Bella

When Edward finally left, I was feeling exhausted. I wanted nothing but give up or take some rest. But a mother can't just give up and I didn't have time for rest so I made my way to Lily. I wished Edward had never left then my life could have been so much better. That stupid idiot even did not have a fucking good reason. Nothing but some of his stupid hundred years old belief. He was a hundred years old, how could he be such a stupid?! Now he screwed up everything.

"Baby?" Suppressing a sigh I called my baby girl.

"Yes Momma?"

I took a deep breath. It's time to talk to my baby.

"Hey baby, can Momma ask you something?"

"Yeah Momma. What's that?"

"Baby, not that I'm complaining but how you found out about Daddy…Umm are you mad at Momma for not telling you first?" I did not want my daughter to misunderstand me or confused her.

But she looked confused. "No Momma, of course I'm not mad at you. But why you did not tell me Daddy is here?"

Well, I could use the opportunity make something clear with my baby girl.

"I'm sorry baby but I wanted to surprise you. You know what Daddy told you about he could not stay with us now, that he had to make something right. I know you miss your Daddy. So I thought when Daddy would have finished his job then we would meet him. And you know what the good thing would happen then, Daddy would not have to leave then like now. You could play with him too." I told her carefully. She was thinking about it.

"I'm sorry Momma. I did not think about it. And if Daddy could be here now it would be more fun." She was sad.

"Please baby, don't be sad. Momma should have known how smart her baby is, that she would find out easily. Momma forgot." I pouted. But my little drama worked, she was giggling.

"Silly Momma, of course I would find out. He is my Daddy after all." She looked so smug and she made a smug face which made her looked exactly like her Daddy. "And Momma I'm not sad. Daddy promised once he would be finished we would live together, forever." He told matter of factly. 'Forever' sound so right with Edward and Lily but I was not sure if I could trust the word anymore. Edward ruined the word for me.

I did not want to lie to my daughter so I ignored it and not like I could do this without making her feel something was wrong. My baby could read me like open book. There was something more I needed to be clear with her. Like Edward I did not want her to know it from others. And I did not trust them.

"Baby, you remember I told you about your other family?" Wishing she would remember but would not demand to meet them.

"You mean my other uncles, aunties and grandparents who lived with Daddy?" she asked curiously.

"Yes. Baby I'm not sure where they are but maybe when Daddy is done they could come here to meet you. But baby I say 'maybe', I'm not sure. You know like Daddy they were busy too." I did not want to raise her hope either.

"It's okay Momma. I know they are busy like now we are busy so we could not go and meet grandpa, grandma and my uncles, aunties. Once they would be all done they would come to meet me, won't they?" she asked hopefully. I could not find it in myself to break her heart. She was too soft for that.

"I'm sure baby when they would be done they would come." I was losing my composer. "Baby now you play and Momma will make your favorite dinner! Okay?"

"Momma I want pancake with more chocolate chips." She used her tiny hands to show how much.

"Whatever makes my baby happy. I love you baby girl."

"I love you too Momma!"

I was mad. I was mad at Edward. It was one thing to know he did not love me so he left me. But completely other thing to learn, he left me because he loved me. If someone had asked me how I would feel if I learn Edward loved me, maybe I would had answered I would be the happiest person in the world. But now I was the most angry person in the whole world.

How dare he leave me for some silly reason! He left me pregnant! I needed him! I needed his whole family! How could they leave me just because they were pure idiots?! And now they expect me to take them back?! My life could so much better if they were not behaving like the foolish idiots they were. Uff I wish I could physically hurt them for their stupid action.

If they had left they should have never came back. I was satisfied with my life if not content. No, I was happy with my family. My baby, my Dad, Jake, Kayla, Sue, my other friends from reservation.

But No. They could not be happy with that. So they came back and screwed up everything again!

I was too mad so I was forcing my anger in the poor veggies, chopping them heartlessly, when the bell rang again. Promising myself if it was anyone of the Cullen they would pay for it, I opened the door. But luckily it was Kayla.

"Close your eyes! I have a surprise for you!" She was grinning ear to ear.

"You know I hate surprise." I was in no mood for surprises. I already had enough.

"Come on Bells. I know you are going to love it." She told smugly.

Knowing I was fighting I lost battle I closed my eyes.

"Now open them!"

I opened my eyes. And I absolutely loved my surprise.

"DAD! SUE!" I rushed to hug my Dad. I did not even have a chance to pull back and hug Sue before Lily scrammed excitedly from my behind.

"GRANDPA! GRANDMA! I MISSED YOU!" she ran to give them big hug. Chuckling, I moved away from her way before she could knock me off. She had a big smile in her angelic face.

"Hello little Princess." Their smile rivaled her. They were so happy that their granddaughter was so excited for them. They both hugged her tightly to them. The picture was so cute I could not help but wish I had a camera in my hand. But Kayla had one and she did not miss the moment between grandparents and their granddaughter.

"Come Dad. Lily, come on, let them get inside. Then you can tell your grandpa, grandma everything." It looked like they have no intention to come inside.

"Come with me grandpa. Come grandma. There is so much you did not see yet. And I have so many things to tell you too. You know grandpa …." She practically pulled them with her. She could give Alice and Kayla a run for their money if she wants. She had so much energy in her little body I sometime wonder where she keeps it.

"I will make you dinner. Asked Lily where your room is and get fresh." I called after them.

"Okay Bells…. Yeah, yeah, I'm listening little Princess."

I chuckled. It was going to be like that for a while until she was sure she filled up her grandparents everything they missed. My baby was a little shy in front of outsiders but once she was sure they were hers she could be a real force of nature.

"Sue really loves her." I was startled by Kayla quiet voice behind me. She laughed. Stupid.

"Yes she is." I posed for a moment unsure if I should tell her. "She loved her like her own, from the beginning. My mother, Renee…umm…she was not thrilled by the idea of being a grandma in her age. She is younger than her age. She thought I made the same mistake like she did. But she is trying. Actually she is going to meet us this Christmas. I hope once she meet her she would know Lily was never a mistake." No matter what I could never thought my baby as a mistake. I would trend my life for her. And if I was being honest then I was not sure how good grandma she would be if she had given Lily a chance, because in our relationship I was the parent. Not that I am complaining but as a mother I want the best for my daughter.

"She never met Lily." It was not a question.

"No."

She laughed halfheartedly. "No wonder she did not love her like we did. If she had met her there was no way she could do something else other than loving her with her everything. I don't think there was any person in the world who could ignore this little diva's charm." She was right. Just one smile, it all took her for wrap someone around her little fingers. I shook my head.

"What? Just one smile, it all took her for have someone kneeling in front of her." Kayla's statement was mirroring my thought. She was proud of her niece's talent.

"I was thinking the same thing." I never meet anyone who could ignore her charm, no one have the power. It was like she was attracting them like magnet. Maybe it was her gift. After all she was half-vampire and her father was very talented. Her father…Edward.

"Bells? Bells? Down to earth Bells." She shook me. "Where are you?"

"Nothing."

"Everything is okay? How was your day?" she sound so concerned. She was concerned for her best friend and her niece.

I looked straight in her eyes for a moment. I knew I could trust her and I had to tell her. I needed someone who would understand from my perspective and would support me no matter what. I needed my best friend.

"She knew Kayla. She figured it out." I felt exhausted again.

"What?!" She whisper-scrammed, still remembering about others presence in the house. "How?!"

I told her the full story, how Edward managed to gate to Lily, everything. And like me she was mad at Andrew for being the catalyst, though it was not his fault. "…and then Edward followed me here. It was when I learnt that Lily already knew who he was. Lily opened the door and Edward was there. She called him Daddy. At first I could not believe my own ear. But I should know better. I still could not believe she already knew." I was still sad about this.

"It was your fault Bells. Who asked you to be so intelligent and perspective? She got those from you. So technically it was you false. And don't even try to deny it." She warned me before I could try. She was trying to lighten the mood. But seriously, maybe she got her perceptiveness from me but I believe she got her intelligence from her Dad.

"What's happen then? What he want now?" she angry again at Edward. Only if she knew she was trying to scaring a vampire.

"The most absurd thing in the whole world." She was confused. "He loves me, Kayla. He never stopped loving me. I was always the only one for him. He left because he thought he did not worth my love. He thought he didn't deserve me, he was unworthy. That was the only reason he had." I was mad again. The absurdity of his reason made me see red. He was a hundred years old, how could he be such an idiot?!

"You are kidding." Kayla even did not believe it. Not that I blame her. If it was not the fact that I knew how self-loathing drama-queen Edward could be I would myself have problem to digesting his reason.

"Trust me I did not know better. I would say the same thing." I sighed.

She was gaping like a fish for a few moment, not sure what to say. "What he is Bells? A drama-queen?"

"That word was made for him." I snorted.

"What are you going to do now? Please don't tell me just because he loves you, you are not going to take him back." She pleaded.

"Don't worry. I haven't changed my plan yet. He still has to prove himself." And I mean it.

"Good because I still don't trust him and after what you told I am not sure he is your worthy either." I raised my eyebrow. What she mean? "I mean if he thought so low about himself and left you because of it he could do that again. And just because somewhere you still love him and he is Lily's father that does not mean you owe him or something like that. You had a life when he was not here, you could survive without him and Lily have enough person in her life to take care of her, I know no one can take place of a father but still. You have nothing to give up, you have people who love you because of you, and you have a good job too. And you know what you are really a good mother." That's why I wanted to talk with her. She had enough courage for both of us and sometimes I really needed it.

"Thank you Kayla. I don't know if I am good mother or not but I try to be one and that's why I have to give him a chance." I remembered my baby's face when Edward was here. "She wants her father and I don't want to deny her if I could help it. She was so happy when he was here! But…."

"But?"

"But only if I could be sure he was worthy of her. Only if I could be sure he would never let her down. I am not going to allow anyone to hurt my daughter. It was only for her. Her happiness was all that matter. And I want her happiness to be permanent. If he could not prove himself then I know how to take care of my sad daughter. I would rather have her sad for a little while than heartbroken for the rest of her life. "

"That's why you are one of the best moms."

I parked my car in my regular spot in the collage parking place. I was feeling much free today. I thanked my lucky stars for having such a lovely family who cared for me that much.

After the confrontation with Kayla, I had to face Dad too after we were both sure Lily was asleep. I told him the full story too. Unlike us, after listening the full story he looked relived and worried at the same time. My best guess was the first one was for Lily and the second one was for me. Though he only voiced the second one. His exact words were 'are you sure you still want that boy? I mean he is a pure stupid. Who leave his love one because he thinks he loves her too much?' and my smart words were 'I don't want her Dad, it was all about Lily.' Over all it was not that bad. Like Kayla, Dad also encouraged to keep fighting and I was relieved to have those two person who give me courage to keep up.

After that we had a family meeting where we decided to keep Lily away from any member of Cullen family until we all are sure about it (they insisted they all have their own rights on us so they needed their approval too). Till then Dad and Sue would babysit Lily and of course Kayla would help them whenever she could. Though she told me since my Dad was here to take care of Lily her main focus would be me.

However, Lily did not even suspect a single thing when at morning Dad told her their plan for the day and asked her if she wanted to add anything extra or make any change. It was really good that he was used to it. When I was still studying for my degree whenever Dad, Sue or Jake could manage they came to babysit Lily. Even Leah also came a few times to offer free babysitting. If Lily was not used to it she could suspect something was off because Momma was acting weird.

After the family meeting I also made a decision of my own. As much I did not like the idea to face them but still I have to face the inevitable. So I have to talk to them as soon as possible. I needed to know what they wanted and what they thought about our current position. And I needed to talk to them all. If I was going to take them back then I needed to make sure they accept me as a single person, not a package deal with Edward where Edward could take all the decisions. It was the first mistake I made back then. I also wanted to know where I stood. I would have talk with all of them.

And I needed to be over the meeting as soon as possible. While Dad was here, he could take care of Lily, so there was no problem with the meeting. And what I learn after talking with my Dad, he won't have a problem with that either. I needed to make the arrangements and I planned to do it today.

Be prepare Cullen. You have to answer my every question when I would face you. And I would make sure you see my every point too.

It did not take long for my good mood to vanish. It took just a glance in my left side. Rosalie and Emmet were standing there in front of her BMW. I did not expect Rosalie to notice me but I didn't know about Emmet. Not wanting to think too much I decided to face my luck.

I ignored them when I stepped out of my car and started to walk toward my office. But to my surprise it was Rosalie who called me.

"Bella?" There was no way I could avoid them. I mean of course I could act like I did not hear them but I was too good for my own good – Kayla's words not mine.

"Yes?" I looked clearly at them for the first time. They looked exactly like they looked six years ago, perfect Cullen. But there was something off. Emmet did not look like the goofy boy he used to be, he was…concerned? Why? And Rosalie was not looking at me with the same bitterly expression. Somehow she was looking at me like….a person? She never considered me as a person before. And she also looked angry. It was not about my baby, right?

"Where is my niece?" she demanded.

How dare she use that tone with me! It was not like I owe her anything. She is MY DAUGHTER. I don't have to answer her about my daughter.

"Excuse me?" I asked rather harshly.

But unlike then her face became softer. "I did not mean to be rude. I am sorry." I could not believe my own ear. Rosalie Cullen was saying sorry to me?! But Emmet did not look surprised. "I was just hoping I could meet Lily." She continued.

Being still shocked I answered. "She is with my Dad."

"Oh. Can I meet her?" She pleaded.

That got my attention. "I'm sorry. But I already told Edward what I have to say. I don't want you anywhere near my daughter until you prove yourself." With that I turned away from them. But Emmet called me this time.

"Bella?"

I turned to see what he wanted now.

I felt like everyone was being able to read me like an open book now. He chuckled. "I don't want anything little sis. I just wanted to say hi." He gave me his special bear-hug. Oh god I missed it too!

"Hi." It was my smart answer. Come on! You could do better than that. But I was still in shock.

"Just to check, you know right, that we are not going anywhere without you or our new little one? I know Edward made a real stupid mistake though I always knew Mr. I-Knew-Everything is a real stupid and knew nothing. But I promise you little sis if he tried something stupid again I would rip him in shreds and Alice offered her help to hide the pieces in different country." He spoke seriously, then grabbed Rosalie's hand and left. "I will see you and little one later." He threw over his solder.

I stood there froze. What the hell was happening? First Rosalie acted really weird, and then Emmet spoke seriously. I mean it was not a regular event when Emmet acts serious and Rosalie spokes to you nicely. And most importantly, they were acting like nothing had happened. Like they'd never left. Like I'm going to forgive them easily. I snorted and turned around to make my way toward my office.

But I was stopped again.

Two vampires were standing in my way. Uff. This day is going to be long. Wait it was my decision. Alice must watch me to decide that I was going to talk to them. But why they were acting so strange? I expected her to call me to let me know the time and place.

"I'm sorry Bella." Jasper spoke too quietly that if I was not ready I could never hear it. He looked guilty. But I was confused.

"But why?" Why he was so guilty? And why Alice was acting doubtful? She never had any doubt before she is a psychic after all.

He looked pained. I wondered if my blood still bothered him that much. "Why? Bella you are asking me why? Bella, if I would have control myself that day, we could have save ourselves from so much pain for last few years. Our life could have been so much better. Please forgive me Bella. I…."

I stopped him before he could say anything more. "Please stop it Jasper. I forgave you for that the moment it happened. Let's not talk about it here. It's not the place. And don't even try to apologize for what Edward did. It was his decision to leave, not yours. All you could have done was to refuse to leave me like I was never a part of the family. Which I think I was never. Well, I don't want to talk about this now, especially here. So please." I spoke sternly. I was proud of myself.

"Bella, we know…"Alice started but I stopped her in mid-sentence.

"STOP." They were really getting on my nerves now. "Alice I'm a professor here. Please don't use this place to communicate with me for personal issues. I need this job, don't mess up with it. And don't you guys all tried to say sorry for Edward's fault. You guys made your own mistakes; you should have treated me like a person not like Edward's possession." They even didn't have any idea what they did wrong and they wanted me take them back. Seriously I'm questioning my decision to take them back after they realize there mistake. Did they deserve it?

I did not give them any other chance to talk again. I could not use all of my patience after them. I had to face my day yet.

The day went pretty quickly after that. Everyone asked about Lily. I felt like – 'Lily is with my Dad. He came to visit me.' – I repeated the sentence almost hundred times. They all missed Miss Lily already. But they had to wait because I was not planning to bring Lily back in collage until the Cullen problem would be solved. All of my colleagues were very supportive; they all once again offer free babysitting when my Dad would go back home. Andrew was not as bad as he used to be while he was not trying to flirt with me directly. He helped me with some of my problems since I was a new comer.

Soon it was time to face Edward again but today I vowed to ignore him as much possible. Just like other days he was the first one to come but he looked a little disappointed and pretty mad. My only guess was he followed me the whole day but I decided to ignore him like I planned. Good for him he did not try to bother me in the class. I think Alice alerted him. Though he did not bother to pay any attention in the class either. If he continued this, one day I would find a chance to caught Mr. Know-It-All off guard. Ha. That would probably be the first time for him. The class was pretty normal, minus Edward's constant staring. And I just decided to ignore him.

After the class was over and the students left it was only Edward and me and just like I vowed I was ignoring him. But Edward had other plans.

"Bella?" He called softly.

I decided to ignore him but that was not a good idea since he was determined to talk to me.

"Bella please. I know you don't want to talk here but can we at least find a place to talk then. We really need to talk Angel. Please. Please give me a chance to talk with you. Please let me explain my point. Please Angel please! I promise at the end of the day it will be your choice but please give a chance. Please!" He pleaded without even pose to take a breath.

Stupid supernatural vampire.

But he asking me what I was going to ask him earlier. A meeting. I could work with that. "Okay fine. But I would talk with your full family too. Though I would like to talk with you first. But time and place would be my choice. Call me if you are ready. We will make the arrangements." I handed him my card and did not wait for his response. But from the corner of my eyes I could see that he had a huge smile pasted in his face like he just won a huge battle.

I hope everything would go as I planned, then I could decide my next steps. I crossed my fingers mentally.

A/N

Here you have the new chapter. I hope you like it.

Our Bella is a strong woman but sometimes she could also need some help right? From my personal experience I knew sometimes we really needed the support. But now when Bella has the support, I guess she is going to beat The Cullens' ass (please don't mind the language. My mum would have my ass if she find out. ; p )

Hey! Please leave a review. I can't read mind like Edward you know. But I really want to know what you think.