This isn't a new chapter but we can pretend it is as it has slight changes.

Callie's POV

They have subscription boxes for everything. Everything including pregnancy. I have to say it makes sense. I could have done without a personalized water bottle. I'm not using a bottle that reads, "Good moms say Bad words." I have to assume anyone that uses that is under the influence of hormones. No, just no. I love the nausea relief bands. It's branded for morning sickness, but I have more like ll day nausea. It's worse at night so I don't know who coined that term and why it's still used. Unless most people do experience nausea in the morning and no other time. I thought I was past it like I felt better, but it came back. Is there a correlation between Arizona and nausea? When she was not in the picture, I was good. Now, we have to be in communication and hello queasiness. I will say that she's the one that gifted me the box. So, I can't prove that she's the cause or even correlated to the issue, but she's actively being the solution. She needs to continue to do things like this instead of plain old flowers.

In general, we're in a better place. The talk after the announcement was actually productive. Well, I do regret instructing her to impregnate other people. Let's just say she was a lot calmer than I was during the conversation. It's not very hard to be patient and understanding when you're in the wrong. If she was that way in the first place, I wouldn't have to go there. I hope we can both approach things in a more empathetic way in the future. We need to get things right the first time. The best news is right now is that she's drafting legal documents at work for people that aren't me.

We've been good at talking strictly about our prospective child. Yeah, we had that moment where we asked about each other's sex lives, but we haven't talked about that after that one instance. She does ask how I'm doing but, only in relation to the pregnancy. This is where I got to tell her about the nausea I started experiencing again. We haven't had any more face-to-face time. We do have plans to be together today and also in two weeks. Today we're going to see her parents and in two weeks I have my first prenatal appointment. I suggested we go together, and she agreed. She's coming to pick me up soon.

Arizona has no interest in the kitchen. I felt weird just sitting and waiting with her and her father while her mom's doing everything. So, I offered to help but was shot down. By Arizona and her mom. She doesn't offer to help, but can have input on my wanting to help? I'll just go along to get along. Not long after being shot down, I'm left alone in the living room. The rest of the Robbins' excused themselves.

Arizona's POV

"I don't see why you two showed up together. Your mother invited Callie over."

I knew this was coming. When I shared the news of Callie's pregnancy, mon had an awesome reaction. She's over the moon. Dad only expressed that a baby is a blessing. So here we are currently.

"Callie suggested I come. The point of the invitation is to celebrate a baby and reconnect with you two. I don't see why I wouldn't be here as the other mother of the child."

"The baby has not yet arrived. You're not a lother yet. She isn't even your wife. There's no connection between the two of you. Not yet."

"I'd like to think we're partners in this still. We're planning and preparing for the arrival together dad."

"There is Callie and there's you; there's no 'we.' Soon there will be a baby. Sure you'll parent and she'll parent too but to think you're partners is foolish."

"Okay, sir." Why should I keep defending myself?

"You've expressed that you love Callie, is that still true?"

"It is, yes."

"You love her and she's pregnant. What's the wait on marriage?"

"We've broken up. That's the wait." Let's also consider Calliope's feelings her too. Who is to say she wants to back together?

"So you two can have a child together, be partners but marriage is too far. It's just an excuse not to step up."

"I am stepping up. Not in the way that you're speaking, nonetheless I am. I- people don't get married because of a baby nowadays."

Dad places his glass on the table between us.

"I don't care about what everyone else does, I care bout what you do. Stepping up isn't raising a child in separate households. Stepping up isn't being a part-time parent!"

"I won't be a part-time parent."

"No, you'll be a seasonal one then. A child needs stability. They'll stay in one house for most of the year while they are in school. You'll get to see them on holidays. Maybe not every holiday because who doesn't want their child around during Christmas? That is not enough Arizona Robbins!"

I haven't thought about schools and such. I've been only focused on gestation. I don't have all the answers. I didn't believe I needed to at this stage.

I'm not going to be disrespectful or question his own parenting. I won't even bring up the fact he wasn't always around when I was a child. if we're talking about being a seasonal parent then that's what he was for some time. His rationale is probably that he wants me to be better than he was. It is like I have this chance and will be squandering it, at least in his eyes. But I can't come up with an answer to what he's just said, If I can't explain this away does that make it a reality? Am I wasting this chance? The woman I love is pregnant and I can't make it work with her.

We'll table this for later. The food's ready.

Callie's POV

I overheard some of what Arizona and her dad were discussing. I "used" the bathroom that is closest to the den. I might have lingered for longer than I needed to. While we were eating there was some awkwardness. Arizona wouldn't make true contact with her father and I was sitting in between them. Thankfully her mom got us through the whole ordeal. The drive here was alright. Not much talking but we at least had a podcast going. We're now sitting in silence. There's not even a reaction to asshole drivers. Nothing.

She pulls into my driveway. I extend my gratitude for the evening as it's good to be reminded that I'm part of a family. And that my child will indeed have grandparents. Not that what I said was inciting a thoughtful or long response, but I would have appreciated more than, "Sure thing Cal."

I leave her behind in the car and go to my front door. I don't think anything of her hanging around until I get inside. Except for the fact that I've been inside for ten minutes now. She's still in my driveway. I put away the leftovers I was sent away with. Coming back to the window, Arizona hasn't moved an inch. I decide to go back out there to find out what's going on with her.

Getting closer I see that she's busy typing away at the keyboard of a small laptop. Leave it up to her to have alap desk in her car. I finally win her attention when I get to the driver's side of the car.

With the window now down I ask, "Everything okay?"

She affirms with a, "Yes." Then adding, "Had to get this off of my mind and in writing, you know?"

"Anything you'd like to share or is it work-related?"

"Not work-related. It is hard to even think about so talking, I don't know."

"If I confess to eavesdropping on your conversation with your dad, will that help you to talk about it?

She gives an embarrassed smile. I go to try the passenger door. finding it open, I let myself in. I look to her, "I can talk and you listen." She closes the laptop to face me.

"I agree with what you said about not being with someone just because of a baby. That's not a good environment for anyone, including the baby. And we totally are partners, maybe your dad doesn't or won't understand but I do, you do and we'll work at it."

"I'm afraid it might get more complex in the future."

"Yeah, we can't plan for the things we don't know about. I just don't see us not figuring it out."

"Oh but I do Callie." With a well in her eyes, She shakes her head."I have already made a mess of things and there's no baby yet. I don't know how to promise that I won't make more messes, and say things or do them."

"I'm the forgiving type."

"You shouldn't have to forgive me. You're going to experience so much over the next eight months, you're the one that needs room for error."

"Yeah, and I know when I make those errors, you'll be there for me as I'll be for you."

A tear journeys down rosy cheeks. Arizona slumps back into her seat. "For a while before this, I knew I couldn't have children. I've been told as much by several doctors. To make the news easier on me, I convinced myself that I'd be a terrible parent anyway. Deep down I always knew that the bad parent cop-out was a result of me being infertile. I'd be a bad parent so who cares if I can't have children." Sensing she needs some grounding contact, I take her hand in mine. You're here, with me Arizona. Now, I'm not sure it's that way. It feels to go the way of me being not being the best parent regardless of whether I could have kids or not. My dad has flawed reasoning but the conclusion he made seems to be right." The conclusion that she'd a bad parent."

"If it's worth anything, bad parents don't worry about being bad parents, they just are. We're not at the stage where any of it matters. Still, you're sitting here thinking about how to be a good parent. If you can decide that you'd be a bad parent, you must have some idea of what you think a good parent is. What is stopping you from being that?"

"Work, for one. That's what I've been here mapping out. I have to lessen my load and take more time off. The associates can handle it and it's definitely time."

"See you got this!" I playfully hit her shoulder

Careful not to drop the laptop, she turns to me completely. She tucks her hair behind her hair and says, "I promise to try."

Is it me or whenever someone that you care about is upset you kinda want to lean in and kiss them? Especially if that someone is your uber attractive ex that you're definitely in love with. In a weird way, this whole thing has made me fall all over again. To complete the task wouldn't even be difficult. She's so close now. I shouldn't though. I should stop looking at her lips.

I didn't look away fast enough. She's clued in on my thoughts and chooses to steer us away from this. "So I've said all this to say that I will not be proposing today."

"Tomorrow, then?" I quip.