Intro chapter
He never meant for things to turn out this way. He never meant for his life to end up a pointless cycle of misery and yet it seemed no matter what he did, no matter how hard he worked nothing went his way He just wanted one day where he didn't feel like a total failure. Yes, he was head deathsythe but even so he still felt empty inside. He failed Shinigami, he failed his ex-wife Kami, but worst of all, he failed his little girl, he failed Maka. He tried so hard to be the perfect father, he tried to be both parents at the same time but, Maka resented him, she refused to let him explain believing he drove her mother away and that he was a heartless no good bastard. In school he was paired with Stein because Shinigami believed that he could help the boy but, in the end he failed. Stein drugged him and experimented on him but, he didn't tell anyone because Shinigami thought he could help reign in Stein's madness and he didn't want to disappoint the headmaster. And yet every little thing he did seemed to disappoint those he loved and cared for. He no longer had it in him to care for himself, now he focused all his time and energy on the ones he cared for. He promised himself he wouldn't fail again. His life was a constant battle against the demons in his head. The thoughts weighing him down every second of everyday but, he had to keep fighting for his daughter, her friends, Shinigami, and his only friend Stein. After Stein's experiments on him, Spirit had placed a mask on to hide his true feelings, he pretended he was fine, he lied and said he was just a deep sleeper and an idiot. He decided to trust Stein again because Stein promised him he wouldn't drug him or experiment on him again and Stein wanted to be his friend and maybe he was an idiot for trusting Stein after what happened but, Stein was the only person in the world that didn't hate his very existence, or so he thought.