When Calls the Heart – Season 8 – A Fan Fiction by Fancyfc
When Calls the Heart
Season 8
A Fan Fiction by Fancyfc
Chapter One
I just watched as the carriage came slowly in towards Hope Valley. The thought that Nathan could be hurt or even killed was starting to cause me anxiety. It just brought me feelings of Jack. How hard it was to hear about his death. Nathan over time has become someone I admire and of course I admired him for raising his niece being a single man.
As it came closer, I could see in a distance Nathan walking and all I could think about was how relieved I was. I felt like this was how I felt when I worried about Jack coming home. My heart was racing, I could feel it pounding against my chest. The adrenaline or relief and all I could do was just run to him and hug him. I just ran and before I knew it, I slammed into his chest to hug him. So many emotions were happening, I just could not control them. More so of Jack, that is all I could think about was at that moment… Jack and how much I missed him. At the same time as much as Nathan had come to mean to me as a friend, I could not imagine being with him. Someone else has my attention and those feelings and emotions were all so different.
As I began to try and move away, now feeling embarrassed for such behavior in front of the whole town. I could see a smirk on Nathan's face looking down at me and I could tell he felt relief as I hugged him. I stood back and said "I'm so Sorry, I am so thankful your okay. I was so worried." He held my hand and said, "I'm okay and happy now that you're here."
I looked around feeling as though I just made a huge mistake based on my anxiety and all my feelings towards Jack. Everyone was staring and thinking of how I just threw myself at Nathan. The one man that mattered most at that moment after knowing that Nathan was okay, was Lucas. I could see his sadness in his eyes. As I looked right at him, he looked away and began to walk away towards the saloon. At that very moment, with all the relief that Nathan was safe, I now felt that I had just done the worse thing possible. I led Nathan on to believe there was more than a friendship and Lucas to feel that I did not have feelings towards him. I felt a sinking feeling in my stomach, thinking of how Lucas was feeling after he saw me run to Nathan. I was truly feeling awful at this very moment.
I have feelings for both men, but one just tugs my heart stings more. I had the most wonderful dinner with Lucas last night, and he made me feel so alive. I was starting to feel myself falling for him while he made me feel that the most beautiful woman in Hope Valley. He is absolutely a handsome man, any woman can see he is easy on the eyes, but best of all is that he is a perfect gentleman. He has so much depth to him, he is so caring and fun. He shows me he truly cares for me and little Jack. He puts us first before anything else and tries so hard to make me just smile. Him believing in my writing and inspiring me to write again. The only other person who believed in me this much was Jack. I truly hope I have not ruined our special moment we had the night before.
I absolutely loved Jack and would never forget him. He is always on my mind as a constant throughout my day and Little Jack is a definite reminder of him all the time. I have been so blessed to have had Jack in my life and he gave me the most beautiful gift, our child.
I am not looking for a man to replace Jack, he could never be replaced by anyone. But over time I have thought about how wonderful it would be to start opening my heart up. Letting someone in and that he be there for me and little Jack. I do not need someone to take care of me, but just to be there and make memories with me and Little Jack full of love and laughter.
During this past year, I have been allowing myself to let in a bit of romance. Nathan is a bit closed off and I do feel a pull towards him, I must admit that. He is very shy around me at times especially when I can see he is trying to let me in to his heart. He seems guarded as though he has a past where he has been hurt before. He is never opened himself up to me and I dared never to ask questions, as it would not be my place to do so. He is a single man, raising his 10-year-old niece and doing what is best for her. That alone is very admirable and makes him a man any single woman here in Hope Valley would want. He manages a very dangerous job and comes home to be there for Allie, giving her support as he is her only family. He has the experience of being a parent and knowing the responsibility of being one.
Not that Lucas is not responsible or that he cannot be a parent type of role model. I certainly do see Lucas as an exemplary fatherly role model. He very intelligent and knows a lot about the world. The one thing that I do know and that he has proven is that he always puts us first. He talks to me and listens to my opinions and expresses himself. He is very open and easy to talk to. Yes, he is an amazing friend, but to me he is beginning to be like my best friend. Someone I can confide in all my secrets and fears. I can see myself growing old with this wonderful man and hopefully having more children with.
I just had to figure out how to get away from everyone and manage a way to talk to Lucas. I cannot help but keep thinking about the hurt in his eyes. I know that my actions do not seem like I care for Lucas more, but it was the moments of my past that began haunting me and reminding me of Jack. I must somehow talk to him and make him know that the time we had last night during dinner meant a lot to me.
As I continue to back away trying to get myself back into the crowd and pull myself away from this situation, I feel a tug on my arm.
"Ummm. You have been holding back from me. What was that all about Elizabeth?" Whispering Rosemary helped me back into the crowd and I just could not say a word. I just looked at her. That is exactly what I thought everyone was thinking. "Come, lets go for a walk, maybe we can talk. You seem very flustered with all that just happened."
We began to walk and for a good while, I was just hearing Rosemary's voice talk and I had no idea all that she was saying. It was more or less along the lines of her going away with Lee to get away from a few things. "Now Elizabeth, we are quite a way away from everyone. Are you alright? What happened there?" Rosemary stopped and turned to ask me.
"I honestly don't exactly know. I just know that a ton of emotions came over me and it brought me back to the time of Jack. How scared I was about him being hurt. My worse nightmare with Jack happened and when I heard screams of someone being shot. I just dashed out thinking it was Jack! As I saw Nathan coming and I saw his red serge. I just saw Jack standing there! When I then caught my breath and realized it was Nathan, I felt like I had done the worse thing possible. I led him to believe that there was more than a friendship." I began to walk a bit quickly with Rosemary trailing behind me.
"Well, is there more than a friendship between you two?" Rosemary said all curious as she managed to catch up to me.
"I have feelings towards Nathan, but last night…" I was quickly cut off by her getting so excited as she spoke.
"I knew it! I knew it! Its Lucas, I had heard he had a very special romantic dinner by candlelight." I began to feel a little heat reach my cheeks. "Tell me, tell me everything!" Rosemary said all giddy as she took my arm and led me towards the School house.
"Well, we had dinner, but it wasn't a date, we went to celebrate my book deal. As the night went on and how he was being so romantic and saying such wonderful things, I kind of encouraged him to take the dinner on as a date."
"Oh, that Lucas. I knew there was hope between you two. I even told Lee that I saw sparks fly between you two when you look at each other." Rosemary smiles and is so excited.
"Oh Rosemary, I haven't felt this way since the time Jack surprised me with dinner at Abigail's Café and he had a romantic dinner set up for me. That was one of the many sweetest memories I have of Jack. Lucas just gave me butterflies last night. I have not felt that way since Jack. You know that no one could ever replace Jack ever, but I feel that Lucas is someone me and little Jack can be with. I can see a future with Lucas." I stopped in my tracks. "That must sound horrible. I have not forgotten Jack at all, but I feel like I need to move a bit forward and allow someone to love me and little Jack. I feel lonely at times and I just have the need to have someone there for me. I'm wanting companionship and of course love."
Rosemary takes my hands, "Oh course you deserve that! Jack would not want you and little Jack to be alone. He would want someone to take care of you both as he would have. I can tell that both men really have taken a liking to you. I do believe Lucas has been really making it known that he truly wants you in his life. Does this mean you have finally decided on the two of them?"
As she said it, I realized that my feelings were well in place and that there was no confusion between the two. Nathan is going to always be a great friend and I am always going to be there to help him with Allie. There is no denying it, Lucas is who I want to be with.
"Yes Rosemary! It does mean that I have decided but I have not made that clear to Lucas. I just hope I haven't messed things up between us after what happened just moments ago." I looked back towards the Saloon in the distance.
Rosemary turns to look at the Saloon with me. "Don't you worry. I think Lucas will understand, you just need to talk to him. You need to let your feelings out and express them. He would be a fool not to know that you are falling for him." Rosemary said letting out her famous giggle of laughter.
"Rosemary, I sure hope your right!" As you see Lucas closing the saloon door!
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