Hi everybody! I'm Hannah!

Nice to meet you :)

So I'm young, I'm pretty stressed about my future (which I had been furiously planning for years), and all that I care about are the 5 F's of Fangirls (Fandoms, Food, Friends, Funds, and F*ck) XD True story! Okay, so I love art, which means I love to write, draw, and perform music, and when I'm not doing that, I'm most likely reading, interneting, swimming, Netflixing, or fangirling over something that isn't important (and also school stuff but whatever that's not important).

Also, I'm a very shy person (I'm actually very anti-social unless I know you) so it took a lot of courage to post my work on here and I hope that's okay :) Right now, I'm going through this awkward phase in my life where everything is weird, you know?

I'm very paranoid about a lot of things and I worry over the tiniest problems. I basically fear judgement and humiliating situations, and handling stress can be a challenge for me.

And I freak out.

Like, A LOT.

Not joking at all.

The Other (Weird) Things That Are Wrong With Me:

1. I have anosmia: a rare disorder in which the sense of smell is partially or entirely impaired. In my case, I was actually born with this condition so I have never been able to smell at all. This also affects my taste too so I'm very sensitive to spicy foods like salsa and minty things like toothpaste (it's sad...and strange...I know it is, but it's the cold truth: I've never been able to smell and I'm going to have to deal with this for the rest of my life). Another thing: I snore -_-
2. Not only am I missing an adult tooth (so I'll always have a baby tooth in its place), but I was also born without Wisdom teeth.
3. I have a poor eyesight. It's not too bad, but it gets worse every year, which kinda sucks.
4. I have allergies to food, medicine, and pollen. These often lead to chronic sinus infections (and these are pretty common for me).
5. I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety and these two things have impacted me the most. They have made me feel weak, lonely, and hopeless during stressful situations that could have been easily resolved, although I have a tendency to be "melodramatic" and make them seem worse than they actually are. These are also the cause for my frequent nightmares and restless nights.
6. I don't have many blood-related relatives outside my family that I often see anymore. The rest of my family is either dead or disowned from us (I don't want to talk about it too much).
7. I'm kinda fat. I wouldn't say I'm obese, but I'm definitely not skinny either. I'm a very emotional eater, so whether I'm happy, sad, stressed, anxious, you-name-it, I'll be hungry for it (it's funny too since my taste is impaired and yet I still love food and I find comfort in eating). I eat like a dog too because it's hard to know my limits: I don't know when I'm full until I'm literally ready to puke. Also, it's never the quality of what I'm eating; it's the quantity that gives me problems.

But you know what? I have all these horrible flaws (I'm super self-conscious and depressed about them) and I'm still kicking. I can feel so bad for myself sometimes and even embarrassed about the parts of me I can't control (like my anosmia or my disconnected family), but I'm still alive. I'm still trying to survive while these things are negatively impacting me.

Wanna know why?

Because there's ways to cope with pain and trauma and depression and just about any other problem because it's only temporary; no matter how bad it seems, it's not permanent, unless you make it so. These problems can affect me everyday but I'm slowly learning to take care of them and continue to live a life to the fullest. I might just have a different way of dealing with them than any of you...

All that I need is that one fandom to focus on, another world that is honestly WAY better than reality. It's nice to take a break from real-world problems every now-and-then (or everyday). Am I right? ;) A little time to forget isn't a bad thing. It's honestly a therapy for me because it's also motivational. You get to see these characters with strong personalities, living your dream life and accomplishing things that you can only imagine. This inspires your creativity, it gives you something to hope for and something to love outside the real world. These characters are idols to us, whether they're fictional or real, and you find yourself falling for them no matter how they're portrayed in the story. You want to meet them, befriend them, be them. The characters you love the most can be the ones that are most similar to you, or even your most opposite, but that doesn't stop you from loving them with all your heart.

Let me put it to you this way:

Who wouldn't want to meet the Fellowship in Middle-Earth?

Who wouldn't want to be a skilled archer like Katniss,

Or have a great relationship like Four and Tris,

Or have superpowers like one of the Crystal Gems?

Do you want to be an angel like Castiel,

Or be a werewolf like Scott?

Are you more like Dipper from Gravity Falls,

Or more like his sister Mabel?

Do you want to be an Avenger,

Or be a Teen Titan?

Are you the Rose to the Doctor,

Or the Sherlock to the Watson?

Would you rather live in a world with the Walking Dead,

Or in a world with the Infected?

Do you want to be the Last Airbender like Aang,

Or the Last Human like Finn?

Are you trying to outlive a night in Minecraft,

Or a night in Until Dawn?

A List of My Favorite Fandoms:

Teen Titans, Supernatural, The Walking Dead, The Lord of the Rings/The Hobbit, Avatar: The Last Airbender/Avatar: The Legend of Korra, Mr. Robot, Gravity Falls, Steven Universe, Danny Phantom, The Hunger Games, The Avengers, Sherlock, Adventure Time, Wilfred, Over the Garden Wall, Minecraft, Harry Potter, Divergent, Teen Wolf, Survivor, Ready Player One, Until Dawn, The Last of Us, Life is Strange, and Star Wars.

And also RUSH IS MY FAVORITE BAND AND THEY ARE AWESOME SO YEAH DON'T TELL ME OTHERWISE

A List of My Favorite Actors:

Elijah Wood, Rami Malek, Jared Padalecki, Jensen Ackles, Misha Collins, Benedict Cumberbatch, Tom Hiddleston, Dylan O'Brien, Harison Ford, Greg Cipes, Tara Strong, Chris Pratt, Grey DeLisle, Johnny Depp, Martin Freemen, and Liam Neeson.

So you see what I mean? These lists can go on and on forever because there are so many things that I love about watching something through a screen. From TV shows to high-def video games, from actors to the characters they play; it all takes so much time and effort to create these masterpieces, and so much talent from amazing people. The stories that are depicted, the realistic special-effects, the emotional scenes that actors have to film; these all help bring the supernatural and sci-fi elements to life.

I go crazy at the thought of this and that's why I'm here on FanFiction.

These stories are so enticing, so dramatic, that we (or "I" in this case) get addicted to them. We (still "I") don't want the story to end, which is why people will concoct these brilliant ideas in addition to these wonderful stories. Anything can happen because it's your story, and not only can FanFiction and FanArt allow that sort of creativity, but it also relieves us from the problems we face in the real world. Sometimes, I care more about fictional characters than my own life, because my life is so boring! I don't care about school: I care about Hogwarts! And I'd much rather grow up to be a superhero like Iron Man than a damn physician assistant!

At least on here, we can live through these fantasies as if we were a part of them, because it's not like we want our fictional characters here on our world: we want to be fictional with them in their world :)

So yeah! That's basically it! That's why I love everything that I love. And that's me. Your typical (and secretly messed-up), teen-aged fangirl.

Please stay hopeful and be safe from harm. I promise you whatever it is that troubles you, it can be worked out. As long as you surround yourself with what you love and whatever makes you happy, you'll be just fine :)

I really can't think of anything else to say...

Idk.

shrugs*

Anyways, thanks for stopping by!

Happy reading!

brofist*

(If you read that whole thing, I'll take you to my counselor because that's literally insane and I'm worried for your safety. Okay goodbye.)