hi guys, i just wanted to hop on and say im sorry i havent been updating anything, and i feel so guilty whenever i see you guys interactign with this baby that has blown up so much beyond my imagination - im so grateful for all of you, for just reading and liking this story enough to give it kudos and follows and comments. it's just that time really slips away, doesnt it? and im just here wondering, what am i going to do? im graduating university soon and i just remembered my dream of becoming an author again which seems kinda dumb when ive spent years reading and writing fanfics but somehow, ive always told myself its not possible becuase it's not seen as a "viable career" in my community. but its sometimes the main thing that makes me feel stuff properly. but i havent done much to "establish" myself as a writer and i wonder if i sabotaged myself. adn here i am, writing an essay assignment for school and just feeling so empty. things were getting better and then it just went down again and i feel like some of the progress i made is gone. i guess what im trying to say is, i really want to finish this story and i hope you get to see it happen. life has so many downs, but there's so much to it too. i hope we all remember the dreams we had as kids, and see wonder in the world again. theres still sunlight and peppermint and fresh laundry and fire warmth and rain and whatever else that brings you joy. hold on to them tight even as you burn through the dark - may they refresh and remind you of the universe glowing inside you, waiting to bloom.