Hello my lovelies!

Are you still along for the ride with me? this is so late and overdue and I am so sorry! I hope everyone is doing as well as possible in this crazy new world we're living in. It's been such a scary time and where I live is actually doing quite well we were even free of the virus for a short period. Anyway please stay safe and smart out there guys.

I know last chapter wasn't the most exciting, fillers are necessary though, so hopefully this one makes up for it.

-Let me have some feedback so I know I'm not alone in being the only one reading the story still! LOL-

Okay that above sentence was written right after the last chapter. And it definitely does not fit in anymore. I have gotten so many kudos and even comments on the story. I don't know if it's the pandemic, Midnight Sun or the Twilight Renaissance but I love it! It was hard feeling like I was writing this just for myself even though that is my number one reason for ever writing a story but I of course want others to enjoy them as well.

Anyways, let's get it started! Xoxo

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BPOV

What is my life? This seems to be a reoccurring question for me. It's become tenfold now that magic has been added to the mix.

I never imagined how much and how fast everything could change in just hours. How am I here in Jake's room, kissing him more passionately than anything I've ever experienced, both of us half dressed. And that's nothing compared to the fact he's a werewolf and I'm his...his soulmate. Okay cringe.

Maybe my plane crashed on the way to Forks and this is all some crazy limbo dream I'm stuck in before going to the afterlife.

No, this is real, so very real. I've never felt so turned on, happy and just, *complete in all my life.

Was I really able to push down and deny my true feelings for Jacob for so long? It seems impossible now.

Jake's mouth is hot, wet and persistent on mine. And I'm keeping up with his enthusiasm. It feels as though he's trying to taste my soul with just his tongue.

I'm addicted and I need more.

I've always felt comfortable and even confident in Jake's presence. But right now, I feel almost cocky. His breathing is as ragged as mine and he's hard and heavy against my stomach. I felt Edward several times through our clothes as well but it was nothing like this. Jake is a 6'7 tall, 108 degrees and a wolf...

None of it is better than being able to touch and show him how I feel though. The rejection and frustration from dealing with the opposite from Edward must've affected me more than I knew.

When I realize I'm ready to take that step with Jake, it doesn't surprise me. We've known each other his entire life and almost the same for me. No matter how fast it may seem, I know I've harbored feelings for him for longer than I'm willing to admit.

I'm still surprised at how inexperienced Jake is. Happy though, definitely happy. I feel petty and stupid for thinking that. I'm the one with an ex and yet I was jealous of girls that only existed in my imagination.

He's mine now, and knowing that has my heart as full and whole as it's ever been.

However, if he's not on the same page, I'll wait as long as needs. I just hope it's not too long, this neediness inside of me is taking over.

Finally, Jake traces his fingertips slowly down my body to my hips where he grabs the hem of my borrowed shirt. He doesn't move for a moment, the pause ensuring I know his intentions.

My only answer is to suck on his tongue and arch into him. A strangled growl, that barely covers a whimper, escapes him. Jake pulls the shirt over my head and we only break our kiss long enough for him to remove it.

We both moan when our bare chests touch one another. Jake continues our dance of lips and tongue as he lifts me up before crawling along the bed and depositing me back on his pillows.

Kneeling between my legs Jake just stares at me. His eyes admire every inch of my body and he only stops when I make to move my arms, feeling as if I should cover myself.

Jake grasps both of my hands with one of his, pinning them to the bed above me.

"Don't you dare." He leans down and says against my lips. "You are fucking perfect."

All I can manage is a whimper before Jake crushes his mouth to mine. We're frantic and panting, his hot, wet tongue wraps around my own and this kiss alone is making my toes curl...

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JPOV

All my blood has rushed south, not leaving enough to allow my brain to have a clear thought, therefore I really don't know how far I want to take this today.

I don't want Bella to think I've just been trying to get into her pants all this time. No matter how much I've wanted to, and for a fucking long time too, she is so much more than that. And I'll wait for her as long as she asks me to.

But right now, with Bella pressed against me, her warm, wet tongue massaging my own, her fingers on one hand tugging my hair and rubbing over my chest with the other. I need her, fucking bad.

I trail my hands slowly down her body to grasp the hem of my shirt and lift it from her hips slightly before pausing, showing her what I want and allowing her to stop me. She doesn't falter at all, if anything Bella only leans more into our kiss.

The wolf must take over for moment because the next thing I know Bella is beneath me, resting on my pillows. I honestly don't remembering moving.

I finally allow myself to slowly soak in every inch of of her perfect, pale skin. Bella is flushed from our kisses and that infamous blush of hers spreads lower than I thought. *Goddamn.

I must have been lost in the sight of her for too long because Bella tries to cover her body. Without thought, my hand snatches her small ones and pins them down.

"Don't you dare." I almost growl against her mouth. "You are fucking perfect."

Our lips crash together, both of us whimpering and I don't care that Bella heard me. I need her to know how much I want her, how I've always wanted her.

Bella wraps her legs around my waist as her hands push on my chest and I roll us so she's straddling my lap, mahogany waves framing her face and the ends grazing her breasts. Our gazes lock and we sit there staring at one another for a long time as the storm strengthens outside, but the rest of the world seems far away in this moment.

Somehow I keep my hands on her hips and my disappointment at bay when Bella moves off of me, mainly because her delicate fingers tug at the waistband of my sweats.

I only feel the smallest bit of nervousness from her, and seeing as it mirrors my own I don't question her actions and instead help to remove my pants. When they're somewhere on my bedroom floor, leaving me completely naked, I look back at Bella to see the darkest blush ever on her cheeks.

After a few a seconds of Bells staring at me, I get why she tried covering her chest earlier, the silence is unnerving. Her anxiety has heightened with her heart rate but her desire has also quadrupled and it's making my tip leak precum despite feeling exposed.

"Bells..." I prod.

She actually gives a small shake her head and blinks her eyes before meeting my own. "Guess I shouldn't be surprised that you're big all over huh?"

I can't hold back and pull her down to my chest for a hug. "Probably not." I say and kiss her hair. "We can stop whenever you want."

Bella sits back up and moves back down the bed raising an eyebrow at me. "Then we won't be stopping anytime soon."

Her eyes and hand lock onto my cock as she caresses then wraps her fingers around my length, the tips not touching.

"Tell me what you like." She murmurs to me as she grips me harder, locking her eyes onto mine.

I'm already gasping for air, this won't take long. "You. Unghh, fuck, just you touching me." I growl out, my hands gripping my sheets as I try not to flex my hips too much.

Bella bites her bottom lip and looks back at her hand working me over. Her free one then tentatively, cups my balls, her inexperience only showing through the slight tremor to her fingers.

She is exploring my body and it's turning her on, I can smell it. I'm done for. No one has ever touched me and this isn't just anyone here, it's Bella fucking Swan, the star of all my fantasies, I never stood a chance. I've never felt this good and so close to the edge this fast in all my life.

"Bells I'm gonna - *oh shit." I groan, spurting streams of hot, white cum all over her hands and my stomach.

It takes me a minute to catch my breath, I've never cum that hard before and when I open my eyes, Bella is wiping up the mess I made with the shirt she had on before.

"Soo that was okay?" She tentatively asks me once she notices I've come semi-back down from my high, not meeting my eyes.

I grab her and flip us around so fast even I'm shocked, the move was mostly wolf. Once she's back underneath me, I answer her. "Mind blowing Bells, I can't wait for more." I say against her lips just before I kiss her, my tongue wrapping around her own.

Bella arches into me, a small moan escaping her and I can't wait any longer. I start trailing kisses away from her pouty lips, across her jaw and down her neck, stopping to suck and mark her behind her ear. I make mental notes as I go of what she likes and I can smell how wet she got from that and somehow more desire pulses through us both.

I try to stomp down the guilt I feel at using the pack's sexual trysts as a guide but I'm green as they come and need the help. And now that I've started I can follow her cues and listen to her body to learn what makes Bella feel good.

I was worried about phasing, a lot of the guys have that on their mind, even though there shouldn't be anger associated with an act like this, we're still learning what it means to have this burden and responsibility of our heritage encase our entire lives. We can't just go by what is written in history, in the stories of our elders anymore, we respect them but we can look at things differently now and times are different.

Sam has been concerned that it's not just anger that can cause us to phase against our will but simply high emotions and I've never been more emotional than I am right fucking now. But I don't feel any hints of that side of me.

Certain things I want to do to her, plus I know my strength, my speed, those things are present in my mind right now but I didn't even think about phasing until it was over.

I slowly lick from Bella's ear down her neck to suckle on her collar bones marking her lightly, I know I'll have to hide my bites on her clothed body parts but I couldn't resist, I want everyone to know and to see she's mine.

Bella is panting already, grinding her hips up, trying to find friction. I slide my thigh in between her own and she starts rubbing against me, causing me to be fully hard once again.

My cock weeps onto the bed as I run my fingertips across her pink nipples. In normal sized hands, Bella is a perfect handful and her skin is so damn soft. I massage one and try to slow my breathing as I kiss my way to the other.

I start gently licking, swirling then sucking on her pebbled skin. Her reaction is instant, Bella grinds down hard onto me as she arches her back. I suckle her roughly and she tugs my hair to the point I notice. Bella likes it rough, I must be dreaming…

"J-jake," Bella moans and I feel my leg become wet where she is rubbing on me.

I can barely think I'm so fucking turned on but I have to chill the hell out and not ruin this for either of us.

Inhaling a deep lungful of Bella I trail my mouth down her stomach, lick into her belly button making her laugh before it turns into a whimper when I make another mark on the skin where hip meets pussy.

It's as difficult as my first phase but I skip the heady scent and what I know will be glistening lips at the apex of her thighs and instead smell, kiss and suck the skin of both of her inner thighs. Worshipping her.

Bella's knuckles are white from gripping my sheets and the panting breaths have returned. After I've teased us both to edge of insanity I pull back and up on my knees to finally look at Bella's beautiful, pink pussy.

Her (surprisingly) almost bare center makes my cock jump and leak in anticipation. "Fuck Bells, you really are perfect." I half growl to her as I squeeze my shaft, trying to find some relief.

I can feel her nerves creeping back in the longer I admire her so before she can get too self conscious, I quickly throw her legs over my shoulders, hoping she knows where this is going. I rub my hands along her thighs, massaging the tense muscles before I dive right into her heat.

I waste no time gently licking her from the bottom of her slit all the way up to her clit with the flat of my tongue. Bella was already wet to the point the bed is damp underneath her but that one move had her gushing over my face.

"Ohh my god, Jake*!" She yelps and one hand finds my cropped hair again, pulling hard.

I repeat the same motion until Bella is trembling and then I push the tip of one finger inside of her. She tenses immediately so I suck on her clit until she is a puddle of Bells.

"Holy shiiit, oh ohh!" The rest of what she said I couldn't make out but that was loud and clear. Thank fuck we're alone.

While Bella is lost in the new feelings I'm giving her, I slide my finger all the way inside her pussy, knuckle deep. She's lost to the sensations now. I keep alternating suckling her clit or using fast licks against her as I add another finger inside her body.

Bella's only reaction this time is to push herself onto my hand harder, making me finally relax a bit. I've been so damn nervous I wouldn't please her, no matter how much I awkwardly replayed the pack memories.

I didn't know what the fuck I was doing or looking for when I hooked my fingers deep inside her but it didn't take long to feel the ridges behind her clit. That was her undoing.

Bella arches her back, tugging my hair with wolf-like strength before her pussy clamps down my digits and her juices flood my mouth. And she tastes like the sweetest fruit I've ever had.

"Unghh Jake!" Bella yells as I slowly and gently remove my fingers and lick her clean. She's over sensitive but I can't help myself, she tastes so fucking good.

Once Bella's breathing calms down I kiss her thighs and lower stomach until she props herself on her elbows to look at me. She's a dream. Flushed skin, hair a mess and a happy, sated look on her face. When our eyes meet I suck my wet fingers into my mouth, groaning at her sweetness.

Bella is embarrassed for a split second before desire hits me like train.

"You good Bells?" I ask her, my voice deeper and rougher than usual.

Her mouth opens and closes a few times before she giggles, shaking her head. "Good? Jake, that was amazing, I've never felt like that or …." She trails off, breaking our gaze.

I climb back over her, forcing Bella to look at me again. "Or what?" I ask against her lips.

She bites that goddamn lip and even though I want her to finish her thought, I can't help tugging if free with my own teeth, sucking it into my mouth.

"I'll do the biting from now on." I tell her once I release her. Bella is getting wetter, I can smell her again. "Now, what were you saying?"

She's determined when she answers me, "I've never cum that hard before." Bella never looks away from me, and even though her voice loses some conviction in the middle of her admission it still has my heart skipping a beat with how much I want her.

I crash my lips to hers and we're a mess of teeth and tongues. I massage my way up her stomach and back to her chest, rubbing her nipples and trying not to touch our pelvises together.

I break our kiss to let us breathe, "I want you Bells, right now, what do you want? We can stop." I don't add that it may kill me since that doesn't matter, where we go from here is up to her.

She looks up at me like I've lost my mind. "Don't stop Jake, please don't stop. I want you too, so much." And then Bella raises her hips, grazing her wet slit along my cock and I'm seeing stars.

"Fuck Bells, I don't want to hurt you." That's the only reason I'm hesitating. It hurts for most girls their first time, let alone with a werewolf.

"I know but it'll hurt whenever we first do it and I don't care. It'll feel good too, you make me feel good." Bella tells me, her hands caressing every piece of skin she can reach.

Leaning my forehead against hers I try to bring myself back from shooting my load right there at her words. "If you're sure." I tell her, looking into her eyes making sure she knows how much this means to me.

Bella nods, smiling, holding my face. "I am Jake, I love you."

I kiss her slow and deep, blinking away the moisture from my eyes. "I love you Bells so damn much."

I resume our kiss, propping myself up on one elbow as I run my other hand down her body and rub circles around her clit until she's writhing beneath me. Only then do I push my same two fingers inside her, stretching her as much as I can.

When my palm is wet from Bella I finally and, only a bit shakily, remove my fingers and line my head up with her pussy.

We both gasp when my tip pushes into her body but I keep going until I'm half way inside of her, that's when Bella freezes in pain.

"Bells, honey, fuck I'm sorry. Should I stop?" No matter how goddamn good this feels, all (fine, maybe not all) my pleasure is disappearing knowing she's suffering.

Bella opens her eyes wide, and even through the pain there's lust in her gaze. "No, please don't stop. Just keep going slowly. You're so* warm, it's helping already."

Her breath is still staggered but she's not lying, the pain is ebbing. I nod and kiss her mouth as I bottom out with a slow, deep thrust of my hips.

Bella let's out a groan of pain and stops breathing for a moment while I mentally recite every word I know in Quileute to keep from ending this before it begins.

I busy myself with stroking her clit and when she begins to relax so do I. We stay that way for a while and as I begin deeply kissing Bella's full lips waves of lust and pleasure begin coming off of her again.

She wraps her legs around my waist and throws back her head. "Ohh, Jake."

I can't hold back any longer, I slowly pull out of her tightness, just my thick head left inside Bella's body, before pushing back in, pressing our bodies together and my tip nudges something deep within her.

"Fuck Bells." I growl into her ear and I repeat the motion over and over until she's trembling beneath me.

I trail my mouth back down her neck, sucking on her nipples trying my damnedest to make her cum again before I do. The wolf in me also wants to mark their mate but the man pushes him away knowing I have to ask her first.

Bella is moaning my name non-stop and our bodies are making wet, erotic sounds where we're joined. It's too much.

I run my hands along her legs, grabbing one and pushing it more towards her chest and she screams, her pussy squeezing me tighter than ever.

"Jake! Oh god…." I roll my hips slow and hard against her a few more times and she falls over that edge again. I can't pull my hips back, her heat is clenching my dick so hard. I keep my hips against hers and rub circles over her clit with my thumb, while my thighs and sheets become damp with her orgasm.

When her muscles finally release me, I pump my cock into her three more times before my own orgasm shoots through me, blinding pleasure making my vision blur as I come, my body shaking, balls deep into Bella.

We stay connected, forehead to forehead, hands entwined above us for so long I lose track of time. We don't say anything, we kiss, touch, smile and enjoy one another while the storm outside rages on. We didn't even know how much it picked up while we were making love.

Losing our virginities. Holy fuck, I lost my virginity…..to Bella Swan. *My Bells.

My heart skips a beat at how much I love her, how happy and complete I feel. I haven't felt this at ease since before I lost my mom. Bella really is the other part of me I didn't know was missing.

She looks as if she feels the same. The smile hasn't left her mouth and she just gazes up at me every so often.

It takes effort but I slowly remove myself from Bella and lie down, immediately pulling her to my chest. She nuzzles against me and sighs, I only feel love and contentment from her.

A little later, Bella comes back to bed after using the bathroom and it hits me.

"Shit, Bella, I didn't use a condom." I sit up watching her walk back to me, hips swaying and my dick jumping to half mast immediately. But my heart is hammering from nerves.

Bella climbs over to me, holding my face. "We're good Jake, I've been on the pill for years for my period." She explains.

I huff out a breath and wrap my arms around her, pulling her to me. "Not that I have any." I admit, making us laugh. "I should've checked, I'm sorry."

Bella kisses me, running her tongue along my lower lip but only letting me tangle my own with hers for a second. "Don't be sorry, I know what I'm taking, I would've stopped you if I wasn't on anything." She smiles, erasing my concern and guilt.

We fall against my pillows, tangled together and fall asleep.