Chapter 64: What to Do?

Derek took some big gulps of his beer the second it was opened as Mark watched him, "What the hell is going on with you?"

"You seem to be fitting into the family role well." Derek avoided Marks question by making a statement as he collected his thoughts about his present situation.

"I am falling in love with Izzie, I love her... Shep I love her... and Hannah... it is strange. I am okay with Hannah being here and Izzie having a child. Hell, I never thought I would want to settle down, much less with a woman, and a 15 year old daughter."

"Izz deserves happiness, and she seems to be happy." Derek said a little preoccupied, but trying to be supportive of his best friend.

"Ok, stop... you need to talk. I knew when you suggested we come out here you needed something. It was written all over your face."

Derek sighed heavily knowing he needed his best friend. "Jill called today."

"And?"

"She wanted to talk... I think she wanted to try to get back together or something. I don't know, it is strange she is calling."

"What did you tell her?" Mark asked curiously.

"I have found the love of my life." Derek said seriously.

"Really?"

"Hell yeah. I love Meredith. I want to marry her, have children with her, and die in her arms when I am 110 years old."

Mark laughed, "That will be pretty old."

"Yeah, but I will be hotter than your ass and I bet Mer and I are still going at it... like rabbits."

"Well, if you can still get it up you will be a sex god... we both will be then because I sure plan on it when I am 110 as well."

They both were laughing hard before Derek took another swig of beer before settling back on his real dilemma, "Meredith doesn't know she has been calling."

Mark sighed, knowing this was a hard situation, "Does she need to know."

"Yes, I think so. Jill... I don't think she will deliberately try to hurt anyone... but, honestly Mark, I can't say for sure what she will do." Derek looked straight ahead for a few seconds.

"Shep... I don't think she is as innocent as you have always thought. I would watch her."

"You think?" Derek wondered.

"I know women. I think you need to talk to Mer."

"How do I even bring it up to Mer?"

"I can't answer that, but think of it this way. Would it be better for her to hear it from you, from Jill calling her, or showing up here? You definitely don't want her to just show up, that is never good." Mark made his points while drinking his beer.

Derek took a deep breath, "Yeah, I do need to tell her... sooner than later. I just don't understand why she is calling now." He thought for a few minutes, "You said you saw her, and she said she was moving?" He inquired.

"Yeah. That is what she said. That is why I am surprised she is calling you to get back with you or whatever she is trying to pull." Mark never liked Jill as a fuck buddy for Derek. Derek seemed to be in between just fuck buddy and a relationship with Jill, but, Mark always knew she could be trouble. She liked that Derek was a doctor, wanting to be a nurse herself, but never actually going to do it. She would have possibly stayed with Derek and even trap him because that was her... and her personality and Mark always knew it.

"Something is up Mark, I know it. I may have to call her back... and find out."

"It may not be a bad idea." Mark suggested.

"I need to talk to Mer first. I can't... I think it will be better for me to be honest with her than not."

"I am new at this relationship thing... but, yes, I think in general, honesty is the way to go."

Derek looked at his best friend a little shocked at all the good advice. Before, Mark would have said to screw both of them at the same time if they would go for it, but now, he was actually giving advice and it was actually good. "Well, Izzie is really a good thing for you."

Mark smiled, trying not to let it show how he really felt, but he couldn't help it, this... whatever it was felt so damn good, "I have never felt this way in my life."

"I am really happy for you. The only problem is you live in Denver and she is here."

Mark sighed having thought about this, "Yes, we have talked a little about it. This works for now and after that... I don't know. Hannah is really accepting this, so for me to come and stay the weekend will be no big deal and hopefully we can go to the condo sometime."

"I am glad we decided to buy it. I think Mer and I want to go for New Years for sure and at least a few times before then. It could be fun."

"Tons of fun!" Mark said excitedly.

"Beer... we should get another one and go in to make sure there isn't too much gabbing about us."

"They can't resist talking about their hot boyfriends."

"Hannah is in there with them so I doubt they are saying a whole lot." Derek chuckled.

"So, you don't think Izzie is talking about the screaming orgasms I gave her last night and the fact she is the blow job queen?" Mark amusingly answered.

Derek shook his head and busted out laughing, "Oh, how I have missed having you around all the time."

"I know... Shep, I miss you."

"You miss me? How sweet." Derek mocked.

"Shut the fuck up, you know what I mean." Mark lightly pushed him.

"Come on, let's head in." Derek said standing up, feeling much better by just getting that off his chest"

They walked in and Derek immediately noticed Meredith intensely focusing on something. He smiled hugely noticing she had a little flour on her nose. He loved that woman standing in the kitchen more than he had ever loved anything in his life. He walked over to her and stood behind her.

"What do you need?" She asked smiling to herself feeling his presence.

"I wanted to watch my beautiful girlfriend make icing for the best cookies ever. I hope you are learning how to make these... they are my favorite."

Meredith giggled, "I am learning the best I can, but this is harder than it looks."

"Yes, I think you are wearing most of it."

"I am not." Meredith defended.

"You so are." Hannah laughed on the other side of Meredith.

"Oh, so I see how it is, I must have missed the notice about all ganging up on Meredith... the non-baker." Meredith looked to Hannah and playfully rolled her eyes.

"We love you." Derek said kissing her head. He thought about her all the time. They hadn't been together long, but he wanted it all and knew she was the one... the only one for him. As crazy as it sounded, he wanted to look at rings... and talk about it with her.

"Sure, you do." Meredith rolled her eyes.

Derek wrapped his arms around her, causing her to put down the icing she was making and said into her ear, "I love you Meredith Grey and never ever question that."

Meredith melted into his arms, "I love you Derek and neither of us will question our love for each other."