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Between God the Devil and Our Very Souls

Chapter six

Bella fights back

A month has gone by and I haven't even seen the top of Carlisle's head as they go to church. I didn't see him in the car at all. My mother had told me that his father had grabbed him by the collar and Carlisle had jerked away from his grasp with a look that could kill that last night I had seen him. It was strange knowing that Carlisle would do that to his father it was so out of his personality. Maybe he was right, maybe he wasn't the same person that I had known before. Maybe it was my entire fault. Maybe I was as selfish as his mother accused me of being.

But I started taking Carlisle up on the promises I had made him. I knew somewhere in that house someone was watching me, I could feel it. So, one day I got up and put on a nice little slutty skirt and a low cut top with high heels that made my short little legs look long. I was going to get his attention one way or another. I guess this was the 'or other'. I fixed my hair and put on a little make-up for effect. "Time to get my man back", I told myself.

My old truck was parked on the side between our houses in front of one of their windows. I walked over and found that it was rather difficult to climb in with high heels on. I hope I don't make a fool of myself and end up in the ER again.

So I somehow managed to get in without my panties showing though not by much. Then I reached down to get my book bag. I had purposely left it on the ground, showing off my low cut top and swinging my hair around while lifting it in and trying to look sexy and seductive all the while. 'Take that Carlisle Cullen'. I said to myself as I shut my door. I turned up some hard rock music that I'm sure his mom and dad would hate, I revved my engine for effect. I knew Carlisle was watching me, I could feel him.

I went to school and was amazed to find out how much attention that I was getting from the opposite sex. I enjoyed it probably more than my broken heart should have. I got invited to a couple of parties over the weekend. I even dropped a couple of guys off while I was on my way home. I was actually looking forward to telling my mom about the day I had.

When I pulled in, Carlisle came barreling out of his house and toward the truck with those piercing mad, blue eyes looking straight at me. He slung open the door and pulled me out. I almost hit my face because of my heels. But he put both arms around me and caught me. I swear I think I saw steam coming out of his ears.

"Where have you been your late?" He spat

"Well I was dropping some friends off if you must know." I said gutting out my chin.

"Were they male or female friends?"

"What?"

"You heard me male or female because as far as I know I was the only friend you ever had. But judging by your little outfit I would bet every penny that I had that it was male. Oh and look doesn't that necklace that I got you go just, I don't know what the word is? 'Swell' with those high heels. You've learned to accessorize Bella. I bet your momma is proud." He yelled

"Well I'm damn sure your momma won't be proud of my outfit will she? But then again she wouldn't be too proud to know that you go for girls who like to wrap their lips around that big, juicy cock of yours, now would she?" I all but laughed.

"Well you look like the part today Bella, shall I pull it out for you?"

I blushed, "No"

"No because you don't even know what one looks like do you?"

"Don't worry about my lack of experience big boy, I'm sure that will change over the week end and after a few more parties I bet I can be a pro just like your little Irina was."

Damn now he looks like he could kill me. He pushed me up against my truck and placed his big hands on both sides of my head, and when he talked he spit he was so mad.

"You are in such a hurry to get something you've never even seen before little girl."

"I am not a little girl." I spat now just as angry as he was.

He rubbed his middle up against me and I gasped, something was big and hard against my stomach and he was rubbing it purposely against me.

"Do you even know what that is?"

"Um, yeah I'm pretty sure I can figure it out, thanks." Now I just felt week in the knees and I started to drop down. He pulled me up back up.

"What's wrong Isabella?" He spat looking me in the eyes again which didn't help.

"N n nothing." I stuttered out.

"Good because I'm not done with you yet." He pressed his chest up against mine and let out a low groan in my ear. His hands moved down around my waist and he pulled me even tighter if that were even possible. Then he grabbed my ass and massaged it while kissing my neck and lightly sucking on it. I gasped at the sensation of it all. My panties started to pool with wetness.

"Your parents are standing on the side walk watching you Carlisle you better stop."

"No, I'm giving you what you're asking for and I don't care who see's. You wanna dress like a slut then I will treat you like one."

"Don't say that."

"But that's what you are now, right? Wearing sexy clothes and taking boys home. Sounds to me like you're ready to get something stuck between your legs. I wouldn't be such a bad candidate now would I sweetheart?" he said in a soothing voice into my ear. "After all you were saving it for me weren't you? It's only right that I should go first."

"Stop it Carlisle. You're… scaring me…..STOP… I yelled and started to cry.

He released me then and stepped back a little. "Don't let me catch you dressed like that again. You think that I scare you. Try going to a party with drunken people there. They won't stop like I will, Isabella. Now go in the house and burn that outfit or I will." He turned and walked off still mad as hell. His parents said nothing but he did say something to them. "You caused this, all of this!"

I went inside and cried. I have never been more scared of Carlisle Cullen than I was in those few minutes or more turned on for that matter. I only want him; I don't have much longer to change his mind about leaving me. What can I do to make him want to stay with me? "I want him back" I sobbed.

My mom tried to explain to me that he was only trying to scare me away from boys who might hurt me. "Bella your first time should be special and with someone you love."

"I know that mom but what can I do he thinks I'm some sort of easy slut now. I think I might have gone too far this time. I think I might have messed up and there's no going back."

"He knows your heart still belongs to him honey. He still wants you; this is hurting him as well. Can you even imagine how helpless he feels where you're concerned? He's not even supposed to be around you. His parents are holding an iron fist over him right now. I guess all he can really do is pray that he doesn't lose you because of it." She sighed.

"Then why doesn't he stand up for me to them, mom? Why doesn't he fight for us?" I wiped a tear away.

"Bella we don't know what goes on inside that house. You really can't assume that he doesn't. He's acting in a way that I've never seen before baby, he's afraid of losing the only girl he has ever been in love with." Rene said while wiping the hair off my cheeks and tucking it behind my ears. "Give it some more time, judging by his reaction today I would say he's scared more then possessive. Even though it may have came off differently."

"Mom he rubbed his, himself on me."

Mom let out a hardly laugh, "Well I guess he was marking his territory then, wasn't he?"

"Mom stop laughing." I said, and then I started laughing as well. It was kind of funny I guess.

"You know Carlisle better than anyone, Bella. It's just a matter of learning which buttons to push and when. Love isn't always something that comes easily. Sometimes you have to fight hard for the one you want. Carlisle is an easy battle on his own to win, he already loves you. But his parents as a united front against him and you, well I would say that's a whole other battle altogether." She kissed my forehead and walked away, smiling.

I have a lot to think about once more. I saw a side of Carlisle that I have never seen before today and I actually liked it.