A/N
We are back! First of all thank you for your reviews. They made my day. Really!
I will give your replies here….
Firstly, I was expecting to update around every weekend but if I could manage then I would update sooner.
Secondly, sorry about the class confusion. I missed the error. Sorry.
And yes, Lily was home-schooled. You know, her momma was a little protective (not as overprotective as her daddy). She would not let her baby girl out of her sight (especially when she was just five years old).
Lastly, I love Renesmee too but I wanted to Edward's daughter have his eyes and Renesmee has her mother's eyes and she is also Jacob's imprintee. I was not sure, if I was going to change that. Maybe I would, but I was not sure. I also wanted to see Edward's human eyes. So I made a little change. I hope you did not mind.
Most importantly, I still did not own Twilight. Though the plot and the OCs are mine. (since I could not have the real characters, I have to be happy with what I have. 'sigh')
Alice
A few days earlier
I was looking for idiot brother of mine's future. He was going to start collage.
Yes he was a pure idiot. It was only for him that I had to stay away from my best friend and sister for last six years. It was only for him that our family was not happy for last six years. It was only for him that no one bothers to really smile in last six years. Bella was a part of our family, without her we are incomplete. Even Rose accepted it though I know she would never accept it in front of us. The only reason I did not take any action is I know Bella is coming back in our life. In our future I could see that how happy we all are. The only way this future could be possible if Bella come back and the future is rock solid, only the time is not settled. But the only problem is I could not see Bella. It was like something is blocking my vision just like she blocked Edward's gift. I will find the answer when Bella would come back.
Though Edward was an idiot but he was still my brother and it was my duty to make sure everything would be fine in his collage.
He is sitting in a corner of the classroom with a soft smile in his face. His face is practically glowing.
I was shocked. Edward is smiling?! Edward never smiled since he leaved Bella behind. He stay away from the family for four years and when he came back be was as miserable as when he left us. And no one ever saw his smile. Not even in my visions except those distant visions.
I searched around him. And just like I suspected there was a blind spot in my vision, I can't see the teacher. Wait, there were two blind spot. What's that?
Whatever. I would think about it later.
I searched in Dartmouth's website. Edward was attending Native American History and the professor is DR. ISABELLA SWAN.
Finally.
Finally those distant visions were no more distant.
Finally, Bella is coming back. I was not going to tell Edward about this. He could find out when he would attend the class.
At first I thought I would research for her last six years but then I decided it would be more fun if we have a girl's night and Bella tells me the story when I would work with her nails or hair. Though I did not like to lose my vision but I can see my future and I can also see that it would be so much fun.
But there was still something wrong there were two blind spot in my vision and I don't understand it. I think I have to wait. Edward would find out if I think about it much.
I just wish Bella would not choose a shirt and jeans for her first day in collage as a professor.
Today, earlier
It was not hard to keep the truth from Edward. Edward was not interested in anything since he left Bella. It also helped. I came to collage earlier, everyone was suspecting something since the first time in six years I was acting weird, but it was not hard to convince them. And it does not matter what they think, they all will found out later.
I was so excited when I was waiting in the parking-lot. Though I would not meet her now. I would let Edward face her first. It would be a surprise for her too. But when Bella finally came, it was me who got surprised. In all of my weird dreams, I never expected this.
Bella is not alone; she has a little five years old girl with her. It was clear that Bella is her mother. She was there in her blush and full lips. But it was also clear that who the father is. The little one is almost a carbon copy of Edward. Almost because Bella is also there in her feature. I remember once Carlisle told me Edward's human eyes were ember green. And they are really beautiful.
Wait, how could it possible? I know what happened in Bella's birthday night but vampires could not fathered children. Right? But it was a wrong and the proof is in front of me.
WAIT. Why does it matter? My best friend is back in my life and I have a niece. A NIECE. I can't believe it! Life could not get any better!
I watched them closely. And then I noticed.
HOW DARE SHE?!
I can't believe what Bella chose for her first day. A button-up shirt and jeans. And how dare she offer my niece that kind of skirt?! Bella has no idea how much trouble she is in. Just wait until she had meet Edward already so I can meet her.
Edward
I was on my way for my class. I chose Native American History this year. Not that it matter. Nothing matter in life anymore.
My life was a living hell since I left my Angel six years ago. It was one thing to live in dark forever; but came in light, watched the beauty of the world only to go back in the dark again was worse than hell itself. But I was trying for my family, actually trying to pretend. Only if I could go back to my Angel. It was six years now, she surely had moved on. I wish I could go back in time. Then I would never let myself left her. The pain was too much to bear. But I could not go back in her life only to see now she belongs to someone else, the pain would be unbearable. And I still want her to have a normal, happy life. It would be worth the pain at the end. Because I know I won't live in a world where she does not exist.
The sent hit me when I was on my way but it did not surprise me. I knew it was nothing but my hallucination. But when I entered the class I knew it was not my hallucination.
In my hallucination, Bella was always the same eighteen years old school girl. But the Bella was standing in front of me was more mature than a school girl. Though she did not look like a twenty-four. But the maturity in her eyes was unmistakable. She wore a blue button-up shirt and black jeans, slightly more stylish than Bella used to wear but not much. Her soft brown locks were hanging loose, touching her tiny waist. Her chocolate-brown eyes seemed deeper than ever. She was a vision. In a word I fall in love with her once again.
And if she was here that means she moved on in her life and made a bright future for herself. I was so proud of her. I couldn't believe she was in front of me. I felt whole again. I was pretty aware that I was breaking my promise by standing here. But I could find it in myself to want to go anywhere else. Why would I want go anywhere else when I only feel whole when I am with my Bella. My Bella.
Before I could think something more, the other sent hit me. It was something else, close to human but not a human sent. I never smelt something like that. I searched with my extra hearing and my eyes for any danger. I won't let any danger come anywhere near my Bella.
But could not find anything but a child's mind and then I saw her.
Impossible.
How could it be possible?! Vampires can't have children! Right?!
But it seemed like they can. It was clear that this little girl is my daughter. Now I understand what was wrong in the strange sent. It was a mixture of human and vampire sent. It's unique. Just like her. Half-human, half-vampire.
I remember the night. I knew then that very soon I have to leave her. Then someday she would be someone else. Just that was enough to crumble my willpower. But I could not have my Bella in constant threat, I had to do something. Leaving seemed the most practical option for me. And then I took the decision. If I could not be her forever then I would be her first. I knew I was being selfish but I could not help myself. But I never imagined what would be the result or it was even possible.
My daughter was sitting in a chair behind the desk, focusing in her drawing. I could not see her face clearly from the side but it seemed like she had more of my feature and my hair color. Though I think she had her mother's full lips.
My daughter.
OH NO! What I did?! I didn't just leave Bella behind but I left her pregnant with my child! I left her alone when she needed me most.
I looked back to Bella. She gave birth to my daughter. I needed to be sure she was okay. She was healthy, even healthier than the last time I saw her. It seemed like the pregnancy was not that bad. I need to be sure. Where is Carlisle when you need him? I looked at my Bella's face. My Bella, who was not only my mate but also the mother of my child. My child. I was a father now. It was hard to wrap my around the concept but I like how it sounded. I would think about the complications later.
But what I saw in her eyes it scared me. I think I take her easy acceptance for granted.
Her eyes flee between me and our daughter. She was…scared and undecided.
Before I could register something else other than panic in my system, Bella spoke. "Please take a seat." She told professionally. The other students started to come. I took my seat in a corner. Bella was doing something in her laptop. She looked like a real professor. Oh! She is a real professor. I chided myself mentally.
She decided to ignore me. I deserve it. But that not mean it hurt any less or I would give up on my Bella and my daughter. I made the worst mistake of my life and I would do anything and everything to make it right. I never thought I could have a family of my own but now that I have them, I won't lose them. I know I could never make up what I did to her, she had to raise our daughter on her own for last six years but she would never be alone ever again. I won't allow it.
If I had a daughter with the love of my existence, then could it be possible that I did not lose my soul?
I looked at my Angel and my Princess. From here I could see my Princess's face. She had her mother's lips and blush with my feature. She was really perfect. But it was her eyes that stopped my breath. She had my human eyes. Beautiful wide ember green eyes. The exact shade my mother had. With her hair and eyes and feature she looked almost like my mother. Almost because she had curls, dimple and some of her mother's feature too. Though it only make her perfect. She brought me back so many of my human memories I thought I had lost forever.
Bella stand up from her chair came to stand in front of her desk. That's when I realize that all of the students already came. I was so focused on my Angel and my Princess that I did not notice them coming. There were total twenty students, including me. I had nothing to do with them. Right now I just wanted to know my Princess and spent some time with my Angel and my Princess. Then the fact hit me. I don't know my daughter's name!
Bella took a deep breath. What would not I give to read her mind for now?
"Hello class. I'm Dr. Isabella Swan. Nice to meet you all. We would start our class from beginning but at first I need to introduce with someone. This is my daughter Lily." She gesture toward my Princess, who was busy with her music and drawing. "She would stay with us during the class; I hope you have no problem." She spoke kindly.
Who would dare to reject my daughter? I quickly checked for any negative reaction. I found none. It's hard to resist my girls. I thought smugly. Everyone told their 'no,' instead they wanted to meet her.
Her eyes roamed the class and met mine. They were cold, emotionless. I have to work hard to get them back but I have zero intention to give up.
"Sure, after class?" her eyes were soft to everyone except me. Though I deserve it but it's still hurt. A lot.
What did she tell? Her name was Lily. It's not enough for me. I want to know her full name and I could not wait.
"What is her full name?" I asked, trying to control my voice. It was a hard tusk since I could hardly control my emotions.
Her eyes met mine and she was a little…hesitant. Why?
"Rose Elizabeth Cullen." She answered in a normal tone, like I was nothing special than a normal student, though I could hear the adoration in her voice for our daughter.
Rose Elizabeth Cullen. She named our daughter after my birth mother and my sister. And she chose her surname 'Cullen'. Could it be more perfect? I didn't think so. And I was glad she chose Rose as her first name. Elizabeth would be a little old. But she named my daughter after my mother.
After what I did, if she still chose to give our daughter my surname then could it be possible that I still have a chance? I just need a chance. I would never give her a chance to complain again.
"Okay class, it's our first day. So how about start with an interaction. Tell me your name and the reason why you chose this subject." She gesture to the girl in my opposite corner to start. I did not bother to listen though. But it seems Bella did a good job with her profession. And I am proud of her. I used a little of my vampire mind to concentrate when it was my turn.
"My name is Edward Cullen." with the look of her face, I know she was thinking about the irony of it. "I never study about Native American History. And I liked your paper. I wanted to learn about this." It was true. Though never in my wild imagination I suspect it was my Bella.
Bella give me the same smile that she gave the other students. My Bella had become a stronger person in last six years. Though it was working against me but I still felt very proud of her.
"Let's start the class. We are here to learn Native American History. I said 'Native American History', not 'American History'. Class I first need you to forget the history you already know. Let's start from the beginning, so we can make decisions without any kind of prejudges…." She was good teacher but right now I cared less about the history, all I cared was how to get my girls back as soon as possible.
I check in the class.
How could someone be so talented and so beautiful at the same time? It should be illegal.
Dr. Swan is really good. I never see it like that.
I think I am in love with history and history professor.
Dr. Swan's daughter is really cute. But what was I missing?
I stopped listening. There was no danger. Instead I focused on my daughter.
Unlike her mother I have no problem to read her mind. She was listening music. I was shocked by her choice. For a five years old, her music choice was really good. And her drawing – not because she is my daughter – but her drawing was really good too. She had a great taste of colors.
I also admired my Angel. As a student she was bright for a human. And now, she became a good teacher also. She knew what she was doing and she was confident about it. I remember my time in forks, then she was shy and never had seen herself clearly but when she was doing something, she had always known what she was doing. And right now, she was doing the exactly same thing but in a better way.
Before I knew it, the class was over. Too soon for my liking. I had to admit I did not hear a word Bella said. I was too busy to admire my Angel and my Princess. If Bella had asked me any question I would fail miserably since I can't read her mind.
But I have to admit I am impressed with my daughter. She knew her mother was busy and she did not want to disturb her. Bella did a good job in this department also.
Someday I would prove that I could be good father too.
Soon. Very soon.
I think Bella did not agree with me. At least about the 'soon' part.
"Sorry guys, but I have some important errands to run. Will you please excuse us? I promise you can talk with Lily next day." With that Bella started to gather her belongings.
It had nothing to do with her important errands. She just did not want to face me. I was disappointed. I was looking forward to talk to Princess. But I think it was for the best. When I would face them the class could not be there. We needed to talk free. And it could not possible with any human's presence.
Without looking back at me, Bella picked up our daughter and left the class room.
When they were leaving, my Princess looked back at me. She smelt me and saw my face. But her child's mind could not figure out what was wrong with me. She decided if there was something wrong then momma would tell her and she could always ask momma later. Instead she started to think about Aunt Kayla, how she would be happy when she would give her, her new drawing. She spent the whole morning in this one drawing and she was exited to give it to her aunty.
Now I am really disappointed. I could bear to watch my girls to walk away from me. And I was jealous with this Kayla, whoever she was. How could she beat me in my daughter's thought?
But I am not giving up. Not now, not ever.
We belong together. And I learn it after a very good dose of pain.
Bella
I was watching Edward face when it turned to confusion to reorganization to panic. His eyes shot back to mine. His sharp eyes roamed to my toe to head, relief filled his eyes. And then he was smiling, he was smiling like he just won a million dollar lottery.
And I know what he was thinking. A part was my mind was as happy as his. Maybe I could get back what I lost. Maybe my Lily could have her full family….
NO.
It could not be like that. I don't care what he was thinking. I would not let my hopes up. I have to be strong for my daughter. I could not let her hurt.
And if Edward wanted to come back in our life, it could not be that easy either. He did not just leave me, he left our daughter. He had known about it or not, it still did not lessen his fault. It was my daughter who had to suffer. My daughter who lived without her father since birth. He did not even left a picture for me to show her. And if I could do that without him for last six months then I could do it now also. And specially now when I am capable to take care of my daughter.
The decision was made Edward Cullen is nothing then my student. And I would treat him just like I did my other students.
"Please take a seat."
Yes. I could do it.
And I did exactly same. I maintained it professionally. Though sometimes it was a little harder than other times but overall I managed well. And I was proud of myself. But at the end I could not let the students meet Lily as I promised. I needed some time before I let Edward talk to Lily. I was not ready for it. So instead I told them to wait until the next time and left the class. Without looking back to him.
I was thinking about leave the campus early. I was going to call Kayla. She was the closest friend available and I know I could count on her. I was about to call her when someone knocked at the door. I looked at my baby girl. She was ready to go home and have some quality time with her momma and aunty. I already told her about my plan.
When I opened the door I did not expect my visitor but it was completely my fault, I should know better than that.
There was a bouncing Alice with a big smile in her face.
A/N
So, Edward had to work hard. I think he should. They supposed to be equal in a relationship. Edward just can't take all the decision.
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