But we don't feel like outsiders at all
Cruella looked at him and gave a smile, the silence of the room was calming.
She let her eyes roam around his body, not in a weird way just... studying every bit.
"My biggest secret... is that I was in love with Estella "
The words were sudden and she moved her eyes up to his, what he just said was confusing her.
"I- in love?"
She tilted her head still a bit shocked, she couldn't help but slowly plaster another smile on her face.
He loves her- well he loved Estella who was now dead but...
Wait why was she so happy?
"Yes"
He nodded and looked down a little bit, he almost was ashamed.
"Thank you"
She gave him a hug and then looked at him, she moved away quickly and looked down.
"Sometimes I feel left out, like maybe... I don't deserve love? Estella needed love and never got it but, Cruella? She doesn't need it and there for probably doesn't deserve it"
She shrugged and sighed, somewhere in her subconscious she loved Jasper, she just wasn't sure how to show it or express it, she spent too long blocking it out...
"You deserve the world"
Jasper's kind words caught Cruella off guard, she never had ever been told she deserved the world. Not by her mother, not by herself, and certainly not from Jasper.
It warmed her heart and she almost felt like crying, she was Cruella though and she never wanted to seem weak, not like Estella once was.
Jasper touched her hand and it made her jump, she was very deep in thought.
"I feel like I don't deserve love sometimes"
His words were low and that made Cruella a bit sad, of course he deserved love.
She knew of Jasper's past, how his mother and father died because of a mistake he made... she knew that took a toll on him.
He always was happy Estella and him had so much in common, now he-
She understood... finally she understood why he missed Estella so much, why he had closed off, why he didn't like Cruella.
He had no one to relate to anymore...
She hugged him tight.
"I understand you Jasper, I understand you and I promise I'm right here"
He hugged her back and nodded, he rubbed her back.
Finally after so long he knew she understood, he let out a much needed breath and smiled.
"I love- cooking"
He moved away and chuckled, he shook his head.
She looked at him, she moved a bit closer and put her hand on his cheek.
We are the new Americana
"I love cooking too"
She smiled and pulled his face close then placed her lips atop his.
She could feel herself become nervous and she was trying to get herself to pull away, she didn't though, she just sat up higher.
Jasper put his hands on her back and kissed her as slow and soft as he possibly could.
He moved his mouth away from hers but she didn't move her lips too far, she kissed his cheek and ear. That's where she stayed, she kept her head rested by his ear hoping she didn't mess anything up any way.
She was so scared... she felt as if she did that wrong, like her kiss was too sloppy, not slow enough, that maybe her lips were too small or that they didn't fit against his comfortably and that's why he moved away.
He moved his head and thought about what to say, he opened his mouth and just spoke his thoughts.
"Your lips feel nice"
He smiled against her head and kissed it softly.
She sighed of relief as all her worries melted away, she scooted back and looked at him.
She bit her lip smiling and looked down.
"Your lips are soft too"
She nodded and then fell silent, she wasn't sure what just happened but she hoped it wasn't the last time.
That small moment they just shared would stay in her mind for a long... long time.
"You... wanna go sit in the balcony?"
She smiled and said it awkwardly through the silence of the room.
Jasper nodded and stood up, he helped her up and looked at her, he was trying so hard not to kiss her once more.
Hopefully that kiss would satisfy him for awhile because he wasn't expecting anymore anytime soon.
They walked out onto the balcony together and they both sat down, Cruella grabbed his hand and laced her fingers with his.
Everything was gonna be ok.