i know you're all gunna probs hate me for this chapter
or low-key hate me for not splitting it up into two parts
but its finally all wrote out so have it ALL
obvs more to come
Leonard get yourself a tricorder ready i have a passed out Jim in a state you've never seen him before, clear the sofa.
What?! Whats happened?
Easier to just show you, there's no blood, he's not going to die, don't panic.
Are you alright?
I'm fine… well least I think so, but you're not gunna like it.
What- what are you talking about
I'm in the lift give me a second
The lift felt like it took forever to get to their floor and Alex could hear his blood rushing in his ears. He was full of adrenaline and anxiety as the lift door pinged and opened, pushing his way through the entryway door backwards with Jim in his arms he turned to see Leonard stood right in front of him in obvious shock.
"He - Jim passed out, held his stomach before going down so not entirely sure what's going on." Alex stated noticing that Leonard hadn't moved a muscle yet, he frowned at the man sympathetically with a short but intentional pause. "Leonard, gunna need you to have a mental breakdown about this later, tricorder." Alex stated plainly, seeing Leonards doctor mode kick into gear as Alex placed Jim down across the sofa. "I've got medical equipment on the way and I've called for Harry." Alex watched Leonard frown as he scanned over the completely unrecognisable body that was apparently James Kirk.
"He… She's showing strong vitals. I'm guessing the shock just threw him for a loop, you were right I don't like this." Leonard looked up towards green eyes before breaking eye contact uncomfortably.
"Oh my God I can't believe this has happened." Nyota looked down at the woman laid out on the sofa now understanding it was Jim, she was wearing the clothes the man had went out in afterall. All she'd heard before the blonde Vulcan came bursting in was Leonards hurried rambling about Jim being in trouble again.
"He's gunna love this when he wakes up." Leonard commented making Alex laugh lightly with a slight smirk.
"When he wakes up im gunna kill him for making us take the transporter instead of walking for 10 minutes." Alex growled, scowl forming as he ground his teeth together. "Why are you looking at me like that? you still don't recognise me?" Alex asked in frustration, taking his now dirty blonde bordering on brown hair out of the bobble and pulling his hair back to expose the scars, watching as Nyota mouth dropped. Not sure why she didn't realise sooner, it was probably the still long hair but facially the man looked exactly like the photos Alex had showed them from the first time it had happened, just with pointed ears.
"Alex?" Nyota spoke in certainty, seeing the man's green eyes go glassy as he gave a sarcastic thumbs up.
"Sorry, I need to get used to the testosterone levels, takes a while." Alex sighed, placing an apologetic hand on Nyotas shoulder as the woman rounded the corner of the sofa.
"You'd think the junk would be the thing you'd need to get used to-" Leonard commented, trying to make light of the situation.
"It's happened before you know that, never really got the hang of any of that the first time round, I also don't need to be reminded thanks-" Alex grimaced and shivered, clearly uncomfortable, putting his hands out he flexed his fingers practicing making a fist as he watched the tendons move under forearms that were admittedly still pale, but thicker and firmer than what they should be, hands that were too big and not a freckle in sight. Breathing heavily and vision blurring for a second he sat himself on the sofa beside Jims sprawled out body head in hands not noticing Leonard shift and start to scan him with the tricorder, a concerned frown present.
"Alex, you're not adjusting to this like you did the first time, your hormone levels are fluctuating dangerously and you're not getting enough oxygen." Leonard frowned, pulling Jims lighter frame down the sofa and raising his brows at the now very Male body that was his girlfriend.
"You want me to lie down?" The low rumble of a question came from the half Vulcan.
"Please, i'm gonna go grab something to stabilise your hormones. Give me a sec-" Leonard said, eyes locked on their bedroom as he jogged up the stairs and through the door returning not a moment later with a hypo in hand.
"Where have you been hiding that?" Alex asked between deep purposeful breaths.
"It's been sat in my luggage with a couple others, only just remembered I had them." Leonard jabbed the thing in the mans neck without hesitation looking down at the face he'd only seen in a couple of photos before now. "So this is your new face for a week or so huh?" Leonard offered Alex a smirk, it was uncomfortable he wouldn't lie, aiming this type of comfort towards a man was not something Leonard had ever learned to do very well before. But in his head it was still her voice, unchanged, and those eyes. It couldn't be anyone else. He couldn't just act like he didn't care, he did care it was just so far out of his comfort zone if they were playing baseball it'd be out of the park.
"Hopefully less time than that I don't want to spend an extended stay in this skin suit, it's no fun and feels nothing like what I'm used too." Alex complained with a pet lip as his breathing steadied. Hormones starting to level out to more natural levels.
"How do you somehow sound posher than usual." Leonard jibed. Trying to ease some of the tension still in the room.
"I don't know you know its very peculiar isn't it, I sound like a entitled rich kid." Alex laughed lightly in his new voice, it was strange being back in this body, the voice was obviously masculine but it had a lilt to it, and a softness at times, but the English accent was close to that of Harry's, it came across much more obviously and crisply in this body than the original. "Now if you'll excuse me I'm going to steal some of Jim's clothes, because I made the horrific decision of wearing womens underwear this morning." Alex stood abruptly grimacing and earning a laugh from Nyota which earned the woman a rather seductive brow raise with a smirk as he waved her off.
Only for Alex to come to stop outside of Jims room when he tried the handle and it was locked. Placing his head against the door he sighed.
"Use some of mine." Leonard called up feeling the sigh of defeat rather than hearing it, watching the frame of the man on the balcony offer him a thumbs up in silent thanks as he went into their room.
Nyota watched Leonard carefully as he scanned over Jim again eyes trained on the tricorder, shoulders tense and jaw clenched. "Are you alright?" Nyota stepped forward putting a hand on Leonards arm.
Leonard cocked a brow and glanced at her before looking back down at the readings on the tricorder. "I'm fine."
"You know that's not what I meant, and in case you didn't know it's written all over your face how uncomfortable you are."
Leonard frowned towards the wall in front of him then, knowing Nyota wasn't going to drop it. "Just not a situation I thought I'd ever be in. Her voice in my head is the same as always...it's just- I don't bat for the other team, Nyota, this might not end well." Leonard admitted with a frustrated sigh, it's not that he didn't adore the woman he did, he god damn loved her, but physical attraction was important and though he knew the personality was the same he didn't know if the attraction part would play out well, hell if at all with her mind in a man's body. Not that she didn't make a good looking guy or anything, because the male version of her was admittedly easy on the eyes, but Leonard was a bit uneasy about the whole thing.
"Leonard, you love her right?" Nyota said matter of factly.
"Yea." Leonard muttered as if he was being outed by the woman for actually having emotions.
"Then don't worry about it all too much. Regardless of whose batting for what team Leonard, it's only for a week or 2, you can both get through this, just remember to actually communicate a little bit sometimes." Nyota squeezed his arm reassuringly and Leonard nodded in agreement at that.
"I don't say this alot but youre right, just don't want her to get it in her head that I don't want her over these two weeks."
"Then tell her, even if it's through the link." Nyota tapped her head and gave Leonard a knowing look to which the man gently slapped her arm and rolled his eyes before breaking out into a smile.
"Bones?" A meek voice met their ears as Jim woke up blinking rapidly attempting to sit up to have Leonard put an arm on her shoulder as she did so.
"Take it slow Jim your gonna be disoriented as hell for a while, Nyota can you call Spock?" Nyota nodded as a half dressed man appeared on the bedroom balcony.
"He's awake?" Alex half shouted buttoning up the jeans he had on hastily and sprinting down the stairs with complete disregard for the need of a shirt. It was one of the only positives about being a man, being shirtless was socially accepted for the most part.
As Nyota stepped to the side Alex came to a halt beside Leonard skidding on the laminate flooring because of his socks, wearing a winning smile as he grinned at the confused face of Jim. Her dainty features pinched into a confused frown. "Hello sleeping beauty, welcome back to the circus."
"Alex? Wow, you're better looking in person wow is this really my voice?" The blonde laughed lightly as she looked down at her new feminine hands and slim arms and felt an unfamiliar weight sat directly on her chest. "I have tits." She blurted out in shock. Grabbing her chest as if to clarify while Leonard and Alex chuckled. "I'm not entirely sure how to feel about this."
"You won't be for a couple of days, Harry, Dr Harry , Alex… I cant believe you've managed to have this happen twice now." Harry walked in with two metal briefcases which he laid down on the coffee table looking at the other British man in the room with concern.
"Yea about that. How do you suppose a body would react to it happening twice, Jim passed out, Alex didn't but his hormones levels were all over the place and oxygen wasn't circulating properly for a while." Leonard cocked a brow at the older man who'd let himself in now stood between him and Alex.
"Well it's certainly not ideal, we'll have to keep an eye on you. This one however, im sorry what's your name Darling.-"
"Jim, Jim Kirk." Jim grinned and offered out her hand to shake.
"Ah, of course. Jim, you should be fine it being your first time, you will have some hormonal fluctuation of course its to be expected, but when the engineers manage to get the machines running properly again you should be able to pop out the other end of a transporter as yourself again. It is recommended you do wait atleast 2 weeks though, just to be certain there are no other issues before you go through with the switch back."
Alex put his hand out for Jim pulling her new body up and off the sofa and dragging her towards the stairs.
"Alex why are we heading to your bedroom?" Jim asked, voice clear as crystal with a crisp sharp quality that wasn't normally there with the original voice box.
"Clothes you pervert, you need clothes, stop ogling me, you're may be my type now you're a woman but your still Jim Kirk a huge pain in my ass."
"You hear that Bones! I'm her type!" Jim shouted giddily. Leonard and Alex both rolling their eyes in unison, before they disappeared through the door.
Leonard, Harry and Nyota were left stood in the room before letting themselves sit down on the sofa with exasperated sighs.
"I don't mean to be blunt but Jim isn't going to fill out one of Alex's bra's." Nyota spoke up sounding a little unsure before she started laughing alongside Leonard and the gentle chuckles of the new Doctor Harry.
"I don't think she- he, god damn this is gunna get confusing real fast. I don't think Ace is going to mind not sharing that part of her wardrobe." Leonard got out, still not certain he was using the right gender when describing the pair.
"I find it is easier to refer to them in public as the gender they currently are, in private the pronouns don't matter so much as Long as you know who you're talking about." Harry suggested with a knowing look suggesting he'd figured this out from experience. "However if you do end up going out, though most restrooms are mixed. Be sure if there is separate restrooms they try and remember to use the right one or they can get into a spot of trouble. Alex knows this from experience, she was lucky I was there to explain and had my ID on me."
"Oh god we're gunna have to to go out with them, Jim is going to make it a living hell I'm sure of it. Every tiny thing he feels is going to be breaking news." Leonard hissed through his teeth in dread as Nyota put her hand to her mouth trying not to laugh.
"I wonder how Spock is gunna react." She commented and as soon as she spoke the words the man appeared in the doorway looking like he'd ran a mile. "Spock!-"
"Jim, is he alright?"
Leonard stood awkwardly putting a hand out as if to put the dark haired Vulcan at ease. "He's fine Spock, but you should know he is now a she, for the next two weeks at least. Transporter mishap."
Spock looked positively perplexed as he stared at Leonard then looked to Nyota the same stunned look on his face. "That explains why the transporters to the lobby are shut down. Where is Jim?"
"With Alex, getting changed."
"Logical." Spock stated as he started towards the stairs the room going quiet as he knocked on the door, the door opened just enough for Alex to squeeze out of the gap and was promptly shut again.
"Jims almost done Spock she just needs a minute to get her head together." Alex offered a smile to the Vulcan who slowly and deliberately took a handful of Alexs shirt, a very obvious nostril flare and a low growl emanated from his throat as Alexs features turned stony.
"Spock, its Alex what the hell are you doing!" Leonard shouted up at Vulcan. Anger bubbling in his gut at the threat of the mans hand and how it had fisted angrily in one of Leonards shirts, a shirt now worn by Alex. Leonard felt a protective surge rush through him but before he had the chance to move Spock had been full on punched in the face.
His grip in Alex's borrowed shirt now gone as he held his jaw cracking his eyes open to see green eyes glaring at him. Green eyes he should have recognised.
Shaking where he stood he felt eyes on him but none of them could know the extent of the threat Spock had aimed at him. Spock was posturing to quite literally beat the shit out of him, no regard for who he was. Even if he hadn't realised he shouldn't be ready to kill people just from coming out of the same room as Jim.
"Don't you ever threaten me again. Where's your head at Spock?" Alex spoke lowly, a hint of dismay buried under the warning tone before he walked past the man, giving him a wide berth and heading down the stairs.
"Alex. Don't go too far, I need to run some tests."
"I'm just going to get some air, Harry. I'll be out on the balcony." The words were hollow with disappointment as Alex walked past and through the glass doors out onto the balcony settling into a sun lounger.
"What the hell Spock?" Leonard seethed from the ground floor of their suite.
"I don't know if you noticed Leonard, but it was in fact myself and not Alex that was hit." Spock replied, tone steady but tight lipped as Nyota folded her arms at the man with a very stern frown and a blatant glare as Spock flexed his jaw.
"Get off your high horse Spock, I would have swung for you too if you came at me like that grabbing someone by the collar and growling isn't exactly welcoming is it, you touch her again like that and I'll be filling you so full of Hypos you won't be able to walk." Leonard glared daggers at the Vulcan who simply quirked a brow up at the southern doctor.
"Are you threatening me Doctor?"
"Glad you could understand that commander, maybe next time you can understand not to threaten my medical staff and my god damn S O!" Leonard shouted up at Spock with venom in his tone as Nyota stepped forward putting herself in front of Leonard slightly and putting a hand out.
"Alright shouting at each other isn't going to get you anywhere, Spock stop being obtuse you know fine well what you did was wrong. Not to say what Alex did was right but i'm honestly not surprised considering you had her- him- cornered." Nyota spoke calmly, looking up at the Vulcan accusingly who just stared blankly before entering the bedroom without a word.
He was seething where he stood, jaw clenched tight as he glared at the spot Spock had been stood with daggers. "That green blooded bastard…" Leonard growled out as he turned on his heels and headed towards the balcony after Alex.
Are you okay?
Yea I'm okay, I can't believe I punched Spock, I panicked, posturing like he was going to throw me off the balcony and I just lost control
Leonard walked out onto the balcony immediately stood in front of the man he knew to be Alex, green eyes met his own and though Leonard was still uneasy he smirked, the fire in his gut still there his rage at Spock still burning but he had a need to comfort more, make sure she was alright. Still drawn to her like a moth to a flame.
"You don't know the amount of times i've wanted to clock him one in the face." Leonard commented earning him a small huff of laughter and a head shake from the blonde who sighed.
"I know you're trying to make me feel better Leonard but I've just punched our commander, I'm probably gunna lose my job not to mention my position on the ship." The man spoke in a shaky voice as he ran a hand through his hair before resting his head in his hands.
"What? Of course you're not gunna lose your job Alex Spock threatened you, you reacted in kind. Spock can be an asshole but he also knows when he's in the wrong even if he doesn't admit it at first." Leonard reassured, feeling the waves of anxiety down their link and the very real fear at being ripped away from people she'd grew to love, and from him, running rampant round her head. Leonard crouched down in front of the man and hesitantly put a hand on his knee. "Ace it's not gunna happen I promise."
"Maybe, but it was still awful and I do need to apologise, not yet but soon. Spocks a friend you're not meant to punch people you like." Alex sighed in exasperation.
"Sometimes people need a good whack though to get their shit together, really relax, you should have seen Nyota back there she really called Spock out. Plus if you're getting into trouble then so am I, I threatened to hypo him so much it'd paralyse him from the waist down…" Leonard trailed off hand falling from the man's knee as Alex looked up with disbelief and a half smirk the man pinching the bridge of his nose in frustration and stress whilst also trying to stop a smile from spreading across his face.
"The McCoy Special." Alex mumbled with a chuckle as he shook his head fondly.
"Damn straight… I'm gunna let Harry come out and scan you over I need to go back in and make sure Jim's alright, that and hold Nyota back because she seems to look even more annoyed than before." Leonard commented as he glanced back into the room seeing the woman scowling, sometimes it felt like they were all children on the playground most of the time getting along but every now and again a fight broke out and sparks always flew. "You need me, you know what to do." Leonard gave the blonde man a short smile as he pointed to his head and clasped Alex on the shoulder, still very stiff and very awkward, the tonal change and lowering of the voice not helping Leonards recognition at all but he knew it was her, and he wasn't just going to leave her high and dry no matter what body she came in. He'd be there for her the best he could.
"I do…" Alex said to nobody in particular, Leonard already back inside and Alex suddenly feeling quite lonely and empty. There was warmth to Leonards tone but it wasn't personal like she was used to, it felt half forced, and of course she could understand why, but it didn't mean it didn't sting.
Ill take the spare room tonight Ace
No, no dont be stupid i will
we can talk in the morning though yea?
of course.
Harry did come out and run some scans asking how he was very bluntly and obviously which was the man's way and something Alex was always grateful for, knowing the man's meaning was directed to more personal matters by the soft look he gave and the soft half smile he did when he knew she was hurting.
I'm fine, I'll be fine.
That's what he'd told Harry with a soft smile of his own, seeing Harry tap his data padd with a quirked brow and a pointed look before he left, just in case she was in fact , not okay. The man knew her all too well, struggle on and ask for help as a last resort. Maybe it was an English thing.
Nyota was of course livid as by the time Alex had came back in from the balcony Spock had already left again. No word of where he was going or even a glance towards Nyota but he did spare a look towards Leonard and received a set of folded arms and a hard stare in return.
Jim followed soon after coming out of the room with a sigh and walking down the stairs with a tiredness to her steps, confused at the looks of annoyance blatant on everyone's faces as a blonde brow raised in confusion, Jim looking more pointedly at Leonard who looked as though he was standing on a land mine with how stiff and rigid he was stood staring at the door.
"Alright, what's happened?" Jim asked folding her arms and looking serious as the aura of the room left a bitter taste in her mouth.
"He didn't tell you did he?" Nyota spoke putting her palm to her face with a sigh knowing exactly what Spock was like.
"I'm guessing not from how annoyed you both look-"
"I punched him in the face." Alex spoke bluntly looking defeated.
"You WHAT?!" Jim shouted frowning deep before he clocked Leonard waving his hands and cutting in.
"That's half the story, when Alex came out of the bedroom door Spock growled at him and grabbed him by the scruff of the shirt, had her backed into a corner Jim-"
"So she punched him." Nyota added with a grimace and a half shrug knowing the situation wasn't ideal.
"He what? Why!? I've been out of the room for 15 minutes at most and all hell has broken loose, Jesus Christ… no he didn't tell me anything like that." Jim sighed pinching the bridge of her nose in annoyance. "I'll talk to him."
"Jim, I am sorry, I panicked-"
Jim sighed as he looked at the clearly conflicted face of what he knew was Alex he couldn't bring himself to smile in this new body, everything still felt stretched a little tight and she was tired. "Yea I don't blame you, Spock tried to choke me to death on the bridge once when we first met, he can lose his cool and it's pretty damn scary to be honest. Just- try not to punch him in the face again, I do actually like the guy." Jim spoke with a tilt of her head and a nod at Alex with some understanding in blue eyes that had the blonde man visibly in tense ever so slightly.
"It won't happen again."
"Damn I forgot about that… asphyxiation, and not the fun kind." Leonard drawled out with raised brows and a distant look before he zoned back into the room where everyone was looking at him tight-lipped, with mirth in their eyes, before they all burst into laughter at the absurd comment.
Alex sat alone on the huge sofa in their shared penthouse room and old pre war movie playing that wasn't really getting paid any attention too at all as he lit a cigarette, turning on the active air circulation in the room so that the smoke didn't fill up the room and the smoke alarms wouldn't go off.
It was strange, all of it was just strange. Never had she had such a connection before with anyone else like she had with Leonard, but with everything that she'd had to deal with recently and now sitting around very much as a he. She couldn't help but feel alone, and she knew the man loved her, and she absolutely understood that it was difficult with her mind being in this body, this very male body. She did understand, but she couldn't understand why he couldn't just talk plainly to her about what was going on in his head. He'd spoke to Nyota, and he knew when necessary he spoke to Jim about how he felt when it came to serious matters of the heart. Was it because of the body? Surely he could talk to her through their link, she knew she still sounded the same as she used too though their link.
She didn't care about the loss of intimacy, but the complete lack of touch, the comfort she used to feel in his presence was gone… maybe it was just because he was uncomfortable, on edge, his brain knowing it was her in different skin but not understanding that it could show certain things, do certain things without it going beyond his comfort zone. His head not accepting the male body she was in, set in its ways of shoulder slaps and side jabs as that's what he did with men he was comfortable with, and it was clear he was trying. A shoulder squeeze there, an apologetic smile here. But it didn't make the loss of everything else hurt any less.
And it did hurt, it hurt like the time he looked at her and didn't recognise her, but now it was worse somehow. He recognised her when he looked and saw the mucky blonde hair and wider set jaw, he saw it was her in the same green eyes she'd always had, but he couldn't see her. And that was the problem. As lovely a man as he was, he wasn't like Jim, he couldn't show his affection to everyone regardless of gender or species, Leonards thoughts and feelings were guarded, overthought, and kept to himself, only few people had the key to unlock that door he stored them all behind and Alex had been one of those people. But right now she wasn't herself, she was in a stranger's body, and Leonard Mccoy did not trust those which he did not know.
But Alex didn't have the energy to make him know her for a second time, as his pale arms rested on his knees he took another drag from the cigarette that had burned down by half and sighed in defeat. It felt like their entire relationship was based on heartbreak and disaster sometimes.
The sofa dipped to his left and Alex did his best not to move, he could feel him, mind ablaze with jumbled thoughts down their link. Trying desperately to will his brain to see that it was Alex, his Alex, but to no avail as a wordless sigh left his mouth instead.
"Can't sleep huh?" Alex spoke softly, wincing slightly at just how different his voice was now, not a single hint of what used to be a light crisp feminine tone.
"Yea…" Leonard replied steadily, voice low as he watched the man next to him carefully. Knowing that Alex wasn't doing well but not knowing how to help, not now, not when she was a-
"Me neither… got too used to having you next to me, not that this is the voice you need to hear this in, I know it's not." He sighed out, running a hand through his hair, an old habit that always cropped up when she'd been stressed.
"Ace…" Leonard started, not knowing what to say as he sat, hunched forward wringing his hands out as he watched the colours from the screen dance across Alexs face, green eyes sad and distant in a face he would force himself to accept. "What's going on up there?" Leonard almost whispered as his eyes mapped the man's face in front of him as Alex sighed.
"I've been thinking Len, about the way lovers lean on eachother, about the physics of it, the gravity of hearts... I think it must be human instinct to find something to lean on. We all have this radar for warm solid things…" Alex took another drag from his cigarette in the still hush that had settled. "Now I'm good at being lonely, but the thing about loneliness is it makes you heavy. And when you can't lean … you fold." Alex almost whispered a tear falling as he stared off into nothingness. "There's warmth here too, I hope it's enough… and I'm sorry- that you can't lean on me like this." Alex finished, looking up at Leonard with a regretful smile.
Leonards face cracked then, seeing the pain in those green eyes, feeling his heart in his throat at the thought she couldn't go on. Not again, not another stretch of time without him because of something getting in the way like it seemed to keep doing with them both.
Leonard reached out slowly, hand under his chin as he wiped the tear away with his thumb. Seeing the Adams apple bob in his throat as green eyes looked at him like he was somehow out of reach.
I'm right here Ace.
Leonard swallowed then, taking in the face in front of him, the mans thick brows and high cheekbones, the curve of his jaw and the strong chin, the ginger stubble that was already starting to appear and those soft set eyes. His lips pink and full set in a tight line. And he held his chin firm as he leaned in, lips pressing against Alex's hesitantly as he felt the pause down there link, Leonards thoughts were incoherent until he felt the lips against his move returning a gentle pressure as Leonard felt Alex's brain all but shut down from the barrage of different emotions.
It was so very tender, Leonards hand going to the back of Alexs head as he worried the mans bottom lip between his teeth, Alex letting out and involuntary whine before both of their eyes flew open and the blonde jumped back, looking at Leonard in shock as he held a hand out towards the man. Leonard only half registering the other man's posture as he realised he didn't actually hate what had just happened, not one bit, sure there was nerves and anxiety but-
"What just happened, what are you doing!" Alex hissed out in a whisper as his chest heaved. Looking at Leonard to see the man looking somewhat stunned himself.
"I Don't know but-" if Leonards brain was a computer then someone had just burned down the server room, everything he thought he knew about himself had just been flipped on it's head. He knew Jim said they'd kissed while drunk but he'd never thought. Well. He didn't think it was something he was interested in. Ever, he'd always avoided it. Closed minded too it. Didn't know. He could always admit when another man was attractive but he'd never had thought it would translate to this- knew it didn't always mean actual attraction was there but-
"Leonard are you alright?" Alex asked putting a hand hesitantly on the mans knee as brown eyes met green.
"I never knew, Ace, it's just you, and I wasn't going to fucking lose you over something pathetic like whats between your god damn legs but-I didn't know."
"Wait, oh god Leonard im so sorry."
"Why are you apologising?"
"I feel like I forced your hand, that is not what I was trying to do. I just hated the fact you weren't acting the same around me because of the body swap."
"I wasn't acting the same because I didn't want to lead you on because I wasn't comfortable with the idea but-"
"But what? What idea?" Alex whispered urgently, clearly confused at Leonards half remarks and admittances.
"I knew it was you but I couldn't wrap my head round acting the same because you were in a different body, didn't know how to go about it, but it's just the same!" Leonard put his hands out in front of him in a quiet hissed exclamation as Alex looked back at the man with a confused squint.
"So you're not gunna act like I'd give you the plague if you leave your hand on my shoulder too long, what has suddenly clicked here you seem-"
I'm attracted to you in this body aswell you witch, I've just never thought of another man in a romantic sense before so-
"Oh, oh my god when we kissed- you. I thought you were sure you were straight!" Alex hissed bordering on hysterics like this was somehow bad news. Realising all too late that she was in fact in a man's body right now and it hadn't registered when Leonard had kissed him properly, he just felt a rush of shock shoot through him.
"I thought I was but I didn't know, I've never done anything like that while sober." Leonard put a hand to his head as if assessing himself. "Not sure how to feel about this development."
"It doesn't really change anything, Leonard, it's not a big deal."
"What, it changes everything!"
"How does it? Or are you going to leave me for a man now you've realised this."
Leonard rolled his eyes at the dramatic nature of the person he'd grew to love. "No you Diva, but you're stuck in the male version of your body for the next 2 weeks so it atleast makes things less awkward."
Alex stilled then realising everything all at once, the affection she could now openly receive, they could kiss, hug. Sleep together...Sleep together- oh no
"Well Leonard as much as I'm happy for you realising this and I'm Flattered, I mean obviously this body is still very much up to standard but, I- I don't know if I can do any of that."
Leonard frowned in concern then. "Ace we don't have to I'm just putting it out there that I wouldn't be… against the idea of… experimenting a bit."
"Leonard your enthusiasm is adorable but you don't want to rush into this because it's always a bit intimidating the first time round, and secondly I have no idea what I'm doing in this body, I've not even tried jacking off for fuck sake."
Leonard couldn't help but laugh then, standing he shook his head fondly as he put out his hand. "Will you atleast come to bed? You know I don't sleep well alone."
"Wow this really has flipped a switch for you hasn't it?" Alex commented with a thoughtful brow raise. "I thought you'd be far more hesitant if you ever had that sort of realisation."
"Now that I know, why would I be? It's not something to be embarrassed about. Besides, it's still you I'm with."
"Wish I was that relaxed when I came out. I was riddled with anxiety and guilt weirdly enough, guess I came into contact with the wrong sort of people when I was younger. It can really mess with your head."
"Wasn't anyone in your family that got you thinking like that I hope?" Leonard asked carefully as he pulled the other man off the sofa as they walked to the stairs.
"Nah, it was people at school, a couple of teachers too. My family have never been bothered about that kinda thing."
"Sorry you had to go through that Ace, you'd think people would be more open minded about that stuff now… then again I'm one to talk, never even considered it a possibility for myself until my girlfriend gets turned into my boyfriend." Leonard snorted earning a chuckle from the man behind him. "Though I still think it has to be a bit uncomfortable between two guys, I think it's the one thing that always put me off the idea."
Alex laughed then, gentle huffs of laughter as they finally found their way to their room. "Leonard it's uncomfortable for women as well, i think the whole saving grace of when its two guys is the fact they have a gland up there which just so happens to feel good. So it must make up for the initial discomfort, or so I'm told anyway." Alex shook his head with a half smile. "Plus some people prefer to give and some prefer to take so... you could just be a giver rather than taker."
"Doesn't seem fair to give it but never know what it feels like to take it."
"You're overthinking this Leonard, we're going to bed, you're not putting me to bed. Relax. Also full disclosure, i understand if this is weird and you're not comfortable i'll happily sleep on the couch for a few nights, i'm just happy you're talking to me like I'm me again." Alex admitted, his back turned to the southern doctor as he undid the dressing gown rope and shrugged it off his shoulders, catching it as it fell and putting it on the chest at the foot of the bed, turning back to Leonard eventually catching the man with his eyes on his legs.
"Get your ass into bed you soft bastard." Leonard cocked a brow and pointed at the bed with intent which made Alex roll his eyes as he slipped under the covers in nothing but the borrowed pair of boxers he was wearing. "I am sorry about that though, you know I'm slow on the uptake when it comes to addressing feelings and realising pretty obvious things it seems." Leonard sighed, slipping into bed behind the other man, shirt and shorts long since discarded as his head hit the pillow with a gentle thump. "You know one thing hasn't changed about you though Ace, in this new body of yours."
"And whats that?" Came the tired British drawl as green eyes peered over at Leonard with innocent curiosity.
"You've still got a hell of a pair of legs." Leonard raised a brow while avoiding the glare he knew he would get if he made eye contact before he was promptly thumped in the chest as he chuckled at the mumbled 'I hate you.' As Alex promptly turned to his other side with a half smile and an eye roll.
And though it was new and strange it was also comfortable and familiar. And as they usually did they found themselves tangled together during the night, but both beyond tired with the days activities didn't so much as stir till the artificial sunlight shone through their fake window making both men groan.
"Why don't these things come with curtains." Leonard grumbled face almost entirely pressed into his pillow as Alex groaned next to him, a disgruntled sound that had Leonard cracking a smirk. Still not a morning person.
"Can we turn it off permanently? There was a remote for it somewhere wasn't there?" Alex peaked one eye open propping his top half up on his elbows haphazardly as he squinted around. "Cant see it, fuck it ill suffer."
"Think it's in my bedside drawer." Leonard grumbled squeezing his eyes shut and pushing his face further into the pillow mentally determined not to give in and not move which had Alex grumbling. The blonde growling in frustration as he leaned over Leonards prone body, stretching out to lazily fish in the other man's bedside drawer, eyes half closed and in a sleepy haze as he went, eventually finding something and pressing buttons until the room was dark once again.
"Oh thank god." He groaned sinking back down with a hand over his eyes dramatically as Leonard shushed him from where he was laid. Before there was a loud knocking on their door to which both men jumped out of their skin.
A rather feminine voice piped up which they both twigged on instantly to being Jim. "Bones! Let me in, its important!"
"Jim are you actually knocking on my door for once? What the hell is wrong with you?"
"I already tried the door but it's locked. But you can put it down to me finally learning if you want can I come in, pretty please? I think Alex has- I think Alex has left..." there was obvious worry in the woman's tone as Leonard looked over at Alex rolling his eyes before standing and rolling out of bed pulling a pair of jogger bottoms on as he walked to the door.
"What makes you say that?" Leonard asked, now stood in front of the closed door, leaning against the frame lazily.
"He's not in the spare room or on the sofa downstairs. I don't know Bones just doesn't feel right there's no note or anything, I know she was having a worse time of it all with it being the second time too."
Alex rolled his eyes then gently getting out of bed and plodding towards the door himself standing to the side of the doorway leaned against the wall with a smirk in his half dressed state as he quirked a brow at Leonard then nodded for him to open the door. The woman that now embodied their captain bursting in immediately, closing the door and turning to the southern doctor on a dime in a massively oversized bathrobe, well thats what Jim and Leonard called them. Alex knew them by the correct term, a 'dressing gown.'
"Have you had an argument or something, or was it the Spock thing. I may be shorter with different bits at the moment Bones but you gotta talk to me."
Leonard looked momentarily taken aback as he crossed his arms and raised a brow. "Well I'm pretty sure we're on good terms, aren't we?" He looked up past Jim over to Alex who chuckled, arms folded against his chest with a charming smile on his face as he watched Jim turn around and jump out of her skin as she clocked the pale man stood directly behind her.
"We are."
"Jesus Christ, you could have just said you were fine instead of scaring me like that." Jim said putting a hand to her chest as she felt her heart rate sky rocket as the two shirtless men cracked up laughing at her expense. "Its very weird feeling this small next to you two, you must have grown when you went through the transporter how come I've shrunk!"
"It's not my fault it's your genetics Jim, keep it down, didn't get much sleep last night." Alex yawned casually before smirking down at the blue-eyed woman leaning forward speaking hotly into her ear. "What's Spock think of the new body?" Alex quirked a brow watching Jims cheeks heat up.
"I don't think he's all that bothered by it to be honest." Jim managed with a small sqeak.
"You sure about that Jim you're bright red." Leonard mused with a quiet chuckle.
"It's not because of that it's Alex!" Jims voice raised an octave accusingly. Both men raising a brow at each other before Alex laughed.
"Jim, you're biologically a woman at the moment certain things are gunna affect you differently than they normally would. Theres been numerous studies done that suggest women are more attracted to men with lower voices, and vice versa for men. Though my voice isn't all that deep, maybe its the accent?"
"I don't know Ace it went pretty low when you whispered in her ear about Spock. " Leonard raised an accusing brow at the British doctor who looked half shocked.
"I'm messing with you Jim, but really, there are a few things that you'll react differently too, but you're smart so I'm sure you'll be able to figure them out when they happen." Alex spoke fondly ruffling the woman's hair up playfully. "And no you can't borrow a bra, you're a couple sizes off from my size they'd offer no support, best bet is to go get measured and buy a pair."
"Will you come with me?"
Alex paused then looking at Jim then at Leonard. "Is Spock not free to go with you? I'd come with you in a heartbeat normally Jim but Spocks not adjusting so well to me being around you in this body, I don't think it'd be a good idea."
"He's already gone out, had some early morning appointment to go to or something. Can you not measure me yourself? Or can I do it myself, do you have a measuring tape?" She asked hopefully.
Alex stood up straight then brows raising before shaking his head with a laugh. "I have a tape measure, im not measuring you Jim, if I was in my normal body I would. But you can measure yourself. Ill get you the tape. Just make sure you note the measurements- hold on a second I think I have something that might work for you. Forgot to return it." Alex strolled over to the draw his underwear was in, the useless garments far too delicate for this body but he still paused looking at one of them fondly before clenching his Jaw and rummaging deeper. "Here, its just a T-shirt bra but it might do for now, heres the measuring tape aswell. I'll send the instructions to your padd. " Alex threw both things at the woman with a genuine smile as Jim shouted thanks and ran into his room.
"You could have just guessed. Handled it better than I would." Leonard commented with a smug smirk.
"And what would you have guessed Jims size would be?"
"C cup, something along those lines, he doesn't really need a bra."
"Might make him- her feel less exposed Leonard it's a new weird feeling."
"True true, so what about you, are you feeling exposed at all?"
"Nope, I have these covering my modesty so I'm good." Alex tugged on the waistband of the boxers gently so they snapped back against his skin making a satisfying slapping sound.
Leonard looked at the man quietly for a minute as he looked through Leonards drawer for a fresh pair of pants. "Whats got you anxious Ace?" Leonard asked standing near the chest to drawers watching as the blonde man refused to make eye contact.
"Nothing, why?"
"I can feel your anxiety. You sure you don't want a shower or something before getting dressed?" Leonard asked carefully, leaning against the chest of drawers as the man finally pulled out a pair of boxers but hesitated before putting then on. "You don't want to get changed in front of me do you."
Alex dipped his head and sighed, shutting the draw and placing both hands on the top of the unit as he stretched his arms out, still not making eye contact. "It's not that it's just hard to accept for me, not so much because it's a second time but… it's not what you're used to-"
Leonard grabbed the man by the waist band of his boxers and dragged him closer till they were chest to chest and he felt Alex's pulse jump and that familiar voice in his head in that melodic tone she had repeated the word 'shit' on repeat. Heat rising to the mans face as Leonard couldn't help but smirk. "I know what a dick looks like Ace I happen to have one of my own. I don't want you to be anxious on my behalf Darlin'." Leonard finished softly looking into green eyes purposefully before Alex broke the gaze, Leonard gripping the mans chin again the same way he did the night before. "You can be anxious with me but not for me, and stop thinking I'm gunna bolt and run, you're still stuck with me." Leonard drawled out lowly.
"I know… can I try something?" Alex whispered under his breath, feeling the tension but obviously nervous about diving straight in the deep end.
"Sure."
Close your eyes
"Don't, don't use the link, use your voice...please." Leonard asked faint pink flush that was hardly noticeable across his cheeks as Alex dragged his eyes over his face noticing the bobbing Adams apple and his raised heart rate as well. Leonard experiencing the same anxious excitement and tension he was.
Leaning in till he was right next to Leonards ears Alex breathed out the same words hotly against the shell of his ear. "Close your eyes."
Leonard did as he was told, waiting in anxious anticipation for whatever it was that was to come next. Feeling fingers gently caress his beard before traveling up his jaw past his ear and into his hair, the hot breath against his ear moving down to the point just below the juncture of his jaw, lips gently grazing that spot making Leonards breath hitch as he grabbed hold of square hips that had him boxed against the wall. Alexs free hand coming up and tracing a feather light line from his chin down the length of his neck till it stopped at the hollow between his collar bones and a hot wet mouth bit down into the skin on his neck and sucked.
Leonard groaned at the sensation feeling that trickle of lust start to travel south especially when the noise he made earned him a tug on his hair. Hands coming off the hips in front of him grabbing the back of the other man's head and pulling it till there lips clashed together, biting at Alexs lips possesively seemed to turn the other man into a puddle as Alex whined, suddenly boxed in by Leonard whose eyes were now open as they stared at him, panting lightly. Alex managed to offer him a sarcastic smirk with a brow raise, being a smart ass was always her way after all.
"You opened your eyes, you lose." Alex tone was Low as he poked the doctor in the chest, thinking that would be the end of it.
"Nice try, but you need to learn to relax when you're not the one in control of the situation." Leonard rumbled lowly in Alex's ear, the half Vulcan unable to stop the low groan that ripped from his throat as Leonard flicked his tongue out to graze the shell of his ear. Alex panicked slightly as he felt something stir below the belt, it's not that it felt bad, it just felt so foreign, so so different. Leonard could feel the panic through the link so did the only thing he could think of that would distract and relax at the same time, he ground their hips together, feeling Alex's own arousal against his own made him stutter. It was different but it still felt damn good, feeling the man against him stiffen before a head was on his shoulder breathing heavily.
"Leonard-" Alex choked out feeling a bit overwhelmed, emotions running rampant and this new feeling of friction against this thing. This thing she'd only had once before it all felt a bit too much at once, it felt good. So good but it was too much, the blood rushing there, the friction, feeling Leonard pressed against him like that. "Can we take a second, you're a little too good at getting me worked up, I know this is new for you too but in this body i'm a virgin-"
"Yea of course, im sorry Ace, I don't really know what I'm doing " Leonard pulled away slightly brushing some hair back behind the mans ears as he looked at green eyes in concern. "I know it'll feel strange but- does it atleast feel good?" Leonard asked worried that he'd made Alex first ever experience in a mans body dreadful by getting over zealous and going with the flow a little too easily.
"It feels good, it does. I'm just not used to having- and the sensation, theres alot of blood going places that aren't my brain, i'm used to having everything mostly on the inside, that's all." Alex stammered trying to steady out his breathing as he got used to the feeling of just being erect. Leonard shook his head internally scolding himself as he pressed a kiss into Alex's hair.
"Im sorry Ace, I didn't even think."
"Shh keep your mouth shut I'm getting used to it, it was just a bit sudden thats all. And if you're looking for any instruction all I can suggest at this point is do what you think feels good when its done to you, for future reference and such."
"Do you want to stop?" Leonard asked rubbing his hand up Alex's arm in a comforting fashion.
"Fuck no." Alex glared before pulling Leonard back into a kiss by the hair of his chin making Leonard growl into the kiss in pained pleasure, tongue in the other man's mouth as hands carded through and tugged at his hair.
"So needy." Leonard groaned into the juncture of Alex neck before sucking a love bite into the skin there hearing the man moan low, breath hitching as he ground their hips together again.
"Fuck."
The word fell from Alexs lips like a drowning man gasping for air, spurring Leonard on to finally touching the man properly. Reaching down and cupping him through his boxers. Eyes darting down in mild surprise, Alex seemingly packing equipment close to the size of his own. Not to be distracted from his task though Leonard quickly thought of things that he thought felt good and did what he could, groaning at how hard his trapped length was straining against his slacks as he peppered slow wet kisses down the other man's neck, a single finger tracing a line from base to tip, circling around the head gently, not expecting the inadvertent buck of the hips it triggered as he felt Alex panting into his ear. Throwing caution to the wind Leonard peeled the boxers over the mans cock and down, taking it in hand, slowly moving his hand up and down pumping Alex just like he would himself, or anything she'd ever done to him.
Looking up at the man who had his nails digging into Leonards shoulder and one tangled in his hair Leonard clenched his jaw to stop himself grinding against him. He knew he was attracted to this body, but seeing Alexs face like this, eyebrows furrowed in pleasure and mouth hanging open with his eyes squinted shut and head tilted back. Leonard groaned, licking his lips as he leaned forward, his cock twitching painfully as he panted into Alexs ear.
"Fuck me Ace, you always look so good just before you cum." Leonard groaned, not a second later he felt his slacks get pulled halfway down his ass and his cock spring free as a hand wrapped around his length as well and Leonard nearly choked, head snapping up to see green eyes on him through heavy lids, Hips bucking against him accidentally, brushing both their members together and making Alex pant hard as he sprant towards release. Leonard taking them both in his hand in a wild move that had Alex a whining incoherently before his head slammed back into the wall and he was coming hard, Leonard following immediately after with a guttural moan as his eyes rolled back and spurts of thick cum covered them from stomach to chest.
"Jesus Christ-" Alex commented grabbing onto the chest of drawers beside him as he felt his legs trembling. Hand coming up to run through his hair as he got his breathing under control. "Not a fan of double the mess though… I'll get us a towel." Alex spoke tone now far more at ease as he bumbled past Leonard on wobbly legs, awkwardly trying to put himself back in his boxers in a way that was comfortable. Coming back with a towel wiping himself down along the way he took a dry area and promptly got to work cleaning Leonard up as the southern doctor couldn't help but stand there and just look at him.
Alex offered a half smile as he met Leonards eyes before re focusing on the task at hand. "Whats that look for?"
"Im just thinking bout how your technically a blonde but all your other hair seems to have a ginger tint to it." The Doctor gave Alex a cheeky brow quirk before he scratched at the ginger stubble making itself known on Alexs face aswell.
Alex did one of those half smiles and bit the inside of his lip cheekily to stop himself from replying as he continued to wipe Leonard down.
"I also like the long hair." Leonard commented, fiddling with the ends of Alexs now just slightly wavy hair before Alex scoffed at him.
"You like it because you're obsessed with pulling it."
"Lies, also why are you so defined, your making me feel chunky. With the whole six pack and pecs and arms. How?"
"I don't know but you obviously don't mind that much, considering the amount I've had to clean up. Focus Darling I do actually need your help today." Alex paused after using the word 'Darling' for the first time turning to Leonard with a quirked brow. "That sounded a lot smoother and nowhere near as sarcastic as I intended it too."
"Told you you've gone full posh voice, but you can call me Darlin all you want, ain't gunna embarrass me." Leonard challenged walking past the British man and gently tapping his ass as he went to throw the towel in the wash basket making Alex jump slightly. "What do you need help with?"
"I'm giving a lecture later today, i need something smart to wear, not a suit but I honestly don't know how to dress myself for my face and body type like I normally do-"
"What times the lecture?" Leonard looked Alex up and down with a concerned frown, watching the man start to slowly get dressed as Leonard did the same finding some Jeans and throwing them on, throwing a long sleeved t-shirt Alexs way as he spoke.
"4 o'clock."
Leonard glanced at the clock in the room and nearly swore, it was just after 12. "We need to go shopping none of my formal stuff will fit right on you, neither will Jims, ill go grab you a pair of Jims jeans mine looked a bit big on you last night." Leonard promptly ran from the room in just his jeans pulling on a t shirt as he went and stopped himself from bursting into the room and instead hammered on the door. "You decent Jim? Need to borrow a pair of your jeans, need to go out-"
"Yea come on in Bones." Came the reply, Leonard opening the door to reveal Jim in nothing but a pair of jeans and a bra. Leonard pausing mid stride and face palming before shaking his head and looking past the woman at the clothes drawers.
"Jim that doesn't strictly count as decent, i'm just gunna grab these and i'll drop Nyota a text for ya to take you shopping if she can. That bra is still too big by the way. Put a shirt on!" Leonard called casually as he left the room waving to the woman who was clearly un bothered by Leonards presence simply shouting a 'thanks bones!' As the man left the room. And if Spock had a problem with the fact he'd been in there then he could take it up with him later, nothing had changed about their dynamic since the body swap and seeing someone in a bra wasn't the end of the world.
"Right put these on and i have some shoes in the cupboard- why didn't you tell me about this sooner witch?"
"I was preoccupied with having a midlife crisis Leonard then distracted by the fact you had your hand down my pants."
"Noted." Leonard said nodding with a light laugh and a head tilt.
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