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"It's not that I'm not attracted to him" she sighed as she ran her hands through her long hair "But… all of this, it was never supposed to happen! He was not supposed to find me. Hell, I didn't even know he was looking for me! And now all of a sudden he's staying at my house, imagine that!".
Ylva ranted about her new home situation to Jane. The two friends were drinking tea on the terrace of their favorite café.
"So what's the problem then?" Jane asked.
"I don't just have myself to think of anymore Jane. I need to think what's best for Liekos. He's my first priority".
Jane cocked her head to the side and eyed Ylva curiously "What could be better for Liekos than to have both his parents? You said he adores Victor-"
"I know, I know, But… Victor… he's unpredictable. I don't trust him. I don't trust his motives. I mean, why did he come to my house after 10 years? He didn't know I had a son so why did he all of a sudden show up on my doorstep hm?"
"Because he wants you?" Jane answered in a matter of fact kind of way.
"No… it doesn't make sense. He just barged in… Taking over like he's king of the castle. Besides, I told you how I met him 10 years ago right?".
"Yeah, yeah, he abducted you and he was a complete jerk and all that" Jane waved her hands around as if it was no big deal at all.
"O c'mon Jane. It's more serious than that. Don't tell me you think it's okay to be what he is."
"And what exactly is he then?".
"He used to be the leader of that crime organization called the Brotherhood… He abducted me and… pfff never mind, I don't feel like going over it again. You already know the story".
"I think it's sexy. And so do you" Jane said as she winked mischievously.
Ylva scoffed "No way! I do not think it's sexy to abduct someone and then fall… Fuck it. Wait, how on earth can you find that sexy? How fucked up are you exactly?".
Jane shrugged and giggled "Well it depends who the abductor is… in your case it's mister tall dark and handsome and hell if you don't want him, I-"
"Hands off!" Ylva interrupted semi seriously.
"Oooooh" Jane mused "So that's how it is hm? You DO want him".
"Jane… yes, I do. But like I said: I need to think about what's best for my son… Because this is wrong in every way possible. Him and me… we are the worst match on earth. We are nothing alike. He's brutal, violent and possessive".
"He's also a good father, he would go through the gates of hell for you and Liekos AND he wants you more than anything. You can't tell me you're not at least a little flattered".
"But that's the thing! It's suspicious!"Ylva gasped " All of a sudden he's acting completely different than what I know off him. Sometimes I come home, he's done groceries, picked up Liekos from school and helping him with his homework or playing games with him. He even takes him outside to make sure he doesn't play computer games the entire day. It's like… a second nature to him. He's actually really good at it. But something tells me he's just putting on an act".
"Hmm" Jane mused as she sipped her tea "Something tells me you're wrong. First off all: you don't know him that well because 10 years ago you only spend like… one week with him and second of all: it seems like he's simply trying to make an effort. Didn't he mark you and all? In your feral world, doesn't that mean a stronger bond than marriage?".
"Okay let me just stop you right there" Ylva said as she held up her hand "Up to the point about him marking me, everything you said made sense. I'll admit that. And the marking thing… I dunno… I think it's just him being possessive".
"Yeah, cuz he wants you and only you!" Jane almost cried out desperately, annoyed by the fact that she wasn't getting through to her stubborn friend.
"Perhaps. But I think he's just here for Liekos".
"Oh my god!" Jane almost growled as if she was feral too "For someone with superior senses, you are extremely blind! Listen, I've only met him once and I didn't really get a chance to talk to him… But Jesus Christ, that man is… really something. I will tell you this: if a man like that would come knocking on my door, wanting to be involved in my family life, I would NOT turn him away. Especially not from my bed".
Ylva almost choked on her tea right then "Oh, did I forget to tell you? Mister tall dark and handsome decided that the couch didn't suit his royal needs. He now sleeps in my bed. He just claimed it!".
"Hm, Lucky you" Jane grunted.
Ylva shook her head and frowned at her friend.
"Right… lucky" Ylva replied sarcastically.
"Listen, it all comes down to this: do you or do you not like him? Tell me this: Why did you sleep with him 10 years ago? Ever ask yourself that?".
"Because… I was really attracted to him for some fucked up reason. He was all… masculine and powerful. He smelled so fucking good, still does of course. And he was constantly trying to provoke me sexually and at some point I just had to give in. I lost control and I wanted him. I had never lost control like that before. It was really weird".
"So how do you feel about him now?" her friend inquired.
"Well, basically the same to be honest. Probably cuz he's doing it again".
"Doing what again?" Jane asked curiously.
"He's always trying to seduce me and stuff. Moving too close, whispering sexy stuff in my ear, flattering me, touching me inappropriately… and I let him… It turns me on and I'm not made out of fucking stone you know!" Ylva shamefully admitted "I'm having those bloody sex dreams about him again" she added in a whisper.
"Duh!" Jane blurted "You're only human girl!".
Ylva smiled a little and sighed "Damn, sometimes I wanna rip his frikkin clothes off and just give in already. But I need to think if Liekos. I'm really scared Victor is not a stable factor in our lives… that's he's gonna desert him one day and break his little heart".
"And yours" Jane added skeptically.
She knew damn well that her friend was not only talking about her son. Letting Victor in was just as risky for her as it was for her son.
"Perhaps… but I feel guilty you know. I owe him this chance. I took 10 years away from him and I feel that sometimes he hates me for it".
"I'm sure he doesn't hate you for it. But… He DOES deserve this chance. It's his son also. He deserves a chance to get to know him. To spend time with him and be a real father. And from what I hear, he's doing a pretty good job so far".
Ylva let out another heavy sigh "I hate to admit it but… he was right. I should've contacted him when I found out I was pregnant. I knew where to find him. I just thought I was doing the right thing… I didn't expect him to want anything to do with a cub. I mean, he didn't strike me as the fatherly kind of person".
"But you didn't know him very well honey and you took his choice away" Jane said as she placed her hand on Ylva's in order to comfort her friend "We all judge people wrongly from time to time. You can't turn back time. All you can do now is: give him this chance and be open to it. Let him into Liekos life. He's his father and therefore you are bound to each other for life. Even if you don't choose him as your mate. Just remember: he did choose you and from what I heard, that's a pretty big deal in Feral land".
Ylva bit her lips and thought about her friends words. And she knew she was right.
"I feel guilty" the feral woman sighed.
"I hate to make you feel more guilty" Jane spoke hesitantly "But have you thought about the fact that no matter how big and scary he is, he has feelings too? You might have really hurt him… by leaving the way you did 10 years ago. With that note and all. Ever thought about that?".
Ylva seemed to shrink even more "No. I never really thought about his feelings in that way. I just had to think about Jason and how to take care of him. I couldn't do that if I'd stayed"
"I understand. But he marked you and made you his choice for life. And you left like that. And then to find out he had a kid all these years which you hid from him…"
"Okay, okay I get it. I'm an awful person".
"No, no!" Jane interrupted quickly "That's not what I'm saying. The bottom line is: he's probably a lot more serious about this than you think he is. So let him proof it. You owe him that".
Ylva took in a deep breath and stared at her friend with big and serious eyes. Knowing damn well that Jane was right.
"Fine. You're right, he's right and I'll let him stay as long as he wants to. But he better stop walking around shirtless because bloody hell!".
"Oh my God he walks around shirtless?! I would kill to see that!" Jane cried out.
"He frikkin' sleeps shirtless and walks around shirtless in the morning! It's driving me fucking nuts and he knows it! He can smell it!".
"That's priceless, he can smell how hot you are for him" Jane answered as she roared with laughter.
"Seriously, you should see it. I've never ever seen anything like it. He's fucking huge and with every move I see his muscles flex. Jesus…".
"You fucking want him! You want fucking want him!" Jane roared in laughter and wasn't gonna stop for a while.
"Of course I fucking want him!" Ylva hissed "Have you seen the guy? Those arms… that facial hair… And Jesus, I know I have zero experience when it comes to sex but 10 years ago… that was… Let's just say it's not something you'd forget".
"Oh my God Ylva… seriously, go home, take your clothes of and fuck the guy already".
"Mmmm" Ylva mused as she tried to suppress her giggling "Maybe I'll do that".
Jane leaned back in her chair and narrowed her gleaming eyes "Tell me… how he is… what was it like?".
"You want details?" Ylva asked remotely shocked.
"Yes!" Jane stated "I want details and I want them now!".
"Mmmkay… it was… good".
"Those are not details! Give me real details!" Jane demanded. "Like… how does he do it? Did you guys just fuck or…"
"Okay" Ylva finally decided as she leaned forward and lowered her voice "He's very intense. I mean, as a person he's intense, definitely. But in bed he's extremely intense. Rough… really rough. He fucked me raw that night. I was in sooooooo much pain afterwards. And I… liked it. Even the pain. Especially the pain actually. And his tongue can work fucking magic! He swore to make me scream and did exactly that".
Jane's eyes seemed to grow wider with every detail Ylva told her. She told her friend about how she came to his bed with a knife, meaning to kill him. How he had grabbed her, lifted up her shirt and growled in her ear while fingering her. How she gasped underneath him, begging for more. How he kissed every inch of her flesh and worked his way down till his tongue reached her inner thighs. How she screamed his name when he made her come all over his mouth. And how he had growled she was his, pushed inside her hot core and plunged his teeth into her neck to mark her for life. That he growled she was his, that she belonged to him and how he fucked her in every position imaginable. She also told her friend how Victor had asked her to stay with him.
"And after that… we pretty much… endlessly had sex the entire night" she whispered "I was so sore… I was in sooooo much pain but I couldn't stop!".
"Holy… mother… of… God…"Jane gasped "Ylva! You cannot let him go! I swear to you, there is NO man on earth with that much stamina! You will never, ever, find another guy who's gonna do all to you in one night. Trust me, I'm speaking from experience… every other guy will be a big fucking disappointment in comparison to him… Jesus… I can't believe you guys did all that in one night… You didn't even sleep! He just kept on fucking you like crazy…".
"I know" Ylva almost giggled as she remembered everything clearly "And he just… continued to make me come. For some reason he really liked it when I came".
"No shit! That's like the ultimate proof of masculinity, being able to make your woman come for you. Oh My God Ylva! In the name of all that's holy to women, if you let this guy go I will kill you!".
Ylva laughed wholeheartedly "Okay, okay, settle down will you. I'll think about it. But seriously: I am concerned Jane. That he is here of Liekos which is fine because our son should be his first priority but… will he leave once he's had his fun?".
"Well, you can't base important decisions on prejudice implications Ylva".
"I know, I know, it just worries me. I think he wanted me 10 years ago because I resisted him. He wanted something that he couldn't have and now he wants it again".
"Still" Jane corrected her friend "He wants it still".
"Maybe. But he might still leave once he gets what he wants".
"Where are they now?" Jane asked.
"Victor took Liekos to meet Tony Stark. Saved me from having to take him to the cinema to see Iron Man 3 which I think is a little too violent".
"It's mostly sci-fi. No real violence or bloodshed".
"God!" Ylva groaned out "Victor said exactly that. Why is the entire world against me all of a sudden? What the hell is going on? Is this karma biting me in the ass or something?".
Jane laughed "No one is against you. Anyway, that's nice of Victor, to take Liekos up there".
Ylva rolled her eyes "Yeah yeah, real nice of him. He's a goddamn saint".
"Sarcasm ain't gonna save you now girl. From where I'm standing he seems to be a fine dad, spending all that time together".
Ylva swallowed her tea and sat up "Yeah… they're spending time already… way too much time".
"Oh!" Jane gasped in shock "I see now! That's how it is! You – are – jealous!".
"Pff! I am not jealous of my son's father".
"Oooh" Jane mused "Not even a little bit? Because you had him all to yourself and he adores you. But now, you have to share the spotlight with his latest role model".
Ylva sighed "Whatever. Let's first see if he's even gonna stick around and then we'll see who's the role model".
"Well he ain't gonna stick around if you don't mark him" Jane simply stated.
Ylva seemed confused "What's that supposed to mean?".
"He marked you. So he chose you. But you told me, you never marked him. So you did not choose him right? If you don't choose him as your mate, why would he stick around and feel unwanted?".
Ylva sighed and threw her head back "I hate conversing with you. You're always so… so…".
"Confronting?" Jane finished her sentence with a content look grin decorating her features.
"Yes!" Ylva cried out "Would it really hurt you if you would just agree with me?".
"Nope. But it would hurt you" Jane answered wisely.
She was curled up in a big chair next to the fire place which wasn't lit. She eyed him as he was stretched out on the couch. He wasn't sleeping. She could hear by his breathing. The top buttons of his shirt were open and it was extremely distracting.
"What is it… that…" she reluctantly began but didn't finish her sentence.
"What?" Victor asked as he opened his eyes and looked at her.
She shook her head "Never mind" she smiled faintly.
He instantly sat up "Ask me" he simply demanded.
The weekend was over and both Victor and Liekos were back from Stark. Liekos had been all over the place, thrilled with enthusiasm. It was the best weekend of his life but he was also exhausted. And so he was sound asleep right now. Ylva hated to admit it, but the house had been annoyingly empty without the two males gone. And that's why she had spent as much time as possible working and hanging out with Jane. Unfortunately, her little chat with Jane made her think about things.
"Well" she hesitantly started over "You said… A few nights back I mean… you said that you…" she waited a long time and then took a deep breath "You said you missed me. Why did you say that? I mean, why would you miss me? Did you even mean it?".
Victor smirked a little "I meant it Ylva. You simply made my life more interesting. Having you around was fun and not having you around was boring".
Translation: You made my life better and it was fucking difficult to go back to how it was without you.
"Oh" she said, sounding rather disappointed. That was not the answer she secretly hoped for.
He cocked his head and forced himself to get the right words out, frails usually liked that shit according to Jimmy "I missed you because having you around made everything better. Your company was nice and after you left like that… well… I guess I didn't expect you to" he grumbled a little before continuing "That note…" he clenched his fist "That note was…"
Translation: if I believed I had a heart, your disappearance definitely broke it in a million pieces you bitch.
"I'm sorry" she interrupted him "I know the note was horrible. But I was afraid you would not keep your promise of letting me go".
Translation: I was afraid I wouldn't even want to go. I know I would not have left you if not for Jason.
"Damn straight" he snapped "I would have broken the promise and kept you with me. Like I said: you were useful to the Brotherhood since you're a powerful mutant. I could've made you stay and I planned to".
Translation: I don't even remember how I got on before I met you.
"I know" she softly replied "And that's why I left because I needed to take care of Jason.
Translation: I missed you too Victor, I've been lonely. There were many times I wanted to come back to you.
"I searched for you at first you know" he finally admitted "But then Jimmy convinced me you didn't want to be found and so I should leave you alone. Then the Brotherhood disbanded and I saw no reason".
She feel silent. Did he really just want her because she was a powerful mutant and she was useful for the Brotherhood back then? Well, no… he also said he enjoyed her company and Victor didn't seem the kind of person who would hand out that compliment to just anyone.
He said she made everything better. What was that supposed to mean?
She had missed him often. She never understood why. He had been cruel and violent towards her. But then again, he had not only shown her that side of him. She knew he had a different side to him. The way he cared for his brother, the way he leaded the Brotherhood and how he had protected her from Avalanche one night. Victor Creed was charming in a dark way and it had appealed to her greatly. And she had missed him. She had missed lying beside him even though they'd only spent 4 nights together ten years ago and only one night was a night with sex. And yet she had missed it a great big deal. There were times when she was lying awake thinking about contacting him. Thinking about telling him about Liekos but there was no way of predicting how he would react. And so she kept quiet and hidden away. Something she now regretted more than anything.
"I'm going to bed" she finally spoke up.
She walked out of the room but before she reached the door he caught up to her. His masculine form preventing her from walking through the double doors of the living room. His big arm leaning against the post.
"Please let me pass" she asked with her best poker face on.
He smirked, looking down at her evilly "Just so you know… if you're thinking about running and hiding again: don't" he said with the darkest look possible as he played with a string of her hair "Because I will find you and hunt you down just like the night we met. But this time, I will not be gentle. This time I will not let you go unpunished".
Translation: I've loved you from the very first moment I laid eyes on you my Little Wolf. And I will massacre everyone who stands between us.