Oh wow, I haven't done anything to this for a year and seven months. That ... says a lot.

So.

For people who already follow me or my fics:

I am so sorry for basically deserting them all. I am back in the fandom now, but unfortunately you can probably consider all my current uncompleted fics as permanently discontinued. It's possible that I might update Manipulation if inspiration strikes, but don't hope.

For new people:

Hi! I'm 22, British, and doing a taught Masters in an area that's so niche you could probably locate me from it, so I won't tell you more than it's a humanities subject.

I've been writing fanfic since October 2004. Sometimes it feels like I sank into writer's block in 2007 and never really emerged again, but I'm working on that.

My favourite characters are Kai and Max; this may become evident in future fics even more than it is now. I write yaoi, het and yuri and at last count have well over twenty pairs of characters (it used to be more!) whom I can see as more than friends, so I won't inflict that list on you unless you ask!

Pairings aside, the most likely output you'll see from me nowadays is the oneshot. Angsty, romantic, angstily romantic ... yeah, generally anything around those two! My OTP is Kai/Ray, though you wouldn't believe it if you looked at all my fics (see above comment of huge numbers of ships). I'm planning on rewatching all three seasons, so expect a lot of exploration of headcanon and character studies related to specific episodes (see Hypnogogia as an example).

My writing - progression (or, in later years, just a list ...)

2004: Dyler (up until about chapter 7/8)

2005 Not_a_nobody

2006 Phobia

2007 Rain_and_Bad_Moods

2008 What_about_me?

2009 Different_Ways

2010 Hypnagogia

2011 Lucky

2012: unmotivated failure, no writing

2013: see above

2014: Surprise

2015: Stormy

2016: Hogwarts and the Bladebreakers

You can find the lemon version of Surprise and several Avengers fanfics at my ao3 account. I also have a non-Beyblade account on here, which is pretty much inactive but does contain a lot of good stuff imo.

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THANK YOU SO MUCH! It's continued interest like that which encourage me to return to Beyblade fanfiction.

Squishy & Stormy's Stages of Writer's Block

Stage 1: I have no ideas.

Stage 2: I have ideas, but they won't go on screen/look shit when they do.

Stage 3: I have ideas and if I could be bothered to try, I'm sure they would transfer easily to screen ...

Stage 4: I have ideas and they are going on screen successfully!

Stage 5: I didn't tell myself to write this. Wtf? What am I writing? Who's writing this? This is great! I'm just going to to hide at the end of my arms and hope I don't frighten it away.

Stage 6: I had way too much to drink last night and… that’s bloody amazing! Who wrote all that? Did I write all that? I don’t even remember writhing that! Why can't I write like that sober?

Homophobia and You

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.
I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.
I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.
We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.
I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.
I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.
I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.
I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.
We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.
I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.
I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.
I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.
I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.
I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.
I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.
I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I did not have to always deal with society hating me.
I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.
I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.
I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.
Re-post this if you believe homophobia is wrong. Please do your part to end it.

Anyways, I’m off now. Enjoy reading, my mutant goat-frogs.

Love,

x Ilb x