Disclaimer: I Don't own any Criminal Minds Characters. All rights belong to the creators of Criminal Minds.

Author's Note: Not really good at writing yet so what you read might not make as much sense as it did in my head but hope you enjoy none the less.

Trust is the easiest thing in the world to loose, and the hardest thing in the world to get back. ~ R. Williams

"Spence" JJ said as she and Reid walked into the meeting room of the Durant police department after arresting Cy Bradstone and rescuing Tammy Bradstone. "Look we gotta talk about this."

"I don't wanna talk about it" Reid said as he starting piling up files from the case.

"I get it, ok? You're disappointed with the way we handled Emily." JJ said from behind Reid leaning on a chair with her arm.

"Listen I have a lot going on right now alright?" Reid said as he turned around and started walking out of the meeting room.

"You know what I think it is?" JJ said abruptly while turning around to face a now motionless Reid.

"What." Reid fired back softly

"You're mad that Hotch and I controlled our micro-expressions at the hospital and you weren't able to detect our deception." JJ Said

"You think its about my profiling skills?" Reid said while JJ shrugged her shoulders. "Jennifer, listen, the only reason you were able to manage my perceptions is because I trusted you.
I came to your house for 10 weeks in a row crying over losing a friend, and not once did you have the decency to tell me the truth." Reid said with a teary voice.

"I couldn't." JJ responded, her eyes starting to fill with tears.

"You couldn't? or you wouldn't?" Reid fired back, with emphasis on the contractions.

"No I couldn't!" JJ said firmly. At this point the other members of the BAU team are now listening from afar to the conversation taking place between 2 of their youngest agents.

"I guess you also 'couldn't' trust me in keeping Emily's "death" a secret as-well" Reid responded with a bit of hurt.

"I was under orders from the state not to let the secret out to anyone, Spence, including you." JJ said.

"Do you want to know what I was thinking when I found out Emily came left?" Reid questioned.

JJ was too emotional at the moment to speak so shrugged and nodded.

"I thought, great just another name to add to my ever growing list of people who've left me in my life. First it was my father, then Elle and Gideon." Reid paused for a second thinking how to say his next words. "I was thinking about adding sobriety to that list." He finished off quietly.

JJ took a second to absorb the meaning of what he said until it all clicked. "Sobr- Spence.. yo- you didn't, did you? JJ almost sobbed at the thought of her being the cause of Reid relapsing.

"No but I thought about it." Reid said as he turned from JJ to walk out of the meeting room.

"Spence," JJ started. Reid turned around briefly and threw his hands up as if saying what. "Im sorry."

"Its too late, alright. the damage is done. we're done." Reid said storming out of the precinct.

"Reid?" Emily said as he walked past his BAU team. The team looked back to the meeting room to see JJ standing in the middle on the verge of tears as she thought about what those last 2 words Reid said really meant.

Morgan was about to go running to Reid to talk to him but Hotch put his hand Morgan's chest stopping him. "No, let him be alone, he needs it."

Emily walked over to the meeting room and shut the doors behind her so she could have a one on one with JJ. "JJ..." Emily started.

"He almost quit Em. He told me one day during those 10 weeks what's the point of us doing what we do if we cant even save each-other?" JJ said. "I feel Horrible."

"Still JJ. You two have come so far these past 7 plus years. you cant just end it like this." Emily said

"I'm just afraid he won't forgive me. He's been through so much. Lost so much. I cant have him lose me. I cant lose him. He's my best friend. I would have a Spence sized hole in my heart without him in my life." JJ cried.

"If I were you I would go try talk to him again. Tell him how you feel. Not now tho, wait till maybe tonight when he's calmed down some." Emily said to a now crying JJ.

All JJ could do was nod because words would not be coming out of her trembling mouth anytime soon. Emily hugged her and JJ tried to calm down and think of how she would try to get her best friend back.

After Reid stormed out of the precinct he couldn't think properly. All he knew was he needed to get out of there. He found a FBI issued SUV and took off with no destination in mind.

as he was driving he was recalling the event that took place not moments ago. recalling the words he said and heard. he started getting frustrated and angry. to the point he wanted to punch something. he drove past a sign saying "Park Ahead" and pulled in. no-one was around as he quickly scanned the parking lot.

He drove to the far corner toward the wood-line and stopped the car. he shoved the door open and stormed to the nearest tree he could find and started punching. Punching away all the anger that this year has caused him.

Anger toward Doyle for almost killing his best friend Emily and having her to go in hiding. Anger toward Strauss for who he thought was responsible for forcing his "friend" JJ out of the BAU and into the pentagon. Anger toward Gideon for leaving him with nothing more than a note. Anger toward doctors for not being able to figure out why he has been getting these constant headaches. Anger toward the people at Bennington for not figuring out why his mom is getting worse with her symptoms. Anger toward himself for one day possibly becoming his mom with no way of finding out if he has the genetic marker or not.

When Reid was finally tuckered out he looked in front of him and noticed the outer tree bark where he was punching now had a dent and the bright yellow wood underneath was showing. he didn't care to look at his hand to see the damage because he just simply didn't care about anything anymore.

Reid noticed it was getting dark so he hopped in the SUV and drove back to the hotel to hopefully get at-least some sleep before the BAU's departure back to Quantico tomorrow.

When Reid entered his hotel room he didn't even have the strength to close the door all the way. he just plopped down on the desk chair and put his left arm on the desk and his head on top with his right hand, the hand that was punching the tree in his hair and started to cry out all the emotion he couldn't punch out.

JJ, Emily, Rossi, Morgan and Hotch all got back to the hotel in one SUV because they noticed as they were leaving the precinct that Reid has taken the other one. they noticed that other SUV parked by their rooms so they new he was there.

JJ hopped out and went to her room to shower and unwind after an emotional afternoon. After she finished showering and changing into night wear she went on her tablet and called up Henry's Babysitter since her and Will broke up after he found out JJ was going back to the BAU when Will didn't want her to.

*Flashback*

"So Rossi made a deal with the higher ups that I could return to the BAU on the condition that I return as a profiler and not a media liaison." JJ said to will while having dinner.

"Why do you want to go back there? I thought you were happy working in the pentagon because you could come home every night to me and Henry?" Will said back slightly angry.

"I can't not go back, Will, the BAU is my home and they are all my family." JJ said back.

"I thought we were your family Cher." Will spat back.

"Don't go there Will, of course you two are my family." JJ responded now slightly aggravated toward him.

"Really? because to me it seems you only want to go back to the BAU see a certain Genius everyday again." Will said.

"What are you talking about." JJ questioned.

"Oh you can' be serious. During those 10 weeks Reid came over here crying you not once felt annoyed of him crying. if anything you couldn't wait to see him come over just so you could see him."

"Thats not true." JJ said looking at the floor.

"Whatever. If you tell me right now with a straight face that you don't see Reid as something more than a friend I'll believe you but if not I think I'm gonna have to spend some time away from here for a bit." Will spoke.

JJ couldn't answer that question because deep down she did have feelings for Reid but didn't know how to act on them since she was with Will. So all she could do in response to his question was look at her plate in front of her in defeat.

"That's what I thought." Will said as he got up from the dinner table and made his way upstairs to his room to pack a bag.

"Will please don't go." JJ cried

"It's alright Cher I understand all I want is for you to be happy and you know I don't give you as much happiness as he does." Will calmly said. Once he finished packing his bag he walked toward Henry's room one last time to wish him a good night. "Good night buddy I'm going to be gone for a bit but I love you." He said as he patted a sleeping Henry on the head. He walked down the stairs and toward the door to where JJ was standing and gave her a peck on the lips. "Ill call you sometime this week to see where we go from here I'm going to be sleeping over at a buddy's for a bit." He said.

"Please don't do this." jj softly cried.

"It's alright Cher I understand. And I wish this could have worked. I love you." He finally said before walking out the door and closing it behind him.

*End Flashback*

"Hey Caitlin is Henry around? I wanted to say goodnight to him and maybe read him a bedtime story before he went to bed." JJ said to Henry's Babysitter on her tablet.

Caitlin called for Henry and put him on and JJ read him Little Star, both their favorite's bedtime story to the point they each memorized it. After saying goodnight she hung up the call and just sat back and contemplated what to do.

Should I go try to talk to Spence or will he just kick me out of his room the second he realizes It's me? JJ thought. She ended up deciding she needed to see if their friendship was still alive before she could go to sleep so she walked out of her room and toward Reid's room. When she got there she was going to knock but noticed the door was open a crack.

That's weird he would never let something like this happened considering what he's been through. JJ thought.

She slowly pushed the door open before entering. "Spence?" she whispered as more of his room came into her sight. At first all she could see was an empty room but she looked at the desk and saw Reid hunched over possibly asleep. "Spence?" she said again a bit louder. as she got closer she noticed his right hand and gasped. "Spence! what did you do?" She whispered loudly. His right hand knuckles were completely bloodied and battered with the blood trailing down his arm.

Reid didn't reply however, and he wasn't sleeping. he was silently crying. JJ went into protective mode despite who she was trying to "protect" and went into his bathroom to see if there was anything to clean up his arm. luckily at this hotel Hotch booked for them it came stock with a first aid kit. Perfect she thought. she grabbed the kit and dropped it on his bed. looking over her shoulder to see if he moved or not finding out the latter was the case. she opened the kit and put on the gloves it provided and grabbed the antiseptic and a couple rags and went over to where Reid was.

"Spence I'm not sure if you can hear me or if u care to hear me but I'm going to clean ur arm for you, if you don't mind." JJ said cautiously as she approached him. she slowly reached out her hand toward his bloody one and did a test touch to see how he would react. The reacting she got was both a good sign and a bad sign. good that he didn't pull away and bad that he didn't pull away. Did he pass out from the blood loss? Is he even alive right now? All those thoughts poured into her head and just as she was about to check for a pulse she noticed slight movement coming from him probably to reposition himself so she could better assist his hand. she didn't waste on this opportunity and took hold of his right wrist and gently pulled it away from his hair and onto the flat table. she took out the antiseptic and rags and started cleaning.

When she finished removing the blood she noticed the real damage he somehow created on his knuckles. "Oh my god Spence what did you do?" she asked herself not expecting an answer.

"I punched a tree" Reid replied with a coarse voice.

JJ took a second to make sure she wasn't hearing things. "Spence?" she said.

Reid slowly lifted his head from where it rested and turned it to face JJ. What she saw made her heart break. His eyes were blood shot red and he looked like he's been crying for hours, which was probably the case. "I left the precinct and drove to a park and punched a tree to get out my anger. I came back here to cry out the rest."

"Oh Spence. Do you want to talk about it?" Can we please talk about it JJ said.

Reid didn't reply, however he was about to get up from where he was sitting when JJ pulled him back down. "Wait let me patch up your knuckles first before you get up." JJ said calmly.

Once JJ finished Patching up His knuckles he got up and sat on the side of his bed as JJ took off her gloves and threw them and the waste in the trash. She didn't know where to sit since it was a one bed room so she cautiously sat next to Reid on the bed and waited for him to talk.

"Thank you." Reid said too quietly for anyone to hear.

"What Spence?" JJ said as she moved a bit closer toward him.

"Thank you for this." Reid said a bit louder as he lifted up his now patched up fist.

"You're welcome" JJ said but knew there was more coming.

After a minute to collect his thoughts he began. "I remember my first day at the BAU. I walked in to the bullpen and I noticed you and Morgan first. Instantly I got kinda nervous cause I was very socially awkward at the time, still am I think I'm not sure." Reid chucked to himself. "Anyway as I put my bag down at my desk Morgan came up to me I was kinda scared of him. He was the type of guy from my school to pick on me and tease and harass me. and the more I got to know him the more wrong I was. Yes he teases and and calls me Pretty Boy but I don't think I could have any else in my life as a brother than him." Reid said.

JJ didn't say anything but smiled at the thought of Reid thinking of Morgan as his big brother.

"And then I saw you." Reid said and turned and looked over to her. "You were one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen." Reid admitted.

"Spence..." JJ said as she blushed slightly at that confession.

Reid carried on as he didn't want to stop his train of thought. "I thought that you were going to be one of those girls from school who would pick on me or seem to like me only for it to be a prank so the popular kids can beat me up. but then you started talking to me and I found out more and more how much of a nice and caring person you are and how much I wanted to be friends with you." Reid said.

"I felt the same way the first time I saw and started talking to you too." JJ said.

"Gideon noticed all of this and got me those 2 Redskins tickets for my birthday and wanted me to take you to the game. I had no idea about anything football related but if it meant spending time with you I couldn't refuse." Reid said while looking at the floor.

JJ just smiled at him and thought back to that Redskins game and how much fun she had with him.

"I always thought what if we went on a second "date". if you would even call it a date but I'm happy I didn't react on it for 2 reasons. One I didn't want to ruin what friendship we were growing by going on more and more nights out together and two I don't know how I would have handled myself if we ever did become something more since I've never had a girlfriend before, let alone been on a date or a first kiss." Reid said as he felt embarrassed from admitting that.

"I don't think I was ready for something more either at the time cus I still wanted to get to know more about you as a friend." JJ said.

"Yeah. Things were going well between the two of us for awhile after that I felt like such a lucky man that you thought I was worth being your friend. I thought you were playing a trick on me like the other girls at school usually did but they never took months into a trick so I took that idea out of my head." Reid said.

"Oh Spence, of course you were worth being my friend. I loved so much about you, your caring, and niceness, and random facts about everything and anything. I would never have played that kind of trick on you its not in my nature. I hope you still know that." JJ said.

"Yeah I do." Reid replied.

"Good"

"So anyway things were going well up until that Super Bow weekend." Reid said fading out toward the end.

"Tobias.." JJ responded thinking back to that dreaded night.

"Yeah.. When I was taken and thought I was going to die countless times, it wasn't until I actually did die..." Reid paused trying to collect himself. "Until I actually did die where I started thinking about my life and if it was even worth it." Reid finished with a slight tear in his eye.

"If what was worth it?" JJ sniffed her tears back quietly thinking back to when she saw him on the monitor tied to the chair on his back and his eyes go in his head and he stopped breathing.

"If it was worth living." Reid replied shortly after.

JJ gasped. Just hearing Reid say that made her heart crumble. "Why would you think that?"

"Because I thought back in my life and thought about what would be there if I decided to wake up. Who would be there if I decided to wake up. And I came to two people. One of those people being my mom with schizophrenia living at Bennington in Vegas." Reid said

"And who was the second person?" JJ questioned.

Reid turned to look at JJ and reached out using his good hand and took hold of one of her's. "You."

"M- Me?" JJ stuttered blushing softly.

"Yeah. I didn't really care if I lived or died but in the 2 years that I knew you at the time and the friendship that we've built so far I couldn't leave you. Ironically I wouldn't live with myself knowing that I left you and how sad you would be." Reid said with a sad chuckle at the last part.

JJ tightened her hand around his urging him to continue but also thanking him for choosing to come back to her.

"So Tobias gave me CPR and I came back but I came back a different person. A person with an addiction." Reid started.

"Spence. you don't have to talk about it." JJ said knowing where the conversation was going.

Reid simply tightened his hand on hers and continued, "I know but I want to. I won't share all of it just what I think needs to be said."

"Okay." JJ simply replied.

"So I came back and ended up killing Hankel but at the cost of him giving me an addiction to dilaudid. It took every bone in my body to get over it but it took awhile. I was struggling." Reid sadly spoke.

"Im so sorry I wasn't there for you Spence. To help you through it like I should have." JJ said with tears threatening to fall.

"It's alright JJ I understand. So anyway it took me until that case in New Orleans to finally figure myself out. I met a friend I was close with down there, Ethan, and he helped me through it. I also told Ethan about you and how I felt about you." Reid said.

"I- I didn't know you did that down there I just thought you went to like a bar to think."JJ said thinking back.

"Yeah. As I was talking to him about you he was giving me all these pointers and stuff on how to talk to you more casually and how to take things further. to not let this addiction get the best of me." Reid replied.

JJ just stat there staring at him thinking she knew what he was going to say next. "But...?" She responded.

"But, when I finished talking to Ethan and finally had the courage to talk to you again after Tobias I saw you by the ambulance giving Will ur card and I know I just blew my chance." Reid said sadly.

JJ started feeling her eyes get wet and moved her free hand that wasn't holding Reid's to brush her eyes off. "Spence I'm so sorry I had no idea that you talked to Ethan about all of that. Also I'm not sure if you even know about the situation between me an-"

"Yes I know you and Will broke up. Emily told me when she came back."Reid cut her off.

"Oh." Was all she could say.

"Yeah. So anyway time went on and on the inside I was dying but never dared show that on the outside. I would rather still be your best friend than just coworkers. And I'm glad that we still got closer and closer in our friendship where we could rely on each other when needed." Reid said.

"Me too I'm so happy you didn't decide to stray away from me when you found out. Yeah I still was talking to Will at the time but you and me were so much closer than me and him and I don't know what I would have done if our friendship ended then."JJ said still teary eyed.

"Me either and I'm glad I didn't have to worry about that. Anyway things between us were going as good as they were considering you and Will were getting a lot closer but then my whole life changed for the worse when I found out you were pregnant. I was so happy for you yet so sad because I knew it wasn't my baby you were pregnant with, but so happy that you would be happy finally having that child you were talking about so much." Reid softly chuckled.

JJ quietly laughed with him. "Henry. as much as I regret Will I will never regret having Henry." She said.

"I know and I don't either. To the point where I was questioning to myself if it was even worth being in your life anymore. I wanted what was best for you and thought you should spend as much time with Will as possible. It took me eight months to find out an answer to that question when I came back from Vegas and walked into that hospital room and saw you holding little Henry and saw how happy you were that you needed to stay happy and I would just be a distraction from that." Reid softly admitted.

"Spence, why would you ever think that. You could never be a distraction to me. And if I remember correctly you made me happy just as much as Will did, if not even more." JJ said.

"I know that. And I was about to tell you how I felt once everyone else got out the room to get coffee so it was just the two of us when you dropped that bombshell on me and told me if I would be Henry's godfather. For a second I just stood there thinking your 16 hours of labor must have you not thinking straight so I asked why? Why did you think I would be the best option at godfather for Henry when Morgan or Hotch would have been a much better option in my eyes back then. And your reply was-"

"But I don't want Morgan or Hotch to be Henry's godfather. I want you to be it. And the reason why is because I knew you so much more as a friend than I did Morgan and Hotch and knew what type of person you were, and still are matter of fact." JJ interrupted Reid this time as she wanted to retell him why she picked him. "You are caring and smart and loyal and respectful and about 100 other things and if Henry grew up to be half the man you are I would have been happy and proud." JJ stated as she pulled Reid into a quick but needed hug on her part.

Reid didn't try to resist the hug. he simply sunk into it. When they pulled apart, still holding each-others hand, Reid continued. "So yeah when you told me to be his godfather and I said yes I threw everything I previously thought of about our friendship coming to an end out the window and made a vow to always be there for you and Henry in any way I could." Reid said.

JJ teared up and gripped his hand tightly. "And just so you know I never once regretted my decision." JJ said.

Reid just smiled at her for a minute before continuing. "Things were going so well between us for about a month or 2 later when we arrived to Quantico only to find out the military took our office over because of the anthrax case." Reid said.

"Yeah I remember that case all too well." JJ said reminiscing.

"Yeah so when I ended up in Dr. Nichols homemade lab with anthrax in the air and the only way out alive was to find the cure I knew life took a turn for the worst." Reid said quietly.

JJ took a moment to collect herself because once she found out Reid locked himself in a room with anthrax she nearly collapsed. "Yeah I remember that also."

"I didn't know how long it would take, if ever, for me to find that cure so, incase I never made it out of that lab alive I called Garcia and told her to record a voice file for me. Two actually. One for my mom so she could hear my voice one last time and the other one was for you. I'm glad Garcia never had to send those 2 files over I'm not sure sure where the ended up putting them." Reid pondered for a bit.

"Actually Spence, I have a confession, I went into Pen's office toward the end of the case to help out and once we found out you found the cure and would be ok Pen got up and wanted to go to the store to pick up some things for you at the hospital. I was just about to get up myself when something on the screen caught my eye. two voice files each with a different name. One said "For Diana Reid" and the other said "For JJ". I didn't think much of what would be on the file so I made sure Pen wasn't behind me and pressed play." JJ admitted to Reid Shyly.

*Flashback*

Hey JJ it's Reid. I had Garcia whip this recording up incase something bad happened to me in that lab. And by bad thing I mean me dying. I just wanted to leave you with a bit of me were that to ever happen. Thank you for being such an important person in my life. I never thought such a nice, caring and beautiful woman would ever like me and see me as her best friend just as much as I did her. One thing I love about you besides, well everything is that nickname you unofficially gave me, Spence. Did you know you're the only person in the world who calls me Spence? I've never had someone give me a nickname before but it felt so good. Also the few times when talking to me and you would say "My Spence" I don't know but I always loved it when you said that about me. Made me feel important to think that I belonged in someone's life. Now If it weren't a life threatening situation you would never hear me say that because I didn't want you to see me as some creep, but if you ever had doubt that thought I wouldn't like your nickname you gave me you're wrong. I absolutely love it. Anyway I'll let you go I just wanted to tell you I'm sorry that I blew my chance with you because of Tobias but at least you are happy and have Will and Henry. Oh crap Henry. I love Henry so much you have no idea. Any time I have a bad day and even thinking about you cant help it I think of Henry and my day instantly becomes brighter. Please tell him how much I love him and don't let him think I abandoned him like my father did me. I would never in a million years abandon Henry I love him too much. Ok I better get going I got to try to find this cure. I love you Jennifer, now and always, your Spence.

*End Flashback*

"Oh.." was all Reid could muster after hearing her confess that she did listen to his voice file. "JJ I just want you to know I only made that file because I thought I was going to die. " Reid said.

"I know and It's okay. It did make it easier to listen to knowing that you were in fact not going to die and in a couple hours you would be awake and ok. I'm not sure how I would have reacted to that file if you did die tho and I'm happy I never have to imagine that." JJ said.

"Yeah me too. Well I have a question for you now since I know that you have heard it." Reid asked.

"Whats the question Spence?" JJ asked back.

Reid blushed slightly at the question he was about to ask and JJ noticed him trying to hide it, which only peaked her curiosity. "I noticed ever since that day you've said 'My Spence' more frequently when you talk to me. Do you do that on purpose now?" Reid bit back a stutter trying to finish asking that question, his blush becoming more prominent as he released his hold of JJ's hand and turned to look at the floor in slight embarrassment.

"Oh Spence.. My sweet Spence..." JJ began repeating the phrase to try to get his attention which worked. She grabbed his hand again this time holding it with both of hers. "Yes I purposely use that phrase more not mainly because it makes you really happy, but I'm happy it does. I use it because that's what you are. you are my Spence. And it may sound like I'm jealous but I don't really care. I want this friendship of ours to be as strong as it is. I picked out Spence as your nickname as a way of me having something on you that no one else had. It made me feel like you were mine even though I could never have you as much as I wanted you because I have.. had.. Will." JJ said with a small tear coming out of her eye. Reid softly used his bad hand and gently wiped the tear away and did his best to cup her cheek with his bad hand.

"Listen JJ This whole Emily thing had me thinking about me and you and I realized 2 things. One of those things being how much I hated that you lied to me about Emily being dead." Reid said calmly as to not get JJ emotional.

"And the second?" JJ softly said waiting for him to admit he wants to end his friendship.

"Reid looks over at JJ and grips his hand in hers. "And the second is how much more I hated you not being in my life for those 2 days that I was upset with you." Reid admitted.

JJ just looked at Reid in shock, not thinking he was going to say that. "But I thought..." JJ started

Reid held up his free hand so he could speak. "Yeah I thought that too. but I found out that you are too important of a person in my life for me to go ruin it over something so stupid. You had every right to lie to me about Emily I just let my emotions take over. speaking of, do you want to know the real reason why I didn't want to talk to you about it at the precinct earlier? and why I left there when I did?" Reid questioned.

JJ just nodded, "Why Spence?"

"I didn't want to talk to you not because I had a lot going on but because I was scared." Reid said.

"Scared? of what?" JJ said.

"Scared my emotions would get the better of me and I would say something I would regret and you wouldn't forgive me for acting the way I did toward you. I left when I did because I figured I already hurt you I just didn't know how much because you can hide your emotions a lot better than me. I didn't want to wait for your rebuttal argument because I'm a coward and you deserve so much better than me. I don't deserve this beautiful woman sitting next to me, not after the torment I put on you in front of our team and the rest of the precinct and I am truly sorry and I just want you to forgive me." Reid finally said what's been on his mind since the precinct.

After absorbing all he said to her JJ didn't know what to do other than pull Reid into a tight hug. "Spence. for having an IQ of 187 you can be so dumb sometimes. you are the furthest thing from a coward as you can get, and you have proven that on multiple cases. taking a bullet for Dr. Barton. Shielding Owen Savage from the FBI to save his life, the whole Tobias case with you giving us clues as to where you were while being tortured by 2 different personalities and getting drugged by the other. I can keep on going if you want Spence." JJ said

"No I think I get the gist. I'm not that much of a coward as I thought. but-"

"No buts Spence. I wanted you to be my best friend for all those reasons that I explained and more. because you are such a selfless person and never put urself above anyone else, including unsubs. who else can you think of who does that? I'll tell you who no-one. As for me forgiving you, you shouldn't have to ask for forgiveness I should be the one asking for it. Spence I never intended on causing you so much pain. I didn't come up with Emily going into hiding I was just told by the state not to tell anyone, for her sake and everyone who knew her's. I just was scared today when you stormed out that our friendship would be over and once you left I started crying. Please tell me that we are still friends." JJ pleaded with her Spence.

"Of course we are still friends JJ. In fact I wish you-" Reid stopped, he didn't mean for that to come out and was unsure where that rush of affection came from.

"Wish I was your what? Spence?" JJ said curious as to what he was going to say.

Reid sighed as there was no point in hiding his secret anymore. "I wish that you and me would be more than friends." Reid said as he scrunched his face up even thinking JJ would want to be with him as something more and hoping he didn't risk his friendship that he just got back.

JJ knew what she had to do but it didn't involve words. It involved an action. As soon as Reid started looking away from her She took her hand and tugged his head to turn back towards her and then launched her self toward him crashing her lips to his.

To say Reid was shocked would be an understatement. For a few moments he didn't know what to do. he just sat there like a deer in headlights. soon after he got out of his shocked state and started to reciprocate the love and passion that she was giving him.

When the need for air was mandatory they broke apart just enough so their foreheads were leaning on each other. JJ had the strength to speak first. "That was..."

"Wow.." Reid finished her sentence for her.

"Yeah.. wow.." JJ just repeated what he said because she was speechless.

"JJ are you sure you want to do this? I know I just confessed how I felt about you my whole life I've known you but I dont want to rush into this and ruin our friendship because our friendship is one of the single most important things I have in my life." Reid stated hoping that her answer was the same one he was thinking and wanting.

"Yes I'm sure. I don't care how slow we have to take it but I'm ready to do this if you are." JJ said.

Reid didn't say anything, he simply kissed her once more. Their first kiss was out of hunger and want. this kiss was slower and more passionate. When they separated Reid cupped her cheek with his good hand, "That's all I ever want. I don't care where life takes me from here on out, I just want you to be in it with me." Reid said.

"Im just happy I can officially call you my Spence now. Because now you are all mine and no one else can have you but me." JJ smiled saying that phrase she knew he liked again.

Reid smiled wildly after hearing that and pulled her into his arms. "Thank you for walking into my life. I love you Jennifer Jareau."

JJ hugged Reid back, "Thank you for forgiving me and giving me this second chance at earning your trust back. I love you too Spencer Reid."

"I'm ready to take this road with you to make sure that both of our trust in each other goes back to being as strong, if not stronger than this friendship and now relationship."

And with that both JJ and Reid went to the front of the bed to get under the covers with each other. JJ moved close to Reid and Reid pulled her close to him. Both of them wrapped in each other, with JJ's head on Reid's chest and their legs tangled together, they drifted off knowing that their future just got a whole lot brighter.

~Fin

Author's note: Thank you for reading! I hope that my "twist" that I said in the description wasn't too much of one. Anyways I was thinking of writing more about them, like waking up or how would they tell the team? I don't know. if anyone has any suggestions I'm all ears. but thanks again and have a good day! Also please let me know if i should keep this as one big story or split it up into chapters. Im torn as to which to do but ill keep it whole for now.