Back to where we were

You. Can't. Have. Feelings. For. Him. This is something I have to remind myself of everyday since he betrayed me, since he betrayed us. I've never stopped loving him no matter how hard I tried sometimes I do think I ever will. Deep down I hope that there is still some part of the person I knew inside of him, but I know he is still the sick and twisted guy who didn't let anything get in his way, including his feelings for me. Assuming they were real. Looking back, they probably weren't, he was probably using me from the very begging. I HATE you Clancy grey.