Chapter Six: Your Song
Four days later, and Dean was there to pick up Cas to take him home. He was waiting for them to bring Cas around, there wasn't anyone allowed on the psych ward floor at the moment who wasn't staff or patient. So he was waiting. John had offered to come with him, but Dean had told him he thought he should do this alone. He truthfully wasn't sure what Cas would want, John there or not. He knew that Cas was kind of embarrassed that he'd done this. Even if Dean had told him that he didn't have to be. He was going through a hard time. Dean was waiting and was just about to ask where his husband was when he got a call on his cell.
"Hello?"
It was Sam. "How's Cas?" He asked, he was working on a rape and murder case, and he was taking a break in the research of the previous charges against the perp. He rubbed his face, he knew he had chosen this career, and it would be a shame to give up on it after he'd finally gotten onto a firm that he wanted to be at. Sam needed a trim, he liked to keep his hair long, but he should get an inch or so off so it was a little bit more professional. "I know he's embarrassed. Please tell him I said that he shouldn't be. And when they catch this guy, I will be the one helping put him away."
He was still just a junior associate, and he didn't get to do much but research. But Sam actually didn't mind that, because he was still helping catch a bad guy and put him behind bars. Sam may not have said so out loud, but he'd always wanted to be like John. In the putting people who deserve to be in jail away.
This was not a conversation that Dean had expected to have. But he brushed a hand over his hair, which unlike Sam's had just been cut. Dean said, "I haven't seen him yet, they're bringing him out now. I don't really know what to do with him. I know he doesn't want to stay here, but I also know that he can't be left alone. I took some time off work, and I know that he's going to resent being babysat." He didn't even mean it like that, but that's basically what it was. Dean just didn't want it to be a nurse or something, Cas would hate that and would be against it.
"I don't know how to help him. Other than listen to him when he wants to talk, but he also doesn't seem to want to talk about it. Which I know is bad, from reading some articles on the internet." Dean said, pacing around a little, glaring at the guy who seemed to be trying to listen in on his conversation. "I have to do this right. I don't want to lose him. And what about all of the Ash shit? He and I kind of had a thing with Ash the day it happened. What if he is internalizing about Ash? I mean, I know that nothing is going to happen because I love Cas, and Cas loves me. But I know that Ash isn't going to give Garth a proper answer about anything. He's wanting me, and he won't take no for an answer."
He saw Cas coming, they were pushing him in a wheelchair, which Dean knew was hospital policy. "I gotta go, Sammy, Cas is coming. I'll call you later." He said, and they hung up. Dean moved over to his husband. "Cas, baby, are you okay?" He asked, leaning down to kiss him. Cas used his shirt collar and pulled him down again to kiss him harder. Dean obliged for a moment but then he pulled back. "Come on, let's take you home and get you something to eat."
Standing, Cas looked pale and wan in the clothes that Dean had dropped off the day before, they'd thrown out the ones covered in blood from the suicide attempt. Dean took his arm, Cas didn't look like he'd be able to walk on his own. Dean hated how thin he'd gotten. Dean wrapped an arm around his waist and led him out to the Impala. "We're stopping to get some pizza, I ordered it for lunch at Papa John's. You are going to eat until you are full, and then you're going to have some of the pies that people dropped off. You are well loved in our neighborhood, there's all kinds of food and cookies and shit." Dean said, it had truly amazed himself the people that had shown up, offering to do what they could and bringing comfort food and casseroles and things.
Cas let Dean help him into the car, and he mumbled something about agreeing to what Dean said. He was going to be malleable, and let Dean do what he felt he needed to take care of Cas. Cas knew that his husband was trying his best. He laced his fingers in Dean's over the gear shift. "I'm sorry, Dean. I'm sorry that you have to take care of me." He said, brushing a hand over his scruffy cheek. He needed to shave. They didn't let you have anything weapon like in the ward. He felt Dean squeeze his fingers back and put the car in gear.
It was going to be a long time before Cas felt okay. He was reliving everything and he couldn't stop. He had thought that he'd never be attacked again, even if the statistic was mostly proven to be true, that once you were a victim you had double the chance to be one again.
It wasn't long before they were home with three pizzas, and Cas was set up in the living room with the pizzas and Dean was getting out the paper plates and some drinks. Cas had already opened one of the boxes and was taking a slice out. When Dean came back, with paper towels as well, Cas took the plate and put a few slices on a plate and took a bite. "So, are you going to take this so far as to let me watch Outlander?" He asked, Cas had read the books, and he was just getting into the show.
At this, Dean looked at Cas. It wasn't his type of thing. And he liked the tiny sly smile that was playing on Cas' lips. It was the first true smile that had been on his face in two months. "Yeah, I know you want to watch some more." He said, as he filled his plate full of pizza and took a huge bite. He pulled up the remote to pull up Netflix. They weren't very far in, with the kids running around the house after school and whatnot. Dean cracked open a beer and took a long sip. He gestured towards the medicines on the table.
"Take your meds, babe." Dean said, once his mouth was free. He pulled up their latest episode. Dean wasn't that into it, but he also would do anything for Cas. Cas had agreed to try porn with him, and because of that Dean would do things for Cas that he wouldn't normally do. But Cas had ended up liking some of the porn stuff. Dean was glad because sex had really been amazing since he'd been with Cas. Dean leaned to kiss Cas' cheek. "You're gonna be okay, baby. I know you think you won't. But with time, you'll start to be okay. And you know you can tell me anything that you need to get off your chest. I took time off work for a couple of weeks, and it'll be just you and me, other than the baby."
Cas finished his slice of pizza. "Where is the baby?" He asked, and Dean told him that he'd taken him over to Jo's and he was playing with Laura. The kids were going to be home in a couple of hours from school, and Cas was actually looking forward to seeing them. Diana, who had been hiding under someone's bed, came down the stairs quickly and joined them. Cas gave her a couple of pepperoni slices. She ate them, her tail wagging on the floor.
The front door opened, and Dean looked up in surprise, the kids weren't supposed to be here yet. It was Cory and Claire, and they were having a discussion about something as they walked in. Dean called at them. "Hey, what are you kids doing here?"
Cory looked at his dad. "Short day, the teachers took off to do some meetings or something. I think it's they just are cutting back a bit because they don't have money." He said, adjusting his bookbag. He looked at Claire, who just shrugged. "Pizza!" Cory said, and he put his bookbag on his hanger in the mudroom and went to get some. He reached out and touched his stepfather's shoulder. "You okay, Cas?" He asked, he was sure he'd get used to calling him 'Dad' or 'Pop' or something soon. Cory was worried about him, but there was also some new drama with Julie and Claire, and some guy had been checking out Cory in homeroom.
He got an answer of okay, and Claire moved to get some pizza too. She sat on the floor by Diana, Cory in the armchair by the sectional. They both could have fit on it with their parents, but they both knew that their parents would rather sit alone on it. Cory looked at his father, who seemed a bit out of sorts, as well as Cas. "So, Dad, there was this guy, he was checking me out in homeroom today." He said, he didn't want to bring up the Julie thing, he didn't know if Claire wanted to talk about it.
Dean looked at him, taking a sip of his beer. Cory had picked up one of the sodas. Cas wasn't supposed to drink with his medication. "Yeah? Is he cute? Do you know him?" He asked, and Cory launched into the story. He had said yes to him once in the hall, and that was about it. Dean said, "If you like him, ask him out. Or do a like casual hang out thing." Dean said, and he wondered where Callie was. She usually came home with them after school, and then Jodi picked her up on the way to John's. John and Jodi had gotten very serious, but Dean wasn't surprised about that. He'd read somewhere that guys who had been happily married or with someone ended up getting someone new not long after the relationship ended. Dean knew that Jodi was spending a lot of time there, more than she was at her own place.
"Why didn't your aunt come with you?" He asked, deciding to keep the conversation light. Cas could try and focus on what they were talking about and not his dark thoughts.
This one Claire took. "She said she was going to go meet Grandpa somewhere." John had retired, after the almost dying, he decided to enjoy what time he had left. Claire reached for a supreme slice, and a soda from the pile. She knew they were trying to keep their minds off the fact that Cas had just gotten home from the psych ward. Claire didn't want to bring it up, because they'd all had a talk about what to do and say when Cas got home. Dean didn't want anyone to make him feel bad about it, and he didn't want them to bug Cas about it if he didn't want to talk. They were allowed to ask questions, but only if Cas said it was okay. That she completely understood.
Then she leveled her eyes on Dean. "What are you going to do about Ash? Uncle Garth is really upset about it." He hadn't asked the kids to call him that, but they all did. She pulled her long blonde hair back into a ponytail and then kept her blue eyes on her father. "He's sleeping at Grandpa's. Whenever we go over to see him, Garth is trying to pretend he's okay, but he's not." She said, shaking her head. She wondered if maybe she should have kept quiet, Cas seemed to flinch when she brought it up.
Sighing, Dean said, "I don't know, kiddo. We do have to do something. I am so angry at Ash for just showing up and thinking that he could just treat Garth like crap. I don't know what he's thinking." Dean didn't want to go into what Ash said he felt for Dean, one, because it would hurt Cas to bring it up again, and he'd just come home from the psych ward, and two, he didn't know if they wanted to talk about this with the kids. Claire kept her blue eyed gaze on him, reminding him so much of her father. Dean still wished they knew why Gabriel's wife had used Cas' sperm to have her, other than Gabriel was a total douche.
Claire eyed him carefully. She knew that she wasn't getting told something. She wondered whether she should press him or not. The look on his face said not. "Dad, I know that something is going on that you're not telling me." She said, and he gave her a pleading look. She took a bite of her pizza. "Cory and I aren't the little kids. You can tell us things. We know that you and Daddy aren't going to break up. So just tell us what's going on."
Sharing a look with Dean, Cas sighed. After he'd filled his plate again, knowing that Dean would make sure that he ate enough, he took a sip of Coke before he answered her. "Ash has feelings for Dean." He said, and watched Claire's face make an O. "The day I…" He didn't have to finish that sentence. "We had a fight with Ash. And Ash and Garth had a fight." Cas wondered why they were talking about this. He supposed it got his mind off the fact that he'd been raped again, but he didn't want to think about Ash wanting his husband. He got it, he just didn't want to think about it. "I know your father loves me, and he knows I love him. We're not going to cheat on each other. But I don't think it's any of our business to but in on Ash and Garth. We can't force Ash to do anything, and Garth feels how he feels."
Cas didn't really want to discuss it. He was just so tired. Cas knew he had to finish what was on his plate before he would be able to go up and get a nap. Dean was trying to make sure that he gained the weight back that he had lost. Which Cas understood. He was going to let Dean take care of him, instead of trying to fight him. He didn't want there to be any discourse, and he knew that it would make Dean feel better to take care of him.
They all sat together for another thirty minutes, then Cas went on up to take a nap. Dean watched him go nervously. As soon as Cas had gotten up the stairs and out of sight, Dean turned to look at Claire. "Please, don't bring up Ash around your dad. I think it had partly to do with what he did." He looked at both of his children, and his eyes started to mist up a bit. Dean couldn't imagine life without Cas, and he didn't want to lose him. They'd been together for about two years, and Dean knew that it would be forever. They were going to die still married, hopefully in the same place. And close together, so they didn't have to live long without the other one.
"Cas is barely hanging on. I'm telling you this so you'll know to be careful with him. He is dealing with a lot of things. When Cas was in high school, he was raped." He said, and both Cory and Claire looked at him with surprise. "Please don't tell him that you know. If he wants you to know, he'll tell you. But I have to tell you because it's causing him issues again. When he got raped again, it brought up all those feelings from the first time. He's very fragile. I know you've had to have noticed that he's lost weight. He's not dealing with it well. That's why he tried to do what he did."
He still couldn't say it out loud. That Cas had tried to kill himself. Dean completely got why. It just hurt so much. And the sight of Cas laying on the floor with blood pouring out of his body wouldn't leave his mind.
Getting up, Claire went around and hugged him. She knew that Dean was having a hard time with all of this, despite the fact that he'd been doing his best to hide it from the rest of the family. Claire hugged him tightly, and Dean began to cry. She knew how exactly upset he must be to be crying in front of her. Cory had moved to start cleaning up the pizza boxes and trash, he didn't feel he knew Dean well enough yet to be seeing this, Claire knew. She shared a look with her older brother thanking him as he left the room.
"Dad, Daddy loves you. You love him. Things are going to be okay, time has to pass by." She said, not sure what else to say to him. It was keeping her mind off of Julie though. Who had gotten pregnant, and had broken up with Claire. She said she wanted to decide what she wanted to do with the baby herself. Claire didn't even know how the pregnancy had happened. If she had cheated, or if she'd been forced. Julie had refused to tell her. Claire had done her best. She wanted to tell her parents, but she didn't know how she felt about it. Other than she was hurt that Julie had done that to her.
When Claire had pulled back, Dean was reaching for a tissue to wipe his eyes. He couldn't hold things in anymore. It was getting really tiring. He looked at Claire. "We need to talk about something else for now, sweetheart. I can't think about it anymore. Tell me what's going on with you. Why hasn't Julie been hanging around lately?" He wasn't sure that she was going to tell him the truth. He noticed that she got a bit fidgety and started playing with her hair. He knew it was something that wasn't simple. What she said blew him away. It was just unreal.
Taking a deep breath, Claire decided to tell him the truth. "Julie told me she…. she's pregnant." She said, and she knew that her father was incredibly shocked. His eyes widened to his hairline and he scratched along the scruff on his face. "She won't tell me if she was forced or if she cheated on me. But she broke up with me because she wants to decide what to do about the baby herself." She didn't know what she was going to do if Julie wanted her back. She supposed it had to do with how Julie had gotten pregnant. If she had cheated, Claire didn't want her back.
This is when the door opened again, and it was John this time. He was carrying a bag full of ice cream. "Hey, guys." He said, and noticed that there had been some kind of serious conversation going on. "I hope I'm not interrupting. I just came by to see how Castiel is doing. And I brought ice cream." He saw the look on Dean's face, his son was in shock and a little pale. "Son, why don't you come help me dish it out?" He asked, and Dean got up, following his father to the kitchen.
"What's happened? Is Castiel okay? He did agree to come home, right?" John asked, as Dean got out bowls and spoons. Cory got up and went back in the living room with Claire. John could hear them getting their textbooks out to get their homework done.
Dean knew that he shouldn't tell his father what Claire had just told him. He decided to go with the questions that his father had posed. "Cas…. I can't tell much what he's feeling. And he hasn't really spoken much since I picked him up." He leaned against the counter as John opened the ice cream. "He's upstairs napping right now." He said, he noted that John had gotten mint chocolate chip and vanilla, two of Cas' most favorite kinds of ice cream. It touched him that his father remembered something like that about Cas. It just rode home how much Cas was loved by his family.
At this point, Dean's eyes filled with tears again. His chin wobbled for a moment before he continued speaking. "I feel like he's slipping away, Dad. He's letting me take care of him, like make sure he's eating enough and taking his meds. But he… it feels like he's not really here with me when he is." Dean wiped his eyes. "I can't lose him. I was…. Since I've been with him I realize that I've never been in love with anyone until him." Dean hoped that wouldn't bother John. But there was no sign that it bothered his father in his face.
John put the ice cream away and then called in the kids to get their bowls. When they'd gone back to the living room, he handed Dean a bowl. "You are doing all that you can for him, Dean. You are being an amazing husband. You aren't losing him. You just have to give him the space to deal with all of this. He's having a hard time with what happened, and then the whole Ash thing." John did know about it, and it was taking everything in him not to go and put the fear of death into the kid for even trying to come between Dean and Cas. "You will figure this out. All you can do is be there for him, and you're doing that. Cas knows that you love him. He loves you."
His father's words felt really good to hear. Dean wiped his eyes and took a bite of his ice cream. "Thanks, Dad. I really did need to hear that." He said, eating more. This is when Jo came into the kitchen, Dean assumed she'd used her key or Claire or Cory had let her in. He knew why she was here. She was here to see Cas. "Hey, babygirl." Dean said, and hugged her one armed. He asked, "Do you want some ice cream? Cas is asleep, it might be awhile before he wakes up."
Looking at her brother in law, Jo could tell how much this was weighing on him. She felt so bad for both him and Cas. For the whole family. Everything was so messed up. Once they'd recovered from one thing, another hit them. Jo told John she'd get her own when he started to get up from the table to get her some. She leaned and kissed his cheek before she went to the freezer. "How is he doing?" She asked Dean. She was kind of glad that she hadn't been there when it had happened. It would have been too hard for her to see. Cas was her best friend. She had good news to impart. But she wanted Cas to be there when she told everyone.
"He's as well as he can be after getting checked out of the psych ward." Dean said, as she got her own ice cream and joined her father in law at the table. At these words, Cas came down and joined them, his eyes blurry and his hair only a little sleep mussed. Dean reached out for him and Cas came to him immediately. Dean wrapped his arms around Cas' waist. Then he looked into those sky blue eyes. "What's the matter, baby? Did we wake you up? You haven't been up there for very long." Dean said, rubbing Cas' back. He leaned out and kissed him softly. "You should sit and eat some ice cream." He said, hugging him tightly and then leading him to the table.
"Sit, and I'll get you some."
Cas seemed a bit disoriented, but he knew that was his medication. Cas reached out and squeezed the hand that Jo reached out to him. "It's so good to see you, Jo." He said, running a hand over his face. "I didn't sleep well." He told him, there had been a nightmare. "I wanted…. I needed you." He said, and when Dean came over with his ice cream, he kissed Cas soundly on the mouth and then the top of his head. Cas tugged him down by his shirt and hugged him tightly, putting his head in Dean's neck and taking a good deep sniff.
He smelled of Old Spice and the lavender fabric softener they used, that Dean would refuse to admit that they bought, and just this woodsy smell that Cas couldn't identify. "I love you so much." Cas murmured into Dean's neck. His eyes had brushed with tears, and he really wished that they were alone. As much as he appreciated John and Jo being here. He knew they were here for him, to see how he was. They wanted to know that he was alright because they were his family and they loved him. Cas wouldn't let go, he held onto Dean like he was never going to see him again. "Please don't ever leave." Cas whispered, hoping only his husband would hear him.
"What are you talking about, baby? I'm not going anywhere." Dean said, his voice a bit choked up and tears brushing his eyes. Any thoughts of being scared of Cas leaving were taken away with Cas holding on to him so tightly and asking Dean not to leave. "I love you so much, I love you a million." He told him, hugging him just as tightly. Then Cas pulled back, kissed him lightly on the mouth, and then moved to eat his ice cream. Dean rubbed his back and then ran his fingers through Cas' hair and then went to put his bowl in the dishwasher before he settled into a chair next to Cas at the kitchen table.
Clearing her throat, Jo said, "I have news, I didn't just come over to see how Cas is." She took another big bite of her vanilla ice cream before she spoke again. They all looked at her. She blushed deeply. "Well, Sam and I got approved for adoption, we're getting a three year old named Devlin." They all smiled and started to congratulate her, but she held up a hand. "And, I found out I'm pregnant." She said, and their faces all took on shocked expressions. "Yeah, that was my reaction, too. I'm actually three months along. I just thought maybe I was late, but then I took a test."
It was just such good news, because she wasn't supposed to be able to get pregnant again. "I am seeing a doctor tomorrow, Sam's going with me. We're both so excited." Jo smiled and looked down at her bowl, blushing deeply as they all got up and hugged her all at once. She hadn't ever expected to be able to carry another baby, and she was going to do her best to do this right. When they had all sat back down, she said, "Devlin comes to us next week. He's coming from Albany, so it's going to be a bit of an adjustment for him."
Everyone had gotten into their seats again. Cas smiled a real, genuine smile. "I am so happy for you and Sam, Jo. The family can always get bigger." Cas wanted to have one more child with Dean, one that they both wanted, using a surrogate. But he knew that right now that wasn't a good idea. Maybe in a year or two, when Jamie was a bit older. He was off with Charlie, she'd agreed to babysit him for the day. He loved Charlie. She always had fun games for him and she had some cats that he loved to play with. "We should be celebrating. Let's have a party this weekend, I will make something good and we'll have cake and cookies and games for the kids."
This was agreed upon, and then talk resumed of happier things as they ate their ice cream.
The next morning, Dean woke up with his husband wrapped around him tightly. He let a smile play on his lips. He'd missed that for three days. He just watched Cas sleep. They'd made out a bit the night before, but that was it. No sex. Dean hadn't minded, he wasn't trying to rush Cas into being ready for something he might not be ready for. As Dean was watching him, Cas grabbed onto him a little bit tighter and his blue eyes opened a bit. "Mine." Cas mumbled, burrowing his face into Dean's neck.
Laughing, Dean said, "Yes, Cas, I'm yours. Completely, heart and soul." He pressed a kiss to the top of Cas' head. Cas was starting to press light kisses along Dean's collarbone. His body shivered. "Oh baby, that feels so good." He said, shivering more as Cas moved his kisses up to Dean's jawline. Then he pressed his mouth to Dean's, deeply, sucking on Dean's tongue. He moaned against Cas' mouth, and Cas' hand moved down between them in the blankets and into Dean's boxer briefs. His hand ran over the shaft of Dean's cock, and it began to get hard almost immediately. It had been awhile for them. Dean moaned against Cas' lips again.
Cas then moved down Dean's sculpted body, and tugged his boxer briefs off and dropped them to the side of the bed. He pushed Dean's hips down, and he took Dean's cock into his mouth. Dean groaned, and he knew he wouldn't be able to arch his hips, and Cas was strong. He moaned as Cas' tongue ran down the length of his shaft. His fingers were playing with Dean's balls as his mouth worked his cock. Cas was an expert at blow jobs. His tongue ran along the tip, and precum was already starting to come out. Cas wanted Dean to come inside him though. He pulled off with a pop, and used the precum to ease himself onto Dean's cock, bracing himself on Dean's abs. He began to move, Dean gasping and his hand going to Cas' cock, which he began to stroke as Cas' hips moved.
It was fast, and they both came with grunts. Dean was half hard again as Cas leaned down to lick his own cum off Dean's stomach. Then he kissed Dean, so he could taste Cas on his tongue. When they broke to breathe, Dean said, "Fuck, baby, that was an amazing way to wake up." He couldn't imagine where Cas' want for sex had come from, but he wasn't going to knock it. He pulled Cas back to him and kissed him deeply, Cas staying on him a few seconds longer before he moved to lay next to Dean. He was curled back up to him immediately, his head on Dean's chest and an arm around his waist.
"I just, I wanted you." Cas said simply, stroking the soft hair that led down to Dean's cock. "It's been awhile, and I know it's because of me, and I just, I wanted you." He held up a hand to stop Dean's protestations. "I know that it's okay that it was because of me. You don't have to say it. I love you and I love you because you were patient and didn't pressure me." Cas wasn't sure that he wanted to talk about any of this right now, but laying here, having just made love to his husband, who gave him the most amazing sex of his life, felt like a good time. He felt loved and safe. He always felt loved and safe with Dean.
After he'd traced a circle on Dean's abs, he started speaking. "It's been so hard, and I know you know that. I've been trying to come to terms with what happened. It's… it's brought up a lot of stuff I thought that I was done dealing with. I've been reading stuff again, and I've found out that it's never completely out of your mind. You just have a better time dealing with it for awhile. You've been great, Dean. I know you've been doubting yourself. But you're doing all you can and I really appreciate it. You have no idea how much I appreciate it."
He took a breath and kept talking, glad that Dean was just there to listen. "I am just, I want the guy to be caught, and I know that Jodi and Garth are trying really hard. I just, I don't have a lot of hope that it's going to happen. Not because they aren't great at their jobs, but this kind of thing rarely gets solved. Unless this guy attacks again, on behalf of Balthazar, he's not going to be caught. And I can deal with that. Because it feels like it was a one time thing. It doesn't feel like he's going to come and hunt me down again. If I thought that, i'd've asked Jodi for some protection. But I still… I can't stop the nightmares." He said, and Dean stroked his back. "Almost everytime that I go to sleep, I close my eyes, and I see him. And I feel what it felt like and it just…. I can't move. I'm paraylzed with fear."
Once Cas was done talking, Dean let his hand run up Cas' back and into his hair. He knew that Cas loved having Dean's fingers in his hair. "You will always be safe with me. I will not let him hurt you again. I've taken some time off work, and I'll be here with you every day. You need looking after right now, and I'm going to be there for you. Because I'm your husband and I love you." He ran his fingers slowly through Cas' hair. Cas was shivering with pleasure under his ministrations. "I don't know what it's like to be that scared, to have a fear that someone is out to get you, but I do know how to protect my family. I love you and I will never let anything like that happen to you ever again."
"And you can't think like that. You know that Jodi and Garth will do everything they can. If the case goes cold, they'll have to stop, but they'll try their best till that happens." Dean wanted to stay like this forever, but he knew they should get up and check on Jamie, and he wanted to get some breakfast going for the family. He reached and tugged Cas' head up so he could see his eyes. "Come on, I want to make breakfast for everyone. Bacon calls." He said, and Cas smiled a small smile at him and kissed him, and then they both started to move and put some clothes on to be decent.
Dean went to Jamie's room, who was awake already. He reached up his hands. "Dada!" He exclaimed, and Dean had to step over Diana, who usually slept in Frankie's room or Jamie's. He reached down and picked up Jamie, and held him up in the air. "Morning, kiddo. How's Daddy's little monkey?" He asked, as Jamie squealed in delight. Dean tossed him carefully up and then caught him, and they left the room. Cas had gone on down to get out the eggs, bacon, and hashbrowns. Dean got to the bottom of the stairs, and saw Ben. He was texting on his phone already. "Texting your boyfriend?" He asked, and Ben blushed, telling Dean to shut up. He ruffled his kid's hair and went on into the kitchen.
He put Jamie in his high chair. He asked, "What does Daddy's monkey want for breakfast?" He asked, and Jamie immediately told him cereal. He liked dry Cheerios. Dean moved to get him a bowl of Cheerios and put it in front of him with a bottle of orange juice. Then he moved to help Cas. "Ben, we're making breakfast, but if you don't want it you can have a frozen waffle or some cereal." Dean told him, Ben had put down his phone and was putting some books away in his bookbag. Dean added the bacon to the pan, Cas had already gotten out the eggs and was mixing them in a huge bowl.
This was nice. It was feeling like things were getting back to normal. Dean loved that. He hummed a Led Zeppelin song to himself as he got the bacon started. Then he got out the diced potatoes. He loved to be cooking anything for their family, and breakfast was his best cooking skill. Claire, Cory, and Frankie all came into the kitchen, and it was the whole family. Dean heard Cas saying something to him, and he turned to look at him. "What, baby?" He asked, it was loud and chaotic in the morning. His heart almost stopped as Cas told him he'd like to have one more kid with him, in the near future.
It was unexpected, but Dean smiled at him. "Okay, if that's what you want, babe." He told him, and kissed him before he got back to cooking. This was going to be okay. They'd be okay. He knew that he was going to have to talk to Claire about Julie, tell her that she should confide in Cas too. They could both help her deal with it. It was hard, when you lost your first love.
Escape the noise to find a voice
What kind of sound that I need
Life in a familiar place
What fills the void that we need?
Breathing with no air
Can't hear my echoes
When I scream out, I'm craving gravity
I'm like a shipwreck inside
Stranded with no land in sight
I need an anchor, my gravity
Even though I'm not in the same sun when I fall
Don't have to be miles apart if you're here in my heart
I can feel your love from a different place, it's okay
Don't have to be miles apart if you're here in my heart
Author's note: So, yay, an update! I promise, gonna try and have more fluff. Hope ya'll liked. I'll try not to let it go so long without another update. And I might do a time jump that's bigger than a couple of months for next time, we'll see. Just a head's up.