Chapter Seven: Gravity
One year later
They were just getting home from John and Jodi's wedding reception. The kids, the littlest ones, were being put to bed by Cas. Claire, Ben, Cory, and Callie, were all spending the night at John and Jodi's. Cas had gotten better over that year, and they were having their last baby, a girl, by a surrogate. Jo and Sam were doing great with Devlin, who loved having little sisters. Their baby had been a girl as well, named after Ellen. Her name was Helena. They called her 'Ellie' for short. She was just a few months old. Dean loved Ellie, and she did him. Whenever they were over, she wanted Dean to hold her. Dean couldn't wait until their own little girl came to them. It was three more months yet.
Dean was taking out the trash, he and Cas were going to settle back with some more alcohol and ice cream and watch Netflix, maybe make out a bit. He was just getting the bag in the trash when he was stabbed with a needle from behind, and he fell to the pavement. He wasn't sure what it was, but it felt like a tranquilizer. He could barely move, and he couldn't stop the man on top of him from raping him. He thankfully used a condom, because Dean was the one who was the bottom. The man had put a sock on his own cock, and that is what he came in. It lasted about ten minutes, and he leaned down to whisper to Dean before he left.
"That was for Balthazar. We're not done with ya'll yet."
As soon as the man was gone, Cas was coming outside to look for him. "Dean!" Dean heard him call his name, and then his husband was on the driveway next to him. Dean couldn't keep his eyes open any longer, that must have been a strong dose of whatever drug it was. He mumbled to Cas to call the cops and Sam, and then his eyes fluttered shut.
His fingers fumbling for the cell phone in Dean's jacket pocket, Cas really hoped Dean wasn't dying right now. He didn't know what had been done to him, other than the rape. He was checking for some kind of wound as he told the 911 operator that he needed an ambulance, his husband was unconscious and had been raped and lying on their driveway. It was late, around ten, and Cas wasn't surprised no one in their gated community had seen anything. Most of their neighbors went to bed early. Cas found a tiny spot that looked like it had been stabbed with a needle, it was bleeding just the tiniest little bit.
Within forty-five minutes, they were in a hospital room. The rape kit had been done, even though Cas was doubtful there would be anything, if it was the same man who had attacked him. And he was sure that it was. They had never caught him, and it didn't really make sense for it to be anyone else. Dean was still unconscious, they had determined with a blood test that it was just a paralytic tranquilizer that had been used, they decided to just let it wear off. They told Cas that it would be a few hours yet, so Jo was babysitting all the kids at Cas and Dean's until they could get home. Until she'd gotten there, a cop had stayed so that Cas could go with Dean in the ambulance.
Cas was sipping the iced coffee he'd gone down to get at the Starbucks when he'd started to notice he was nodding off, and then Sam arrived. He moved to Cas, and they hugged. "I don't know what happened. We won't until Dean wakes up." Cas told him what he could, that Dean had been drugged and assaulted, but that's all that they knew for sure. He ran his hand over his face, which was a bit scruffy. Dean liked it that way. He hadn't had a haircut in a few months, and a swash of his black hair was hanging over his right eye. He actually wasn't having any flashback issues himself. He was just worried for Dean.
"He's…." Sam wanted to say that Dean would be okay, but he didn't know that. And he knew that Cas knew the same thing. Sam reached out and grasped Cas' hand, and squeezed it tightly. "I can't say that everything is going to be okay, but I can say that with time it will hurt less." Sam was sure that this had to do with Balthazar. "I don't doubt that this has to do with Balthazar." He said, and Cas nodded. Sam pulled his hand back to text his wife, giving her an update on what had been going on and that he was at the hospital.
He really hoped that Jo wasn't going to blame herself for this. It wasn't her fault. Sam didn't think it was even remotely her fault, just because Balthazar's leftover loyal men weren't letting go of what had gone down years ago with him trying to assault Jo. It had been over for their family, they had moved on. "Have the cops been here yet?" He asked, hoping that they had. He wanted them to catch this guy, once and for all. Maybe if one of the men paid for what they were doing, it would send a message to the rest of them to stop this kind of thing.
"Yeah, they've been here." Cas said, his voice sounding tired. He was wearing pjs, he'd managed to change his clothes from the wedding before he'd found Dean. He was wearing a pair of Cowboys pj bottoms that were Dean's, and a navy blue tee shirt that hung halfway down his thighs. He was still gaining back weight he'd lost during that year. That black, black year. Cas was right back where he had been when he and Dean had met. Dean in a hospital bed. He wasn't clinging to life this time, but in a way, he was. He was never going to be the same man that Cas had fallen in love with. But Cas wasn't the same man that Dean had fallen in love with, either. And they were still together. Because they truly loved one another.
He tossed his empty cup and looked at Dean, who looked as if he was just sleeping comfortably. "Things were just getting better." Cas said, his voice sounding quiet and faraway to himself. "We… we're getting ready for the new baby, Jamie's finally walking on his own, talking a mile a minute, Frankie is doing so well in school, Claire's finally over her relationship with Julie…." He sighed. Julie had had her baby, and moved away to Houston. Claire had been devastated, but she was ready to move on. They still didn't know if Julie had cheaten or not, but she had been adamant about not getting back together with Claire, so it had been nothing that could be done on Claire's part.
"I can't fix this, but I know what it feels like. What I'm hoping is that Dean doesn't remember it. That when he wakes up he won't remember exactly what happened. I can tell him he got attacked and that will be it. It'll be so much better if he doesn't remember." Cas said, he'd only have to get more specific if they actually found the man who had done this. And Cas wasn't sure that they would. Balthazar's men were still out there and evading capture, so this time was going to be no different in his eyes. "I can be there for him if he does remember. I know exactly how he feels, even if I wish I didn't. He won't be alone in this, just like I wasn't."
Watching his brother in law, Sam wondered if Cas was flashing back again to the abuse he'd been through. Sam didn't think so, he just appeared worried for Dean. Speaking of his brother, Dean's eyes started to flutter, and then opened. "Dean." Sam said, in relief. He was hoping his brother would wake up sooner rather than later. Even if Cas had told him the drug that had been given to him would wear off and wasn't harmless in the long run. Sam watched as Cas leaned and kissed Dean softly, and then Dean pulled him closer to kiss him more deeply. Sam cleared his throat.
"Brother in the room."
"Keep your panties on, Sammy." Dean told him, his voice sounding rough from misuse. "How long was I out?" He asked, and Cas told him four hours. He rubbed his head, glad to find no wounds from where he'd fallen to the driveway. Dean remembered everything. He looked to his husband. "I remember it all. I'm going to have to talk to the cops. It was someone that knew Balthazar." He said, and Cas' eyes brushed with tears, but he nodded. Cas leaned back down to him, and pressed his lips to Dean's cheek. Then he touched his forehead with Dean's, and cupped his jaw as they shared a look. Dean's eyes were a bit misty, but he wasn't crying yet. He was still in a shock that someone had managed to get a jump on him at all. Dean reached up and wiped tears off Cas' face. Then he turned to look at Sam. "Would you tell someone I'm awake and they can come and interview me now?" He asked, he just wanted to be alone with Cas for just a bit.
As soon as Sam had left the room, Cas moved to sit on Dean's bed, and he laced his fingers tightly with Dean's. Dean felt tears gather in his eyes then, and he started to cry. Cas leaned down to put his arms around him, and Dean buried his head in his husband's neck. Dean hadn't ever thought this would happen to him, and he wanted the guy who did it to pay with his life. Dean held onto Cas like he'd never hold onto him again. He couldn't believe it. It was the worst thing that had ever happened to him. He couldn't make this go away. He couldn't get a new heart. This couldn't be fixed the same way that his illness had. "I can't…. I can't stop hearing his voice, Cas." Dean said, his words coming haltingly.
"You'll be okay, it just takes time." Cas told him, he and Dean weren't ones to lie to each other. Little white lies, maybe, like when Cas' eating had been slipping, but nothing big. "They might not catch him, I won't lie to you. And I don't need to tell you that, anyway. You know already. Your father is a cop. They never catch everyone." Cas kept to himself the fact that sometimes the cops just didn't work hard enough. He didn't think that was the case with them, because of who John was. He may not be a cop anymore, but he was retired, and cops did take care of their own more than they did the general public. So Cas believed this was just Balthazar's men being well versed in the ways of hiding from the police and other crime branches. "You know that I will be there for you, I know exactly what you're feeling."
Pulling back, Dean looked up at him, his green eyes wet. Dean looked into Cas' blue eyes, and he was reminded again of the ocean, which he'd never seen in person, of course. He was trying to calm down before the cops came to the room. He didn't like anyone to see him like this, unless it was Cas. Or family. But really, just Cas. Before he could say anything, the cops did arrive, and Dean told them everything that he could about the attack. They'd already taken his suit for evidence, just in case anything had escaped body fluids wise. Dean doubted that. Sam had brought Dean some clothes to wear home.
After the interview with the cops, it was only about an hour later, and they were releasing Dean. Cas thanked Sam for coming, and promised that he would send Jo and her kids home as soon as he got to his own home. When he and Dean did arrive home, they found a cop inside the living room. He told Cas he had sent Jo and her little ones home, so she didn't have to wake them in the middle of the night if Dean woke up then. Cas thanked him and sent him home with a pie that he'd bought for Dean. It was cherry, one of Dean's favorites. Cas could easily get him another. This cop had gone above and beyond for them. He wanted to show his appreciation. Especially in this time when cops all over the country weren't really working that hard to solve cases.
Dean, still a bit groggy, was ready to go to bed, so they went up. Cas let him smoke some weed while they put on That 70s Show, and then Dean fell asleep. Cas was too wired to sleep. He knew he would crash later, but he was incredibly awake for now. To kill time, he went online to buy some baby clothes for their new baby. She was coming in three months, and Cas couldn't wait. There was the sound of little pattering feet, and Jamie was peeking inside the bedroom, holding his blanket, and Diana standing beside him. "Jamie?" Cas asked, and the little boy ran to him, crying, saying he'd had a nightmare.
Reaching down, Cas picked him up. "It's okay. Daddy's here." Cas told him, and Jamie's arms went around Cas' neck. He rocked him until Jamie had fallen back to sleep, and then Cas carried him back to the nursery. He had a twin bed now, and the crib would be used for the new baby. They didn't want Jamie to share a room with Ben just yet, or Cory. They were both too old to be sharing their room with an almost two year old. They were, however, going to move Jamie in with Frankie when the baby came home. Frankie and Jamie liked each other, Cas thought they would get along just fine. Once Jamie was back in his bed, sleeping, and Diana was curled on the end of his bed, Cas left the room and went down to get something to eat.
As he was making a sandwich and some chips were out next to him, his cell phone rang. It was around six in the morning. Cas looked at the ID, and it wasn't a number that was in his contacts. But he answered anyway. "Hello?" He said, and heard his brother Gabriel's voice. "Gabe? What the hell do you want?" Cas asked, moving to sit down at the table with his food, not sure why he was even talking to his brother. It's not as if they had anything to say to each other. Gabriel's tossing off of his gay family members was just reprehensible. Cas considered himself a Winchester, he wasn't a Novak any longer.
It was quiet for a long moment before Gabriel spoke. "I need help, Cassie. I know you don't want to help me. And I don't blame you. I was a pretty shitty person to you. To Claire. And not that it's an excuse, but I knew all along that you were Claire's father. Gen was in love with you, not me. She only married me because she knew she couldn't have you. I don't care if you or Claire is gay, I don't. Be who you are. She should be who she is. I just, I was so mad. And I couldn't leave her, I loved her." It was quiet for a bit more, and then Gabriel began again.
"I just was dealing with it all the wrong way. And if you tell me to go to hell I won't blame you. But I have cancer. In my liver. I was wondering if you would get tested, see if you're a match. And don't do it for me, do it for my kids. Gen's kids. She didn't want to let Claire run off. She did because I wouldn't let her get in contact with her. I knew where Claire was going. She was going to you. I couldn't…. I was glad at the time to have her gone. I didn't want her to come back. She was a reminder that my wife was only with me because she couldn't have you."
This blew Cas away, and he had to sit there with it for a moment, trying to let it all sink in. He had never known that Genevive had felt that way for him. He did however, hold Gabriel and her both at fault for what they had done to make Claire run to him. Cas, after chewing a huge bite of his sandwich, spoke. "I will not get tested, Gabriel. You did your best to push us both away. It's not Claire's fault that she's my daughter. And she is mine. There is no claim to her that you can use. She wants to be here with Dean and me. You let her walk away. Because she's not yours biologically."
This was just unbelievable to Cas. "And it wasn't my fault that your wife chose my sperm to be impregnated. I never knew, and you know that. Not until Claire arrived at the hospital, looking for me. I feel sorry for your other children, but I will not get tested in an attempt to save your life. I won't go so far as to say you don't deserve to be saved, because I want my karma to remain good, but I will say that I can't be a party to any life saving actions." Cas hated that he had to say that, but he also knew that the wounds that Gabriel had installed in him would last him for the rest of his life, and they were deep. He decided to tell Gabriel just that very thing, so that he wouldn't be tempted to try this again.
"You hurt me permanently, Gabriel. I will never recover from what you did. You tossed me aside as if I meant nothing to you, all because I am attracted to men instead of women. And you haven't ever tried to help me with what you know I went through in high school." Cas heard Gabriel's intake of breath, and Cas continued speaking before he could try and make an excuse. "You acted as if it was my own fault, and that I needed to be cured of being gay. Like it's something that you can catch." Cas said this bitterly. "You can mine someone else for a new organ, because I will not help you. And if you even remotely try to contact Claire about this, I will make sure that you regret it. Do you understand me?" He asked, and Gabriel managed to mutter a quiet yes.
That's when Cas hung up the phone, and finished his food. Then he finally felt like he might be able to lay down and go to sleep, and he tossed out the paper plate he'd used, and went upstairs. When he climbed into bed, Dean was still asleep. But as soon as Cas had slipped into bed, Dean moved and cuddled up to him, half mumbling that he loved Cas. Cas told him that he loved him too, and closed his eyes. Soon he was asleep as well, his last thoughts of Dean holding him as he drifted off.
A couple of days later, Dean was waking up to a very sunny room. Cas had a book signing today in town. He sat up, running his hand over his face. Most of the last couple of days he'd spent sleeping, he'd been given a script for sedatives for a month, and some references for doctors if he needed to go and get more. Dean wasn't one to lean on meds, he was more of a bourbon and weed person. But he had to admit, this was helping him with sleeping and dealing with the aftermath of what had happened. He didn't find Cas in bed with him, and he realized that it was eleven o'clock. Dean was late waking up, and he wondered if Cas had turned off the alarm to make sure that he got some extra sleep.
Getting up, and tossing on some dark khakis and a blue Henley, he pulled on some socks and hurried downstairs. The signing was in an hour and a half. Dean didn't want to miss it. He had told his husband he was going no matter what. Dean found Cas in the kitchen with Jamie, the other kids were all at school by now. Frankie would be getting out in about a half hour, and Jo usually picked her up and let her hang out at her and Sam's house for a few hours, and Claire, Ben, and Cory usually picked her up on the way home from school. Dean moved to Cas and kissed him, ignoring Jamie's cry of gross, Dad, and then tousled his son's hair.
"You didn't wake me up." Dean told his husband, as he moved to the fridge and pulled out some leftover pizza and put it on a plate to warm up in the microwave. They hadn't actually cooked in at least a week. They'd been too busy. Dean remembered eating a lot of pizza and ice cream during the moments in the last couple of days when he'd been awake. Which wasn't a long amount of time. Cas had made sure that Dean had been taking his pills when the bottle said to. Dean knew that Cas needed to take care of him, so he just let him do it. He wasn't going to argue. He had felt the same way when Cas had been attacked.
"I was trying to let you sleep." Cas told him, he was already dressed in a pair of khakis and a blue dress shirt. It made his eyes look even bluer. He watched as Dean sat down with a Coke and his pizza at the table. Jamie was eating his own lunch, a bowl of chicken and stars soup with apple juice. "If it makes you feel any better, I picked up an Oreo pie this morning when I got milk. We were out." Cas told him. They lived five minutes from a grocery store, that was one of the things they'd kept in mind when they'd picked this home. Dean gave him a huge only reserved for Cas grin, and then kissed him. Cas smiled into the kiss, tasting the bacon from the pizza.
Getting up, he took his plate from his own lunch to the dishwasher. He wondered if he should tell Dean he'd heard from Gabriel. He hadn't been keeping it from him, he just hadn't had time alone to tell him. Cas wanted to, just in case Gabriel tried to get a hold of Claire. He didn't think that it was very likely, because Gabriel knew Cas was able to get pretty much any cop in Dallas to do what he wanted, but he didn't want to be unprepared in the event that it did happen. He too tousled Jamie's hair as he walked by. Jamie made a face at him, causing both of his fathers to laugh.
"You eat up, so we can drop you off at Auntie Jo's." Cas told him, Jamie was very well behaved and would be just fine at the bookstore, but Cas thought he'd have a much better time getting to play with his cousins. Cas wasn't going to take that away from him. He moved to sit back in his seat, Dean was already halfway done with the pizza he'd piled on his plate. It had been from Dontatoes, and Dean had consumed a lot of it the night before as well. Cas didn't mind, Dean of course worked on a treadmill every morning before he went to work. When he did. And of course, being a construction worker was hard work, and Dean was good at it. He hadn't really ever weighed that much in his entire life, Cas had seen pictures.
Swallowing a long sip of Coke, Dean picked up another slice of pizza. "You'll have so much fun today, Jamie. You and Dev can play cops and robbers again." Jamie was fascinated with his grandfather, and he loved to pretend to be a policeman. Dean wasn't sure that he wanted that for him, but he also knew that Jamie was young. He might end up changing his mind, so for now Dean let him play at being a cop without telling him he shouldn't. It was a dangerous job, that was the only reason Dean wasn't sure he wanted it for his son. John had had many scrapes over the years. Dean was glad that John was now retired. They'd all gone through enough trauma.
It wasn't long before Jamie was finished eating, and they'd dropped him off at Jo's and were now headed to a Barnes and Noble in the mall. Charlie was meeting them there, and Garth was gonna try and stop by as well. Cas had finally gotten the book done, and it was now being released. They had gotten a huge advance when Cas had gotten his book deal, and now they had gotten even more from all the preorders. Dean was very proud of his husband. Yesterday had been release day, and Cas was doing the signing today. He wasn't touring though, that was a part of his contract, he would mail out signed novels, but no tour. He hadn't wanted to be away from his family for that long. Dean was also glad that he had done that, he didn't want to be without him that long either.
When they got there, Cas was taken to the store from the backway, and Dean headed along to meet Charlie in the front of the store. She of course was off to the side, since she didn't really have to stand in line. She'd be with Dean. Dean saw her and went up to her, grinning. They hugged. She was like a little sister. He was glad that they'd gotten back in touch. "You heard from Garth? Is he on the way?" Dean asked, as she teased him about his khakis. Dean ignored that, just tugged on her short curly red hair.
"Actually yeah, he's on the way." Charlie told him, checking her phone once again to make sure he hadn't texted again. "Callie's coming too, you know. Since she is all done with school." Charlie was surprised Dean didn't know. Callie hadn't decided on a college, and John had told her if she didn't want to go it was fine with him and Jodi. She was working at a WalMart at the moment, as an assistant manager. She'd had previous experience from her previous job from when she was a bit younger and living with her aunt. Charlie of course had a computer job, she was great at hacking things. She could get into anything she wanted.
Before Dean could reply, Ash was walking up to them. None of them had really heard from him in a few months, he and Garth hadn't worked anything out, and Dean knew it was because Ash was refusing to get over Dean. "What the fuck are you doing here?" Dean hissed in a quiet voice as Ash approached. "You shouldn't be here, and you aren't going to ruin my husband's book signing." Dean told him firmly, his tone angry. He didn't want this, he didn't like this.
"I can't stop thinking about you, Dean. I've tried. I didn't lead Garth on, I haven't talked to him in months. I didn't want him to think that he's got a shot with me. And I know that he doesn't want anything that even remotely resembles a casual relationship." Ash told him, and ignoring everything, stepped up and pulled Dean close, and kissed him. He had taken Dean by surprise, and he wasn't able to pull away.
"What the fuck?!" Dean burst out, pushing Ash away. The people in line turned to look. And Dean hoped that no one from the media was here yet. He knew Cas was in the back, and he was glad that he was, that he hadn't had to see this. "Ash, I don't want to be with you! You aren't going to get me away from my husband!" Dean said, and soon, the some of the people in line had recognized him and were now filming or snapping photos. "Stop! Stop filming this! If any of you are really fans of Castiel Winchester, you will stop filming this right now." Dean turned to appeal to them. Some of them stopped, meeting Dean's eye and his firm expression.
Then he turned his glare on Ash. "Dude, I don't even know you anymore. You know you had no shot at this. I don't know why you even tried." Dean looked back at his friend, and he couldn't see the person that he had known all those years ago in high school. That he had grown up with. Dean had never known until he'd met Cas that he would find men attractive. Dean knew that Cas was the one for him. There was no one else on the planet that Dean would be with other than Cas. Cas was his penguin, his lobster. They mated for life.
"I am flattered, I guess, that you think I'm good enough to try and ruin my marriage, but this ring I wear isn't just a ring. It means something to me. It means forever. It means love. It means loyalty. Faithfulness. I haven't always been the best boyfriend in a relationship with anyone. Except Cas. He's the love of my life, Ash. I would never willingly hurt him. Ever. We made a promise to each other to never leave. And we both plan to mean that promise, and never break it. You need to go. If you plan to continue to try and get me away from Cas, I'm going to have to keep you out of my life. I can't have someone who wants to ruin my marriage around. It will hurt Cas, and I can't allow that."
All of this is what Ash had expected. And he felt like shit for doing it. But he had tried, for a year. He'd tried to get Dean off his mind. He'd had a lot of sex with anonymous guys, he'd tried going to speed dating and trying out Grindr, all of it. He didn't blame Dean for being so pissed at him. "I wasn't trying to hurt anyone. I know that sounds false. But it's true. I just had to know. I had to know that you really meant it, that you really love Cas and you're with him." Ash told him. He ran his hand through his hair, it had lengthened in the year that he'd just had. He'd been too depressed to bother with getting it cut.
"I just had to know." He said again, and walked off.
Dean watched him go, and glared at the people in line once more, some of them had still been filming. "I will get a lawyer if I see anything from this signing about that fight online." Dean told them. He would. Nothing would be bad about this day for Cas. It was the first of his five book deal, and he wanted Cas to feel good about it. He had worked so hard for the book to get done. "I gotta go calm down, Char. I'll be back." Dean told her, and she nodded at him as he headed off to find the nearest bathroom.
Later that evening, Dean and Cas were alone together with some Chinese takeout and wine in front of the tv. Cas was wearing a pair of Dean's boxer briefs and nothing else, and Dean was wearing nothing. All of the kids were at Sam and Jo's, so that Dean and Cas could celebrate properly. Dean was waiting for another sex go round, they had stopped to eat. They'd ordered the Chinese to be delivered, and it had just arrived. Dean leaned out to kiss Cas deeply before he opened his house fried rice, he had decided to tell Cas about Ash before he found out some other way. He was also of the mind that Cas had something to tell him, and he'd been waiting for time to do it. Dean was a patient man, (even if it had taken years for him to get there) and had been letting Cas pick his moment. Plus, he'd slept so much in the past couple of days.
Opening his chicken fried rice, Cas picked up his chopsticks. "So, you're going to tell me about Ash now?" Cas asked, and Dean looked at him with a sheepish expression. "I'm not mad at you. I know you didn't want it. I saw the whole thing. I was just coming out in the store to go to the signing." He said, and took a bite of his food. They'd already gone through a bottle and a half of wine, and he was on his way to being completely plastered. "I am very proud of you for not causing more of a scene than you did. You could have thrown a punch at him and you didn't." Cas was truly proud of him for that. He knew Dean's temper could flare and he'd done some stupid things he regretted because of it.
"What we should talk about is something that happened a couple of nights ago after we got home from the hospital." Cas told him, and Dean just gave him a nod, so Cas started in. "You were asleep, and I didn't want to wake you. And after I'd gotten Jamie back to sleep after his nightmare, I was hungry. So I went downstairs to make something to eat." He said, and Dean was still listening. "Well, once I'd gotten down there and had made a sandwich, I got a call on my phone from Gabriel." This is when Dean's eyebrows raised. "Yes, I was shocked too." Cas admitted, taking a long sip of his wine before continuing.
"He wanted to know if I would get tested because he's in need of a new kidney." Cas said, at least, he thought that was what he needed, and not a liver. He'd been too angry to really remember what organ it was that Gabriel had needed. "And I told him that I had no intention of getting tested." Cas' eyes brushed with tears, surprising himself. He hadn't thought that talking about his worthless family would make him that upset still. "He told me that he had treated me the way that he had because his wife was in love with me, and she settled for Gabriel because it was like having me close. She used my sperm to make Claire for the same reason." Cas paused again to take a large bite of his food, and grab a potsticker.
After he was done chewing, he began again. "I don't know why he chose to be that petty. But he let Claire run away because he hated to look at her, knowing that she was mine. It reminded him that his wife didn't love him. I told him that he wasn't going to get anything from me, and that if he got into contact with Claire I would make sure that he regretted it. Dean…. He never…. He knew what I went through in high school. And he believed that maybe I deserved it because I wasn't straight. That maybe it would turn me straight."
At this, Dean wanted to go and hunt Gabriel down and kill him himself. He leaned out and kissed his husband, deeply. "Cas, I love you. You know that you don't deserve to be raped and assaulted because you're gay. I know you know that. Don't let your brother hurt you anymore. We won't let him get to our daughter. You matter. You matter to this family. We all love you and need you. It was wrong of your family to do what they did. I know that you can't erase the pain that's permanently there, and I wouldn't expect you to. But you know how much your family values you. I would be dead without you."
Dean leaned and kissed him once more, deeper this time, and Cas' hand reached between them, his hand running up and down Dean's cock. Dean groaned against his mouth, and Cas continued to stroke and cup his balls, and then they moved so that they could rub their cocks against each other. Dean held himself up with one hand, and the other settled on Cas' abs, circling with his fingers. Playing in Cas' treasure trail. He knew how much Cas liked that. They moved together, rutting and rutting until they had both come. Dean was surprised that he was able to come from just that, but he supposed it was because he'd already been ready for another go round.
Things were going to be okay. Dean knew it. They had to be. They'd gone through enough.
This could be it, I think I'm in love
It's love this time
It just seems to fit, I think I'm in love
This love is mine
I can see you with me when I'm older
All my lonely nights are over
You took the weight of the world off my shoulders
The world just goes away
Oh, when you kiss me
I know you miss me
And when you're with me
The world just goes away
The way you hold me
The way you show me
That you adore me
Oh, when you kiss me
Oh yeah
You are the one, I think I'm in love
Life has begun
I can see the two of us together
I know I'm gonna be with you forever
Love couldn't be any better
Author's note: You can thank all of the Cockles/Destiel on my dash lately for this update. Also, I'm sorry it's been awhile. I wrote this in like four or five hours, this just really wanted to come out. I hope another update will be soon, and I have no idea where it's going next. We'll all see together.