Bella PoV
Pain.
So much pain.
Fire.
My throat was burning.
My body was cold.
So cold.
I shivered.
Where was I?
What had happened?
I must be dead.
Victoria.
Her hand.
The snow.
The fight.
Leah.
Seth.
Jacob.
He promised me to come back.
I never promised him I'd come back.
And now I hadn't.
Victoria had killed me.
Choked me.
These eyes.
So cold, so full of hatred.
Jacob.
Was he alright?
He must be alright.
Seth, Leah, Quil, Embry, Alice, Jasper, Emmet, Rosalie, Esme, Carlisle, they must be alright.
I didn't care about me.
I would die gladly if only they could live.
Fire.
My throat was burning.
Jacob.
Why was there pain in heaven?
Or was I in hell?
Jacob.
I love you.
So much.
Please, don't leave me.
I need you.
No, not my words.
His words.
Jacob.
Black Pack.
He needs me.
I promised.
I would stay.
I had to go back.
Pain.
Fire.
Jacob.
My throat was burning.
My body freezing.
Where was I?
Why was I alone?
Jacob.
Please come back to me.
I need you.
I love you.
So much.
I'll never leave you.
I have to go back.
Jacob.
Face the pain.
Defeat the pain.
Go back.
Come back.
Don't.
Leave.
The pain in my throat was nearly unbearable. Every breath felt like a hundred blades piercing my flesh. I couldn't turn my head. It hurt. So much.
I was so hot. And so cold.
It was so dark. Why was it dark?
Then I realised that my eyes were closed. I tried to open them, but they were stuck together like glue. It took so much effort to open them just the tiniest bit. But it distracted me from the constant pain in my throat. Pain that hadn't killed me.
Why hadn't Victoria killed me?
All this darkness... Why hadn't I died?
Jacob.
Where was Jacob?
Suddenly I thought of a similar situation. Me, lying in a hospital bed with my boyfriend waiting in a corner for me to wake up. Only it hadn't been Jacob back then.
Oh, how I hated hospitals.
They always reminded me of how fragile and weak I was.
At least compared to the people I had hung out with this last year.
I managed to open my eyes a bit more. The room was dark, it must be night. Only a small lamp in a corner illuminated it a bit. My eyes darted around, looking for something. Someone.
Then I saw him, sitting on a chair against the wall. His head lay back against the wall, his mouth was slightly open, his eyes closed. He was sleeping and other than Edward, he didn't fake it.
Why did I think about Edward so much all of a sudden? He was gone, I had Jacob now.
Jacob.
I wanted to draw his attention, wanted him to come to me, wanted him to warm up my freezing body but my throat was burning, and I couldn't utter a single word.
Then I saw the second figure standing at the end of my bed, looking at me.
Another déjà-vu. I was waking up in my room and there was Edward at the end of my bed, watching me. But when I lit the lamp and looked again, he was gone.
Not this time.
I closed my eyes and when I opened them again, he was still here.
He had a sad look in his eyes but other than that he hadn't changed a bit. Vampires didn't change.
"I am so sorry, Bella", he whispered almost inaudibly. My eyes shot to Jacob, but he didn't even stir.
"All the things I said and did. It's my fault you're here and I am so sorry."
A dream. This must be a dream. A nightmare. It just couldn't be. Him, in my hospital room, telling me how sorry he was. Once again, my eyes shot to Jacob and I wished so desperately for him to wake up and help me get rid of this nightmare. I wanted to wake up!
Edward's face darkened. "I'll wake him" Then he was gone as if he'd never been there.
A dream. A really bad dream.
Nothing else.