Wednesday, July 14, 2049

Bayley's P.O.V.

Rawlings is six months old! I honestly can't believe she's six months old already. Her first half of being here have been crazy, exhausting, full of happy, sad and overwhelming tears, and sometimes I felt like I couldn't do it. But, she shown me that I can do something that's hard at first and then it became easier over time.

Raising Rawlings as a teen mom has had it's ups and downs for the past six months. Yes, I love her to pieces and I'd do anything for her, but also I felt like I would pull my hair out at times.

Without having Taylor by my side, I wasn't even sure how I'd deal with being a young mom. He has been such a great dad to our little girl. He and Rawlings have a special bond that I don't think I'll ever understand. She's such a daddy's little girl. Sometimes, she and I have our moments and she is a mommy's girl, but I'd have to admit that she's a daddy's girl most of the time.

Rawlings has been such an angel. I don't think I could love any other human the way I love her. She doesn't know that before her or even before her dad coming into my life, my life sucked besides having my family and four of my friends to be there for me.

I know I am greateful for everything I have, I'm not trying to say that everything in my life sucked. No, I can't say that. It mostly sucked the most at school because to everyone in school besides my brother, and before I met my true friends in eighth grade, I was bullied all the time. From being called 'the Cerebral Palsy girl, the girl who walks funny, the girl who doesn't have any friends, and the stupid girl'. You name it, I was called everything in the book.

Trying to get out of my head, I finally focus on the teacher. Right. I'm at school. When can I see my baby on her half birthday?

Taylor woke up super duper early today so he could get at the daycare at 6:15AM and drop off Rawlings and after that, he rushed home to change into something more better than just a t shirt and sweatpants. Taylor and I got to school at 6:45AM, just shy of 15 minutes before the first bell.

I decided to do some school work in the summer to help me get ahead, it seems to be going okay now. Thank God I'm not going anymore after Friday.

That's literally how our mornings are every week day now. Rushing everywhere with a baby.

Don't have sex unless you want a baby.

I feel someone tap my shoulder, I turn my head to face my fiancee, who had a concerned look on his face.

"You okay, babe?" He whispered to me, and I nod my head slowly. "Yeah, I'm okay. I guess I'm just excited to celebrate Rawlings half birthday later. Are you still able to take off?" I ask him.

Taylor nods his head, smiling at me, making my heart melt with love for him. "Yes, I can."

I smile at him. "I'm so happy you can make it. I thought you wouldn't be able to come with how crazy work as been lately."

I wish sometimes that I knew how stressed he is at times, but I'm greateful that I don't have to know how stressed it is to work so much to provide for our daughter.

He smiles back at me. "I'm so happy we get to have some time off for the wedding. I was surprised the school will let you take that much off..." He adds. I laugh a little. "Me too. I told them I'd catch up with what I can while we're away, so hopefully that doesn't damage me actually graduating next year..." I say, crossing my fingers.

As the school day goes on, I try to get as much school work and homework done before the the day ends. We decided to do morning classes. Taylor did graduate, but he is just here to help me some.

I have some work to do for Rawlings's half birthday party. My soon to be mother in law made the cake for me and we will be having the small get together at her house. I wasn't planning on having a big party until her first birthday.

I want her to have the best first birthday ever. I'm not sure what my plans are for her birthday, but for now, I have a wedding to focus on. My mom, Ayliana, my sister, Brooke, my cousins, Jordyn, my grandmothers, my friends and I are going dress shopping on Saturday and I hope I can find the one or our big day. We only have two months before the wedding.

Once we were finished, we headed home to change into nicer clothing. I took a shower, blew dried my hair and put it in a braid before changing into my sun dress and sandals. We picked up Rawlings before heading home, so I changed her into her outfit for the party.

As I was putting her shoes on, Taylor walked into her nursery. He gave a big smile. "You two look so beautiful." I blush, smiling back. "Thank you." I say as I pick up Rawlings. "Ready to go?" I ask, and he nods. "Yeah, I have the lemonade I made in my cooler in the car. Let's go." He walks out of the room with me behind him.

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Once at Taylor's parent's house, we parked into the driveway, I got out of the passenger side and then I was being hugged by all of my siblings.

"Hi!" Brooke says, hugging me. I laugh. "Hi, Brooke, can I get inside with the baby and then you can hug me all you want?" I chuckle. I shut the passenger door and open the door behind me to find Rawlings awake still. I pick her up and put her in her carrier and then I hand her to Taylor, who kisses my cheek before heading to the front door. Brooke and I follow him inside.

Ayliana rushes over to her son and granddaughter. "Oh, my! She's so big! I can't believe she's six months already." She hugs Taylor and then me.

"It's so crazy to think she's been here for six months already, and I don't think I could imagine her not being here. I'm so glad we had her." Taylor says, kissing Rawlings's head before putting her on her play mat that Ayliana has here and my siblings play with her.

I can't believe she's big enough to do everything in her milestones for this month. I'm very emotional.

Stop it, Bayley. You're being way too emotions for today.

I start helping Ayliana with anything she needs me to do. Mom walks over to me, smiling at me, blinking away tears.

"I can't believe she's six months. She is a mix between you and Taylor..."

I breathe slightly. "You're telling me. I cried this morning. I don't need to start crying again, Mom."

She nods her head slowly. "I know, baby. I'm sorry. It just feels like yesterday you were six months old and now, you have your own six month old daughter." She wipes away fallen tears.

I give her a small smile, kissing her cheek. "I love you, Mama. Thank you for always being there for me." I tell her.

Mom smiles at me. "You're welcome, baby. I love you more."

I look over at Ayliana, and I hug her as well. "Thank you for also being there for me and Rawlings."

"Oh, honey, it's no problem at all. You and Rawlings are my family now. I love you both so much." Ayliana kisses my cheek. "Now, let's have some food." She looks at everyone, who is in the living room. "Who's hungry?" She chuckles when everyone nods their heads.

'Me!" My younger siblings said together. After we finish cooking everything, we sit around and have a great convocation about the details of the wedding, life and of course we have to have laughter. Around 7:00PM, we bring out the cake, and it was beautiful. We had to sing happy half birthday to my baby girl, who was in her dad's arms, almost asleep.

Oh, Raw, how can you be so adorable? How can you make my days better? You are my everything, sweet girl. Daddy and I love you so much. Happy six months, Rawlings Avalanna.

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AN: HAPPY SIX MONTHS RAWLINGS! ❤️

This season has NINE more chapters until the two part season finale (The wedding is part 1 and part 2 is the celebration)

Not all of the photos will be able to be put in, so check out my fanfiction Instagram (_cailey_zaya_forever_ #MyLifeWithCerebralPalsy for all of the photos!)

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