Diggle and Roy were in the lair when Felicity appeared there, each of the two men took her in their arms, happy that she was again in this place, that was their second house in some way. When John explained to her that the archer was waiting for her at his apartment, she replied that she knew that she had already spoken to him.
When Felicity began to gather her belongings, the men were confused asking her why. Felicity stiffened telling them in a torn breath, "Oliver doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. He doesn't trust me anymore about the team and its mission. He's mad at me for hiding my problems from him.."
Oliver heard the door close, turning around not believing she really left. . When he realized that she was gone, he blamed himself for not saying anything to stop her. He couldn't control his anger, his jealousy,she spent a week with another man and didn't even deny the detective's feelings. She was with this man, alone, had anything happened ? What should he do? To repel her again, so as not to risk her being hurt, let her live her life elsewhere with another man, like this Billy.
Or was he supposed to accept the chance that he had been given and to change things between them, to become more than partners, to be able to take her in his arms? Why did he still hurt her when in his dreams he had been so happy to find her, to understand that she had not died in the end. He lay down on the sofa and closed his eyes, he needed to calm down before he made a decision.
At the Verdant, after calming Felicity , Diggle took her to the bed in the den. He offered her to rest here, while he went to see Oliver at home to understand what was happening. She accepted, closed her eyes and fell asleep.
When she opened her eyes she found herself in her living room again, the love of her life was lying on the couch since he had not yet felt her. She approached slowly, kneeled in front of him to watch him sleep. She knew they were in their dream and she thought it was probably the last time they would connect before he woke up. She blew gently and decided to say goodbye to him in this way.
"Oliver, I want you to know that I don't mind you reacting this way. I understand it and I'm going to have to live the rest of my life knowing that I lost you because I made a bad decision a week ago. But you must also understand that I will always do everything possible so that nothing happens to you. For the last two years I have been the voice in your ear, I have done everything to make sure you are not hurt, as well as Diggle and Roy. I thought I was doing exactly the same thing this time, I was protecting you as you always did for me. It had nothing to do with trust, only with the love I feel for you," she let tears flow over her cheeks and land on the ground.
"I'm going to leave town tonight, not with Billy as you're probably going to believe, alone, and I hope one day I can read on the internet that you'll have found the love of your life, as you are the love of mine. Thanks for letting me be in your life for these two years, be careful watching the streets and be happy. I just hope that I will always have a little place in your heart and that I will stay in your memory. I'll never forget you. Goodbye My Love".
She gently laid a kiss on his cheek, got up slowly and headed to the place where she had appeared.
"Please don't leave me," he says with a shaking voice.
The young woman stopped her movements but dared not turn around, she was relieved that he had not let her go without saying anything.
"You're back"
"No Oliver, I didn't come back," she says turning around to look at him.
The archer got up from the sofa and approached her, and took her hands "But you are here"
"Yes, because we dream together. Our bond always works... I think... I'm not sure... I don't know why, but we're in a dream. I'm currently in the bunker, lying on your bed...Perhaps that's why we're connected...That we're together, but not really together... not because of the connection but..." she stopped talking when she saw him smiling "Why are you smiling?"
"I like to hear you babble, They missed me... I missed you"
"That's not what you made me feel earlier, you let me go."
"I didn't want to, but...wait!"
"What! " asked the young woman.
"I feel I wake now, it's new," he says, smiling "I'll meet you in the bunker"
She didn't have time to answer that he had disappeared, she woke up in the bunker thinking about what had just happened, felt he was waking up, their connection changed. She decided to cool down a little while waiting for her archer to arrive.
Oliver woke up at the sound of a blow at the door, got up and found Diggle looking hard at him Diggle didn't even let him say hello before he started to attack him by asking him what could have been going through his head shouting at their geek, making her believe that he no longer loved her and wanted her to leave the team. John was so angry at the vigilante that he was ready to hit him to get his mind back.
The young man didn't answer leaving the former military man to moralize him for his misbehavior towards their blonde friend. When he finished his tirade, the vigilante explained to him that he had seen Felicity in a dream and that he had to join her in the bunker. Diggle asked him not to spoil his chance. The archer replied that he was done pushing her away. He caught his helmet and his keys and left towards Verdant.
Oliver avoided all red lights, slaloming between cars to arrive as soon as possible. When he stepped down the steps two by two he came in front of the computer station but didn't find the one he wanted. He looked to the training corner, then the bed, but she wasn't anywhere. His heart beat quickly, he began to believe that his dream was only a dream, that he never saw her near him in his apartment, that she never told him the words he had heard. A tear was on his cheek doing nothing to stop it, he really lost her. The woman of his life, whom he once again repelled and that he didn't want to listen and understand, left the city.
He gently touched the chair where she used to sit to guide him in the missions, with the heart squeezing, he started typing on the keyboard to see if she had left him a farewell video like the last time, but when he didn't find anything, his heart became even more tight. He had hoped so much that the link between them was still there. His heart was breaking right now. How could he let her go when he wanted to be with her more than anything?
"I'm sorry Felicity," he says in the vacuum, "Please come back to me," screaming in the empty space.
"Oliver" called the young woman coming out of the bathroom.
The young man turned around seeing the woman of his dreams before him, he advanced quickly, taking her in his arms, squeezing her with all his might, thanking her for staying. After a minute, the young woman walked away from his arms heading to her office where the cardboard was with her belongings.
"I blame myself for making you suffer and lying to you," she says without looking at him, "But you could have accepted my apology, instead of treating me the way you did."
"Felicity...you have to understand that this week was a nightmare for me," approaching her slowly.
"For me too, Oliver" she whispered to him "And if you were the one who was in my place I would have accepted your decision"
"Of course you would have accepted, you're stronger than I" his heart pounding in his chest, "I've never been so devastated in my entire life" he told her, watching every nuance of her face to see if she missed him as much as he missed her.
"When I agreed at the end on his plan I knew you'd be disturbed, because I've known you for three years now and I know how you react to every mission I take part in, you don't want anything to happen to me because we're partners but..." she looked up to him, "I didn't know you would be so hurt to learn that I was dead. That you were going to suffer as much and that..."
"Felicity I've never felt as much pain as when I learned that you were dead, you're very important to me, that you're no longer in my life...it's unthinkable." Oliver cried out afraid he finally went too far.
"You never did anything that would make me think we could be together. I always thought you only saw me as the team's technical support."
"Felicity you're so much more," he took her hand. "You're all for me...And it's true I never showed what I felt for you, but I told you in our dreams..! I love you." He had to make her understand before he lost her again.
"You really think so. You're just telling me because you thought I was dead and tomorrow you're gonna push me away again," she asked, looking at him.
"No, it will never happen again. I thought it in dreams and still think it now. I love you more than anything, forgive me for having badly reacted earlier."
"I love you so much Oliver," she says, crying, "I always tried to tell myself that as long as you were in my life, I could put my feelings for you in a corner of my heart, and let you be happy with another woman"
"Like Laurel I assume," remembering what she told her in the video."There's no other woman for me than you, our dreams, our link confirms it"
"Do you know what triggered the first dream?" Felicity asked him.
"As Cisco explained to me, my soul cracked at the time of your death because the pain I felt when I lost you was so intense, my heart ripped in two. I couldn't breathe anymore, I think I somehow didn't want to live anymore. And the link we share made you feel it, your soul felt my distress, you then appeared in my dream"
"I'm really sorry you're so hurt Oliver, but I'm here now. If you want me I'll never leave you again, I won't hide anything from you, you'll be the first to be warned if I'm in danger," she says between the tears.
He put his hands on his cheeks wiping the tears that flooded his face "I love you Felicity, I love you like I never loved another before. I want you in my life professionally and personally forever. I now understand why you had to do it, to protect us and I will never thank you enough., I'm sorry I was angry with you "
His eyes landed on the young woman's lips and without thinking he advanced towards her to their lips together. The archer's hands, which were on her cheeks left to land on her back bringing her even closer to him. He took possession of her mouth completely, kissing her passionately. he had already done it in his dreams but, as he suspected, the reality was a hundred times better. The young woman wrapped her arms around his neck pulling him even more closely, not breaking contact with his lips, marvelling at how her body mould perfectly against her.
Felicity was finally happy, feeling his strong arms around her against his muscular body. The vigilante was also happy that she was finally in his arms, alive, that's all that ultimately mattered. He no longer wanted to fight with her for hiding her problems, for not trusting him, for not telling him of the plan. His Hands strolled over her arms, in her hair to come back to her back wanting to reassure herself that she was really there and that it was not one of his dreams.
When they moved away, they stared at each other, enjoying this new intimacy between them. The young woman was the first to deflect her gaze, uncertainty and emotions mixing within her. The archer, understanding her insecurities, began to sprinkle kisses neck, sucking herskin out for small traces, proving to him that what was happening between them at the moment was real.
"I will never push you away again. Believing I'd lost you made me think of all the things I should have done differently. I need you in every aspect of my life."
" I need you too." She replied kissing him for a long time not wanting to leave him.
They were interrupted by Felicity's phone who spoke quickly with her interlocutor before hanging off, she gently caressed the face of the archer "I have to go to the post to warn that I am not dead, it was Lyla on the phone. "
Oliver's body stiffened and he shook his head. " Don't go away."
" I don't want to, but...Lyla said I should."
" I don't want to let you go. Not yet." his lips against her neck.
"Oliver... "She groaned as he assailed the column of her throat with his kisses. She capitulated, unable to resist, tilted her head to give him more access to her neck.
After Oliver managed to convince her to stay and the young woman warned Diggle's partner to give her a few more hours, they went together to the young woman's flat on her motorcycle. He drove slower this time, taking advantage of Felicity's arms around his waist,squeezing him hard since she had never climbed on his death machine, as she called it. When they entered the flat, he took her hand and took her to the room immediately. Felicity moved to the right side leaving Oliver the side where the door was. He wrapped his arms around her waist, bringing her against his body wanting to become one with her. For an hour they talked about the experience that they had. He asked him a lot of questions about this man, Ryan, who wanted him hurt. Oliver about the detective who kept him safe during the week, trying to put his jealousy aside.
He asked her about the hospital and about how they had feigned her death so that it would be so realistic. He explained to her that when he entered the room seeing her dead body he had felt his heart burst. The young woman spoke of a drug that had been injected that simulated a death for two hours, before her body system resumed its functions and she woke up, and she again apologized for having put him through these painful moments.
The archer told him about the pain he had felt when he heard of his death, that this was not the first time he had lost someone but that this time he could not bear his loss. That the lack of her presence, of her contact made him realise his feelings for her. He prayed on the first night for her to come back. It was then that the dream had begun, that he had regained a little hope. That he was always wondering if it was possible, if he had not just dreamed of her because he did not want to believe she was dead but he needed an answer. What he got thanks to Cisco who found the videos.
Unable to answer her with words because of the ball in his throat, she approached him gently and kissed him tenderly. Oliver clung to her neck, hugged her and intensified the kiss. They stayed for a few hours in each other's arms, kissing before they had to part when Lyla came to pick up the young woman to take her to the police station to tell them that she had not died.
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Later in the night, after Felicity warned Oliver, who had returned to the bunker when she left with Lyla, that it was all well and that he would see her tomorrow, the archer hleft the den in his Arrow costume on his motorcycle. He had driven to the wife's flat in his life with a mission in mind. When he arrived at his destination, he climbed the emergency ladder and walked into his flat through the window of his room, which he managed to unlock easily, he said he had to talk to John about, to improve the security of his flat.
He could judge by the sound of her gentle breathing that she was asleep so he gently opened the drawer at the bedside table and placed a letter leaving the drawer open with just a little bit of the envelope out. Oliver wanted to make sure Felicity could see it and read it tomorrow. He advanced to the bed and kneeled, and then deposited a soft kiss on her cheek. He wanted to be able to lie next to her again sprinkling her with kisses, but he had to be patient. She spent a hard week just like him. He looked at her for a while and left the room as gently as he went home.
Felicity was awakened the following day, which trumped a song from the group 'it was once, I dreamed of her again, a song that matched them very well. She started to get up from her bed, but her attention was drawn to the night table where the drawer was not completely closed.
Seizing the corner of the envelope, she started panicking, it wasn't possible, Ryan was in the hospital under surveillance, he couldn't write to her yet. When she took out the envelope, recognizing Oliver's writing seeing her first name , her heart was quiet, and with a shaking hand came out the letter.
My Felicity,
I'm not as good as you are in computer science, so making a video would probably have taken me a lot longer than writing this letter to you. I came to your place a few hours after the news of your death. I wanted to be near you. I came into your room looking for something or a garment that no one would miss, and that's where I found the envelope with our names with the usb key inside.
I want you to know that you're my best friend too, my partner and so much more. Not everyone is given a second chance in life and I would never have thought of being one of those people given the past I've lived since the day I went to the Gambit. But a second chance was given to me and I will be grateful and honor it every day, every hour and every second to spend with you and make you the happiest woman.
The day you entered my life or I came back to your office, the light finally came back into my life. You made me smile for the first time in five years. You've been the only person since I came back that I considered a person, not a target. As I said to you yesterday other than Thea, you represent everything for me and I want you to know that I believe that you are my soulmate, and in the invisible link that brings us together. I will never deny it because it was because of that link that I knew you were alive. I'll always protect you because I love you, I can never do anything else. I will, however, accept all the decisions you make, even if I think they are not good, because as you say every time since the beginning of our collaboration, it is your life, your choice. What's most important is that you're in mine forever.
With love,
Oliver Queen
Felicity dressed herself quickly and left her room. She didn't even bother to have breakfast, or a coffee and set out in her car to head to Verdant. She came in front of the club quickly, got out of the car and ran to the metal door, clapping the code with her trembling hands. When she went down the stairs, she saw her partners.
"Hello John, Roy," she said, kissing them, "Is Oliver here?"
"I see you're doing better than yesterday, Felicity." Diggle smiles at her.
"Yes we could talk. Thank you for going to see him, but..."
"You had already met him in your dream. I know he told me but that did not stop me from clarifying the ideas."
"I thank you for always looking after me brother," she let herself be surrounded by her big arms for a hug.
"I'll always be there for you Felicity," Diggle says kissing her on the cheek and leaving the bunker.
"Oliver is in the bathroom, " said Roy "I'm going to leave you together, I'm really happy that everything ends well for you."
"Roy wait" says Félicity grabbing his arm "Go and get Thea in Corto Maltese, tell her everything you feel and if she doesn't want to be with you, you will at least have tried. Love is worth fighting for what you want...believe me"
"Thanks for the ticket that you had deposited in the trunk, and I'm sorry that I didn't get the mail back before, if I did..." he says sheepishly.
"It's not severe Roy, it's forgotten, it's all over,that is the most important"
Roy left the bunker, and Felicity waited for Oliverto leave the bathroom. After several endless minutes of waiting, she saw him come out with a towel around his neck and underwear When he raised his head and saw her smiling, he approached her and surrounded her with his muscular arms.
"I see you have read the letter."he told her, smiling. "And if you wonder if I think everything I've written, and well, know that I do. "
Oliver had no time to say anything else because the young woman began kissing him passionately. They would talk afterwards. For the moment she had a great desire to kiss him until she ran out of breath. She let herself go to the passion that devoured her. After long passionate kisses, they finally separated. They were short of breath, but so happy.
"When I saw the letter in my drawer I was scared at first, I thought it was going to start again." Felicity admitted.
"I'm sorry, I didn't think that I would scare you to leave the letter, I should have made a video." Oliver regretfully replies.
"You wanted to do well and I thank you. I don't blame you. By the time I saw your writing I was relieved immediately but...I'm really going to have to teach you how to make videos," she said, smiling, "Do you really think that the link that connects us means that ..."
"Yes, I told you I accepted my feelings when I thought you were dead and I am sure we are soulmates. When you came back to my life you transformed me, you made my life easier to live and made me believe that I was not a monster."
"You are not a monster, you're my hero," she said, caressing his nascent beard at her fingertips.
"I felt the bond since the first dream, that gathered my heart together with yours," he stared at her and continued, "I love you Felicity Smoak with all my heart, with all my soul and for eternity. You're the most wonderful woman I've ever known and I'll never leave you again. Losing you hurt me so much and made me understand that I had to stop pretending you were just my partner. "
"I love you too, Oliver Queen. My heart and body have been yours for so long. I never thought I'd be lucky that you feel the same feelings as me and I'm the happiest one today."
"I'm sorry I pushed you back, told you that with the life we were leading, I couldn't be with you. Having had a relationship with Sarah before you, making you believe that you didn't represent anything to me when you've been everything for a long time. Even John told me to stop hiding behind my mission to be with you."
"John is the voice of reason for the three of us." she said with a smile, "I could see you looking at me differently from the mansion where you told me that you loved me to bait Slade, but I didn't want to hope too much, my heart was pretty bruised."
"I didn't lie that day, I already loved you as I never loved." He took her hand and laid it on his heart." "What I feel for you in this place is stronger than anything else in the world. You're rooted in me forever."
The young woman didn't know what to answer. Never would she have thought that justifying his hero, could love him as much as she loved him. She studied his face and saw all the love he felt for her in his eyes. She put her hands on his face and caressed his cheeks with her fingers. She studied Oliver's Face and saw all the love he felt for her in her eyes. Her thumb landed on his lips and caressed them, Oliver trembled at that contact and closed his eyes, kissing him passionately nothing mattered to them right now except each other.
Meanwhile, in the hospital, Ryan was very angry and willing to avenge at all costs. He was already thinking about how he would be able to escape as he was being moved out. Oliver Queen wouldn't be alive, he was going to be smarter than the archer next time, he was going to make them believe that they were safe, that they were not risking anything until Ryan Hit them without them expecting it. Felicity was his own, and no one would stand between her and him, not even Arrow.