AN – Thank you for the reviews, follows and favourites. Some people are even following me as an author now and that just brings a smile to my face knowing people want to continue reading my stories after this one is finished.

Ok so I realised I shouldn't have posted the last chapter before I posted this chapter and probably the next. The timeline would line up better but I'm not perfect and I just got the urge to write the Art/Celeste chapter.

But on other news - here's some more Romitri!

DISCLAIMER – Richelle Mead owns VA! Haven't put a disclaimer in for a while so best to add one.

Chapter 20 – The Vulnerability

I spent the time before heading to Dimitri's just aimlessly walking around the lodge. I knew today was the day I would set the person I loved free. So, he could have a better life, with everything he ever wanted. As much as it pained me to say it, I knew it was best for him. He wanted kids; he couldn't have that with me. Hell, he could end up in jail if we were found out.

I kept repeating the same thing over and over again in my head. Saying he would be better off without me. I was trying to convince myself of it. I knew in my head it was for the best for him, but my heart was putting up one hell of a fight.

I was tempted to kill time in the meal area but even the thought of eating was making my stomach churn with nerves, I was sure looking at food would make me sick. In the end I did head over. Knowing it was probably best to line my stomach with something before going to see Dimitri, I didn't know if I would get anything to eat afterwards nor did I fancy anything substantial right now. Grabbing a singular slice of pizza, I found an empty table and nibbled. I was forcing myself to eat, knowing I needed the strength. Not even a quarter of the way through though, I pushed my plate away. For once in my life I just wasn't hungry. My stomach was churning at just the smell of the food hall so I quickly grabbed my tray, discarded it and left.

I decided to head outside for a quick dose of fresh air hoping that would help with the building nausea, but it was unfortunately overtaken by the smell of clove cigarettes. I sighed, knowing the person those probably belonged to and knowing that my much-needed peace and quiet was ruined. I turned around and saw no other than Adrian standing at the railing puffing away.

''Seriously, do you have to blow that over here. It's making me want to hurl.'' I muttered in frustration, it didn't actually, I just wanted him to put the damn thing out.

''Ah, Little Dhampir. I told you I would be seeing you again.'' He said with a wink as he breathed another puff of smoke out. Luckily blowing it in the other direction. ''Would you like one?'' He asked, offering the packet towards me.

''No! It's a disgusting habit.'' I said, shaking my head.

''Well it helps me cope.'' He mumbled.

''What could you possibly need help coping with?'' I scoffed. Royal Moroi were so up their own arses. There life was set for them.

''Well, not a lot right now since I'm stood here talking to the most beautiful girl in the whole lodge.'' He said, with a wink. Now. Now I think I'm going to hurl.

''Yeah, I bet you say that to all the girls.'' I scoffed again.

''Maybe. But I don't mean it with them. You're something else Little dhampir. I feel like I am drawn to you.''

''Seriously? Does this ever work for you?'' I asked.

''I wouldn't know. Never tried this route before. Never been so intrigued to get to know a girl before you.'' He mumbled as the door behind us opened.

''Rose. There you are. Where have you been?'' Lissa asked from behind me. I was surprised that if she'd been looking for me why she didn't just call me over the bond.

''Cousin.'' Adrian said in the direction of Lissa. He had that funny glazed overlook in his eyes again staring at her. ''Seen any strange colours recently?'' He asked out of the blue. What a strange thing to say I thought.

Lissa looked at him funny. ''I have no idea what you are on about. What colours?'' She enquired.

''Oh nothing.'' He waved it off with a shrug. Lissa turned back to me just as the door opened again. This time however I knew immediately who it was. I sensed him before I saw him. I turned around and met with the chocolate brown eyes of my lover. Soon-to-be ex-lover. I gave him a small smile.

''Rose, what are you doing out here?'' He asked. Funny, shouldn't he be asking Lissa that as well?

''Talking.'' I said pointing to Adrian. Dimitri followed my pointed fingers and tensed, glaring at Adrian, I could see the anger take route in his eyes as well as what appeared to be jealousy, as he gave Adrian the death glare. Let's just say, if looks could kill. Adrian would be dead.

''Come on Rose. Let's go.'' Lissa said, looking between both Dimitri and Adrian closely. Adrian was giving Dimitri a smug smirk and a raised eyebrow as he flicked his eyes towards me, the hell? What's up with them? Lissa asked via the bond, I shrugged in response. I had no idea.

I turned and gave Adrian a wave goodbye. ''Until next time Little Dhampir.'' He said with a yet another wink, causing me to roll my eyes as I headed inside with Lissa. Leaving Dimitri and Adrian out on the porch.

''Rose. Why were you with Adrian?'' Lissa asked as soon as the door shut behind us.

I shrugged. ''We met last night. I only went out for some fresh air and he was there, so I spoke with him for like two minutes until you showed up.'' I said, getting a little defensive. Was I not allowed to speak to people now?

''Just be careful. Adrian has a reputation among the Royals as a player. He will sleep with anyone and then leave them.'' Lissa informed me. I scoffed. Did she really think I would sleep with him? She knew I hadn't slept with anyone that she knew off anyway so why would she think he had a chance?

''Well you have nothing to worry about then. I'm not interested in him that way.'' I replied.

''He can be very persuasive, so I've heard. Apparently, he can be very charming.'' She muttered in explanation. ''You know. Sometimes I wish you were in a relationship. I want to see you happy Rose.'' She continued. Wow that was a complete one-eighty.

''Who said I'm not happy?'' I asked defensively.

''I didn't mean it that way and you know it.'' Lissa said.

''I know. Honestly though Liss. Being in a relationship just isn't in the cards for me. That's for you. My role and duty are to protect you. I have no time for relationships.'' I sighed, again trying to convince myself of what I was about to do was going to be the right thing. We made our way to a little seating area in the foyer of the lodge and took seats next to one another. Lissa turned to face me and sighed.

''It shouldn't be that way though. You should still be able to live, have a life outside of your duty to me. Find love. I want that for you Rose.'' She muttered earnestly.

''That's not the way this works.'' I sighed. How little she knew I had already found my love. I've found the love of my life and I'm having to give him up. ''Look Liss, I just want to be alone right now. Maybe we could meet up tomorrow? Me and Mason are heading to the slopes in the morning if you and Christian want to join.'' I asked.

She shook her head almost immediately. ''I'll pass, but I'm sure Christian will be up for it. I'll let you know?'' she said, tapping her head.

''Ok. Well we are meeting at 9, but probably best to tell Christian 8 just to make sure. Plus, he will need to get his equipment.'' I replied as I stood to leave. ''I'll see you tomorrow though, yeah?''

''Yeah. See you tomorrow.'' Lissa responded.

I knew I was just leaving, and I hadn't spent much time with her recently, but I just couldn't seem to make myself want to be social. And it was partially her fault, she was spending a great deal of time with Christian. I tried not to be bitter, they were young and in love and it was new but a part of me was bitter. Our worlds were so different. She got to be happy, she got to be with the love of her life no questions or worries. Yet I had to give mine up because of some genetic glitch in our species that made it so we couldn't procreate together, not that that could be helped. Not forgetting it was illegal for us to be together and that he was leaving me for another women anyway. And lastly, it was our duty to protect the Moroi. They come first. I hated that code right now, I hated that our worlds were so different.

Hell, even if we could procreate together. The Moroi would shame Guardians being together. For obvious reasons. We weren't supposed to live our lives. We were supposed to give our lives in service of others. In protection of others. I would never get my happily ever after. I could never, but Dimitri could. He had the chance of a lifetime. To have a family. To be married and have children of his own so, how could I take that chance from him?

I headed back up to room where I stayed the remainder of the evening. I'd left the gym a total of an hour ago. Counting down the minutes until I tear my own heart from my chest and stamp on it for good measure. I could already feel the tugging in preparation, but I couldn't give in to the pain that I knew was coming. I would set him free.

At five I decided to get up and start getting ready. I wasn't going to do anything special. I had a shower, although I did shave. I'd been meaning to do that for a while so why not when I had some time to kill. It takes forever and I hate doing it, least it was a distraction. Then I changed into jeans and a pale blue blouse. It dipped slightly, showing off some of my chest but not enough to be indecent. It wasn't often I got to wear blouses. I usually lived in my gym wear with training so much. By the time the clock turned six thirty I was ready. I'd added a small amount of makeup, mascara and lip gloss and I was done. As I was about to leave, I found a note at the door, it was from Dimitri giving me his room number. I hadn't even thought about how I didn't know what room was his.

I left my room early. Deciding to take the long way around to his room. I walked through the foyer and saw Art and Celeste heading towards the rooms with pizza boxes and wine and I smiled to myself. They both looked happy so something must be happening there. Finally. They were clearly made for each other. Seeing them together now made me realise how much that was actually true. I knew they would make it through the challenges, they were both strong and had wanted this for so long. I hoped I would find that one day. You already have, yet you're about to throw it away that voice in my head whispered. I pushed it down, replying internally that it was what was right. That it was for the best.

I waited a little while longer to make sure Art and Celeste had gone. I didn't want them to see me. I knew they knew about me and Dimitri. But if they saw me sneaking into his room, surely, they would have a problem with that. Not that it mattered for much longer. The churning in my stomach returned and I swallowed a few times trying to push it away. I really should have tried to eat something more substantial earlier, I sighed.

I made my way along the corridors in the search for Dimitri's room. Knowing with every step I was getting closer to my own heartbreak. Finally, I reached his room. Room 302. I stood to the side of the door, trying to calm my nerves and giving myself a little pep talk.

Okay. This is it. You need to be strong. This is going to hurt like hell, but it is for the best. You want different things. You can't give him everything he wants, and he deserves the world. He deserves to be happy with or without you. Just be strong. I internally muttered to myself.

Pep talk over. I stood in front of the door and with another deep breath, I raised my hand, making a fist and brought my fist down against the door. Knock. Knock. Knock. The sound of the start of my heartbreak echoed through the corridor.

I wasn't waiting long. A few seconds at the most before Dimitri answered the door. ''Rose. You're on time.'' He smirked. Oh, that smirk. I'm going to miss that smirk.

''The one and only time.'' Secretly I just wanted this over with. I wanted to get this done with so I could try and learn my new normal without him.

''Come in.'' He gestured for me to enter and quickly looked both ways, probably making sure no one had seen me enter.

As I walked into the room I was bombarded with the sweet smell of jasmine candles, the light off the candles giving the room a soft glow. The fireplace also offered additional light as it crackled away, flicking soft amber glows to light the room. The lights were off but with our dhampir sight we could see no problems. I looked to the side and saw a table set up with a pizza box on top and my stomach churned again, this time in hunger. The table was set up like a proper restaurant, plates, cutlery, glassware and also flowers in the centre. It was almost like I would have imagined our first date. Wait, did he think this was a date? Did he really think us having this conversation was good grounds for a date?

''I know what you are thinking. I just realised we had never had a meal just the two of us. For now, this is the only way we can. I thought it would be nice.'' He stuttered nervously. ''One day I'll treat you to a proper meal but for now I thought we could talk over food?'' He mumbled as an explanation. Still didn't tell me if he thought this was a date or not… I shook my head, it didn't matter. Instead I have him a grateful smile and head towards the table and sat down.

I looked around the room and saw a door leading off the main room, I presumed was the bathroom. His bed was basically the centre piece of the room, with a sofa to the side and a small kitchenette in the corner. It was set up like a typical hotel room, but it had everything you could need. I heard his chair scrap across the floor as he sat down opposite me.

''Please help yourself.'' He said, as he gestured to the pizza box in front of us. He reached over and opened the lid. Pepperoni pizza, my favourite. My mouth watered just looking at the steaming goodness. I reached over to grab a slice of pizza but surprised myself as my hand shook. Looking up I meet with the chocolate eyes of the person I loved giving me a concerned look as he glanced at my hand. I placed the slice of pizza I had just picked up on my plate and gave him a small reassuring smile. I was so nervous I was shaking in anticipation of what I was about to do. I knew I needed to just pull the band aid off and get out as quickly as possible, but I just wanted a few moments longer in his company. So, I could cherish them. I would commit every last one to memory and hold them with me for the rest of my life.

Thankfully, I was able to eat more than I had earlier. I was now thankful Dimitri had thought about getting us something to eat. It helped calmed my nerves. We ate in a comfortable silence, only making ideal chit chat, I don't think either of us knew where to start.

Once the last slice had been eaten, which Dimitri kindly gave to me, I knew it was time. We moved away from the table and made our way to the sofa. I folded into myself against the edge, hating myself for what I was about to do but knowing it was for the best. Dimitri came and sat beside me, not close enough to touch, but close enough that I could feel the heat radiating off him.

''Rose.'' Dimitri started, turning slightly to face me as I pushed myself further into the corner. I don't want to do this I whispered to myself. Silently admitting to myself however I quickly chastised myself. Reminding myself why I have to do this. Why I need to. For him. ''I am sorry about earlier. Sorry we got interrupted.'' He mumbled. ''And I'm sorry for throwing you across the room with basically no warning.'' I could see the pain in his face from the corner of my eye as he said the last part and I felt the need to comfort him. To reassure him.

''It's ok. You did what you had to do. I get it. It was quick thinking, a good cover.'' I shrugged. ''It couldn't have been helped.''

''Will you let me explain? Everything? Before you jump to conclusions. Or anymore at least.'' He asked. ''Please.''

Now. Part of me was desperate to know the truth. To know every side of this story but another part of me knew it was best for me to talk first. I needed to get what I wanted to say out first, because honestly what would whatever he wants to say matter after what I say. He would be wasting his breath trying to dig himself out of the whole he had gotten himself into. This way he would be free to live with Tasha, as he obviously planned.

''Actually. I would like to speak first.'' I mumbled, looking up at him fully, he nodded, looking guarded. I took a deep breath and wrapped my arms around my legs. ''Let's be honest here. This isn't working, whatever it is. We were fools to believe it would -could- work. You can't possibly be happy with me.'' I saw him about to interrupt as a flash of anger crossed his features, but I held a hand up. ''No let me finish. This is hard enough as it is.'' I sighed. ''I want you to be happy, Dimitri. I want to give you the world, but I can't. You want a family, children. You can't have that with me. But you can with Tasha. You can have everything you want and your career without it affecting your reputation. If we got found out, you'd be done. Hell, you'd be in jail and even if you managed to not be your reputation, your career would be no more. I can't let that happen That's why I'm setting you free. Giving you the out. Go be with Tasha. No questions asked. No explanation needed. I'll be ok'' I'd turned in my seat during my little speech, pulling my legs closer to me until I was tightly wrapped in a ball. I couldn't face seeing his expression to what I had said. I didn't know what I would see. Would it be relief that he didn't need to explain that he was just using me. Or sadness because he did really love me. Honestly, I don't know which reaction would be worst to see. Therefore, I didn't, couldn't look at him. I tucked my face into my knees and hid like a coward.

The room was silent for a few minutes, when a sob ripped through the silence. I turned my head slightly, peaking up at Dimitri, shocked. He, however, wasn't the one crying. I looked at him through water filled eyes. The sob had come from me. I touched my cheek and found it wet, just as another sob wrecked through my body.I tried to calm my breathing, force the tears back. I didn't want him to see how much this was truly hurting me. Another sob wrecked through my body just as Dimitri reached for me and enveloped me in his arm, pulling me onto his knee cradling me to his chest.

I clung to his chest as the tears streamed down my face, soaking his t-shirt in the process. ''Shh, Roza. Shh.'' Dimitri soothed rubbing my arms and back, up and down in a soothing gesture. ''Please calm down. I'm not going anywhere.'' He whispered in that velvet voice of his.

''No. Dimitri… You have to. You need… to be… happy.'' I sobbed.

He pulled me back so he could look into my eyes and wiped my tears from my face. My sobs ceased as I looked into them chocolate depths, but the tears kept coming. ''And what makes you think leaving you would make me happy?'' He asked, raising a perfect eyebrow.

''It's what you've wanted. You've wanted this for so long. Both of you. You can finally be with her, it's ok. I understand. You want children. I can't give you them.'' I repeated.

''No, you can't. But I don't care. I would trade it all, in order to be with you. My career. My reputation. My ability to have my own biological children. It would all mean nothing to me without you. I meant what I said in the B&B. I love you.'' He implored, staring me straight in the eyes and I could see the truth reflected there. ''Hell, if you wanted children in the future, we would figure it out. I just want you. What was said last night. None of it. And I mean none of it was true. Yes, Tasha offered me to be her guardian with benefits.'' The way he said benefits showed me his disgust of even thinking it. ''But I told her no. Immediately. She's got this idea in her head that I will change my mind by the time she goes home but I won't. I know what it's like to live without you, to pretend I don't love you and I won't do that again. And all that about us meant to be together after graduation, I have no idea where it came from. She has expressed an interest in me before I won't lie but I have never, nor will I ever express an interest back to her. You are the only one, my love.'' Dimitri finished with a small smile on his face and gently brought his lips to my face, gently pressing them to my forehead. ''Я люблю тебя навсегда. Ты мой навсегда. Мой один единственный. И однажды я выйду за тебя замуж.''

I pulled back further to look at him. He looked sincere in his words and I could tell they were the truth. Everything, everything Lissa had said about what she heard after I left. The arguments between Dimitri and Tasha, they were all true. It wasn't some act because he knew I could be watching through Lissa, evening though I wasn't, or because he knew she would tell me what happened. His anger and brokenness were because he thought he had lost me because of some psycho who was delusional enough to think they would be -were- together.

Thankfully I had stopped crying now and Dimitri had just wiped the last tear from my face and brought his hands down to rest between us. ''I believe you.'' I whispered. ''But what about the risks? Your career?'' I asked. My resolve was slipping into making the right choice. He was breaking down the walls.

''Weren't you listening? I don't care about my reputation or career. We would figure it out. I just want you. However, that may be, whether it be in the Moroi world or not.'' He said. He was willing to give up his position in the Moroi world for me? He'd thought about it, that much was clear.

''Dimitri you've worked so hard to get to where you are now. I can't ask you to just throw that away.''

''You aren't. I'm telling you that I would. Many people already know at the academy anyway and they support us. Which I know is hard to believe. I know we have been hiding and if we want to stay in the Moroi world we would have to continue hiding until you graduate. The choice is yours.'' He offered.

''I can't leave Lissa.'' I immediately replied. No matter what, I would not leave Lissa undefended.

''Then we stay hidden until graduation. Then afterwards, when we get to court, we will slowly let people see us together. After we tell Vasilisa of course.'' He muttered apprehensively. Yeah, that's going to be an interesting conversation. Especially after what I said today.

''But...'' I tried again but was cut off before I could even start by Dimitri crashing his lips onto mine.

Even if I wanted to, I wouldn't have been able to push him away. As soon as his lips crashed onto mine, I was a goner. I lip moulded to his like they fit perfectly. Like they were made just for him. The desperation in the way he kissed me was clear. We were done talking.

The forcefulness in which he kissed me took my breath away. Breaking the kiss to be able to breath he moved his lips across my jaw and down my neck, suckling the soft spot below my ear causing a loud moan. Damn he could always get that reaction out of me when he kissed me there. I relaxed my foetal position on his lap and quickly moved to straddling his lap, pushing him further into the sofa, while bringing my lips back to his. I felt his sigh against my lips as he once again attacked my mouth. I felt his tongue gracing my lips and I quickly gave him access. Our tongues clashed together in a battle for dominance, my hand found purchase in his hair and I pulled causing a groan as he sucked my bottom lip into his mouth.

His hands moved up and found purchase in my hair and just like I had to him he pulled softly resulting in my own moan. Detaching our lips, I moved down to his neck, kissing and suckling knowing I was most likely leaving my mark on him, but I didn't care.

All that mattered was him and that he wanted me. I'd been stupid to even believe for a second he would be anything but faithful and truthful with me. How could I have ever believed after everything we had been through, that he would want to be with Tasha. I knew how though. My own anxiety made me believe he never truly wanted me, and could you blame me for thinking that way. He was a god in more ways than one. A beautiful specimen of a man and for some crazy reason he wanted me. Even if I had a thread of doubt about how much he wanted me, that all went out the window as soon as he kissed me. You couldn't fake a kiss like that. The fire that burned our skin whenever we touched had ignited in that kiss and there was no way off putting it out now.

He wanted me. Along with all my flaws and possible risks he was willing to risk it all just to be with me. I didn't deserve him. But as long as he was willing to be with me, I'd happily accept it.

I moved my hands down, slowly, dragging my nails down his back through his shirt as a low growl sounded from his chest and I smiled, loving the feeling of being able to get this reaction from him. My hands rested at the hem of his shirt and grasping it in both hands I risked pulling it upwards. Knowing he would soon stop us.

Imagine my surprise when he actually helped me remove the garment. As in actually helped me. He moved away from where his lips were attaching my shoulder, he'd managed to pull the collar of my blouse to the side to get better access and I could already feel a bruise forming underneath the skin. Once his shirt was over his head, he caught my eyes. The lust I could see there, it was beyond anything I'd ever seen from him. Including the lust charm. Whatever I saw that night, was now magnified by a hundred. The burning look he gave me sent shock waves straight to my core, soaking my already soaked panties. I squirmed at the sensation causing even more fire to spark within his eyes. I could feel his erection pressing against me as I straddled him and I pushed myself closer to it needing the friction it promised, causing his head to roll back on the sofa.

''Roza...'' he whispered breathlessly. ''We can't.'' He opened his eyes and I knew in that moment he didn't believe what he had just said. He knew as much as me there was no going back right now. There was no way we could stop, even if we wanted to. Which I was pretty sure neither of us did.

I moved back a little and the pain that flashed in his eyes was all the confirmation I needed. I grabbed the hem of my blouse and ripped it over my head as I responded. ''I know.'' And with that I crushed my lips back to his. That's all it took for whatever little spark of reluctance he still had to diminish. He attacked my lips even more than he had before, his hands roaming my newly exposed skin, his hand resting on my hip, the other raising up my back and unclasping my bra. Letting it fall loose between us. I quickly discarded the offending item to the side of the room. I just hoped it didn't land in the open fire like a certain other part of my wardrobe the last time this happened. I chuckled causing Dimitri to pull back.

''What's so funny?'' He asked. I didn't miss the glance he made to my breast in longing before he looked me in the eye and the appreciation that was evident in them.

''Nothing.'' I shrugged and he just raised an eyebrow in silent question. ''Just remembering the last time one of us threw an article of my clothing across the room with an open flame around.'' I chuckled again as realisation flicked around Dimitris face as his eyes darted towards the floor and the fire.

''I think we are safe at the moment.'' He chuckled, leaning his head back to find purchase on my neck, suckling the skin there again.

''Are you expecting to burn more of my clothing?'' I breathlessly moaned as he continued his assault.

''No.'' He breathed against my neck.

I felt him shift beneath me, my legs wrapped around his waist instinctively as I felt him stand from the sofa we had been using as our make out session. My lips attacked his again as he moved our position. I knew he was heading over to the bed but was surprised when that wasn't what I felt against my back. My back was pushed against the hard wall of his room as he ravished my neck again. He didn't linger there long though as he made his way down my exposed body. He nibbled my upper breasts, starting one side and moving across to the other as I felt my peaks harden against his chest.

Resting one hand beneath my ass to support me as he pressed me harshly against the wall his other hand moved upwards grasping one of my breasts in his hand and giving it a firm hard squeeze. As he played with the one globe, he moved his mouth down to give the other twin some much needed treatment as well. As soon as his mouth took my peak into his mouth my head rolled back in pure ecstasy. I didn't remember any of it feeling this good the last time, but wow. I could feel my wetness soaking through my jeans, I knew that if I could feel that, there was a real possibility that Dimitri could also with how close our cores were. The thought caused me to squirm. I felt the hand fondly my breast move down the side of my body at the movement. His hand moved lower and lower until he moved it across and between us, cupping my core through my jeans. A startled groan formed in his throat.

''Already so wet.'' He murmured against my breast as he took the peak back into his mouth and bit harshly, within the next second he was licking the sting away. I pushed my core further into his hand as he continued his assault on my breast, moaning loudly. My hips moving on their own accord as I searched for any friction to sooth my aching core.

''Bed. Now.'' I demanded, pushing myself away from the wall to encourage him to move. He complied quickly and within seconds I felt to softness of his comforter against my back instead of the hardness of the wall.

As a laid back on the bed, Dimitri stood over me. Gazing at me with such evident love that I was shocked once again at how I could have ever doubted him. He came and laid beside me, keeping his gaze glued to mine and it was like I could read his soul. Read every fear and every wish, every thought. I smiled tentatively up at him, raising my hand and curling it into his hair to pull him down against me again. I felt him shift to slightly hover over me as our lips began our dance again.

This time there was more urgency in our kiss. Our needs now coming to the forefront of our minds. It had been a long time since that night with the charm and with the many near encounters we have had I was aching for his touch in the one place he was still yet to touch me properly.

Giving up on him taking the lead I moved my hands away from his hair and his body entirely and reached for my own jeans. Popping the button and moving the zipper down. I was just about to push them over my hips when I felt Dimitris hands stop me and he pulled back.

''Are you sure? We don't have to.'' He whispered. I knew, I could see it in his eyes that if I said I wanted to stop he would. But I didn't. If he'd let it, I would have had him again in that B&B. Without a second thought or even a verbal answer I moved my hips from the bed and pushed my jeans over my hips. He took that as all the answer he needed and moved to kneel before me. Moving my hands away and replacing them with his. ''Allow me.'' He whispered seductively. I was sure if it wasn't for the accent it wouldn't have had half the sexy flare that it did. He made quick work of pulling my jeans off. It wasn't until a second later that I realised he'd also taken my panties with them.

I went to cover myself, realising just how exposed I was but was soon distracted with his kisses moving up my thigh. I immediately knew where his goal was, and all my nervousness disappeared and was replaced with red hot want. A sudden thought crossed my mind and I was so glad I'd decided to shave tonight, it's like the universe knew, I internally chuckled. I doubted Dimitri would have cared either way.

By now my core was painfully aching for any relief. Relief that his mouth promised to give me with each gentle kiss up the length of my leg. I knew I should have been nervous; he was about to be face deep in my most intimate area, but I trusted Dimitri implicitly. He was close now. A whisper away from the apex of my thigh so imagine my surprised when he pulled away and moved back down the bed and started the same glorious slow pace up the other leg.

My back arched of the bed in anticipation as I squirmed trying to get closer to the promise of his lips on my skin. As quickly as I moved to get closer his arm had moved and was now pinning me down. I groaned in frustration as I continued to try and buck my hips. ''Patience.'' He whispered against the skin on my thigh, the sensation causing another moan from my throat. ''Trust me.''

''Oh. My. God. Get to the damn point already!'' I shouted in frustration. This was worse than torture I was sure.

He laughed. He actually laughed at me. ''All in good time. Trust me it will be worth it.'' He whispered as his lips finally reached the edge of my apex. He kissed his way across to my core and slowly flicked his tongue against my bundle of nerves and I cried out in joy. Finally! He flicked his tongue again causing yet another moan as he nuzzled against my core, inhaling deeply. ''Hmm.'' He murmured as his tongue moved down and licked between my slit. ''Delicious. Just as I thought.'' He breathed. I looked down at him and the sight of him nuzzled between my legs nearly sent me over the cliff I was desperate to go over. He looked up, above my curls and eyed me closely as he licked his glistening lips of my lingering wetness.

Slowly he dived back in like a kid at the candy store. Flicking and licking his tongue across my slit and clit. Finally, he went to work, focusing his tongues menstruations against my clit as he deftly added one finger into me, curling it at the end and finding that oh so sweet stop inside of me. Once he found the spot, he was searching for my whole body came alive, even more so than it already was. All I could feel was the things this man was doing to me. The constant licking of his tongue, the flicking of his lone digit inside of me. Just when I thought it couldn't get any better, he added another digit inside of me. Stretching me. ''Oh. My. God.'' I moaned as the new sensations took over my body and my hips bucketed nearly uncontrollably. The tension I felt with the lust charm was building again and I knew I was close; I also knew this was going to be better than the charm.

I bit back another moan, knowing I was getting loud and he probably had neighbours who could likely hear this, as he gently sucked and bit my clit in a surprising gesture. Yeah, I wasn't expecting that to be as pleasurable as it was. For a split second I felt pain but then the pleasure overtook as he suckled the bite away. That was enough. The tension that had been building since he first kissed me. Hell, the tension that had been building since he first told me he loved me in the B&B finally snapped.

My eyes rolled back into my head as it rested it against the pillow. No longer able to keep my eyes glued on what this man wasn't doing to me as my body exploded around his skilled fingers and tongue. I felt my core clench around he fingers as I rode my orgasm out. He continued to lick and sooth me as I came down from the high, he had just given me.

As I finally came back down to planet earth, I risked a glance down towards him and the look on his face would stay with me for the rest of my life. He laid there, between my legs with the biggest smirk on his face. A similar smirk spread across my face. That is until he spoke his next words.

''Told you it would be worth it.'' His smirk grew larger as mine turned into a scowl.

''Yeah, yeah. I'm sure it could have been that good without all the theatrics.'' I replied which just caused his impossible smirk to grow even larger causing me to squirm beneath him. Even after what he had just done to me, I still wanted more. I needed him. Needed him inside of me. I was sure that was the only thing left that would put this burning want out.

He noticed my squirm. Of course, he did, and he gently started kissing up my body again. Relighting the fire that was barely extinguished in the first place. As he made his way up my body, he gave some more attention to both of my twin globes. One with his mouth, another with his hand and then alternating between them. Getting impatient again I pulled on his hair urging him up to me. As soon as he was in reach, I crushed my lips to his finding a strange but sweet taste on his lips. It took me a moment longer than it should off to realise I was tasting myself. I never realised until this moment just how arousing that could be, I moaned at the taste of myself on his tongue. Sucking slightly causing a deep groan from his.

I was suddenly very aware that he still had he own jeans on, we'd never gotten around the him removing his. ''Uh hmm...'' I murmured around his lips. He pulled back as I looked down between us. ''Someone has a few more articles of clothing on than I would like him to have.'' I muttered in my most flirtatious voice I could manage as I reached down to unbuckle his belt. Slowly removing the item from its loops and tossing it off the side of the bed as I immediately went to grab the button of his jeans popping them open. Teasingly, yeah who was I kidding I was completely teasing him, I slowly pulled his zipper down at an agonizing pace. I could feel him straining against the confines of his jeans and if I had to guess he must be uncomfortable but I'm anything but nice. He teased me so I'll tease him back.

I lifted my legs, pulling them closer to my chest once I had pulled his zip all the way down and rocked my core softly into his straining erection causing just the reaction I wanted. A loud growl broke the silence as his hands tightened on my hips. I knew tomorrow I would have bruises from his grasp, hell I'd probably have bruises in more than one place. I slipped my toes into the edges of his jeans and using my feet I pushed them down. It was harder than I thought it would be but eventually I got the offending item off. Mostly. Dimitri had to sit up and pull them of the rest of the way, discarding them to the side along with the rest of our clothing. I hummed in gratitude at the sight before me. Clad in just his boxers he was a sight to be reckoned with. Sitting up in front of my him, I felt braver than I ever had as I reach for the last article of clothing separating us and I pulled them down in one swift movement as I watched his length twitch in anticipation and probably gratitude at no longer being confined.

For a brief moment I was shocked again. I'd forgotten just how big he was. I knew he fit but looking at him without the lust charm. Seeing him with clear eyes for the first time I couldn't understand how he had fit. Surely that thing would break me in half...

''Rose? Are you ok?'' He interrupted my spinning thoughts, grounding me. I glanced up at him to see his face full of concern as he raised a hand and moved my hair out of my face, caressing my cheek softly.

''Uh hmm...'' I mumbled, still a little cautious as I peaked at his length again.

''Maybe try that again.'' He replied with a smirk. He knew. The bastard knew what I was thinking and was going to make me say it.

I sighed. ''I just forgot. I know that fits but how?'' I mumbled, my cheeks flaming at my confession. I was rewarded with a large smile from Dimitri.

''You expand to.'' He murmured as he grasped himself in his hand that was just on my cheek and softly stroked up and down. I let out a moan at the sight and Dimitri flashed his eyes at me in clear want.

In a flash Dimitri was on me again, pushing me back down onto the soft confides of his bed, attacking my neck, breasts and lips with as much force and rigor as he ever had. His hips started moving on their own accord as did mine as the promise of the pleasure to come built between us.

He pulled away suddenly, grasping his length in his hands he gave it a few more strokes against my core, coating it in my juices as he aligned himself with my entrance. I braced myself in expectation as I slowly closed my eyes, pulling my bottom lip between my teeth. His hand came up to rest against my cheek as he softly stroked the skin there and whispered to me in Russian.

''You know I have no idea what you are saying right.'' I muttered breathlessly. He was so close, if he would just move a millimetre, he would be inside me! I squirmed at the thought, trying desperately to make that happen.

''I said. You are so beautiful. It hurts me sometimes.'' He whispered as I opened my eyes to meet his gaze. He stopped all movements briefly searching my eyes. I knew what he was searching for. He was looking to make sure I was sure about this. I knew he wouldn't see any doubt in my eyes. I wanted this. No, needed this. More than I needed air to breath. When he saw no resistance, he leaned in further and touched his lips to mine, at the same time he entered me.

Not with the same harshness as last time. This time he was slow and steady rocking his hips back and forth letting me grow accustomed to his size until he was fully sheathed inside of me. My mouth formed an 'o' as a lengthy moan came from me as my body adjusted to the invasion of his own. He stilled inside me, allowing me the time needed to fully adjust to his size, still gazing directly at me as if he could see into my soul. I gazed back into his chocolate lust dazed eyes and smiled.

Giving a small nod, he started moving inside me. I tried as much as I could not to compare this experience to my only other sexual encounter, but it was hard not to. This is how it should have been the thought came unwanted into my mind, but I couldn't help the small tinge of regret that settled in my body as I thought that. This is how it should have always been, but it got taken away from us by a mad man. I wouldn't change it. Lord knows that but a part of me still wished it could have been as gentle as it was right now.

My thoughts were interrupted by the speed of each thrust increasing, my moans and his groans were getting louder and louder, and I no longer cared who heard us. All I could think about was the feelings he was giving me. The pure bliss as we were finally connected in the most intimate of ways again.

''Roza. Roza. Roza.'' He shouted over and over like a prayer all the while increasing the power behind each of his thrusts. My hips began meeting his thrust with equal power, shifting my legs to wrapped around his waist I gave out a loud moan as the new position drove him deeper into me.

''Faster'' I shouted, and boy did he oblige. A loud moan escaped my lips as he once again increased his speed.

He was pounding into me at a speed that should be illegal, with each thrust he was hitting that deep magical spot inside of me and with each hit, pleasure wrecked through my body, building up to what I was sure would be the most power climax I will have had and it had only been three. Well will be three after this one.

The now semi-familiar build up was starting to reach its breaking point and I could feel the tensing of my stomach muscles in preparation of exploding. We had still not broke eye contact and I could see in his face that he must be close too. He was grinding his jaw tightly. Last time, I knew he didn't get to finish. We had broken the charm before he got the chance and he basically ripped himself out of me. This time I was determined that he would get the finish he deserved. Raising my lips to his, I took his bottom lip into his mouth. I wanted to flip us, so I was on top but one glance at his face I knew I couldn't. He needed to be in control right now and I was in no position to even try and change that. The coil in my stomach snapped without a second warning and I exploded for the second time tonight.

''Yes! Yes! Dimitriiiii!'' I cried out in pleasure; my hip frantic in their need for more friction. I felt him twitch and pulse inside me and suddenly what felt like an explosion and a strangled cry come from his lips as he also exploded in what I was sure was pure ecstasy.

We continued moving together slower than before. Both of us riding the others orgasm out. Once the final tremors of my orgasm left me, he stilled inside me. Nearly collapsing on top of me but still holding a lot of his weight off my body. I used my elbow to knock his arm out so then his whole body crashed on top of me and I sighed at the feeling, wrapping my legs tighter around his body. Holding him to me.

We laid like that for a few minutes until he moved slightly causing a whimper from me at the loss of weight.

''I'm crushing you, love.'' He spoke softly, caressing my cheek.

''I don't care.'' I muttered as I tried pulling him back down, but he wouldn't budge. I gave a loud frustrated sigh as I gave in.

''I don't want to hurt you.'' He said, soothing the frustrated look of my face. He then moved completely off me causing him to pull out of my core and I immediately felt the loss of his body. He moved to lay on his back next to me and I quickly rolled over, curling into his side and resting my head on his cheek.

''You couldn't hurt me.'' I muttered quickly. ''On another note. That was fucking fantastic. Why the hell have we not been doing that for longer!'' I exclaimed causing him to chuckle. He didn't bother answering me, but I knew, a part of him must be thinking the same. Even if we both new why we hadn't been doing that for longer.

AN- Sorry this took me a little longer than I thought to get out. It's been written since I last updated but I've been away. I was in the Lake District for a few days and it was beyond beautiful, I want to go back so bad already. Russian transaltion - I love you forever. You are mine forever. My one and only. And one day i'll marry you.

There you have it. They finally got it on, and this story finally earned it M rating again. Did anyone really believe they'd make it too graduation?

I hope I did it justice. I am not very good at writing them scenes, so I hope I did it justice.

This chapter was over 10 thousand words. As it is it's one of the longest I've ever done. I cut it into two chapter though. Next to follow soon, just need to extend it a little. Not sure when it will come, I go back to work on Thursday.

Please review if you feel like it!

Until next time.