No. This isn't real. No. I stand clutching the letter, tears dripping down my face. I've never cried. Never. Until now. Fang. Fang left me. I really can't believe it. I mean, we've been through so much together. I don't know what to do. He was a piece of me for so long, it feels like I am in-complete.

Xavian walks in, hand shoved in his windbreaker. When he sees me crying, he goes into caring mode.

"Max, what wrong," he asks, a worried tone in his voice. I can't speak, I'm too busy choking on tears. I just hand him the letter. He scans it, his eyes growing wider at every sentence. When he finished it, things start to blow up. Literally. Things start combusting around us. When the flock rushes into the room, he just hands them the letter.

I hear Gazzy read it out, as my flock eyes grow wide. When Xavian runs out of things to combust, he just stares at the letter. He then snaps out of it, sinking to confront me.

"It's fine Max. He's just being stupid he will come back" I see Dylan kneeling, but Xavian gives him a look so sharp, he leaves the room. Xavian tilts up my head.

"Max. I'm going to go track him down. Then we can beat the shit out of him ok?" I can't say anything. I bury my face in my hands.

"Hey. Don't cry for him, he doesn't deserve your tears. The great Maximum ride never cries, especially not over a stupid boy, right?" He's right. I shouldn't be crying over a stupid boy. A boy that shattered my heart, curb-stomped it and threw it into a blender.

I can't help but cry. I can't express emotions, I can't speak. All I can do is cry. Cry a million tears, cry for so long. Xavian pulls the rest of the flock in for a hug. Bracing against each other tightly. I hear Xavian whispering

"It's ok. He'll come back. I promise" but will he?

"N-n-no more p-p-prmises. T-they are always broken" He looks at me with sad eyes. For a while, his normally impassive face has emotion flood into it. This is not normal. I've know Xavian to be less emotional than the Fa-HIM. I can't say his name without hurting. He showed less emotion the HIM, an emotionless rock. So when emotions flooded in his face, I knew that he really felt bad. Sad. Upset.

F-he was like a brother to him. He had no family, they died in front of him. He really only connected with Fang and Me. It must feel like half his family is gone. I glance at the flock. They are all crying. F-HE was like a father to them, and he had the NERVE to LEAVE.

I run out of tears to cry, or my body decides to stop crying. Either way, I stop. I try to get up, but I just fall back down. Xavian puts his emotionless mask back on again. He pickles me up and lays me in bed, where I promptly curl up into a fetus position. I don't have to feel, say or do anything. I hear some shuffling, what is no doubt Xavian picking up the kids. I hear him whisper

"Max needs to be alone." and he pushes them out. He comes back into my room a few minutes later and leaves several items and an icebox on the dresser. When I turn around I see a bunch of Ben and Jerrys and some cookies.

I also see a note. It says

Hey. You need some confront food. Ill slide food under your door for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. You did need to come out. I got this Max. You need to relax

-X

Somehow, someway I smile. At least someone cares for me. I reach out to grab a cookie but instantly retract my arm. I hurt so much to leave the ball. I pull a blanket over me and feel my shuddering movements. While I have to tears to cry. I can wail. I wail, crying without tears. I'm glad the Xavian gave us upgrades, especially soundproof walls. So no one can hear just how pathetic I am.

2 days later.

I try not to stare at the growing amount of food under my door. I can't eat, I can't sleep. It feels like part of my soul has been broken. Like I'll never be the whole again. Imagine if half your body is paralyzed. You can move it, but it hurts so much. That's how I feel. Like I'm missing half my soul.

I hear a soft knock on the door.

"Max. Your mom is here. Should I let her in?"

I groan.

"I'll take that as a yes" Xavian opens the door and my mom comes in. She comes to my bedside and sits down.

"You ok sweetie?" she finally says after a long silence. I stay silent the silence numbs me. Xavian then walks in, holding a walkie-talkie.

"I'm going to find him. I wanted to do this in front of you, so you can see the moment before we find Fang"

He puts the Walike close to his mouth and says

"Joly-omega-niner, this is Alpha-niner-striker. Start the search for a man known as Fang. He has black hair and black wings Over"

"Roger that. Capture or kill Over "

"Capture Over"

"Roger. Capture Fang Over"

He smiles at me.

"I've got an entire army in every continent looking for him. We will find him" he then walks up to my window and unfurls his wings and...Wow. They are beautiful they have so many colors, but not in a chaotic way. They all blend. He stretches them out and flies out of the house. I know we will find Fang. At least, I hope.

(A/N SO super imoirtnat question. Do you want a Xavian/Max or a Max/Fang? Review, after a week ill see what people want.)