Accoriding to my Horoscope I'm a Pisces, a fish out of water in a big ocean of endless populated plaza of stars. Some of those stars I get along with, others I don't, and thats okey I'm okey with that, but when I'm fishing from school to school of stars around me where do I belong.

The Pisces is the twelveth sign in the zodiac, the twelveth, though I come second in the year I'm still behind in the times with everyone else, I'm the happiest to just relax and take things in stride, I feel passionatly too much so to say, not just my own feelings that seep up into me but others as well, which makes me easily inpressionable to others problems also, I wouldn't say I'm selfless though others might disagree, because I know I can be pretty selfish, but when its a choice of protecting our own feelings before the other persons I would back down and make effort not to injure that others person's feelings even though sometimes I didn't want to at all.

According to "The fact that two fish (as opposed to one) represent the members of this sign also speaks to the duality of Pisces, their yin and yang sensibility. Pisces alternate between reality and non-reality in keeping with their introspective natures; their voyage between consciousness and an unconscious dream state says much about their intuitive, almost psychic natures.

For this reason, Pisces can be hard to pin down, prompting some to call them the chameleons of the zodiac. The Fish are happy to be considered hazy, since there's a certain sense of safety in that self-proclaimed netherworld."

Its funny really, that they hit the nail on the board on how I see and view the world in my vison, I wonder what I'm doing with my life, where am I going, and who will I end up as. But I also dream, I dream a reality different from my own world, weather its off a book I've read or one of my own inventions of my mind, I love to dream, I love to sleep, to imagine to explore to try different things and to let my soal travel vast distances somewhere else.

Though I made sure to always come back I love my family to much to be gone for too long, I wonder If I will ever get to go freely, to fly with out strings attached, I love my family I love my life I love to live, breath, see the trees,smell the air, taste food,and touch things that leave my fingers electrofied. I really am too much of a selfish person to give any of that up ever.

I guess I'm just wondering where I'm going to go now, I'm undecided if I should just leave or stay, study or work, paint or dream, I feel too much pressure to decide but at the same time none at all. I still want things, I still want to Fly from the nest.

But now that I'm at the edge of the branch my stomachs in nots, my palms are sweaty, I can't seem to catch my breath, and I feel if I try to fly off even once I'm ganna fall and break a wing. I'm confused, worried, undiscided, excited, happy, scared, and hopefull all rolled into one, where do I go first is really my question.

Have you ever wondered what life would be like if you where an ant?

Or what life would be like if you where any other animal in the world. I'm sure that it would be fancinating to say the least.

You would work all day to try and find food, if you weren't a pet, and once you would find that food you would have to fight for it from other preditors that wanted that food. Once you won the food and its rightfully yours you would have to treck miles apon miles back to your den with that food, just so your family could have that food.

And heres the sucker punch that scappy peice of meat that you spent all day working for and traveling to find could only feed enough of your family to state there hunger. And when there done you wait for the scraps but their are none. That makes you wonder about humanity. How all we human have to do for food is go to the store down the street.

Sure you have to pay for it and inturn you have to work to pay for that food but we humans have it pretty good off. Yea, there are starving kids in India and Africa and pretty much everywhere, but thats because they aren't allowed to work for their food. There not allowed to get a job to pay for that food. Just because some women thought that it was better that kids shouldn't work because it could kill them.

But isn't that what can happen to anyone adult at work. Sure theirs no chance in the world that some lousy accontant can get killed for filing peoples money and assets. HA! That accountant could stab himself with his pin killing him instantly, or some big guy could have a stupid idea that if he shot that accountant then all the other people in that building will just handover the money for him.

So whos to say that adults arn't in just the same amount of danger a child would be in if they worked. Or is it that adults just know more than a child could, well thats partly true. But thats only because there a child and haven't totally figured what was right and wrong wether pink socks go with bright neon green shorts. But I'm getting off topic. Humanity has it easy unlike animals.

We spend our hole lives in school to prepare us for the working world but all that does is give us a peice of paper that says u passed. But then what? Unlike animals that spend most of there lives working since birth for food, ours is handed to us till we leave our parents nest. And when we do what do have to show for. Twelve years of schooling just so we could go to work right? No.

We have to spend four to ten more years learning about that work how to do it and stuff only to find out that they already filled the position. Thats the sucker. Life I say would be better if we were animals again and it would be harsh.

We may not always get the food but our family would and then when they are older they would get the food for you. And that would be worth waiting for.

As an Auther I wonder, I dream, and I go through that torturous writer's block, continuiously trying to get back on track. I'm not really good at giving examples of how I fan over things, I like lots of movies, books, and writings.

I love recieving feedback on my works, good or bad, they push me to continue them. I don't know where I'm going to be in 3 or 4 years after writing fanfiction. I have enough trouble trying to get each stories chapters out.

If you have questions on my works, feel free to ask. I don't fallow by the book or norm so don't expect it.

"Forever we try to make it right,But together we saw the end in sight, I'm tired of fighting the good fight, If you say the word then I'll say goodbye." My favorate lyrics.

I can't do the same as everyone in fanfiction.net. But I like to believe that between all those wonderfull and great writers I can asphire to be one of them oneday.

maybe.

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Aiyaki