I've never really thought about what I want my dream wedding to look like. I know if I had stayed with and married Edward it would have been expensive, over the top and nothing like I want. As the Cullens loved an excuse to throw a huge party and show off their money. But an over the top fancy wedding just doesn't feel like me. With Jacob, I know I want it to be simple yet beautiful, with the focus on our love.
It's not difficult to recruit Emily, Leah and Rebecca to come dress shopping with me. My mom will fly in for the wedding, but Florida is too far to come for dress shopping. There is a small wedding dress boutique on the reservation and I know I want to support her business. We made an appointment for Saturday morning. The champagne and orange juice begin flowing before I've even tried on my first dress.
I explain to Lakota, the owner, that I am looking for something simple yet elegant and that I would like ¾ length sleeves or longer. The first dress I try on is beautiful but not the one, it doesn't flatter my figure. We drink another glass of champagne and move on to the next dress. This one is also beautiful but far fancier that I am looking for, I quickly decide I don't want any gems, rhinestones or glitter on my dress.
When I try on the third dress I know it's the one. The dress is a-line and floor length with a full skirt. It has simple lace sleeves and a sweetheart neckline. I'm in love! I spin around the shop with my glass of champagne. Lakota fits me with a veil so that I can see the complete look. Happy tears rolled down my cheeks.
Just as I am celebrating finding my dress, Lakota's elderly mother comes onto the shop floor. She takes my hands.
"A pale face… but you have a good and kind heart. You have made them proud" she squeezes my hands. When she releases them I can feel that she has placed something in them.
"I'm sorry about her, she has gotten a little more eccentric as she has gotten older. Please don't take offense to her comments. I swear she means well" Lakota says, leading her mother away.
"None taken, I will take her words as compliments." I say with a smile.
I look down at my hands to reveal four miniature wooden wolf pups, they almost match my bracelet. All of them small enough to rest on their own nickel. When Lakota notices the tokens in my hands she looks surprised.
"Wolves?" she asks. "And four of them. Weird." she says but mostly to herself.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to take them from her. Please have them back." I extend my hands to her.
"No no, if she gave them to you they are yours to keep. I'm just curious why she gave those to you. She typically gives out mini wooden owls and no more than one or two. I've never seen her give out four and I've never seen her make wolves before. You must be special." She says with a smile.
I place the wooden wolves in my purse for safekeeping and pay for the dress. Lakota tells me that I can pick up my dress in six weeks.
Rebecca, Leah, Emily and I walk back towards the center of the Rez. We decided on a small cafe for lunch. Conversation flows easily between all of us, I'm thankful since they have all agreed to be my bridesmaids!
Leah and Emily have already begun planning the multiple parties they have insisted are necessary. It means that Jake and I have a lot of decisions to make.
I'm hunched over my laptop when Jacob gets home from work. We narrowed it down to 3 catering companies and two bakeries. Next week I will set up tastings. Jake picks out suits for his groomsmen and I decide on a color for the bridesmaids. I also ordered a dress for our engagement party next month. Leah has offered to host it in her backyard.
6 weeks later Emily and I go to pick up my dress after work. I tried on the dress one last time to ensure it fit perfectly. Our wedding is just 12 weeks away now. When we're leaving the shop I notice 3 wooden owls by the register. I had completely forgotten about the wooden wolves tucked safely in my purse.
I get home and tuck my dress into the back of my closet so that Jacob won't be tempted to peek at it. Then I fish around in my purse until I find the four little wolves. After admiring them again I carefully set them on top of my dresser.
The weeks leading up to the wedding fly by. I'm busy at the clinic and Jacob is busy with his job and the pack. With the immediate threat of vampires gone, Jacob and I sleep peacefully next to one another every night with no early morning patrols with the pack.
After much discussion we decided on two weeks in Europe for our honeymoon. We will fly from Seattle to London for a week and then from London to Paris, then home. We had talked about going somewhere warm and tropical but in the end we decided that we wanted somewhere we could sightsee and enjoy some history.
Our flights are booked as are the caterer, the baker, the band, the photographer and the florist. We feel fortunate that we were able to use vendors who also live on the reservation. We are in a position of privilege and being about to support native entrepreneurs is important to us.
The girls and I are visiting a local spa for my bachelorette party. Emily pulls out penis shaped bendy straws and we giggle. We drink champagne and gossip about the pack and the rez during our pedicures. After our spa treatments we sit by the indoor pool and jacuzzi while we enjoy a delicious lunch. I sit with my feet in the water, soaking up the surprisingly sunny January day. The sunlight pours through the glass ceiling and walls.
"So Bella, tell us. What are you most looking forward to when you finally tie the knot?" Rebecca asks.
"There are a lot of things I'm looking forward to, Jake and I have a complicated history. I'm looking forward to putting all of the drama behind us and building a life together. Also eventually we want to start a family, but we don't mind just practicing for now." I say with a wink.
"Oooh babies! None of the pack members have kids yet, but I've heard wolves are super fertile. You and Jake shouldn't have any problems when the time comes." Leah says.
I daydream for a moment about having a baby with Jake. I imagine him holding our child in his arms. Playing with them, teaching them about their heritage, supporting their hopes and dreams. It is a beautiful daydream. I decided at that moment to talk to Jake and make an appointment in Port Angeles to have my IUD removed.
That night we celebrated at the small party in Leah's backyard with a tent and some heat lamps. All of our friends and family are there. Charlie and I dance, I tell him it's because I want to practice the father daughter dance but it is mostly because I haven't had a chance to talk to him alone in way too long. We sway to the music and chat quietly. His eyes which have always been the most expressive part of him look happy with just a hint of sadness.
"Dad, is everything okay?" I ask.
"Of course it is Bells, I'm just sad about seeing my little girl grow up into a woman." He says, pulling me closer.
We stay like this until the song ends. I reach up on my tiptoes and give him a kiss on the cheek.
"Thanks for everything dad. I love you."
"I love you too Bells, and if you ever need anything you just let me know. Jake knows I carry a gun right?" he says, only half joking.
Now it is Jake's turn for a dance. We hold each other close, his lips brushing my ear.
"Two more weeks my dear, two more weeks until we're family," he whispers.
"Jake, speaking of family… I want to start ours sooner rather than later," I say looking up at him, hoping he feels the same way.
"I want nothing more than to start a family with you Bella. I love you and I can't wait to love a baby with you."
The last song of the night plays, Jake spins me away from him and then back into his body. Our friends and family cheer and then we all start making our way home. Leah doesn't live far from us so we came on foot. The parts of my long white dress visible under my big winter jacket glow in the moonlight, when we get close to the house Jacob scoops me into his arms.
"You mentioned starting a wolf pack of our own soon to be Dr. Black, what do you say about getting in a little practice?" he asks with a mischievous look in his eyes.
"Sounds perfect!"
With that Jacob practicality sprints back to the house. We've barely made it through the door when he plops me down onto the couch. He pulls off his button down and pulls his dark blue undershirt over his head. I scramble to match his level of undress. As I am slipping my dress over my head he comes up and undoes my bra and slides my panties down my legs.
His lips find their home between my thighs. My body lets out a noise I didn't even know I was capable of making. Just as I'm about to come undone, Jake flips me over so that I am kneeling on the couch facing away from him. He frimley grabs onto my breasts and slides his hard cock into my dripping wet pussy.
Tonight is about passion and raw desire. There is love in our movements but we are not slow and caring. His fingers pinch, twist and pull at my sensitive nipples. I cry out in pleasure as he pounds me. The pleasure is building inside of me and I know I'm about the burst. Jake's breathing grows erratic and I know that he is about to cum.
As I feel him fill me, I come undone. An orgasm shakes my whole body and I can't quite catch my breath. My legs and the couch are dripping wet. In the heat of our passion I didn't notice that Jacob made me squirt. At first I am a little embarrassed but when he notices, his eyes turn to onyx, he scoops me up again and carries me to our bedroom for round two.
The drive to Port Angeles the next morning isn't a long one but for some reason today it feels like it takes hours. I'm a little nervous but mostly excited. When I arrive I give my name to the lady behind the desk. 10 minutes later a kind nurse calls my name. I explain why I am there and change into a johnny.
"Hi Bella, I saw on your chart that you're here to have your IUD removed, is that correct?" Dr. Knox says.
"Yes, it is"
"Are we replacing it today as well?" She asks.
"Nope, just the removal today. I'm getting married in two weeks and we're getting ready to start a family." I say.
"Congratulations! You must be very excited. I do want to let you know that it will probably take 4-6 weeks for your period to come back. After that you can start tracking your fertile signs for ovulation. If your period hasn't come back in 12 weeks give me a call and we can set up another appointment."
The rest of the appointment takes less than 5 minutes. I'm back on my way to La Push before it even hits me that I could be having a baby this year.