Izuku went home in deep thought. He knew what Ben wanted from him but he didn't have a clue how to achieve it. It's not like he liked the fact that he was so emotional. Everyone that knew him knew that he tends to cry whenever he gets overwhelmed. He decided he would think about it later. He finally made it home and quickly went to check up on his mom and see if she needed anything.
He quietly cracked her door open to see if she was awake and he was greeted by the light sound of snoring. He closed the door and went to his room to continue to try to get a better grasp of his powers.
He sat on his bed and crossed his legs and closed his eyes. He thought about everything that has played out in his life and tried to feed the emotions he got to the force. He sat there trying for ten minutes with no success. He felt that no matter how much he tried to force the emotions down they kept coming back no matter how hard he focuses.
'I guess I'm going to have to wait till Ben gives me more pointers.' Izuku thought when suddenly he heard footsteps outside of his door. He quickly got up and open the door and saw his mom walking around the kitchen.
"Mom, you shouldn't be moving around too much. You could strain yourself and I could have made food for us." He said with worry in his voice. He moved towards her to help her with anything she may need.
Inko looked towards Izuku with a slight frown. "Oh, hush Izuku. Dr. Garaki said that exercise can help with my health. Now wash your hands and help me cut these vegetables."
"But mom-" "Izuku trust me I will be alright. I appreciate how much concern you have but there will come a time where you will have to leave and go on with your life so I need to be able to function Izuku. I can't have you do everything for me." She said sternly.
With that, he conceded and went to wash his hands to help her. While he was cutting onions and scallions his mom was preparing the pork for the meal. After cutting the vegetables he loaded up the rice into the rice cooker and got a pan from the pantry and put it on the stove.
"Izuku, can you finish up the meal? I need to go use the restroom and take my meds." She asked. "Sure mom I can handle the rest. I'll let you know when everything is ready."
He turned the stove on and lightly oiled the pan. Once he felt the pan was sufficiently heated he put the breaded pork in the pan. He gave the pork a few minutes on both sides and once it was golden brown he put the pork on a plate lined with paper towels to rest while he prepares the rest of the food. He got two bowls from the pantry and in one bowl he poured in some chicken stock. He also added sugar, soy sauce, and mirin. He beat two eggs into the other bowl he grabbed.
Once everything was ready he added the onions he cut into the pan and fried them until they were lightly caramelized. When he was satisfied with it he added the stock mixture and cut the two pieces of pork and added them to the pan. After that, he added the egg to the pan and cooked it until the egg set.
With everything was done he took two more bowls from the pantry and started portioning the food. He added rice to the bowls followed by half of the pork to the bowl and topped it off with scallions as a garnish. With both of the bowls ready he set the table and walked over to his mom's room and lightly knocked on her door.
"The Katsudon is done, mom. You can come in when you are ready." He said through her door. He went back into the kitchen and sat down at the table and waited for his mom to come in before he started eating.
He didn't have to wait long because she came out moments later and sat at the table with him. "Izuku this smells wonderful. You did a great job with this." She said with a smile.
He smiled at her and scratched the back of his head. "You the one the taught me how to cook." they both decided to finally start eating their meal. It didn't take Izkuk long to finish his meal and he decided to get started on the cleanup.
He got his bowl and utensils and added them to the sink. He also got the other bowls and the pan then started running water on them and added soap. It didn't take him long to finish and he went back to the table with his mom and sat back down.
Izuku thought back to his meditation practice earlier and decided his mom might have answers because their quirks are similar. "Mom, I have a question about your quirk. Do you need to have a good grasp of your emotions to focus it? Ben said if I wanted to be able to focus my quirk and have better control of it that I would need to have a good grasp on my emotions." He said. She took a bit to think about it. "They do have a small effect on my quirk. When I was younger I would break something or accidentally lift something but I've learned to control reactions like that. Why?"
"Ben told me that I need to be able to control my emotions to help me focus my quirk. I've been trying to let go of some of the… Things that I feel. It's mainly the things I feel from stuff that's happened in the past and it's hard." He said while finding it hard to find the right words. "Well tell me some of the things that are on your mind then."
Izuku looked unsure of himself. "It's alright mom I don't want to burden you with anythi-" "Izuku, I'm your mother. If there is anything that is bothering you then you can tell me. I know that everything hasn't been easy on you. First Hisashi had to move to America to continue supporting us. Then you go ten years thinking that you are quirkless and having little Bakugo stop being friends with you.". He looked at her with a surprised expression. "How long have you known.". "I didn't at first. It took me a while to realize that he stopped coming over and it started when you were diagnosed as quirkless. I had hoped that I was wrong and you two were still friends but this confirmed it. I know everything has been hard on you and on top of all of that you've had to help take of me over the years. Maybe it's all my fault for not saying anything and hoping everything would be alright." She said with a crack in her voice and sniffling while holding back tears. "NO. Mom you've done so much for me over the years. Don't blame my problems on yourself. The truth is that I haven't been alright mentally over the years. I want to be someone you can be proud of but all I am is a burden to you and everyone else. How can I be someone that you can be proud of when I can't even use my quirk right because I'm too emotional." He said while openly crying now.
Inko let him finish talking and got up and pulled him into a hug. "Oh Izuku, you don't need to do anything to make me proud baby. I've always been proud of the young man you have grown up to be. There is never a time when I feel ashamed of you and there will never be one. Izuku you are my little hero and nothing will ever change that." She said while crying with a puffy red face. "I think I know what your problem is Izuku. It's that you don't fully believe in yourself. You need to realize how amazing you are and act on it. Izuku do you want to be a hero?" she told him. Izuku gave her a nod. "Then believe in yourself and if that doesn't work believe in my belief of you."
Izuku looked at her with tears running down his face and snot oozing from his nose. "I will mom. I promise you that I will learn how to use my quirk and that I will become the hero that you see in me.".
They both held each other close for a few more moments and finally separated. "Remember Izuku that I love you and I will support everything you do. Now, let's finish cleaning up because we both look like messes right now.". With that, they both finished cleaning the rest of the dishes and put away everything that they used. Izuku helped Inko get to her room and went to his room to take a shower.
Once he was done getting cleaned up he sat on his bed and decided to try to meditate once again. He crossed his legs and closed his eyes and began to clear his mind. Immediately the same thoughts of when he tried to meditate earlier came back. 'I need to let go of all of this. I have to show my mom that I can do this and show her that she was right.' he thought. With thoughts of his mom's encouragement in his mind, he tried again. This time when the thoughts came he remembered his mom's words and let the emotions go. After a few moments, everything was gone and he was left with nothing but the force. His excitement almost made him drop his meditation but he let it go. While he was fully submerged in the force he felt all of those around him. He felt the small kindling of the force in his mom and he even felt traces of it in his neighbors. He must have spent hours lost in the force because when he finally stopped and opened his eyes he didn't see any more light shining through the window. He looked at his digital clock and saw that the time was 11:30 and he felt he had done enough for tonight so he decided to go to sleep for the night. He dreamt of the adventures and battles he would have in the future.
This chapter stomped me. I know its been a while and that's because I didn't know how I wanted this chapter to go. It should be pretty obvious that I'm a complete beginner at writing and I had a lot of trouble writing this. I would write something and delete it and start all over again. Thats why I recently edited the last chapter. I cant say I'm going to be update to regularly but this is always on my mind. I want to put my thoughts ou for everyone to see. Is it good or bad? let me know if there are any problems you guys have because for a beginner it truly helps. Thank you for reading. May the force be with you.