my stories. There was so much ideas that I wanted to bring out for everyone like you to read and enjoy. But back then, I was simply a newbie in the site that just read many fanfics from different authors and grew inspired from them, and decided to do write my own with what I enjoy. But like I said, I was a newbie.

I didn't know much about writing fanfic and decided to just go with the flow and figure out what I can do from there. I didn't plan for anything or necessarily provided any set goal (By that, I mean I know how I wanted it to go but never knew how to), only to just write what I like and go from there.

I'll admit, after reading the negative comments from the first chapter of "The People With No Destiny", believe it or not I was acting like a coward and felt attacked by it. Especially acted more of a coward to another criticism of what I said in my author's notes on "Tale of OOO" and ignored it. Even though I shouldn't have acted that way and simply just listened to your reviews and fix what went wrong with the story. And I honestly did just that, I was on the middle of not just rewriting the chapter, but starting all over again because lets be honest, it wasn't exactly planned out perfectly. And when I was writing the newest chapter, I grew lazy and procrastinated often that I ignored my story and barely did any further progress on it. And when I did manage to return back working on it, I got caught up with so many things in real life that I barely had time to work on my fanfic. I couldn't keep focus on what I wanted and struggled hard to come up with even a sentence.

I was honestly kind of arrogant, but not where I would ignore any negativity and simply listen to my own opinions. Rather, I was arrogant into thinking that I can do better and that I can write whatever I wanted.

And it's the truth. I was lazy, procrastinating, barely kept on my own pace, and honestly arrogant.

So I decided that if I can't work with People With No Destiny, then I should just switch to a new story, so I can keep my creative flow going. It was going well...for only a little while. I kept deleting page after page, after each one wasn't how I wanted it to go and kept getting frustrated each time. Then I went onto a new story, and the same thing happen. Each time I kept getting frustrated and frustrated, feeling like I'm stuck on the hole that kept getting deeper and deeper.

After that, I decided to take a break that was meant to be short but grew longer. From days to months. I couldn't figure out what to do, what to write, or how to start. I was getting stressed and even emotional from not even accomplishing what I set out to do. An whenever I do return to writing, after dealing with personal stuff in real life, I couldn't properly focus. I wasn't in any mood to work or do anything, and just felt too stressed from dealing with so much happening.

I put everything on hold in isolation, essentially disappearing from the site without a word, and ignored them. I did respond back to a few private messages in regards to the status of my stories, asking if I'll be updating them or if I'm making any progress. At first, I did say that I am or able to, but after a year of asking again for statuses, I responded back by saying that I lost interest in writing.

And it's the truth. It's really the main purpose of writing this.

I have lost interest in writing. And I'm quitting writing fanfiction. I'll still be on the site, but as of recently I've been growing distant from the site and might completely stop at one point. But I'll still keep browsing, reading, favoriting and following until I eventually do stop. But I'm completely done with writing.

I don't have the spark to write anymore like I previously had three years ago. I lost it.

By the time you've read to here, you're probably even more disappointed. Saddened. Maybe even angry. I can't blame you for the latter, you have every right to be. Believe me, it was never my intention to disappoint any of you. I truly did wanted to write something for everyone to enjoy, but as I've mentioned before, I grew neglectful of my work and simply left all of you.

I'm more ashamed of myself, if anything.

I let all of you down. And it does bring me with a heavy heart to write this. Once again, I'm ashamed.

I neglected all of you, and promised you with stories, only to go back on my promise and simply vanished without another word. I won't hold it against you if you're disappointed or mad.

There is simply no excuse or justification of me to suddenly return after three years of silence, expecting an update to my stories or a new work, only to receive this letter of me resigning from writing. I'll be honest, I've been genuinely feeling regret in ignoring everything and didn't have the guts to return back to the site and explain the reasoning why. I was a coward, short and simple.

I understand if you're frustrated or even angry with me. I will not hold it against you, as I mentioned before. You have every right to be.

I don't even want your forgiveness. I just simply want you to listen and understand. Whatever you wish to do next is up to you.

This part will go out to two users: cjboughton and Exciterider2002. Even though it was only for a short while, I did actually grew inspired from your comments.

cjboughton, I want to thank you for assisting me with my stories and providing any feedback to them. You were there for me whenever I was struggling and helped gave my creative spark back. Even though it was only short while, I considered you as a friend.

Exciterider2002, I probably disappointed you the most haven't I? I have no excuse for you. Believe me, even though after months and even years of my neglect, I still remembered your ideas for the Garo X Ever After High crossover story you posted in your review and genuinely did wish to bring your idea to life. But I didn't keep up my promise. I'm sorry. You deserve better. You all do...

I feel a bit better writing this. But I still feel ashamed for abandoning all of you, and I don't think I can forgive myself for that. Even though it's really been short ever since I uploaded my first story, I genuinely did appreciate your time in reading my stories and reviewing them.

If you have made it this far in reading this, then thank you for taking your time in reading all of this. I'm sorry for wasting your time.

Well...I guess that's all I have to say. Is all of this too dramatic or too serious? if so then I apologize, is what I'm most slightly comfortable with and wasn't trying to be too dramatic or serious.

Before ending this, I want to announce that my stories and those you've seen on my profile and those that weren't published will be declared dead upon uploading this and will not be allowed to be adopted. I actually do have fondness for them, and I wish to still keep them here on my profile. I'm sorry if any of you wanted to adopt them. Once again, I'm sorry for anyone disappointment in regards to that.

Lastly, I'll be posting this on my main profile page so that any of you readers, new and old, could be able to read it in case you're not able to for some reason.

So now, once more, at the bottom of my heart, I want to thank all of you for taking the time to read all of this and for bothering to keep up with my stories. You are all amazing people. And even though it was only for a short while, you've all been great and I should've came forwards years earlier instead of hiding away.

I don't know what else to say. In fact, while currently writing this, I'm actually struggling in writing what I want to say here. So with one last note, I wish each and everyone of you a good luck, and may each day from here on out become better for you.

Once more, with the bottom of my heart, thank you for taking the time in reading this.

I'm sorry

-RangerFan1102 (2018-2021)