Hello! I'm sorry I couldn't update last Saturday but I was out of town and I didn't have anything written. Fortunately, next week I have a long weekend and will try to write more. As always thanks for reading and for the comments.
Samuel Mont walked past Sheldon and patted him on the shoulder before leaving the room. He heard the door close, but made no move. He felt like his feet were rooted to the ground and nothing around him was real.
The only thing that confirmed it was all real was the feel of his wife's hand between his. He looked up and saw that she was staring out the window as a tear slid down her cheek.
Sheldon bit his lip. He didn't know what he could say or do to help Amy feel a little better, he didn't even know if she was going to want to hear whatever he had to say. But after a few seconds he realized that she still hadn't let go of his hand, which made him feel a little more secure.
"Amy" without letting go of his wife's hand, he sat on the side of the bed. She fixed her gaze on him. "I…"
"Why, Sheldon?" She interrupted, "Why ... did all this have to happen to us?" she inhaled deeply to try to control her tears. "Our life was good ... so good that sometimes I woke up thinking I was living a dream. But when I saw your smile, I knew that everything was real and that I was the luckiest woman of all. Then one day you accuse me of cheating on you" Sheldon looked down ashamed when he heard that "I have an accident and we discover that I am pregnant and that I there was a possibility of me losing the babies and ... a couple of days ago when I finally felt that everything was improving ... "At that moment she could not contain herself more and cried everything that she had not cried since she heard that she had lost one of the babies."
"I'm sorry, Amy," Sheldon said as his wife's breathing began to slow. "You have no idea how bad I have felt for not having trusted you from the beginning… I would give my life without hesitation if doing that I could bring our baby back to life."
"Sheldon ... what ... what happened to the baby is not your fault "She let go of her husband's hand to wipe her tears "Neither you nor I could have done anything to prevent it."
"So… you don't hate me? "
"Despite everything that has happened… I can't hate you. "
As he had informed them, Mont returned a couple of hours later to check on Amy. Everything continued as expected and the doctor reported that Amy was in good condition to go home.
Sheldon helped her into her car and they were both silent the entire ride. Amy kept staring out the window while Sheldon tried to focus his gaze on the road, though he couldn't help but turning to see his wife a couple of times to make sure she was okay.
Upon arrival, Amy was surprised to see Leonard's car parked in front of their house.
"What is he doing here?" she asked Sheldon who seemed as surprised as her.
"I don't know, Penny and he were in the hospital while you were sedated and they had told me that they would stay there, but after a while I sent them a message assuring them that you were fine and that he should take Penny home so she could rest".
When Sheldon opened the door to his house, he found his best friend sitting on the couch and Penny asleep on his lap.
"Hi," Leonard whispered. He gently caressed her wife's shoulder to wake her up. "Sorry we entered without permission, but Penny…" the woman rubbed her eyes. "She insisted that she wanted to be here for Amy."
"Penny, you have no idea how much I appreciate you being here," Amy said sincerely. "But you must rest."
"And that's what I had been doing" Penny approached her so she could hug her "Tell me what you need. If you want to be alone, Leonard and I will leave immediately, but if you want me to stay…" Amy nodded slightly.
"I don't want to be alone," she whispered. "Not today."
Leonard and Sheldon escorted both women to Amy's room and helped them get settled.
"If you need anything... "
"We'll call you, Sheldon," Penny answered, squeezing her friend's hand when he passed by her.
"Do you want me to make you some dinner?" Leonard asked an hour later. Sheldon had been sitting on the sofa reading who knows what on his phone. He hadn't said a single word and barely moved "Sheldon!" He shook him with some force by the shoulders, which seemed to make him react.
"Sorry, did you were telling me something? "
"I was asking you what do you want for dinner? "
"It's still early for ... "Sheldon looked at the window behind him and realized that it was already dark "What time is it? " Without waiting for an answer he stood up "I have to prepare something to eat for Amy."
"I already did" Leonard stood up to follow him "I give Penny and her something to eat a few minutes ago.
"She ate? "
"She said that she didn't want to, but Penny and I insisted until she accepted," explained Leonard. "She didn't finish all the food on the plate but at least she ate something."
"Okay," Sheldon agreed. He sat on one of the chairs in the kitchen and watched Leonard as he prepared some dinner.
"By the way, what were you doing on the phone?" He asked curiously. "You seemed to be in the zone."
"I was… looking for information about… what happened to Amy. "
Leonard was silent for a few seconds. As if he's gathering the courage to ask something "Why? You told me yourself that the doctor assured you that there was nothing they could have done to ... "
"I know!" Sheldon stood up abruptly, knocking over a glass.
"I'll pick it up" Leonard walked by him and with a broom began to clean up the mess that his friend had caused.
"I'm sorry, I didn't want to yell at you, or break anything" Sheldon leaned against the refrigerator "It's just that ... How can I be able to solve one of the greatest mysteries in the universe but I couldn't save the life of one of my children?"
"Unfortunately it doesn't matter who we are or all the money we have… there are things that we cannot prevent from happening. And as much as it hurts, we must live with them ... and go on.
"Thank you," Sheldon said when Leonard finished cleaning everything. "For everything you've done for Amy and me."
"You don't have to be thankful," said Leonard, "I would have doubted it years ago, but now I'm sure that if it were Penny and I who were in your situation, you would find a way to help us."
"Of course," Sheldon assured him.
"Well…" He looked at the time on his watch. "I think I should go."
"Won't Penny go with you?"
"No ... Amy said she didn't want to ... she asked Penny to sleep with her tonight."
" You can say it. She doesn't want to sleep alone, but she doesn't want to sleep with me either, " he said bitterly.
"I'm sorry, buddy. But surely everything will improve between you two. " He said to try to cheer him up even a little.
"I wish I could believe you, but I'm beginning to believe that it won't happen. " said Sheldon looking at the floor.
The next morning Leonard stopped by to pick up Penny after breakfast. Sheldon thanked both of them again for everything before they left. He watched the car drive away until it turned a corner and disappeared.
He closed the door and leaned his head against the door as he thought about what to do. He couldn't stop thinking about Amy and their babies, so he headed for her room. He knocked on the door a couple of times but heard no response, so he decided to go in anyway.
Slowly, he opened the door and found Amy lying on the bed, but he could have sworn he had seen her move a second before. She must have been pretending to be asleep to avoid talking to him. He still entered the room. He picked up a couple of things that had been thrown away and then walked over to the bed. He took the blanket that had fallen to the ground and covered Amy with it.
Sheldon was about to leave when he turned around and walked back to the bedside. He squatted down and placed a kiss on Amy's forehead.
"I love you," he whispered, loud enough for her to hear him. But she gave no sign of moving, so Sheldon decided to get out of there.
Hours later Amy was still asleep, but Sheldon had woken her up to make sure she ate something. She protested at first, though after a while she had no choice but to agree.
"Give it another bite," Sheldon insisted. His wife hadn't eaten since breakfast and at least he wished she could finish that sandwich.
"No, Sheldon. I can't eat more. I feel like I'm going to… " She pulled the covers she was covered with to a side to stand up, but it wasn't quick enough and she ended up vomiting on the feet of the man in front of her. She saw him close his eyes tightly and knew that at any second he was going to explode "I'm sorry, I ...
"It's okay," Sheldon said with his eyes still closed. He exhaled a little air through his mouth. "These things happen." He stood up calmly to reach the box of tissues next to the bed. "I'm going to clean everything. In the meantime, you should take a shower. "
"I don't feel strong enough to take a bath. "
"Amy you didn't take a bath yesterday either," he reminded her. He had knelt on the floor to clean everything. She was surprised at how well he had taken everything, as she imagined that he would have run to the shower or that he would end up vomiting as well.
"I know, but I don't care." Amy checked the covers to make sure they weren't stained and tried to cover herself, but Sheldon wouldn't allow it.
"I ... I can help you bathe," he said after a few seconds.
"Do you think it's a good idea? "
"It is not the first time that I will help you to bathe because you are not physically well, also it is not as if ... "
"Good, Sheldon. You can help me" she cut him off before he told him that he wasn't interested in her sexually because he had just seen her throw up. Or because your body is changing and he is no longer attracted to you, said a little voice in the back of her head.
"Wait a minute." Sheldon stood up and ran to the bathroom. He returned several minutes later wearing only his underwear.
"What are you doing?" Amy asked when he saw him approach her.
"I'm going to help you take a bath" he looked at her confused "Or did you change your mind? "
"That I know, but what I mean is why are you almost naked? "
"Well, my clothes were stained and I don't see a need to wear more clothes if I'm going to end up wet so…" He shrugged.
"That time you helped me take a bath, you don't mind wetting your clothes. "
"That's because we were still dating and we didn't have a physical relationship. Now we are married and ... "
"We don't have a physical relationship either because what you said. "
"Are you going to never forgive me for what I said?" Sheldon asked. Amy could hear the pain in his voice when he spoke.
"I don't know, Sheldon" they looked into each other's eyes for a few seconds in silence until she couldn't take it anymore "I think I'd better bathe alone" she tried to stand up but when she felt dizzy.
"Amy, let me help you. Please" she nodded and her husband took her arm to lead her to the bathroom.
Once in there he closed the door and began to gently undress her. As if her was something fragile that could break at any moment. Which was how she felt. When she was naked he helped her into the bathtub that was already full of water.
Amy couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief. The water was at the perfect temperature and it was doing wonders on her body. She saw how Sheldon just made a face.
"If you prefer to go ..." she began. Obviously he was finding it difficult to look at her naked body and she didn't want him to be there because he felt guilty.
"I will not go," he answered without hesitation. "There is no place where I would rather be than here."
Sheldon grabbed a sponge and began to run it over his wife's body. Amy closed her eyes. She was fighting not to moan at the feel of the sponge between her boobs. For a moment she wished it were Sheldon's hands instead of the sponge. She felt hot and wet between her legs and she knew it wasn't due to the water. She opened her eyes as she felt the sponge stop near her crotch.
"I… I do it," she said, taking the sponge from her husband's hand, who simply nodded, unable to look at her.
After that day, things between them fell into a routine. Amy spent most of the day locked in her room and she only went out to eat or if her parents or one of her friends came to visit them. Whereas Sheldon tried every day to dedicate himself to work but he had not managed to make more than a few insignificant notations on one of the boards.
15 weeks pregnant.
It was the first time Amy was going to leave the house since she had lost the baby and she couldn't help but think about everything that had happened that day. Although she tried to stay positive, despite her nausea, she had physically felt better than she expected so she wanted to believe that everything would be fine.
"My favorite couple!" Samuel exclaimed when he saw them enter his office.
"I'm sure you say the same to everyone," Amy said, smiling slightly.
"Maybe" Samuel chuckled as he indicated them to sit down "Physically, how have you felt?"
"Physically… I feel good. Of course, not to mention that I practically live on the floor of my bathroom because of nauseas."
"That is something normal, but you are already in your fourth month of pregnancy so soon the nausea can begin to disappear. "
"I hope so," Amy commented.
"Now, if you could…" He motioned for her to stand up and walk to the exam table.
Amy stiffened. Sheldon who was looking at her sideways noticed it so he reached out his hand to take hers.
"Everything will be fine," he said calmly.
"Yes, it's just that ... "
"If you need some time, we can wait," said the doctor.
"No. I can do it" she assured standing up.
"Okay, you know what to do" Amy lay down on the exam table and lifted her blouse.
"That gel gets colder every time" she joked to try to relax herself but it didn't work. She was about to get up and run out of there but it seemed that Sheldon had read her thoughts because he placed himself on the other side of the examination table, with one hand he took hers, while the other put it on her shoulder "What is happening... Is something wrong? " she asked after a few seconds when she saw that Mont did not say anything.
"Relax, everything is fine" he added "I just need a couple more seconds and… that's it. It's exactly what I thought" he handed some wipes to Sheldon who began to clean the gel from Amy's belly "The baby seems to be a bit small, but it's normal given everything that has happened. "
"That's bad?"
"No, you just need to take good care of your diet. In a few minutes I will give you a list of the things you should eat from now on. "
"So is everything okay with the baby?" I ask with Sheldon. He was afraid to relax and that Samuel would tell them that something bad had happened.
"Although he is a little underweight, the baby is fine and there should be no major problems. "
"Isn't the placenta going to affect the baby?" Amy didn't seem very convinced with everything she was hearing.
"That's what I was going to tell you. The detachment of your placenta is minimal so now that there is only ... "
"That's only one baby? " Amy said for the man who seemed not to know how to finish that sentence " It's okay" Amy bit her lip to avoid crying "You can say it. "
"Okay. Now that there is only one baby in your womb, he or she can fully develop without detachment being an impediment. "
"Does that mean that it is no longer necessary for me to be in absolute bed rest?
"I will recommend that you rest one more week, but no, it is no longer necessary. You can go back to doing everything you did before. You can go back to work, have sex "Amy looked at Sheldon and saw that he blushed when he heard that "Whatever you want. "
"Are you sure?" Sheldon asked with concern. "Don't you think it would be better if Amy ...?"
"Sheldon, can you go get me something to drink?" Amy interrupted him "I'm so thirsty. "
"Sure" her husband stood up. He paused for a second at the door to look at her, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he left without saying anything.
Half an hour later they were going back home. Sheldon was concentrating on the road and Amy was reading the list of ingredients necessary for her new diet.
"Hey Amy" the woman looked up to see her husband "Are you thinking ... are you thinking about going back to work and doing everything you did before you had to be in bed? "
"Samuel assured me everything will be fine" she shrugged "So I don't see why not. "
"I know but…"
"If you are worried that I want to restart our sexual life again, I let you know that I am not interested and I know that neither are you. "
"That's not what worries me." Sheldon frowned. "Besides, why do you say I don't want to ...?" he broke off when he heard a phone ring.
"It's my mom," Amy informed before answering the call.
After that they got home and Amy ignored him completely again.
16 weeks pregnant
A week later Amy decided that she would return to work despite Sheldon's insistence that she continue her rest.
"Sheldon, if you're going to keep insisting on the same thing, I'd rather take a taxi to go to work" Amy said rubbing her temple.
"Fine. I will not say anything else on the subject" Sheldon agreed "Just promise that if you feel bad or need something you will call me no matter what I am doing. "
"Sure. "
Upon arriving at the university Amy got out of the car without even saying goodbye to Sheldon. At lunchtime he went to look for her at her laboratory so they could eat together, but she did not appear anywhere and only answered his call when it was time to go home.
"Where have you been all day?" Sheldon asked annoyed. He had been worried about her all day. A couple of times he had wanted to put everyone in his building looking for her, but Leonard had stopped him.
"Working," she answered without looking at him. "And you don't need to be calling me every two minutes. I promised you that if something happens I will call you."
"Yes, but ... "
"And I know you went to my laboratory so that we could eat together, but I want to ask you not to do it again. "
"Why not?" Sheldon frowned at that.
"We have spent enough time together at home, that we don't also need to be together at work. "
-Enough time together? You spend it locked in your room every day! We barely spoke two words since...
"Don't say it," Amy warned him.
"We need to talk about it. We can never get over the loss of our baby if we don't talk about it. "
"Talking about it won't get my child back. "
"No, we can't get our child back," he emphasized the last three words. "But it will help us feel a little better and move on."
"Ah yes, I'm sure that moving forward is what you want the most."
"What are you talking about? "
-You know what? I'm glad we are back home because I don't want to continue talking about this" she opened the car door and got out.
Sheldon watched her walk into the house and decided it was best for both of them to calm down. He would try to talk to her at dinner. But Amy didn't show up and when he went to her room the door was locked.
"I'll leave your dinner out here," he said after several minutes of trying to get her to open the door without success.
The next morning, he returned to Amy's room. He put his hand on the handle and tried to open it, but it was still locked.
"Aren't you going to work?" Sheldon asked, waiting to see if she would respond.
"No, I'm going to stay here," she answered after a few seconds.
-Are you okay? If you want me to stay…
"Everything is fine, Sheldon. You can go to work. "
"Amy ... "
"Goodbye, Sheldon. "
He had no choice but to go to work. He had felt a tightness in his chest almost from the moment he had arrived at work and at noon he could not take it anymore so he returned home. He needed to make sure Amy was okay.
He went to her room and saw that the door was ajar. He thought she might be sleeping but Amy wasn't in bed. In fact, there was no sign of her anywhere. He entered the bathroom and the first thing he noticed was that several of her personal items were missing.
Sheldon widened his eyes and ran to her closet. He snapped it open and saw that half of her clothes were missing.
"No, no, no, no" he took out the phone from his pocket and dial her number several times but he got no answer. He was about to call her parents when he realized there was a note on her pillow.
With shaking hands, he took the note and began to read.
Sheldon:
I know that you may be wondering where I am and I know you perfectly. I know you will find a way to find me so I prefer to tell you where I will be. After I was alone with Samuel, I asked him if I could continue with the conferences I had planned around the country and he told me that I could. Yesterday I insisted on going to the university because I wanted to talk to President Siebert and I spent the whole day with him organizing the conferences. Surely at this moment you are thinking of running to the university and making Siebert tell you where I am, but please don't do it or I will have to go to a place where you cannot find me. I assure you that I thought a lot about this and I believe that a time apart would be the best for both of us. Don't worry about me or the baby. We will be fine.
When I return, we can finally make a decision about our marriage.
By the way in the next chapter Amy will know the sex of her baby. What do you think she will have? Boy or Girl? I will love to read what you think!