Group Therapy - Todd's Perspective"
"So what now?" Todd said as he entered the therapy room and found Sheila, Ray and Marty waiting for him.
"Why don't you tell us what happened the night of the Spring Fling from your perspective," Ray stated.
"Why? That's stupid? Reliving that night isn't going to help anyone," Todd said.
"It might, maybe if I knew what you was feeling it might help answer why," Marty said.
"You want to know about how I was feeling that night. Fine, I was angry, angry with you for rejecting me. Just another woman to leave me; my mom, Carol and now you. That anger...the beast inside me feeds on anger. He's been inside of me since my dad raped me, perhaps if I had therapy then and learned how to deal with my anger about the rape, the beast would be something that I could control."
"You don't feel like you have any control over your anger?" Ray asked.
"No, I don't. I feel like once the spark is lit then I'm going to go off like an explosion and people are going to get hurt. I failed my math exam and that was the spark that lit the fuse. Right or wrong, I blamed you for it. I hated you for distracting me so that I couldn't focus on anything other than you. I wanted revenge against you so I brought that stupid blow up doll to the party to embarrass you the way that you had embarrassed me. That was going to be the end of it, but then you criticized my performance in front of everyone and the anger continued to feed the monster until all I could see was red. I took some drugs to try to calm the beast down, but that just fed him even more. I saw Kevin take you to his room and I was jealous that you chose to be with him instead of me. When Kevin left the room then Powell, Zach and I went in there."
"Then what happened?" Ray asked.
"We know what happened?" It's why we're all here," Todd spat out.
"Yes, we know what happened, but you should say the words and take ownership for the pain that you inflicted," Ray stated.
"The beast raped Marty and ordered Zach and Powell to hurt her as well," Todd said.
"The beast or you? Whose the beast Todd?" Ray asked.
"I am," Todd whispered.
"I think that was a great first session, next week we will hear the story from Marty's perspective," Sheila stated.
"Marty, I'm sorry," Todd whispered as he grabbed her hand before she left.
"Did you really feel like you couldn't control the beast?"
"It was like I was outside of myself watching him hurt you, but honestly, I didn't try to stop him, I was just too angry and I wanted revenge at any cost."
"I understand that anger, sometimes all that I can see is red and people get hurt," Marty said and then pulled away from Todd and walked out.