This is an interesting chapter. I hope you find it as intrepid as I did, what the hell we all get into arguments don't we?
Whore by In This Moment
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"Xian." I caught up to him in the hallway after Dhruv departed, touching his arm he looked down at me with mild curiosity and chittered as he tucked a curl behind my ear.
"Yes my flower?"
"What would you do, hypothetically, if I wanted to have children?" My tone was light almost playful but became serious as he furrowed his brows at me. Xian was a male of few words and more prominent actions and right now his face showed confusion that became displeasure.
"Why would you desire pups?"
"Well, I just thought that since my twentieth year now…I want to give you pups." I smiled and he stopped walking looking at me now straight on.
"Is that what my sister wished to speak to you about?" The displeasure in his voice was growing into disdain and I swallowed.
"Yes."
"Putting such ideas into your head. What is she scheming?" He grumbled to himself as he tossed his dreads over a shoulder and started walking again. I hurried after him as he went into the training room, going to the wall of weapons and selecting a combistick.
"It isn't her idea, it's mine, I want—"
"You do not know what you want." Cutting me off he twirled the combistick and began to go through the motions of exercise and training. Ignoring me as I stood in the middle of the mat.
"I know exactly what I want. Sister Dhruv said—"
"Do you now? You know what it will entail, what will your body will be subjected to?" He stopped twirling the staff like a baton and faced me, for once his face unreadable as he continued. "You do not know. That is the end of it."
I inhaled sharply and I clenched my fists. "No it isn't, Xian. I want to honor you, I want my life to be more than just—just this!"
"Do I not spoil you? Do I not cater to your every whim?" His grip on the staff was tightening as his dreads began to raise slightly. "I am very accommodating to you and you should be grateful."
"I should be grateful to be your whore?" I snapped, breathing shallowly as I felt my face flush with the anger I felt. "To be nothing more than a hole for you to fill when you feel like it?"
"Enough!" He barked and he slammed the staff down onto the mat creating a little dent in the floor. "Is it your motive to aggravate me?"
"Is it true then, am I just your whore, Xian? Am I?" I felt hot liquid drip down my cheek as I kept eye contact with him, never breaking to back down.
"You are not my whore. But there are some things I…do not wish to subject you to." He took a long breath to calm himself as he reached out to touch me but I shied back a step so he caught himself. "The procedure is one of them. I only wish to protect you—"
"By not allowing me to be a woman? To grow old and dread being abandoned once I can no longer give you the pleasure I can now?" It was true that human females were often abandoned or even mercy culled when they reached a certain age as concubines. When you can no longer perform your usefulness is over thus your life is as well. He was silent as he stared at me and I rubbed at my eyes to little avail. "My heart tells me to give you everything. That's all I want."
"Little one I will not allow you to destroy yourself over a whim."
A whim? I stared at him and curled my lip. "I really am just your whore then." With that I spun and marched out of the room, rubbing at my eyes fiercely as the tears continued to fall.