But I am his mother
It´s said that the connection between a mother and her child is instantaneous. However, when Hye Jeong first held her child, she didn't feel love. She could see that her baby was pretty, with his round face and big eyes, but the warmth and fondness she was expecting never appeared. Despite the confusion, she still smiled for her husband´s sake. Because even thou she didn't feel the connection to their Uju, she did want to make his moment perfect. She could see it, the adoration for the child she created shone in her husband´s eyes. She didn't feel anything, only confusion, but it didn't matter, because she had given something that only a wife could give him, and that made it ok at that moment. She was building the family she was supposed to. And loving her baby, developing feelings for him, would happen with time. She was sure of it. It had to happen.
When Song-hwa first laid eyes on the baby, she knew she loved him with all her heart. Her best friends baby, Uju, was just a little round thing with huge intelligent eyes. And in the moment Ikjun let her hold him for the first time, she knew she was lost. She would do anything to protect him and to make him happy. He was just perfect, with his pouty lips and long lashes. He fit perfectly in her arms. His baby smell and the warmth he was giving her was unlike anything she had ever felt before. But then she realized, with heart breaking clarity, that she wouldn't be able to be an active part of his life. She loved him too much, too deeply. And Uju´s mother would suspect the feelings that she had worked so hard to hide.
How was that even possible? Loving a child that wasn't hers? That she didn't even know for more than an hour? When just the day before she was thinking that the baby would only represent the opportunity she had lost. Today, she knew she loved Uju. She just knew.