Chapter 29: Is This the End?

A/N- I know I'm late and I'm very sorry. My semester is a bit crazy this year and has taken up a lot of my attention. Again, I'm really sorry. I hope you enjoy this chapter though and don't forget to review!

Disclaimer: I do not own Doctor Who, it belongs to BBC

Siren Song- Jill Andrews

I think I'm goin' down

And I'm drowning oh

Now I'm treading water

Can't touch the bottom anymore

Driftin' so far

I'll soon won't even see the shore

Anybody hear me

I'm callin out to the sky

Light is fading now

But I don't wanna close my eyes

They hadn't said anything to each other in about an hour. All three just sat waiting—hoping—for the Tardis to fully materialize. The Doctor, Rose and Kit were all tense and nervous. She could also hear Pete moving restlessly in his seat behind them. Nothing was happening and it almost felt like time was at a stand still.

"When time gets sorted out…" Rose finally spoke

"Everybody here forgets what happened. And don't worry, the thing that you changed will stay changed," the Doctor reassured her.

"I still don't think this will be the best plan," Kit stressed.

"Because I'll be alive?" Pete questioned.

Kit eyes widened. "What? No! I just mean that—"

"I'm suppose to be dead. Yeah I got that. That's why I haven't done anything with my life, why I didn't mean anything."

"It doesn't work like that," the Doctor argued.

"Rubbish. I'm so useless I couldn't even die properly. Now it's my fault all of this has happened."

"This is my fault," Rose jumped in.

"No, love. I'm your dad. It's my job for it to be my fault."

Kit bit the inside of her cheek. The conversation reminded her of her Doctor. No matter what mistakes she made he never blamed her. No matter how many times she yelled at him he never resented her. And she was sure that even though she said that she hated him, he would never hate her back.

"Her dad? How are you her dad?" Kit suddenly heard Jackie say.

Kit groaned. "Oh no."

"How old were you, twelve? Oh, that's disgusting," she spat and Kit felt the Doctor stand up to leave.

"Jacks, listen. This is Rose," Pete tried.

"Rose?! How sick is that? You give my daughter a second hand name? How many are there?!"

"My God, why couldn't I've gone deaf instead," Kit muttered under her breath.

"Do you call them all Rose?" Jackie accused.

"Oh, for God's sake, look. It's the same Rose!"

Suddenly the Doctor shouted, "Rose! No!"

Kit didn't have a chance to ask what was going on because she ended up getting her answer. She suddenly couldn't breath. No matter how hard she tried to get air in her lungs, nothing happened. She grabbed her throat and tried to speak. No one seemed to notice what state she was in because she could hear that the creatures were inside the church.

This seemed to make her worse. Her ears started ringing and her body was growing cold. She started coughing up blood which made her choke and she fell to the ground in pain. She was dying and dying fast. She knew that her elastic band had officially snapped.

She heard screaming and yelling. She could hear someone shout her name but other than that she couldn't make out what they were saying. Everything was becoming distant. It was like she was being sucked under the ground. It was painful. There was so much pain and she felt like she couldn't take it much longer.

Right when the pain became its worse, it suddenly stopped. There was nothing. She didn't feel anything. There was still darkness but it was different. It was like she was swimming in it. Swimming in a milky blackness. She wanted to feel scared but she couldn't. In fact, she couldn't feel anything. She couldn't feel her body or even her mind. It was like all she could think about was the darkness.

Suddenly the darkness disappeared slowly and was replaced by a blur of green and blue. The colours soon started to become evident and she could distinguish shapes. The green shapes became trees and the blue became the sky. She blinked a couple of time as a sense of peace settled itself on her.

She sat up quickly and looked around. She had no idea where she was. She was sitting in the middle of a simple forest. What was weird though was the fact that she couldn't here any bird chirping and even when the wind blew the trees, she couldn't hear the reselling of them.

"Where the hell am I?" She questioned to no one.

She expected no one to answer but then a voice spoke behind her. "A place between life and death."

Kit turned around to see a dark skinned woman with big bushy hair. She was wearing a white dress with no shoes. She was smiling but it was a very mysterious smile that Kit wasn't sure if she liked.

"Purgatory?" Kit asked trying to make sense of what the women said.

"Not exactly," she replied, her smile turned secretive.

Kit watched the women. "Who are you?"

"No one… yet," the women winked at her.

Kit shook her head violently not understanding what was going on. "What does that even mean?! What's happening?"

The women laughed. "I've missed you, Kittredge."

Kit frowned. She didn't like the fact that the women knew her name but Kit didn't know the women's. But there was something there that stopped Kit from just up and running away from her. There was a kindness in her eyes. A look of love but Kit didn't know why it was there.

"Why are you here? Why am I here?" Kit questioned, getting up from the ground.

"You died."

Kit ran her hand through her hair in frustration. "Yeah, I got that! But shouldn't I be in the Afterlife or whatever you go when you die. Why am I here?"

The women just smiled. "I brought you here."

"But why?" Kit stressed. "I don't even know who you are!"

The women grew sad. She walked over to Kit until she was right in front of her. The women cupped one of Kit's cheeks and smiled sadly. The women's touch was warm and weirdly familiar.

"The last time I saw you, you were so much older—too old but I guess that's what Trenzalore does to you," she said to her but the women looked a million miles away like she was remembering ever detail. "You looked so tired. So alone for far too long. I just wanted to see you like this; young, innocent, still with baby cheeks and with hope in your eyes. I wish I could protect you from this world."

Kit's mind was spinning. Who was this women? She obviously knew Kit in the future. What was Trenzalore? Why was she alone? What did her future hold?

"I—I don't understand," Kit stammered.

There was a great sadness in those loving eyes that made Kit want to cry.

"You don't have to," the women spoke softly and then kissed Kit's forehead. "I will always be here for you Kit, even when I'm not."

"But—"

The women shook her head. "It's time for you to go back."

"No! I still have questions! Who are you? What's Trenzalore? What's going to happen to me in the future?"

The women just grinned. "Spoilers. Goodbye, Sweetie, but not forever."

Then suddenly there was a flash of light. It was blinding. The light took away the trees and the blue sky but more importantly, it took away the women. She no longer felt her warm hand on her cheek or saw her loving eyes. Kit didn't want to say goodbye to the women, not yet and she didn't know why.

The light became brighter and brighter and Kit's mind was growing foggy. What was she thinking about a couple of seconds ago? She suddenly felt like someone punch in the gut and then it was as if someone threw her to the ground.

Kit gasped and sat up. She coughed a coupe times getting used to breathing again. Her lungs burned and it felt like she hadn't used them in years. She blinked her eyes as the light was bright but not in the same way as it was before. That light was foreign but this light felt natural. It made her feel warm and it kissed her skin. She rubbed her eyes to see that she was sitting in the middle of a street. It didn't register to her fully what was happening.

When it did though, it felt like someone had smacked her in the face. There was a paradox, she was dying… no she had died. She could see. She could move her legs. She was alive! She didn't know how but she was alive yet for some reason she felt sad. She just couldn't remember why.

She didn't remember much about what happened when she was dead but there was something that was important. She remembered a mixture of blue and green. She remembered a sensation of warmth. Most importantly, she remembered a woman but she couldn't make out details or what she said. Was she important? Where did she go when she died? She so desperately wanted to know.

She stopped thinking when she heard sirens and shouting. Kit stood up, her legs wobbling a bit. She looked around and was confused on where she was. She had no idea how her body got from the church to somewhere outside. She went in the direction of the noise. When she turned a corner, she stopped abruptly. In front of her was Pete on the ground. Over him holding his hand was Rose. Pete had done it. He had saved everyone by sacrificing his life. She felt terrible for Rose but was glad that she got to be there for him.

She felt a presence beside her and knew it was the Doctor. She could tell by the tension that descended in the air. Things were different now between them. Before they were too focused on the fact that she was dying but the fact of who she was and what she's doing here was in full light. She couldn't play innocent, neither of them could.

She breathed in sharply through her nose. "I died."

He continued looking straight on. "I know."

"I don't want to die again."

He finally faced her. His eyes were calculating. "We'll figure it out."

She shook her head. "No, I'll figure it out. This is on me."

He watched her closely. "It doesn't have to be."

She ran her hand through her hair. "I think it does. I don't know why but I think I'll be alone one day in this." She sighed. "Everything is different now isn't it?"

He didn't say anything for a moment. "Yes, it is."

Kit could only nod, feeling defeated. She turned her attentions back to Rose who was standing up and making her way towards them.

Her eyes suddenly landed on Kit and she stopped dead in her track. There was a weird look on her face. It was an uncertain and confused look which Kit didn't understand.

"K—Kittredge?" Rose asked, shaking her head like she was trying to remember something.

Kit gave her a curious look. "Um, Yeah?"

Rose looked her up and down. "You… travel with us, right?"

Kit raised her eyebrows in surprise. "Last time I check."

"I—" She shook her head more violently. "I met you at the shop where I used to work."

"Rose, are you okay?"

"You died," she said slowly. "And then it was as if—I couldn't—you just stopped existing."

"What?"

"Your body disappeared and then it was as if you left my mind—everyone's mind—completely."

Kit looked up at the Doctor with a question in her eyes; did this have to do with the fact she was from the future? This meant that if she died then she would be completely forgotten.

The Doctor nodded and Kit gulped. She suddenly felt very scared as well as angry. She wanted to yell at the Tardis for putting her in this horrible situation. She was dying slowly, if she did die she was going to be forgotten and the Doctor probably didn't want to talk to her now. Why was this happening to her?

"It must have something to do with the Paradox," the Doctor simply said, obeying her request not to tell Rose about her.

Rose didn't look convinced. "Are you sure? I still remembered you."

"I'm sure," was all he said. He made no move to give any further explanation.

"Alright," Rose said slowly. She looked back at her father who was now being carried away by the ambulance. "So, I guess everything goes back to normal now."

Kit and the Doctor both looked at each other with uncertain eyes. "Yeah… back to normal," Kit muttered.