Chapter 7

Four's Pov

"Okay that's enough for today" Max says Thank god I think. I really need to think. In the next few chapters I know my crush on Tris will be revealed. She may not realize I like her but Zeke and Shauna will know instantly. They are already waiting for it to come out.

"What do you guys want to do Zeke asks" "Candor or dauntless" Uriah suggests "Yeah no way" I say "Oh come on four you never join" zeke says "For a reason" I reply "what's that" Tris asks. "Wait you have seriously never heard of candor or dauntless" christina exclaims. "No" Tris says she looks so confused it's so cute.

"I look at her and say "It's strip truth or dare" Her eyes bulge "yeah no thank you." "Fine but you two are going to play it with us before we leave here." Zeke says "Yeah right good luck with that Zeke."

I know he's my best friend but there is no way I'm going to play that game. They are just going to ask me my real name or where I came from and I don't need that. Plus no one knows about the tattoos on my back except Tori.

"We can go in the training room" Marlene suggests "I forgot about the training room" Uriah says "Four can give us extra training now" I glare at him "when did I say that" "We are here anyways so you might as well" Uriah says he is trying to convince me to do it. He's been asking me to help him further his skills for a year now but I always refused.

"We'll see Uriah" He jumps up with his fists in the air "Yes it wasn't a no" "calm down Uriah in Four language that was basically a no just him trying to get you to leave him alone." Zeke laughs. I smile on the inside. He's not really wrong. But Uriah pouts like a child.

"How about me and Andrew go make you guys something to eat while you guys go check out the training room." Natlie suggests We listen to her suggestion. I think they all respect Natalie. Even though most of them haven't known her long. She's just the kind of person you know you should respect.

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We all enter the training room and start to look around. There are 3 punching bags, a sparring ring and a free workout space in the corner with various workout equipment. It's actually a fairly nice training room. They all go and test the equipment but I stay by the wall. I'll probably be in here tomorrow morning when no one else is around. So I can test it all then.

Tris stays by the wall too. She can't really use any of the stuff until some of her injuries have healed up. Primarily her ribs. I probably wouldn't let her if she tried to. I try to talk to her.

"Are you feeling okay?" I ask, looking over to her. "Yeah" "are you lying" I say laughing a little. I barely hear her but I think she whispers a "maybe" under her breath and I chuckle again. I want to keep the conversation going so I say "so christina and will" I say motioning towards them. They are over in the free workout space playing with some of the boxes.

"They really need to get together." she replies, shaking her head and coming to stand next to me by the wall. "Hopefully they will sooner rather than later now that they will be sharing a room together." "True and hopefully Zeke and Shauna wake up and realize it as well." I say leaning against the wall and folding my arms.

"What? They like each other, that makes so much sense." I laughed full out this time. "They do but neither wants to admit it. It's been like this for as long as I've known them." "They would be cute together," she says. I agree.

"Thank you for helping me today" "No problem. I don't think anyone would dare try to hurt you now though." I say laughing "at least not here" She tilts her head and I can see a little confusion in her eyes so I continue. "I think it's been made pretty clear that I'm going to help protect you so I don't think anyone would try anything." She nods and I can tell she relaxes just a little more. She knows I'll keep her safe. That makes me happy. I want her to feel safe and comfortable around me.

Just then we hear Natalie call out to us that dinner is ready and we all head out to the dining room. We all sit down and see that Natalie has made hamburgers. I am slightly surprised she never would have made this stuff in abnegation.

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After dinner we all dispersed to our rooms. Now I'm in a room alone with Tris. Just like last night. I soften a little bit and try to relax more. I can let my guard down more around Tris.

We explore the room a little bit, we hadn't had much of a chance to today. Our suitcases are stuffed with clothes and our backpacks are filled with different hygiene products and things we might need.

After that she sits down on her bed and I walk over to her. I put my hand gently to the back of her head and bring myself to her level "Are you feeling okay?" She nods her head and closes her eyes. I rub my thumb on her cheek and whisper "Good night Tris" I love you. I think "Night" she lays down and wraps the blankets around her.

I head back to my bed and just sit down. I am tired but I really don't want to sleep. I don't want to slip into my world of nightmares. I watch Tris who has already fallen asleep. I watch her chest move with her breath's and it calms me, and eventually I let the sleep take over.

Marcus stands before me with the belt wrapped around his fists. I shrink back as he says the words. "This is for your own good" My arms fly up to protect myself. It'll be fine. It'll be over in a few minutes. But the pain won't. The unwelcomed thought comes from nowhere. "How could anyone ever love you? You're worthless. Nobody would ever want you. I shrink back more as his arm goes up. Preparing myself for the pain. But it never comes.

I wake up drenched in sweat. I look over at Tris. She's still sleeping. Thank god. The Nightmare must have been one of the more silent ones. It's four in the morning. I curl into a ball and rock myself back and forth. It was just a nightmare. I'm fine.

The words are what haunt me the most. They repeat over and over in my head. "Nobody could ever love you" Eventually I just give up on trying to go back to sleep or even just calming myself down and decide to go to the training room.

I tape my hands and release all of my fury and tension on the bag. I don't know how long I have been here but I don't care. I just keep punching the bag.

I'm so lost in the movements that I don't realize anyone entered the training room. I stop when I hear whispering behind me. I turn around and realize that everyone is here just watching me "what" . I say it kind of defensively and I make sure all my guards are up.

"We were looking for you. You were the only one of us who didn't show up in the lounge room this morning." Tori says trying to analyze me and my mental state. I shrug "what time is it" "Eight in the morning" Andrew says He is also giving me that studying look I wonder if he was Erudite.

My eyes widen I didn't realize I have been here that long. "You okay" Zeke asks I just shrug "I'm fine" "How long have you been in here" He asks. I don't really want to answer but I don't see why I would hide it so I answer. "Probably since like 4:30 this morning" My answer seems to have shocked everybody.

"That long" Natalie asks she looks genuinely concerned. I just shrug. Zeke walks over "yeah, this poor punching bag" He says giving it a hug everyone else just laughs but I don't I can't afford to drop my guards right now.

"Well you guys go get ready and I'll go make breakfast" Natalie says. We all file out of the training room and head upstairs. Me and Tris enter our room and when the door is closed Tris puts a hand on my arm.

I stop dead in my tracks as the electricity from her touch flows through me. "Are you actually Ok Four" I soften and let a few of my walls come down. "I'm fine, Tris" I say looking at the floor. She nods and let's go of me. But I want her to touch me again. I shake my head and go to take a shower.

(A.N Sorry but updates are going to be less frequent on the weekdays because I have school and whatnot but i'll be updating as often as I can)