3 weeks later...
Shikamaru
This was Temari's last weekend here. It's been a while since our last fight. Since that night things have been a little weird between the two of us. We went out a few times after that, whenever she called me I was busy and the same was when I texted. I felt like I was losing. And that was the truth, as much as I tried not to see reality, it was always here. Right in our face, printed.
Akira remained at her house. That didn't please me one bit. But then again, there wasn't much I could do. What's the difference between him at her house and them together at Suna? They end up together anyway. It doesn't make me happy. But I told Temari I wouldn't let it go to my head. In fact, she said that. "He's not you" and that reassured me. Ino told me that Gaara told her that they haven't been interacting much with each other, that Temari has been making excuses for not having lunch and dinner with them.
We knew it would be like this, we just didn't want to accept it. But time has run out. Two months have passed, and my feelings for her haven't changed one bit. Quite the contrary, they just grew up. She didn't give me a concrete answer about the request I made... About her being my girlfriend. As much as we tried I think for us, a long-distance relationship would not work. We took the time we could together. And I wouldn't force her to go through that situation.
I could only admire her. For having fallen in love with such an amazing person. I read the reports on her projects. I have no words to describe the woman Temari is. She managed to change an entire country. She brought life to Suna, even from afar. This only reinforces for me the possibility of her staying here... And I thought it was better that she didn't respond to the request. Because I know the answer wouldn't be a "no" but it wouldn't be a "yes" either.
It the last night for her here and I wanted to make it special. Just the two of us. I need help. I called Sakura and asked her to come here. She and Temari became friends and it was she who always helped me with these matters. It was still early, she answered me quickly and said that in the afternoon she would stop by.
Today was Friday. She would leave on Sunday. Tomorrow I have Shadow's last show this month. Where I will also make the announcement of the end of my career. I honestly don't want to take it any further, continue this frenzy of shows and extend it in the long run. Since I already know it's going to end one way or another. I really have more important things to worry about right now.
And to think that all this started because of the festival... All this history of ours. Damn it. I had to tell her. But I am a coward. Maybe if I tell her she won't even look me in the face anymore. I can not. This I really cannot do. I needed a smoke to relax. I canceled my appointments for today just to enjoy the day doing nothing.
I decided to text Temari. I wanted to know if she would be free today. I prayed so. I wrote these exact words "I need you tonight, my house at 8pm" . I stared at the cell phone for a while. I didn't imagine it at all, her last three days here. How quickly time passed.
Remembering this reminded me of our tree. One day I visited the greenhouse, I wrote our initials on it. She will never know that. It was funny to think that a tree would mean so much to me. I continued smoking lying on my bed for a long time. Until I got a message. "I'll do my best to be in your home today ;)". She knew how to play with my heart.
I was even thinking about what I was going to do. I was just waiting for Sakura to arrive to help me. I lost my hunger. The melancholy thoughts returned. Monday I will have a different and somewhat incomplete life. Having the carpe diem tattoo on my body has never felt as much as it does now. It felt like I knew I was destined for this.
The time has passed. Sakura warned her that she was leaving college and was coming here. I went down to get something to eat and ran into Yami. It had been a while since I saw him. I even missed our conversations in the car.
- Hey, Yami - I said, calling him - How long
- Yeah... - he laughed - After he started dating he wanted to become more independent
-Me? Dating? I wish - I laughed
- And the blonde girl? - He asked - Did he give you a foot in the ass?
- No... Still - I replied - This is her last weekend here, she's going back to Suna, she's from there
- It's... Far away - he replied scratching his head
- Don't tell me - I leaned on the bench
- If you need a shoulder to cry on, you can count on me - he winked at me
- Maybe on monday I need to - I smiled
- I need to go - he got up from where he was sitting - His parents asked me to pick them up and take them to a town there
- Alright, see you later then - I said and shook his hand
He left and left. I grabbed a beer from the fridge and went into the living room. I sat on the couch watching TV. Thinking about later and thinking about what she's doing now. She must be busy... I don't even know what to do tonight. A dinner? A walk? Should I buy her something? Yes. She can't leave without taking anything from me.
I got up running and went to change my clothes. I needed to go downtown. Find something that suits her and reminds her of me. I put on a black blouse and pants, pinned my hair and went downstairs. I received a message from Sakura that she had arrived. I hurried up and went to open the door.
- Hi! - she exclaimed as soon as I opened it
- Hi - I replied - Come in there, but be quick, I have to go out
- Where do you think you're going? - she said closing the door behind me
- I'm going downtown - I replied - I thought of... Buy something for Temari
- That's good - she smiled - Have you thought of something for later? -she asked
- Not at all - I shrugged
- Did you invite her without having any plans? - she laughed at me - Very smart, Shikamaru
- I just wanted to be with her, Sakura - I replied.
- Where are the romantics who make dinner by candlelight that we women want? - she joked
- Believe me - I thought - Temari is not that kind of woman
- You who think, my friend - Sakura stared at me - It doesn't have to be ultra-romantic, but all people like affection and attention
- Speaking of ultra-romantic, how is Naruto doing? - I asked
- Can't you see those flowers in my backpack? - she pointed to her bag - It's already the seventh bouquet he gives me, every day there's something different in my college locker
- That's good... I'm glad you guys are finally okay - I said.
- I was thinking here - she said - Has Ino talked to you?
- What? - I asked
- She found out that tomorrow is Shadow's last concert and invited everyone to go - Sakura completed and I would KILL Ino when I met her - Ino is the biggest gossip in the world, apparently he's going to take a break from his career
- Yeah right... We enjoyed so many of his shows together - talk awkwardly
- Anyway, think about what I told you - she nudged me - I used to do something with love
- Okay - I said - And thank you, Sakura - and I thanked - See you tomorrow then, do you need a ride? - I asked
- It would be great - she agreed
- So let's go - I said
We left by car and it was fast. We arrived in the center of the city. Sakura went to the Hokage building to meet Tsunade and I went on my way. I passed a few stores trying to find something that made sense. And I thought about what Sakura had said. I knew exactly what I was going to do later.
I bought the things I needed. I called Yami and said I would need her help. Finally, it was time to buy Temari a gift. I didn't know exactly what I wanted to give. A ring? No, it would be too pretentious. Any clothes? No, I suck at these things. It has to be something I know will last. Think, think, think.
When I realized myself I stopped in front of a store. I looked through the window and saw it. A beautiful golden necklace with the silhouette of a wolf on the front. There were two and they completed each other. It was perfect. I had to buy. I entered the store and was soon attended. The girl was attentive and placed the two in a beautiful little black box. I started to look forward to later.
I went home, I was shaking. A lot was going through my head at once. Between these thoughts, I remembered something. I had to call Ino. What was she thinking? I didn't want Temari there. It was supposed to be my last show. To be me. I wanted to feel the feeling of being on a stage for the last time.
call on
- Hello? - she said
- Why did you call everyone to go to the show? - I asked going straight to the point
- It's Temari's last day here, I think she deserves it - she countered
- And how am I going to be in two places at the same time? - I asked
- And does it have to be you? Put someone else in place - she complained
- But I wish it was me on my last show - I replied - I already told you to stop interfering like that in my life
- And you wanted what Shikamaru? Will you keep lying to her until when? - she yelled on the other end of the line - You love this girl, call me every night with her crying voice saying "wow, I'm going to miss her" and you're going to hide this secret from her? She deserves to know the truth! You are mistaken her!
- What's the point, Ino? She's leaving, isn't she? Does she know what difference it will make or not? - I snapped
- Be honest with her! She deserves it! - she said
- Everything I ask of you, don't mess with my fucking things anymore - I said
- So don't call me to tell them
off call
She hung up. Right in my face. Maybe Ino was right. This went too far. And Temari really deserved to know the truth. But I was scared. Afraid of her reaction. I thought to myself and decided I wouldn't tell. My career will end. She leaves. I don't need her to hate me. I don't want that from her.
I started to prepare things with Yami. Tonight was just mine and hers. The last. I had to make it special. And it would be.
Temari
It got dark fast. I ran home to get ready. I had to meet Shikamaru. It was my last weekend here. We ate lunch a few times and spent a day or two together after our fight. Nothing was fair. But we just had to get used to it. I felt bad since that day, we didn't speak for a while. And it didn't have to be that way.
Here with him, I just wanted to remember the good times. I felt so weird that I called him first to talk. And everything worked out quickly. I spoke and he listened to me. He spoke and I listened to him. I didn't like Akira's attitude that day. He said that we would talk when we arrived in Suna. Exactly not to go through this type of situation.
I got home. Gaara was in his room and I don't know where Akira was, but it was better this way. I went to take a shower and started to get ready. I put on a black skirt with my combat boots and a blouse. I put on my best lingerie. This was the last night we would make love. How I would miss him. The feel of him touching my body. Never and no one would ever make me feel like him.
I got dressed and left. I said goodbye to Gaara and told him I wasn't coming back today. I called a car to take me. I was anxious, I haven't been like this in a while. My heart was beating fast, I was nervous. Besides being late, he told me to get there at eight o'clock and it was eight forty. It doesn't matter, it wasn't like I was going to get scolded for it. The car accelerated. We arrived quickly at the entrance to the Nara mansion. How I will miss this place.
The car drove into that forest and it looked like I was going to throw up. Why was I so nervous? It wasn't a big deal, we've already done it. Often. There was no reason to be like this. When were we approaching. I saw him standing in the driveway. That lazy look of yours. That excited me. To think that I wouldn't look at that little face for a long time...
I got out of the car and he came walking towards me. He looked beautiful, and the black color suited him very well.
- You are as beautiful as the day I met you - he kissed my hand
- And you are much more romantic than when I met you - I replied
- Come on, let's go inside - he laced his fingers through mine and pulled me inside.
We went inside the house and it was out. There were only a few subtle lights on, giving the room a yellowish hue. We walked up those stairs without saying anything. Looks like he fired all the staff that night. I don't see anyone and I don't hear any noise. We walked to his room. I was smelling nice and getting closer.
He opened the door and I saw it right away. His room was filled with scented candles. It was tidy and gave off an exceptional smell. The curtains were open. That great view of the forest, the moonlight pouring into his room. He had a wine and two glasses on his counter. Nothing could be better. I couldn't ask for more.
- I thought I wouldn't show up - he smiled and poured me a glass of wine
- I'm a little late and that's what you think? - I snapped - I wouldn't waste my last night here
- Glad to hear that - he smiled, how I loved that smile
- How was your week? - I asked
- It's not the same without you - and he replied, I blushed - And it never will be
- Ino invited me to go to the last shadow show, from what she told me, he's going to take a break - I said - Will you? - I asked and I wanted him there
- Y-yes, we all will - he replied - It's your last night here, she wanted it to be something special
- And it will be... How I'll miss the staff - I said
- Know they felt it too - he winked at me
- I'll miss you too - I said smiling and drinking some of the wine
- Me too and that's not all, Temari... - he tried to speak but I interrupted him
-I know... But don't think about it now-I said putting my hand on his face-Let's enjoy the moment
- Speaking of which, I have two surprises - he said
- You know I don't like surprises - I rolled my eyes
- This will be good, trust me - he dropped the glass and covered my eyes with one of his hands and turned me around, I felt his hand on my waist
We stayed like that for a few moments. I only felt his breath. After a while he uncovered my eyes and there were lots of fireworks in the sky. All colors and behind them had thousands of stars and the moon. It reminded me of our first date. It was so beautiful and so meaningful to me. My first night in Konoha was like this and one of the last will be too.
- Temari... I have something to give you - he said taking a small black box from his pocket
- Hey, hey, hey - I said walking away - What is this? You didn't buy the Sakura idea, did you? I will not accept
- It's nothing like that - he pulled me back to him - open it and you'll see
He handed me the box and I opened it. I had no idea what was in there. But for a moment I thought he was going to ask me to marry him. I opened it slowly and took my hand to my mouth. I was surprised, and that could mean a thousand things to me. Two wolves. Golden wolves that completed each other. One necklace for me and one for him.
- You know, Temari... I've been running through the jungle, running with the wolves, to get to you - he said and hugged me, tight, I felt his voice in my ear - I've been in dark places, I've seen the dark side of the moon to reach you - he put his hand on my head
- Shikamaru... - I sighed, it was poetry and I insisted on understanding each word
- I've been looking for love in strange things and people all this time, before you, and it took me a long time to alleviate the anger at your departure - he put his forehead to mine - All for you, yes, all for you Temari - a his mouth was too close to mine - I don't want to be a lone wolf anymore
- Put it on me, the necklace - he walked away and took my half of the box - You won't be anymore
He was kind and delighted. I removed my hair to help him. Easier than I thought he managed to close it and it was absolutely beautiful on me. I would keep it forever.
- My turn - I said
He bent down a little to be my size and stopped in front of me. I put the necklace on it and it was beautiful too. They completed each other. I would never forget him. Not in my biggest dreams. That would be impossible for me.
Now with the wine in my blood and these outpourings of love, my nerves were on edge. I wanted so much to kiss him now, deep down he knew that I did, that I wanted his body against mine, everything went through my head, our last night in this room, our moments, our memories. I silenced the voices in my head as best I could, because I didn't want to think about that right now. I wanted to enjoy one of my last nights in this room. I wanted once in my life to be free and feel what it's like to live without censorship.
I kissed him tenderly. With will and fire. There was nothing I wanted more in the world than to taste his mouth. He put me on his lap and we continued kissing. His hands roamed my body, I felt his every touch. I let go of his hair, he looked so much better that way. His scent filled my nose and I wanted more. I took off my shirt as he kissed me. My face, my neck, my breasts. That inch of mine felt his mouth. I also took his shirt off, he was much better that way. It was the vision of the heavens. Glad I had a skirt on, everything would be easier this way. He led me to the bed and sat me on the edge of it.
- All right? - He asked and I nodded slowly - Good - he knelt down in front of me - You're beautiful, Temari - he praised, and I felt goose bumps - You know that, don't you? - he passed his hand on me
I couldn't answer. I couldn't believe that I will never feel this again. Which is exactly what I'm leaving behind. Tears wanted to form in my eyes, but I held my ground, I couldn't ruin this moment. This was our moment. The last. And it would have to be unforgettable. And we would make it that way. I gave myself to him, body and soul, and the reciprocal was true.
He touched my bare legs and gently kissed my thigh, before looking up at me. Shikamaru slipped his fingers under my panties and used his thumb to massage me, causing me to close my eyes. I lay down, slumping against the mattress as I gripped the sheet. My heart raced in a way I didn't know was possible, he still gave me that and he always will. We looked like two teenagers. As he removed my panties, allowing his breath to warm me. I arched my hips toward him, but he teased me slowly.
- Be patient...- he whispered, kissing the inside of my thigh, he gripped my ankles and spread my legs.
- Shikamaru... - I moaned
- We have all night... - he whispered
Then, unhurriedly, and in perfect rhythm, he slipped his lips down to the center of my pleasure, tasting my taste, sucking, plunging his tongue slowly inside me and pulling away very slowly, before plunging in again. This felt so good. He dug his fingers into me, causing me to lift my hips against him. I moaned his name and it came out like melody.
I dipped my fingers into his hair as I pushed him lower. I had never felt anything like that... Never knew fingers and tongue could create a... Argh... I gasped as he plunged his tongue even deeper and faster, moving in and out as I completely lost the sense of reality. We have entered a world entirely ours. Tonight would be worth it, even if regret came in the morning. We needed this night together, before I left.
The way he controlled every bit of my body with just his tongue... The way he kept me lying down while my legs shook... The way I lost myself and he tasted every drop of my pleasure, that was enough to make me want to stay. He moaned against my skin like he was feeling as much pleasure as I was. The more I squirmed, the more he gripped my waist tightly and the more he explored, deeper and deeper, causing me to lose control with each thrust. When he pulled away, I felt pleasure flood me.
He chuckled as my body glistened with sweat. He got up and started to unzip his jeans, taking off his pants and then his underwear. My eyes landed on the stiffness as he licked his fingers, tasting me. Without straining, he flipped me over onto my stomach, and I moaned softly as I felt him settle on top of me. I felt him close to me, he held my waist tightly and his lips moved up my back before getting very close to my ear.
- I love you - he whispered
As he entered me, pulsing deeper and deeper inside of me, I knew he had made choices that had led me to this moment. I was being the opposite of everything I spoke and preached to him. And I loved him too. It dawned on me that I loved him more than I could ever feel. Shikamaru slapped my ass, and I asked for more. I wanted him to go faster, and he granted my request. I'm ready for him and nothing could be better...
And our night didn't stop there... He turned me to him, placed me against the bed, and took me in every possible and imaginable angle. And I moaned and asked for more and more. I held the headboard for him to go deeper, giving him as much space as possible inside me. Shikamaru freed me, freed me of all my reproaches as he fucked me vigorously and whispered obscenities in my ear.
He put me on top of him. I rode him like he was all mine forever, though that was far from true. But our false reality was worth it. Those moments together helped my mind slow down so my heart could keep up. It was what it was worth.
He wasn't mine and I wasn't his, but that night we felt. I loved him and I was reciprocated. It was frightening and, at the same time, reassuring. Wrong and yet incredibly right. He managed to give me more pleasure that night than I had ever felt in my entire life. Whenever we had sex it was something different, and it was always better. But now its over.
And that was our last night together.