Song I recommend listening to while reading: I love you - Billie Eilish
Remus sat alone staring down on the stained, dusty floor. His eyes dulled and red from crying. In his hand was a bottle of Butterbeer. The dim light flickered on the white wall of the old house that was dirty. Black stains filled with color decay changed the lighting.
The house he owned was small and only fitted for one person. It was on the rougher side of the town. It has a small kitchen, in the corner was a bathroom with a broken mirror. The couch was worn out and dusty, but it was the only place he had to sleep. Moonlight shines from the small window, its light revealed a crib with a small baby inside sleeping soundly.
Shakily getting up half-drunk but still sober enough to be aware of his surroundings, he went to the baby. His rough hands with a scar running through the purlicue gently grabbed the bundle of blanket that kept the baby warm. His soft lips quivered as another set of tears ran down his face.
"I'm sorry..." he whispered, tears dripping down his face. "I'm so sorry...you're all alone now. How will I raise you? I have been wanting to give you up, but I can't. Why? Why can't I? You won't have a good life here, with me. Your...your the only thing that he and I had."
Remus held the baby tightly as a great tremor overtook him. More tears raced down his cheeks. He couldn't hold the heartbreak any longer. He felt a tightening of his throat, causing short intake of breaths. Gut-wrenching sobs tore through his chest. His mind thought of what happened and he felt so...broken.
Remus was gone on a long mission, and merlin had he missed everyone. He couldn't wait to come back to see his friends. He knew they would get through the war together like they always did. So he was surprised when he didn't see his lover or his friends waiting for him. Instead he saw someone else. Dumbledore.
"Lily and James are dead, Remus." Dumbledore stated, his eyes showing pity. The younger man with scars paled, his eyes filling up with tears. "Sirius... he was a spy. He worked for Voldemort this whole time."
Remus shook his head and laughed, that didn't sound hearty at all. "That can't be! Sirius...Sirius he wouldn't! We all were supposed to get through this together! We have a baby to take care of. You're lying! Please!" He begged as he looked at Dumbledore, with his brown eyes filled with tears and desperate pleas. "Please...tell me you're lying! Please..."
Dumbledore only shook his head, "I wouldn't lie about such things. You know this."
Remus could only stare at the ground wondering "what had gone wrong?"