I'm now 24 and in a very healthy relationship for the first time with my beautiful girlfriend. We plan on getting married on Halloween! Then in January I should be heading off to basic training for the Army.

I've been super busy with work and I've been finding it hard to find time to work on any of my stories. Again if they don't specifically state that I have abandoned it then it isn't.

Clexa is my lady jam and has been since I first heard of them back in 2017. I started the series even though I knew that she would die and good god y'all I was not as prepared as I thought I was. Fucking bawled for close to an hour after watching her death for the first time. I don't like Bellamy and I know that some people don't agree with me and stay firmly planted with Bellarke. I have gotten into fights with people about this. I get that they have always tried to help the other lead and do the best for their people but it reaches a point that I can't agree with. I was already on the fence with him in season 2 but then he pulled all that shit in season 3 and I was done with him. I know he probably redeems himself but I just can't. Sorry not sorry.

Anyone watch 'Booksmart?' This will be the only movie I ever endorse to others. I don't like to watch movies because to me they're boring. It takes a lot for me to sit down and actually watch one when I would rather be reading or doing something else. This movie though? It is amazing! Gigi is and will always be my favorite from that movie. I have also read almost all of the fanfiction that has been written on Ao3. #noshame

I am now re-writting 'When the Fog was Lifted' and working on 'Restart to You' and 'Bear With Me'. I have put 'The Forgotten' on the back burner for now because I really want to finish 'Restart to You' and 'Bear with Me'. Not only are those two my highest viewed stories but because they are fun to write.

'My Fall' , 'Restart to You' , and 'Bear With Me' are all on Articles of our Own. My account name is clexa4lofe2014! I really don't like that I couldn't get the one that actually had the i in life but whatever.

Bear With Me - Twilight Bella/Kate

-Bella is a bear shifter who loses her mom at a young age.

-I didn't think I had to put this but just so people know, Bella will follow her instincts heavily in this story. This means certain situations she will respond too strangely.

My Fall - Lexa/OC(Kara)

-A full rewrite of When the Fog was Lifted. Won't lie it is going so much better this time around.

When the Fog was Lifted (The 100) -Lexa/OC(Kara)

-Complete: This was my first story and while the plot was a good idea, I didn't execute it properly. This means there are a lot of spelling and grammer errors. I would rather rewrite the entire thing than try and go back and fix everything.

The Shift (The 100)- Clarke(Shifter)/Lexa (Incomplete and abandoned)

-Clarke shifts just in time to save Anya from certain death. I am So sorry for abandoning this story. It wasn't properly planned out and I ran out of ideas to continue with it after only a couple chapters.

Restart to You (The 100)- Clarke(Sent back in time)/Lexa

-Clarke is transported back in time by Beca to fix the future.

-This is my main story that I work on. Currently have half the outline for Chapter 8 done (8/27/19)

The Forgotten (The 100)- OC who is Clarke's twin/ Ontari (Taking a time out with this story as I try and finish both 'Restart to You' and 'Bear With Me'

-OC (Mal but changed to Diana in Chapter 2) is the sister of Clarke and was placed in the skybox where it then fell from the Ark and landed in Azgeda territory. The Queen raised her along side Roan so that she would have a worthy heir for her kingdom.

-Some people are also under the impression that this is going to be a feel good story. It isn't nor will it be. This is one that I usually only work on when I am going through some shit and am stuck in one of my valleys. Also a reminder that Diana isn't going to be a good person. She was at the most crucial part of her development when she landed in Azgeda and was instantly taken under the wing of the Ice Queen. Her decisions will be for what is best for Her nation and not the coalition. She will kill who she has too and is quite blood thirsty about it. She is in a way the opposite side of the coin as Clarke. Instead of a peaceful solution she will always want the one that will have more blood shed. SHE ISN'T A GOOD PERSON!

Forest Spirit (I have included what would have happened in this)

-Attempted re-write of The Shift (Incomplete and abandoned)

-Clarke is a wolf shifter from her father's line and loses her memory shortly after shifting. This is pretty much a one shot unless I find more motivation to finish.

For those who want to know, Raven will take over for Clarke and make the decisions that she feels are best for the 100. Finn dies from the stab wound from Lincoln, who escapes with Octavia. The deal at the bridge actually works though, because Jasper dies and doesn't fire at the grounders in the trees. Lincoln still becomes a reaper and when they get him through the withdrawals the cease fire is officially cemented (obviously happens after this next bit). A ceremony is done where both Raven and Anya get tattooed symbols that symbolize the 100's integration into Trikru, as Trikru. Almost all of the 100 save a few stay with their new village. The one's that don't want to stay go back to the Ark when it comes down.

At first those on the Ark don't want to fall in line with the treaty that the 100 made but once Lexa comes with the full might of the army from only Trikru, they back down. Especially when it is slipped that this is only about 1/6 of the entire army that Lexa has at her demand.

Clarke wouldn't get her memories back until a fight with the puana and won't learn how to shift back to human until after the bombing of Ton DC when Abby finally realizes that the wolf that is always with Lexa is actually her daughter. Clarke would never leave and the deal wasn't offered at the Mountain to Lexa. The mountain will still be irradiated but this time it would have been Clarke and Lexa because Raven is on the table.

Season 3 would have been when the coalition was introduced to the 'Forest Spirit' Clarke. The Ice Nation would have captured her, while she was on a run around Polis with Emmerson's help because he was able to get into the Mountain and steal supplies. Clarke wakes up still in wolf form locked in a cage with a collar that can monitor heart rate and when she tries to turn back into a human will be shocked (her heart rate shoots up to almost twice what it normally is when she shifts). For a couple months she is kept in The Crater. An arena where others are sent to fight. She is their main attraction and is pitted against all sorts of animals and people. Due to the strain it causes on mental state and the pull to return to her mate, Clarke slowly loses all sense of self. This time her wolf doesn't have her bonded to remain calm and becomes feral. Only living to kill. Only living to serve those who can give her the kill.

Almost a year and a half after she is captured, Queen Nia finally removes her from the Crater. Training her to only serve Azgeda. A war breaks out because she had Emmerson destroy the Mountain where almost half of Skaikru had moved too. 3 other clans break from the coalition and join Azgeda in their endeavor to control the coalition. Due to Sankru, Ingranrona kru (Riders of the Plain), and Boudal an Kru (People of the Rocks) joining Azgeda, their army almost matches the rest of the other clans army.

The first place that is attacked is Arkadia but the only people that remained was Pike and his supporters because Abby and Kane were able to convince those who didn't support Pike in his xenophobic beliefs to leave. Many other villages as well move their people closer to Polis and away from the borders of those who they are at war with.

Lexa is finally able to declare way against those who have broke from the coalition because until that moment she had had no proof that Azgeda taken Clarke. This didn't mean that hints weren't be dropped from their ambassadors and from Queen Nia herself when Skaikru was inducted as the 13th clan. She begins to hear stories and reports of a large wolf that is often found with the main forces from Azgeda. Of an animal who only seemed to kill and destroy everything in its path. She knows that it is Clarke because of their connection. She can feel the rage that seems to almost always come from her side of the bond.

The war carries on for another month before Bellamy (because he isn't a dick in this) and a few other warriors able to take down the wolf before bringing it to Polis. Clarke is kept sedated until they finally figure out a way to remove the collar. This doesn't mean that Clarke is free though. It takes over a month to finally get her to turn back into a human and even then she doesn't fully comprehend what is happening around her. Choosing to attack anyone that comes near her cage.

During this time Lexa has led her army to the border of Azgeda after destroying the 3 other clans, leaving only a few villages and warriors alive. The new leaders of the clans were given a warning that if anything was attempted again then their clans would be no more. They would be forced into the waste lands and never allowed to return.

Lexa doesn't know that Clarke has finally been captured because she was always with Azgeda forces who have pulled back to their borders when she finally defeated Sankru. During this time it is in the summer time and they are able to push back all the way to their capital. Indra is killed by Queen Nia during the final battle before Lexa finally kills her. A few of Skaikru's people are also lost during the campaign (Miller, Harper, Monty, Marcus, Monroe). Roan, Echo, and Ontari were all killed as well. Roan and Echo left the Ice Nation and pledged to fight for the coalition. Octavia is inducted as a general after the death of Indra because she was never removed as her second. Lincoln is almost killed and loses his right hand in the final battle.

When they finally return to Polis, Clarke is now spending almost all of her time in wolf form. She won't attack anyone anymore without reason and many of the nightbloods come to see her. This helps her a lot because she can remember spending large amounts of her time around the children. They make Clarke feel at peace around them but when anyone else comes near she won't allow them to touch her or be within touching distance. Titus also helps Clarke as well (he isn't a dick in this as he believes Clarke was sent to them from the Great Mother and believes that Clarke will be the only one worth to be with Lexa). He makes her spend time in human form and teaches her to meditate. He forces her to accept what she has done. That life is filled with hard choices and terrible situations especially those who are chosen by the Spirits.

Lexa isn't allowed to see Clarke at first mainly because she doesn't want to see her. Doesn't want to see the pity or hate in her eyes for what she has done.

As the months go by and everything calms down, Clarke only sees Lexa in her wolf form. She doesn't spend time in human form until almost 2 and a half years after she was first taken (war took almost a year to end). She finally accepts what she has done and while she doesn't feel proud of her actions she does feel proud of herself for surviving. For not giving in and ending her life. The story ends with them kissing. (Yes I made the ending kind of dark but I couldn't make all of my stories all touchy feely or make Clarke the hero in the entirety of the story. If you like the plot then you can take and change what you will. I know the second half is a hard pill to swallow for those who love a good Kick ASS Clarke story but I can't have all my stories be where she is the hero. Felt I needed to give Lexa her time to shine in the things that she has been prepared for her entire life).