Covid moon chapter 12
Thanks for readying guys and ignoring all the mistakes I'm sure are there from a one handed written story lol.
The ride back to the hotel was deadly silent. Well, apart from the occasional dry cough that ripped through Bella's exhausted body every now and again. There was no denying it anymore, Bella was starting to be symptomatic.
Back at the hotel the groups silence was broken by the sound of Selena Gomez's song wolves.
Jake, Bella thought, looking at her phone to see 17 missed calls in just the last hour.
"I have to make a call," Bella said, "Jacob must be going out of his mind with worry."
"Jacob? Is that your wolf friend?" Edward asked. The two of them were alone again in their room. Everyone else were in their respective rooms on stand by but listening closely. It was starting to get highly annoying to Edward to not have any alone time with Bella. There was so much he desperately wanted to talk about.
"Um, yes… you know about him?" Bella asked surprises.
"Alice told me very recently," Edward responded, "something about you cliff diving and running with the wolves," he said through gritted teeth, "honestly, Bella I asked you to be safe and you go and befriend the most vile dangerous creature out there."
In a flash hot anger burned again from deep within Bella's guts. "So she's been watching me. She saw. She saw how… broken i was and she just left me in misery. You are all actually evil. I have NOTHING now. I have NO FAMILY other than those vile dangerous creatures you speak of and I can't even be with them while I die because even though a wolves body will probably burn off this damn disease they are not all wolves. Get out. Just get out!" Bella screamed, pushing hard onto Edwards unmovable chest before erupting again into a deep hacking cough.
Just then there came a knock on the door. Bella Rolled her eyes and croaked out for Alice to go away as well, assuming wrongly who was knocking.
"It's Jasper and Emmett," Edward informed her quietly.
"Fine, come in and get this one out of here please," Bella sighed, plopping herself fast down on the gigantic bed.
"With pleasure," Emmett growled, barrelling into the room, "Eddy and I are going to go find out what a Florida hater tastes like, whether he likes it or not."
Edward didn't argue though. Bella had asked him to leave so that was what he would do no matter how sick it made him feel. So when Emmett grabbed hold to back of Edwards shirt, Edward simply leaned back and allowed himself to be pulled out of the room, leaving Jasper behind alone with Bella. For once Edward wasn't actually worried about Jaspers self control around a human, in fact, Edward was shocked to realise that there was even a little part of him that selfishly wished Jasper wound just bite her and take the responsibility off of his shoulders. He knew that Carlisle, Alice, Esme, and Rose would ever let Jasper do anything to end Bella's life and they were all close enough to intervene if needed.
Jasper wasn't even remotely thirsty though. He was far to consumed with all the negative emotions floating around, and far too determined to make amends for his mistake that started off this whole seemingly endless ordeal.
"Hello darling, it's just us now," Jasper said, causing Bella to pop her head up and look around the room shocked.
"He really left," she deadpanned.
"You asked him to, sweetheart. I can assure you it was not easy for him to comply. He's not gone far though. Bella he isn't ever going to be far away from you again."
Bella huffed then coughed again.
"Carlisle wants you to take these meds. They will help keep your fever low," Jasper said, handing Bella four pills and a bottle of water.
Bella took them no questions asked. She quickly chugged the rest of the water before being hit with another coughing fit.
"Look Bella I'm going to be very frank with you," Jasper said firmly, "you don't have a lot of time left before you're too ill to concentrate and make decisions and I know you have a lot of big ones to make that you need to focus on fast. But I am worried. If you decide to become one of us, as I hope you do, I am worried that all these pent up emotions from your past will do you a great harm after your change, Bella. Vampires essentially freeze when they change. It is very hard for us to change. It's not impossible, but… well let's just say we tend to carry all the unfinished burdens we had before our change forever. Right now, Bella you have a lot of burdens and I am very worried about how they will translate into an immortal life. We need to help you make some peace with those demons of yours or we risk you having to live with the fuckers forever."
Bella didn't know what to say to any of that so she just stayed silent for a very long time. Until finally she quietly asked, "and just how do we go about doing that, Jasper?"
"Well sugar, Carlisle is the MD of the family but you may not realise that he isn't the only doctor among us. I have been studying psychology and counselling for decades," Jasper answered.
"So you want to Freud me. Charlie tried that already. He sent me to tons of shrinks, hell I even had a lovely three week stay at an inpatient facility once," Bella snarked.
"Oh Bella, I really am sorry for all that's happened," Jasper sighed, "but yes I do want to shrink you, but not just you," he chuckled. "We definitely don't have time for any intensive therapy before you need to make these decisions you have to face, but what I'm proposing is just a bit of mediation really. You, Edward, Alice, and who ever else you need to clear the air with. Sort of an all cards on the table clear the air sort of situation. In a controlled manner."
"Honestly, what's the point," Bella asked, "I don't even know if I'm going to change.
"Change or not, Bella, all I want to do is help you get a little peace in this life before you leave it because one way or the other Bella Swan doesn't have a lot of time and I don't know what happens to a human who dies with so much pain and hate on their heart."
"I don't hate any of you, not really," Bella said quietly.
"Poor choice of words, I'm sorry. But all I want to do is facilitate you getting off your chest whatever it is you're feeling."
"Ok doc," Bella agreed, "set it up."
"We will start with Alice," Jasper said and almost immediately Alice entered the room with her head hung low.