Kintsugi
By
DrummondType2
I have been broken. We all have, I think, at some point or another. Some of us are simply more honest, or perhaps more aware, of it.
Did you know that you can repair broken pottery? Yeah. There's an art for it, called kintsugi. A laquer using powdered gold, silver, or platinum is applied to hold the broken pieces together.
There are several ways to repair pottery, actually, but kintsugi is also a sort of philosophy. That the brokeness of an object is treated as part of its history, and that broken things can be made even more beautiful when the damage is repaired.
Perhaps I'm like that, too. But if I am the broken vessel, then she's the gold that holds me together.
Oh, I'm certain that she'd argue it was the other way around. But isn't that what makes philosophy a personal thing? That you can see it one way, and someone else can see it another?
But for me, it's definite. She is the gold that binds my cracks, and the beauty I have is because she shines in me.
Her smiles. Her laugh (though I don't hear it nearly as often as I might like). Those beautiful eyes, with their striking color.
Being broken is an awful feeling. But someone being willing to put us back together. Someone seeing it as being worth the time and effort to put us back together. And the joy of being made whole again by the precious gold of someone's sincere love and affection…that's something that could make anyone feel beautiful, don't you think?
And people can still see the cracks. They're not going away. But I'm not trying to hide them. Because she fills them and makes me feel whole, not despite my brokeness, but because I was broken and she bothered to put me back together.
She gathered up the broken pieces of me, and carefully, painstakingly put them in order and sealed them with her precious golden love. She saw something of value in those broken bits that anyone else would have just thrown in the trash, and felt it was worth all the golden love it took to hold it all together, assembled as something precious, beautiful, and new.
So, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.